Chapter 153
Don’t Concern Yourself With That Book
Translator: yunn/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
âOf course, nowadays, itâs not mandatory for the princessâ partner to be a templar. However, the stage where youâre going to perform on, the âLand of Sunâ, has the ability to maximise the powers of a templar. Coupled with the powers of the templar, your dance would be even more beautiful. Those are the expectations of the people of this Empire.â
I stared at the end of the desk meaninglessly for a moment without a word.
âSo what youâre saying is that this ritual is complex and it tells a story, right?â
âYes.â
It was a comprehensive performance that combined dance, singing, stage design and art as if it was a musical. Rebecca recommended a templar to be the stage director as well.
â⦠But how would I know a templar?â
There were faces that came to mind but one was Penne and the other was Granius. One was the Templar of Feathers and the other was the Templar of Strength so their powers were far from being used for decoration.
âWhy would you not? You have your brothers.â
âFleon?â
âYes. Heâs the successor to Vulcanus.â
When I asked her if she was being serious, Rebecca tilted her head with a cool expression as if she was wondering if there was a problem.
âYouâre kidding, right?â
âWhy would I joke around when weâre all so busy.â
She was serious.
The Great Temple of Vulcanus is said to have been at least partially responsible for all the ruins and famous structures in the Empire. They are known to be very wealthy with a tremendous amount of resources and connections.
âFleon is not a templar.â
âI know. But Iâm sure heâs applicable.â
In the end, it sounded like she was asking me to ask Fleonâs mother for help. That was not something she could have easily said if she knew how he felt about his maternal family.
âWell, Rebecca. I donât think I can bring that up easilyâ¦â
âWhy?â
âFirst of all, my brother doesnât like it when I talk about his maternal family⦠I think he really hates his maternal familyâ¦â
âI donât think so?â
Rebecca replied casually as if it was merely a thought she had. As I stroked the back of the book, I raised my head and blinked at her.
âHe doesnât hate them.â
She sounded strangely confident. Before I could say anything back, Rebecca smiled kindly before saying.
âThe [Primo Salvatio] is a dance performed by two people, the princess and her patronus. They would also place dancers throughout the crowds to create a more exciting atmosphere. The 7th Princeâs maternal family is considered to be the âWheel of Romeâ. They were once a family of wanderers who later settled in the Empire. Just like their ancestors, the gypsies, theyâre good at crafts, singing and dancing.â
âSo Rebecca is saying that I should ask both of them, right?â
Rebecca nodded.
âThey would do anything for you. Why wouldnât you want to use the goods and manpower you have?â
Being the clever lady-in-waiting she was, Rebecca saw through our relationship.
âMistress, you shouldnât look like youâve already given up.â
I turned to the book I had been reading before Rebecca came. It was a record of how the past princesses had decorated their stages. It was an uncomfortable read.
âRebecca, is this really true? I mean, this part. [300 years ago, Princess Lakarchia dyed the stage in gold with the help of the Templar of Gold and Riches. The gold that fell like rain that day was equivalent to the annual budget of a temple.] She must have been really popularâ¦â
âYes. Princess Lakarchia had risen to the âLand of Sunâ three more times after that. The second time, she did it with a âTemplar of Flowersâ and the third time, she did it with a âTemplar of Beauty and Loveâ. She was the most well known of all the princesses.
Sheâs the one who set the standard for the [Primo Salvatio].â
Rebecca spoke as if it was nothing much. From her expression, she looked as if she was expecting me to do the same.
âYour expectations of me are too high, Rebecca.â
She felt like a parent who believed her child, who in this case was me, was a genius.
âExcuse me, Rebecca. She had an entire consul behind her.â
The consulate was the officials of the highest status in the Empire.
âWhy did the princesses⦠go so far?â
It could be said that currently, the officials are supporting the 2nd Prince. I could only have such blockbuster-like performances if I had a background that was at least as powerful as the 2nd Princeâs.
In short, such a large performance would require a large budget. How can a performance with millions of dollars spent on it not be spectacular?
âWhy did the princesses work so hard? Isnât it obvious? So that their chances for a good marriage partner increases.â
âA marriage partner?â
âIn fact, Princess Lakarchia became the queen of a huge kingdom in the northern continent. The story of how the prince came to sightsee in the Founding Festival and had fallen in love with her at first sight only to propose to her is famous.â
After reading about the size of the performance put on by Princess Larkarchia 300 years ago, the performances put on by the other templars felt shabby. The one I pitied the most was the person who took over the performances after that princess got married. A performance without the help of a templar of a strong backing would have been disastrous.
âHold on. Whatâs this? This is impossible. There was a typhoon because of the dance?â
âAre you talking about the typhoon in Caesar?â
Rebecca glanced at the records before speaking.
âIt was a coincidence. Thatâs what they concluded. Iâm sure most of the people in the Empire still think so. When a princess does well in her performance, no one would care even if a disaster passes us by. But when she doesnât, everything becomes her fault.â
âHow can that be?â
The problem was that the quality of the princessâ performance that year determined the publicâs opinion of her.
âThatâs why this is so important.â
âHow unfairâ¦â
Though it had been reduced to pure entertainment over the 2000 years of showcases, its unfading meaning remained.
In this country, there was a superstition that the better the princess dances, the more the gods will be moved by her performance and hence bless the Empire eternally.
No, it was not a superstition but anyway.
âBut itâs strange. The records have stopped for a long time. Were there no princesses before me?â
âThere hasnât been one in a long time, right? So, everyone would be looking forward to this more than you expect.â
Rebecca stared at me before smiling coolly.
âI believe youâll do well.â
She spoke calmly and nonchalantly.
Currently, the problem was that the expectations of me were so high because of how they viewed the saintess who had danced on my behalf.
Honour or good marriage prospects, I did not need any of that. I swept my face down as if I was crying before staring at my lady-in-waiting hopelessly.
âHa, I wanted to do it without much effort.â
I mimicked her innocently savage expression that she always had.
âIs there any other way, Rebecca? Huh?â
She then smiled brightly.
âI think itâll only be right for you to ask the princes for help.â
â⦠Thatâs not a solution.â
If I had a tail, it would probably be drooping right now like a puppyâs as it whines for food.
Feelings I could not possibly express in front of Rebecca were bursting inside me.
This situation could not be easily resolved. Granius, who was the head of the 4th Administrative Office with numerous patrols under him, became my guardian to protect me from the omnipresent Castor. After getting two hits, I quickly reached the eye of the typhoon that was the nobility. No wonder the invitations extended to me had increased to enormous numbers these days.
â⦠I always thought I just needed to dance briefly before leaving the stage, no?â
I couldnât do anything about my life but it turns out that the Empireâs fortune was depending on me. I was not surprised.
âI thought I could dance casually before getting down from the stage.â
Rebecca pretended not to know me as I laid on my stomach without dignity.
âIâm happy to know that you realised how serious this is.â
No, I was just taking a step closer to looking like a grown-up child.
***
â⦠Iâm doomed.â
âI donât think thatâs something you can say so casually.â
âNo, Iâm sure of it.â
I came over to Amorâs palace to avoid Rebecca. Amor, who was leaning against the headboard of his bed, looked at me and smiled.
âYour lady-in-waiting doesnât sound too bad? Everyone goes that far.â
âThat may be true.â
What Rebecca brought back from her leave was a tremendous amount of fabric. That fabric was supposed to be made into my dress. When I asked her if there was a need for that much, she replied me coldly.
âEveryone does at least this much, mistress.â
Amor replied heartily.
âItâs funny how you tell me every single detail. Youâre not even a child.â
âHow cold.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre cold. Donât look at me like that. Iâm not wrong.â
I held my chin for a moment before making eye contact with him and smiling mischievously.
âHonestly, brother, youâve been so cruel. First, you gave me a map that led to a dead end. Then, you threatened me. And just the day before yesterday, you left me outside in the wee hours of the morning.â
Amor squinted before looking at me.
âThen, you declined my proposal.â
He crumpled his forehead. Interestingly, when Amor frowned, at the same time, the leaves rustled.
âWho left who? You almost froze to death. I already told you to stop joking around and go back.â
Then, he swept his hair back roughly with an offended expression. His complexion looked slightly brighter than the last time I saw him.
âEven though I wasnât kidding, you didnât accept it.â
âOf course, You should say something that makes sense.â
âThatâs strange. Why wouldnât you think it makes sense?â
I grabbed his sleeve and raised my head.
âStop limiting yourself. Your body is the one trapped, not your mind. I canât believe it. Youâre not as daring as I thought you were.â
I heard of the flea experiment. A flea trapped in a small bottle is limited to the bottle itâs in. It was a pity how Amor had such a bright future ahead of him but he had already given up on escaping and was trapped in frustration. After looking into his pretty eyes for a long time, I firmly spoke.
âI want you to be happy.â
Thereâs someone who can die and come back to live so whatâs the big deal? Amor did not avoid my gaze so I looked into his eyes for a long time without turning away. I brushed past his sleeve and intertwined my fingers in his. He flinched and it looked like his gaze wavered.
âHow funny.â
âWhat is?â
When our eyes met again, he burst into laughter. Then he raised his knees and wrapped his arms around them.
â⦠The fact that you looked kind of cute just now?â
That didnât seem to be the case at all though?
ââ¦. Youâre being sarcastic.â
âI was being serious.â
He threw sweet words at me with a smile. Amor spoke with his chin tilted.
âI have let go of my expectations.â
Expectations were like a battery with a maximum charge. When it is out of charge, it would need to be recharged. Thatâs what I learnt in my past life. When I had been looking for a job, I had worked hard to revive my expectations and my self-esteem that were being sliced down as much as my worth. That was why I wanted to fill Amor with what had disappeared.
âHow did it go in the novel?â
In the harem novel, which was all about the tyrantâs love and obsession for the main character, Amorâs character was like a breath of refreshing summer wind. Rusbella and Amor felt like young children playing around.
He would smile happily just by being together with her, looking at her and breathing with her. Amor in the novel felt like everyoneâs ideal of love.
But now, I know for sure. The frustratingly ungreedy part of himself was a sign of the resignation he had submitted himself to as his disappointments piled up one by one.
âIâm not expecting anything but youâre different. You make me want to have expectations.â
He murmured with a smile as he lowered his eyes. Both his expectations and his will to go on seemed to have been gone for far too long.