Chapter 14

Hey guys! So sorry it took so long to update. I have school+the whole really really long bloody chapter got deleted and ruined my life.

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Answer to the question of last chapter:

Either Chocolate or Chicken. Maybe a Chocolate filled chicken. I dunno.

Answer to the question of the authors note:

Ashton Irwin. Just Ashton flippin' Fletcher Irwin.

I love him so much it hurts my clenching heart.

Question for this chapter:

Batman or Superman? Reasons?

Its a real toughie.

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-Jesse's POV-

I was having this dream.

After having a relatively fun with Christan; roasting marshmallows and having bad attempts at smores, both of us lay under the stars, beside Valerie, and fell asleep.

The sun had peeked through my eyes, so I was half conscious, but I didn't want to wake up.

So I kept dreaming.

In my dream, Vanessa was tugging my hair into a tight, high bun. She was dressing me up for something important. I looked down and saw the white lace covering my bust, silk flowing down.

If I didn't know any better I would say I was dressing up for my own wedding.

Then Valerie skipped inside, in a light violet dress, flowers in her hand.

And in my half conscious state I thought, aren't I lucky to have a daughter like Valerie? Who I can dream about about to be my little flower girl.

So I turned on my side in reality, going to wrap my hand around her small frame. Christan shifted slightly as I moved, my body pulled close to his.

But my arm hit the plush sleeping bag. Only the sleeping bag.

I shot my eyes open, immediately sitting up. Christan groaned lightly as I did so, trying to pull me back to him lazily.

I pushed away from him, standing up and trying to find Valerie. She wasn't where she was supposed to be. There was no trace of her.

'Whats wrong?' Christan asked huskily, rubbing his eyes.

I ignored how frigging sexy he looked currently, hair tousled and shirtless.

'Valerie isn't here! She's not here!' I yelled.

I was in the process of lifting up the sleeping bags when Christan grabbed my hands, turning me to face him.

'Stop. Calm down Jay. We have to think rationally, now breathe' I paused my panic, losing myself in his eyes.

I took a deep breath, and did what he said. I calmed down.

'I think we can trace her scent. Don't shift, she wont understand anything' I said firmly, like I was in command.

He let out a small proud smile, letting go of me.

I went behind a tree so he wouldn't see me shifting, slipped off my clothes and shifted. I held my clothes in my mouth, trying not to put too much slobber on them before handing them to Christan.

He carried them with him, just in case.

We didn't have time to pack everything else up, so we just pushed it inside a little cave sort of thing, that was closed off with a bush.

Then ran.

I ran through the trees, following Valerie's faint scent. It was getting stronger fast, which meant she wasn't very far away.

Which meant she hadn't left more than 10 minutes ago.

I didnt go too fast, so Christan could still follow me, but I could feel that sense of frantic thinking rising up again.

I jumped up as I ran, doing a 360 and landing again, trying to catch any visible trace of her. Nothing.

What if something had already happened to her?

And then Christan was forgotten, and I was sprinting through the tall trees. The scent grew stronger, my head turning left to right.

I probably looked like I was a wolf with fleas.

Until I caught sight of a flash of pink. Valerie was wearing a pink striped onesie.

I halted, throwing the earths dust in my face and looking back to where I saw that pink.

There she was.

Valerie had her hand reached out in front of her. I leant a litlle to the left, and saw a relatively large dark grey, almost pitch black wolf. His eyes were like blood, pupils large.

I froze as his eyes met mine. He had a mischevious look in them, almost challenging me as Valerie drew closer to him.

The wild look at the back of his eyes told me he was

1: A rouge

2: About to kill

I snapped out of it within a second, sprinting towards him. I leaped over Valerie, pushing the wolf to the ground.

I growled loudly, threateningly, warning him that she was mine. He should not be here. That if he tried anything, I would not hesitate to kill him.

His dark eyes danced in amusement while I glared him down.

And then he was gone.

I darted off after him, but a second later I halted. I sniffed the air, but couldn't catch a single thing. The wolf had left no trace of his scent, or any trace of him behind.

Which made me think this wasn't just a simple meet and greet. There was something behind this all.

I walked back slowly, seeing Christan holding Valerie while tears flew down her cheeks.

She took a step closer, but my front paw crushed a stick beneath it, making Valerie's eyes snap up to me.

She yelped in fear, jumping on Christan and hiding her face from me.

She was afraid of me.

I went a little closer, hoping it wasn't at all true. But from the small space between the world and Christan's tear stained shirt, she clung onto him tighter, crying harder.

My heart dropped from my chest to the floor, crushed in the process.

My daughter is afraid of me. Of the monster I am.

My weak knees gave in and dropped me to the floor, and all I could see was my fur. My head was buried in my paws in shame, and I couldn't control how I felt.

Monster.

The crying slowly came to an end. I felt the presence of a hand hovering above me, then sinking into my fur.

I fought off the immediate thought of snapping my head off to growl at her, as that is my instinct when someone touches me as a wolf.

I lifted my head though, causing Valerie to launch her hand back. I stood up on all fours slowly, looking at her so I wouldn't scare her.

Its me Val, its me. I wont hurt you. I would die to protect you.

She locked her gaze with mine and slowly made her way to me. And then her tiny hand sunk into my long fur once more. Then she stroked me softly.

Her hands reached my ears and she petted me like a dog.

'Your ears are so soft Mummy' She giggled lightly.

What? How does she know its me?

'I knew you wouldn't hurt me' She wrapped her arms around my body, burying her face in my fur.

Her arms couldn't quite reach all the way around me.

Suddenly her head shot up to look behind me.

'Are you one of a wolf too Daddy?' She asked.

I looked over at Christan, who walked towards us, nodding.

'Yeah, but I'm a big wolf. Like.. one that keeps the other wolves safe' He explained.

'An Alpha?' She squealed slightly.

Wow. Twilight has taught her well.

Christan covered his surprise with a small nod.

'Cool! That must mean Mummy is your soulmate thingy right?' She exclaimed.

Christan knelt down beside me and nodded.

My ears perked up before I shook my head no.

Valerie looked confused.

Christan sunk his hand into my fur, and began stroking me as he talked to Valerie. I almost purred out loud at his touch. His hands against my body made me want to jump his bones.

But I think most of that yearning was Rae. Just saying.

'Anyway Val, what happened with that wolf?' Christan asked her.

'I was sleeping and there was something feeling soft on my cheek. And then I saw its eyes and they told me go to with it. So I followed it inside the trees and then it stopped and it had such pretty red eyes.

I was going to touch it cause it told me to cause it said it was okay to touch so I almost did when Mummy jumped out and smashed the naughty big wolf away!' She waved her arms around, grinning widely towards me.

Her explanation took me a bit to follow, considering Christan was still stroking me like it was nothing, but I finally created a scene in my head.

The small smirk on his face told me he knew the effect he had on me, which is why he was doing it.

Then he stroked me from the tip of my ears to my tail, whirling his finger round it. It sent chills through my body, an uncontrollable purr vibrating from my throat.

If I was in human form, I would be a bright, vivid red.

Even while he was talking to Valerie about Wolves, his mind was on teasing me.

I dodged to the side, away from his hand before he came to stroke me again.

"What's wrong Jess? A little jumpy are we?" His teasing tone echoed in my head.

"I uh.. just need to change! My erm.. clothes! That's it!"

The thing about mindlink, is that the communication is straight from your thoughts. Which means that when you make up lies and coverup's on the spot, they come out sounding like a cover up. Which makes your whole cover-up pointless.

Not that I could lie in speech anyway.

Christan handed me the clothes in his hands, a mischevious glint in his eye as he did.

"Asshole"

I took my clothes from him in my mouth, making sure not to get any wolf slobber or rip anything with my teeth. Its an art to learn how to keep them just in your lips. An art that took me 9 years to master.

I walked over to a large oak tree, making sure noone was around. I placed my clothes by the large tree, and shifted.

My bones bent, hair disappearing from my body other than my unshaved legs. I went from all fours to two's, and stood stark naked as my eyes saw it.

I knew immediately who had done it. There was no question about it.

Deeply carved on the tree above me in what looked like a rapid slash of claws were 4 words.

4 words that made me rush Christan and Valerie home.

4 words that made my safe place a dangerous place for my daughter.

She Will Be Mine.

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"Jesse are you going to tell me what's wrong?" Christan's voice asked in my head.

He was concerned, and probably wondering why I was tugging on his and Val's hands.

"Later. First, we need to get out of here" I pushed through another branch.

I caught sight of the house, and scurried a little faster.

I was worried as hell.

The door was unlocked, but when I turned the handle I wished it had been locked.

Maybe it might've lessened the amount of shock I felt when I opened it.

My eyes widened, as did my mothers in front of me. Theodore was beside her, who was looking at something beside me.

They were both dressed, car keys in Theodore's right hand.

I stared blankly into Mum's eyes for what seemed like the longest time, before a male cleared his throat forcibly beside her.

Theodore stepped awkwardly to the side, tugging on Mum's hand lightly so we could pass. She obliged, but never took her dark blue eyes off me.

Even Valerie could feel the tension, looking up at Christan's dad and my mum for less that a split second. Christan didn't even look at them and he led Valerie through the main corridor of the house.

I went to follow them, barely through the door when I felt a hand grip my wrist.

'Dinner is at 8. Bring Christan and Valerie' She said in a single tone, hiding any trace of emotion.

Two can play at that game.

'If you want Valerie awake and not snoring in her mash, I suggest we arrange for 7' I said with no emotion, looking straight at her with a burning gaze.

My mums eyes flickered down to the floor, letting go of my wrist.

'Okay. 7 in the dining room' She nodded.

With that, I walked straight down to the living room without looking back.

I could hear slight mumbling from behind me, before the door shut.

Loud fits of uncontrolled laughter burst out of the living room, just as I walked in.

I caught a glimpse of Valerie playing Injustice with Hannah, and it seemed as though she was using Superman to beat Catwoman to a pulp.

That's my girl.

'Jess! You have to see this!' Kaitlyn exclaimed within her laughter.

She tugged a phone off Luke's hands, and almost sprinted towards me. She threw the phone in my hands, and I luckily caught it, looking at the small lettered screenshotted tumblr post.

'I dont get it..' I trailed off, rereading it to see if it would make more sense.

It didnt make any sense.

Kaitlyn literally fell on the floor, clutching her stomach.

'Alright well.. um' I awkwardly mumbled with Kaitlyn's loud laughter.

'You can have this then Luke' I handed the phone to him.

He flashed a wide smile towards me, one that would've made any girl melt. It didn't have much affect of me though. All I could think about is how Christan gave me those sweet, wide smiles when he was happy.

'Well since Kaitlyn seems to be laughing too hard, I figure I should tell you. Kaitlyn switched colleges for the year, something about how you and Vanessa are her only actual friends cause the rest of them are just with her for popularity..' He trailed off.

Everytime he said her name, his bright blue eyes would light up. It was so cute.

I took this moment to take in his features, as I've never really talked to him before without being in a group.

He had darker than light blonde hair, styled up to what seemed like perfection with a pair of sunglasses resting in them. He had pierced his lip sometime in his life, and overall looked very punk/rock. But he also had that look of a little softie.

'What can I say? Were just that damn cool' I said cockily.

I wish I had some sunglasses to pull over my eyes for effect.

Luke burst out laughing, pulling his sunglasses out from his hair and holding them out to me.

'Here' He laughed.

Did I say that out loud?

'Yeah, you did' He laughed again.

I blushed furiously, taking the sunglasses from him.

I put them over my eyes, crossing my arms for even further.

'Stuff Vanessa. Its cause I'm just damn cool' I nodded upwards.

He started at me for the longest time, as I did him.

Before we both burst out laughing.

I tugged off the Hipster looking sunglasses, passing them back to him.

'You go to Greenwood too?' I asked, referring to our partner school.

Greenwood was right beside our school, Bridgeworth.

Like literally right beside us. If you looked out from the building closest to Greenwood, you could have a full on hand signal conversation with the class in the closest building to us.

A long time ago we used to be one massive school, before some sort of feud in the old days. The feud was apparently solved a couple of years ago, but it took too much paperwork and money to bring the schools back together. We do share the same field just outside each school's cafeteria, that almost everyone sits at.

From both schools.

Except for Ness, Jason and I. We tend to stay away the field, and go towards the front of the school, where there's a clump of trees. In winter, we sit in the music room, playing around with the instruments.

The really popular people tend to get annoying at lunch, just talking about their nails and stuff. I mean, they're nice people, but if I get powder in my face more than once a day, everyone dies.

'Yeah, almost all our pack goes there. Well.. our group at least. I'm pretty sure the Luna already told the Alpha that you three wouldn't like the idea of changing schools' Luke said.

Its not odd for my mum to be called Luna. I'm used to it. She's been Luna for as long as I can remember.

A Luna is the female leader of the pack. She's usually the Alpha's mate and/or wife.

'Yeah that's true.. I'd hate to-'

'Hey Jess? Could you help me with something here?' Christan yelled from across the room, interrupting my sentence.

I snapped my eyes up to him. He didn't look like he needed any help.

He doesn't. He just doesn't want me talking to Luke. Jealousy problems on his part.

'With what?' I yelled back.

'Uhhhh... its just.. you have to come here.. its better if I explain it here!'

Using the word "Here" twice. With pauses.

'Sorry, he's lying. This has been nice Luke' I smiled at him.

'Yes it has. See ya round Jess' He smiled.

I can see us being good friends in the future.

I walked straight up to Christan, putting my hand on my hips.

He looked up at me, smiling nervously.

I raised an eyebrow, tapping my foot in impatience.

I held my laughter in at his guilty face.

'I uh.. wanted to erm.. know your fa..cebook..?' He mumbled as more of a question.

'What if I dont want you to know?'

The small peak of a smile itching the corner of my lips must've shown through my facade, because Christan's worried look softened.

'Do you know how popular you'll get if you friend me?' He asked cockily.

I gave up my act, plopping down on the couch beside him.

'That was a horrid cover-up, and yes, I do know which is why I dont want to friend you' I said, not wanting to fall under the category with the popular group of my school.

There's the thing about makeup in my face only once a day; which isn't possible around the populars, and the fact that jocks are boring and always being flirted with.

'Oh come on! I'm not even a Jock! All I play is soccer!' He said in light protest.

'Soccer is the main sport of both our schools!' I exclaimed.

'Alright fine, but I don't even hang out with the Jock guys!'

I raised an eyebrow in disbelief.

'Okay I hang out with them after huge games and when they drag me to the cheerleaders, but otherwise I swear I only hang with Nick, Luke and this other human guy round the front of the school' He said truthfully.

'Round the front? Like in the woodsy area..?' I said slowly.

He can't sit there as well. I can't have never seen him in school.

The girls mostly blabber about the Jocks from our school, from which I tune out of, but how come I haven't even heard his name once in passing?

'Yeah, and then we sit on the bleachers in the gym when its raining' Christan said.

I still couldn't get over the fact that we had both sat less than a few metres away from each other and have never once even made eyecontact.

I would've remembered if I had seen him, even once. He's what I dreamed my perfect guy would look like, so I definitely would've at least remembered a little bit of him.

But there's literally no trace of him anywhere in my mind before the wedding.

'Wait, rewind. You sit out there too?' He said curiously.

'Thanks for invading my privacy yet again. And yes, I do. Which is very odd, I've never even seen you' I said out loud, even though he must've already heard it.

'I would've definitely remembered you too' He said in thought, not realizing the heat rising in my cheeks.

'Cause I know when I first saw you, I couldn't really see anything else. So we mustve not met' He came to a conclusion I had already came to, his loud thinking making me feel tingly inside.

He could'nt really see anything else.. but me.

'No duh genius' I covered up, ignoring my fluttery stomach.

I couldnt look up at him till I chanted "Ignore it. It can't be" about 10 times in my head.

I made sure to put my block up before I did anything.

But this time it just didn't work.

Because he put two fingers under my chin, lifting my head up to look at him. And I forgot all about my chant.

'About earlier.. what went wrong?' Christan's voice rang, waters of concern flooding in his eyes.

'Privately' I told him, not wanting to mention much in front of everyone else.

I was surprised when Christan didn't pass a dirty comment, and led me straight to the kitchen.

'I left because of Valerie. Remember the rouge wolf?' I referred to the lone wolf we had encountered earlier.

'How can I forget..' He mumbled.

'When I went to change after you- uhm.. disrupted me-' I started.

A small smirk crossed his lips, and an image of me purring at his touch was linked to me.

'Focus Christan!' I exclaimed with a massive blush.

I shook my head free of the thought, and continued.

'ANYWAY, when I went to shift, I saw this'

I recalled the image of the message carved on the tree, and linked it to him so he would be able to see it as clear as day.

'This is dangerous. We can't let Valerie into the woods' His Alpha voice came across strong. Any trace of playfulness had disappeared from his face, and he was really serious.

'Is that really the best option? She loves the woods Christan, I can see it when she's in there. We can't just pull that away from her completely' I reasoned with him.

'Jesse this a serious threat, maybe even for her life and the pack-' He growled slightly, his Alpha tone still ringing loud and clear.

'I know Christan! I'm not bloody illiterate! But you can't keep Valerie hidden from everything just after she's discovered it. She's going to want to go in even more if we tell her not too! She can go into the woods, but only with us' My voice may have been slightly raised, or alot.

And my Alpha tone may have rung a little.

'You wouldnt understand! She's perfect bait for a war and a weakness-'

'Christan Issac Drake I lost my whole pack because of a little Alpha's daughter running into the woods when she was told not to! I've been in this exact situation before so don't you dare ever tell me I wouldnt understand!!!' I burst out in anger.

'No one would disobey orders that badly! Noone would disobey their Alpha, it would mean the whole packs blood would be on her hands-'

The back of my eyes prickled with tears, so I shut them tightly as I hung my head down.

Christan had stopped his angry rant, and it was silent.

Except for my head screaming not to be weak. I couldn't let myself feel this again.

The guilt, the pain, the sacrifices, the unmoving-

Go away. Go away. Go away.

I tried shoving it down anyway I could, but I couldn't this time. I couldn't take the rush of it all.

I slid down the kitchen counter, burying my head in my hugged knees.

Dont cry Jesse. Dont be weak.

'Jay?' A voice croaked softly, full of regret.

I felt a wet substance spread across my knees.

I had given in.

'Jay I.. I didn't mean to I swear' I could sense his hand coming towards me, going to rest on my shoulder.

'Dont touch me' I growled, slapping his hand away.

I angrily wiped away my tears, standing up with a slight shake in my knees. Anger coursed through my veins instead, and sub consciously it was directed now at Christan.

I didn't even look at him as I spun on my heel to walk out of the kitchen.

I was in the open doorway, keeping my blurred vision straight ahead.

But that's as far as I got, because a hand grabbed my wrist, pulling me back. I lost my balance, falling into something hard. And I had a pretty good idea of what it was.

'Get off!' I yelled, tugging myself back from the grip he had on me.

One hand had gripped me by the waist, the other not letting go of my hand.

I clenched my fist, hot tears still running down my cheeks.

As much as I hated it, his touch was calming me down, breaking down my pain barriers.

'Let go of me!' I exclaimed once again, trying to tug away.

'No' He spoke softly.

'No.. you have to..' I ran out of breath, my strength lessening at the feeling of his touch coursing through me.

'I cant'

I collapsed then and there in his arms. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer to him. He allowed me to cry, without gaining permission from myself.

I poured out everything I had been holding away, into Christan's chest. He didn't complain about how I was soaking his shirt in snot and tears, nor did he say anything.

He didn't say "Its not your fault" or "Its over now, look to the future" or anything like that.

He just.. held me.

His warm hold spoke soft words. "I'm here. Ill always be here. You're not alone. You have me."

And that's all I needed.

I sobbed and sobbed until I could no longer feel anything. Christan had picked me up and quietly taken me upstairs, so was cradling me on the bed upstairs.

I leant my head up slightly off his chest, knowing I probably looked a right mess, rubbing my eyes slightly as though it would help at all.

'Thankyou' I croaked, sitting up slightly.

My bones felt weak, my head slightly dizzy from crying.

'Ill always be here' He smiled slightly.

I leant back on the bedframe, away from his arms. Even though I reeeaaaally wouldn't mind staying in his grip for a little while longer.

I cleared my throat, feeling a tad awkward. I had just cried my soul out to him, and he doesn't even know why. Yet he was patient, and went through the entire thing right beside me.

'I s'pose I owe you an explanation' I said, looking down at my feet.

'Only if you want too' He said softly.

His voice wasn't sympathetic, which made me feel bubbly inside.

In counciling and things all those years ago, you could always hear the sympathy. The sympathy when you would tell them your family was wiped out, and others giving you and you're 3 day dirty clothes a sympathetic look.

I was sick of it.

Sympathy.

So when Christan's eyes held nothing but softness, I automatically caved in.

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