Chapter 21

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-Jesse's POV-

Lets set something straight.

Just because I'm not a Nigella Lawson, and the fact that I'm making 2 minute noodles for my daughter does NOT mean I'm unfit to be a parent.

For one, people like Valerie and I actually love noodles. Its not because we can't cook. Besides, she REQUESTED noodles.

Mostly because I am the Beyonce of Music when it comes to 2 minute noodles if I must say so myself.

Besides, I need to find Christan soon because he is over his head. We were told to avoid the woods. Although he is future Alpha, his decision-making skills often waver when his anger comes into play.

I took the noodles out of the microwave, setting it on the centre island bench beside Kaitlyn and her laptop.

'If I talk to you right now, will you actually listen or be too engrossed in tumblr?' I asked Kaitlyn, knowing that by the intent look on her face she was on her number 1 social media website.

'Well I know you'd never interupt me during tumblr time because you know I'd probably hurt you, so what's up?' She closed her laptop to my surprise.

I cut open the sachet of flavouring for the noodles, pouring it in.

'Do you reckon you could check up on Valerie for a bit? She wont be any trouble, and I'm just giving her dinner so she wont be hungry. Ill be back before she starts feeling sleepy and-'

'Jess!' She interupted me, laughing lightly.

'Jess its fine, she's not a bratty kid and she's always good. Go find Christan' Kaitlyn smiled, using her hands to shoo me away.

'Thanks so much Kaitlyn' I grinned, mixing up the flavour and the noodles.

I walked through the kicthen doorframe to Valerie, who was playing Fifa against Luke.

'No! How are you even winning? You're 7!' Luke yelled, trying frantically to get his player to tackle the ball from Valerie's player.

'She's turning 5 on Saturday Luke' I smirked, putting down the bowl of noodles on the table.

He paused the game and stared at Valerie in shock.

'No way, you're only 4?' He raised his eyebrows in disbelief.

'4 and three hundred and sixty three days old!' Valerie protested, making me laugh.

'But you're so smart.. and so good at Fifa. You've got the smarts of someone so much older'

'I used to do everything myself before, because my old mean parents didn't like me very much. Maybe that's why I'm like almost old?' She said innocently.

'Heaven knows why, you're probably the next great female soccer player' Luke lightened up the mood, making Valerie grin.

'Future athletes also need to eat, noodles are ready Val' I said.

'Two seconds!' She yelled excitedly.

That was before her player on the screen sidepassed to another just beside her goal, so Luke's goalie couldn't reach the ball in time for it bashing into the net.

'God! Fu-' Luke threw his controller at the ground, and stood up in defeat.

I immediately cupped my hands over Valerie's ears, willing her not to hear the rest of Luke's rude sentence.

'There are preschool children present Lucas!' I pulled his hoodie over his head, squashing his perfectly done up quiff in the mean time.

'Sorryyy' Luke dragged out, fixing up his hair.

'What about me?' He pouted as Valerie sat down at the table to eat.

'As we are from a society where men and woman are equal, and long gone is the reign of the man's hand; I am allowed to say that I am not your servant, and to go make your own bloody food'

'Preach it!' Kaitlyn yelled from the kitchen.

'You guys suck!' Luke said loudly, making Valerie giggle lightly.

'Not for free!' Kaitlyn said loudly from the kitchen, making Luke smirk.

'Oh really honey? I don't recall paying you with anything yesterday-'

Kaitlyn slammed her laptop close, stomping into the living room like a boss.

'I told you not to call me Honey! I refuse to be called after the work of a bee! Do I call you Paperwork? '

Valerie and I looked at each other in silence, before laughing together.

I ignored the hillarious argument behind me, and knelt down beside Valerie.

'I'm going out for a bit, but Kaitlyn and probably Luke will be here if you need anything. I should be back to put you to bed, hopefully with Daddy. Don't give them any trouble okay Val? Well I know you wont because you're a good girl-'

'Mummy! I know. Go find Daddy' She interrupted me, shooing me off with her hands like Kaitlyn did before.

I smiled greatfully towards Kaitlyn and Luke, before giving Valerie a quick kiss on the forehead and darting off.

I didn't know how I was going to get to him.

I couldn't take a stroll through woods we aren't supposed to be in as a human at nightfall, and I couldn't let my clothes rip off my body and chill naked with Christan.

Because the whole purpose of this is to find out why he's upset with me. To do that I need to be able to talk to him.

As soon as I stepped outside, it was like the peak of winter.

Freezing. Cold.

Although I could've sworn it was pretty sunny just this afternoon, it was as if Elsa had frozen the place.

I decided to change out of my clothes then shift, and carry the clothes carefully in my mouth till I was a couple of metres away from Christan. Then I would shift back, although it would be cold as hell, and put my clothes back on and talk to him.

I walked a few trees down, before swiftly pulling my clothes off so I could shift into my wolf.

My lovely, fur-coated for warmth wolf.

I felt my bones shape to its form as I jumped up, landing back down on all fours with fur coating my skin.

I stretched out my front legs, seeing as I haven't shifted in the longest time. The longest time for me anyway; about 2 or 3 weeks.

I picked up my clothes between my teeth, being careful not to rip or slobber on them as I do.

Then I ran to the cliff.

I darted through the trees like a shadow of the night; feeling the adrenaline coursing through my veins and the blood pumping viciously through my heart.

It was exhilarating.

After jumping over the stream as to not get even colder by getting wet, I stopped a few metres away from the cliffedge.

I dropped the clothes in my mouth to the ground, greatful I hadn't slobbered on them, and shifted.

The cold prickling my bare skin were like acupuncture needles being put in the wrong place. I quickly tugged my clothes on, silently cursing that I hadn't bought a jacket.

All I had was a sleeveless shirt and skinny jeans.

'Goddamn Christan, the things people do for the people they love' I muttered under by breath, the heat of my breath causing condensation in the air.

Shivering, my hands rubbing my bare arms repeatedly as an attempt to get warmer, I speed-walked to the place where I knew Christan was.

I could feel his presence there.

I dodged past the last tree into the small clearing, the strong moonlight immediately making me feel better.

And there, hidden as a shadow in the moonlight, was a figure hugging his knees to his chest.

I walked slowly to him, not speaking a word, and sat down beside his figure.

I looked straight at the seemingly close moon, the bright light shadowing the city below.

'You shouldn't be out here you know' I broke the silence.

'I'm not the only one out here' He pointed out, his gaze still on the ground.

'So tell me Christan, why are we both out here?' I turned to face him, my curiousity laced through my tone.

'I...' He stopped, the silence taking over for a few moments.

'Its.. its you. Its always you' He turned sharply, and glared straight into my soul.

At that moment, I almost jumped.

'You come along and take over every part of me without me even having a say!

You've been taunting me from Day 1 haven't you? Making me fall for you more and more, yet gaining a boyfriend while you do? Then I find out we're mates, and I'm over the moon! But what do you do? You deny it, for heaven knows why!' He ranted, flinging his hands left to right as he did.

'Christan I-'

'Oh no, but that's not all! Nope! We have a beautiful daughter, and you leave me breathless when we kissed which makes me sound like a GIRL but you just.. I thought I had you at that moment, and then all of a sudden you're going on a date with someone else on Saturday? What are you trying to do to my head?' He buried his head in his knees again.

I could feel his frustration from here, and God did I feel horrible.

I don't deserve him at all.

To think that by trying to leave him and not to hurt him, I ended up hurting him more.

Jesse Mary-Anne Drake, you are an absolute asshole.

But.. I wasn't going on any date on Saturday. All I was doing on Saturday was going to Starbucks so Izzy and Jake could-

He must've seen my conversation with Jake, and thought it was about me!

Wait.

He read my messages?

'You read my messages?' I blurted out.

'I know, it was a horrible thing to do. But I saw the name Jake and a message saying "Saturday's tomorrow right?". Why would you even go out with someone that stupid?' He mumbled, making me laugh.

'I think there's a reason you aren't supposed to read someone else's messages, because I'm not going on the date this Saturday. Do you remember the worker at the arcade? Before we met Val?' I asked him.

'..The one that flirted with you..' He mumbled again.

I sighed. He is the definition of the green monster.

'Well before you got angry and left, we agreed to be ONLY friends. I got his number and forgot about him, till the other day when I met this girl Izzy at Macca's. I set both of them up for a date on Saturday at Starbucks' I was still slightly amused at his obvious jealousy.

He tried hiding his embarrassment, but his cheeks were too bright pink to hide.

'Well. Don't I feel bad now' His shoulders straightened up from his slump, making me laugh lightly.

Then I looked out to the moon, sighing at my previous actions too.

'Honestly.. I've been worse. And I really have no proper excuse for treating you so horrendously, I'm just afraid of commitment and hurting someone that became so.. so special to me so quickly' I sighed.

I'm letting it all go.

'You deserve so much better Christan. You're so amazing. I don't know anyone else more caring or sweet, or anyone funny, cute and cocky just to wrap the package together.

Or anyone who is adorable when they think they're going to pick out something new on a menu, because you always take the same thing.

And the way you don't like claw machines because of Toy Story, and how you sing jazz  terribly in the shower with saxaphones and all because you think no one can hear you, when you're loud as a rooster at the crack of dawn. And the way you smile..' I felt dizzy the way he was smiling at me right now.

Then suddenly his body was close to mine, his fingers pushing my hair out of my face, before resting on my cheek.

His touch sent butterflies fluttering throughout my stomach, my smile unable to be contained.

'The way your hand feels against my cheek' I almost whispered.

'The way that you.. you make the person you're with, feel like you're the only two people on earth when they're with you' I said truthfully, admiring the moonlight giving his beautiful brown eyes a highlight.

But.. I've let him go. I had my imperfect perfection with me, trying to reach me, but now that I realized I could have it, its gone.

'I.. I don't deserve someone like you' My eyes wandered to the floor, unable to meet his.

'I can't ever say the word sorry more than how sorry and regretful I feel. Because you were here all along.. and I treated you like crap. You're worth so much more'

The grass has a slow, sad breeze blowing over it. Maybe I was just seeing the sadness.

'Jay?' He put two fingers under my chin, lifting my face to look at him.

His hair was swaying slightly with the breeze, his eyes as they were before.

Surprisingly... his brown beauties didn't show hate.

'Yeah?' I said softly, unable to speak properly.

'Shut up'

And then his warm lips crashed against mine, my whole body instantly feeling warmer and fluttering with joy. My eyelids slowly shut close, my lips automatically responding to his, the magnetic force between us feeling finally satisfied as the positive and the negative charges slammed together.

His hands went from pulling my face closer to running down my shoulders, till they reached my mid-back to pull me closer to him. All I wanted was to be closer to him, as my arms wrapped around his neck and fingers played with hair.

It wasn't like our first kiss; which was rough, angered and heated. This one was slow, and passionate.

This was the kiss every girl imagined as their first kiss, with fireworks blowing up and filling the horizon. Its the kind of kiss you can only share with someone you really love.

Someone you, in this moment, realize you can never push away again. It was hard enough before, but now, no matter what the consequences, I couldn't even try to even avoid him.

It was like this bond, that had been ripped to half was being sewn together slowly, and then all at once.

I had accepted my mate as mine. Only mine.

If he was to be anyone else's, I wouldn't be able to process it. Amd when I did, I wouldnt be able to function.

We both pulled back by barely an inch to breathe, my heart palpatating with joy in my chest.

'I never cared about any of that. All I ever wanted was you. I don't care how long it took; you're worth me waiting every second since I met you' His breath tingled my lips, his words making me feel like a pile of goo.

But... my brain said otherwise.

'You do know that around half of those seconds were spent with you sleeping, so technically-'

'You just love to kill my romantic moments don't you?' He laughed, shaking his head lightly.

'I also love to kill your ego, but with my mini speech I did the complete opposite, so I think I've done pretty well for myself today' I smirked.

'Oh come here you smartass' He rolled his eyes, turning me around whilst simultaneously pulling my back to his chest.

He dipped my body back to lean against him and kissed me again, my smile unable to contain itself.

I hadn't felt real love in the longest time but... for the next 2 hours, my heart was happier than it had been in a long time. The pieces that had been broken out with loss were still missing, but the longer Christan was with me, the more filler was fixing all the holed and cracks.

Metaphorically of course.

But hopefully, if we get through everything being thrown at us, it will stay that way.

All I know is that I'm never pushing him away again.

Again, metaphorically.

Because as we walked back to the house, I shoved him away from me when he pointed out I wasnt stronger than him.

'Yes, you're strong. But I'm going to be Alpha! Do you know how strong Alpha's are?' He said cockily, making me laugh and roll my eyes.

'Do you know how cocky Alpha's are?' I retorted, avoiding another tree.

We had taken the long way home, and were just in our own little bubble of happiness. We just taking about anything and nothing, strolling through the woods as slowly as we could.

I think we both knew it was dangerous out here, but neither of us really gave a damn.

'Probably not as cocky as me. Not all Alpha's are packing guns you know' He smirked, positioning his arms to kiss his biceps.

'Wow. You are so much more full of yourself than I thought' I frowned at him, although I secretly loved it.

'Ah but soon, you'll be full of me too' He swept in and kissed me on the cheek quickly, winking as he dodged away from me.

'Christan!'

'You love it' He smirked, flipping round to my right side.

'What, horny teenagers?' I raised my eyebrows, smirking right back.

'Apparently, because your cheeks are bright red' I shoved him again, letting my hair fall across my face to hide my blush.

He grabbed my waist and didn't let me walk any further, tugging me towards him before dipping his head down to kiss me again.

His lips were so perfect. They were so soft, yet slightly chapped and just felt amazing against mine.

"Do they now?" His smooth voice rung in my head as he kissed me, his mouth curled into a small smirk.

'You're such an ass' I whispered against his lips, before wrapping my arms around his head to pull him to me again.

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I was gonna leave ya'll with some more stuff between Christan and Jesse, but decided against it. Im letting you guys bask in this moment after 20 chapters of teasing and hurting.

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