ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕋𝕙𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕪

𝑲𝒐𝒍 𝑺𝒎𝒊𝒕𝒉

I was falling for her.

I knew I would.

It was bad. I told myself not to get involved with her. I knew that she wouldn't be able to give me what I wanted. I did this with Amelia and now I'm doing it with Maya.

She wanted sex. She wanted passion.

I wanted her soul. I wanted her love. I wanted to wake up to her for the rest of my life.

It's been two months since Angela was released from the hospital. She was staying with Leo. More often than needed. I can see the way they look at each other.

They love each other. I wanted that. I wanted it desperately from Maya.

What was holding her back? Why wasn't I good enough? Why couldn't I change her mind?

Maya and I have had rough and passionate sex for the past two months. We've also talked. We've gone on the weekly dates. It almost felt like we were dating.

But, we weren't.

Her going on a date with me is just a formality—a requirement for my dick. I was hoping I could change her mind.

It was winter break, and she was back in Arizona. We texted every day. A lot of sexting. Midnight calls.

"So, tell me about that pretty girl you're always texting," Amanda beams. All of us were back home.

I didn't want to go, but Amanda forced me to. "Kol likes a girl? Shocker," my brother, Anthony says.

I glare at him. "Sorry, brother, but I thought you would end up alone with your dick falling off."

Amanda laughs and when I look at her, she covers her mouth and stops. "What's she like?"

I roll my eyes before responding. "She's beautiful. She's sassy. She's so nice and sweet. She's so funny and every time she laughs, she lights up the entire room. My life felt so boring and lost before I met her. It was like she touched a part of my soul and she wouldn't let go."

Anthony gasps and Amanda squeals. "Oh, my God! Oh, my God! You love her. You're in love with her."

I shook my head hesitantly. "N-No. We're just friends."

Anthony and Amanda roll their eyes.

"Friends my ass," Anthony says.

I get up from our island and head to the fridge. I open it and grab a water bottle. "K, you can't possibly tell us that you guys are just friends," Amanda says.

I glance at Amanda before looking away. "Oh my God, they're fucking each other," Anthony yells.

I throw the water bottle at him. He was going to wake up our Nona. Anthony grabs the spot on his arm that the water bottle hit. I see it turning red.

He rubs his arm, tenderly. "I hate you, Kol." I smile in response.

"Is it true, Kol? Are you guys sleeping with each other?"

Amanda comes closer to me. I roll my eyes. "Why does it matter?"

Amanda smiles at me, lopsided. "You love her, you know you do. So, why don't you do something about it?"

I shrug. "She doesn't want a relationship. She's never wanted one. And she made me promise that I wouldn't try to force her into one. And I won't. I would never do that to her. I care about her too much."

"Aww," Amanda brings me into a hug."Little brother, you're in love." I roll my eyes and slightly smile.

"So, why don't you do something about it?" I shrug. "I don't think she'll ever see me beyond fuck buddies."

Amanda rubs my arm. "I doubt that. I remember seeing the way she looked at you when she came to your apartment. Most importantly, looking at me. Before you introduced me as your sister, she looked like she wanted to claw my eyes out."

I laugh as I imagine Maya's face. I kinda liked the fact that she was jealous. Even if it was over my sister.

"How cute is this chick anyway? She must be a 10 out of 10 bombshell for you to be acting like this," Anthony calls from behind me.

I remove myself from Amanda's hold. "It's not all about looks, Anthony. I love her for her soul. For her personality. Yeah, she's pretty, but that's not all she is."

Anthony looks slightly taken aback. I didn't expect him to understand what I was feeling. He's never been in a relationship in his life. He likes to go around and fuck everything with a pulse.

Amanda gasps loudly and starts circling around me, singing. She starts clapping and smiling. "You love her. You said you were just friends, but you love her."

I move away from her and drag myself upstairs to my room. I laid down in bed. I took my phone and went to Maya's contact. I pressed the call button.

I sat there for a few seconds listening to the ringing of her phone. "Hello?"

I hear her sweet voice and I feel all my problems disappear. I feel my entire body relax and a grin appears on my face. "Hey."

"You usually call late at night. Is there something wrong?" she asks.

I shake my head no like she can see me. "I just missed the sound of your voice."

She laughs and I feel my dick harden in my pants. "We talked last night."

"Exactly. It's been entirely too long. I miss you."

A beat. A pause. A short moment of silence. "I missed you too."

My entire heart flutters and my throat gets closed up. "I want to see you."

"We can face time if you want," she suggests. "I'm not doing anything."

"In person. I want to see you in person. I want to feel you."

I hear her take a gasp and I feel a smirk forming on my lips. "I am leaving Arizona a week early to go see Angela. I could come to your place."

My tongue tickles a tooth. "Yeah, I can tell my folks that I have some things to take care of."

She giggles. "I have you lying to your parents? They're going to hate me before they meet me."

I feel thousands of butterflies swarm my stomach at her last sentence.

"Moving a little fast, aren't you Miss. St. Martin? We aren't even together."

There's a silence after that. The first time we've ever had awkward silence. "It's not exactly lying. I have to take care of you. And your needs."

I can hear her smile. "Let's not pretend you don't have needs you don't want me to take care of."

I roll my eyes playfully. "I miss you, Maya."

"You'll see me soon. I promise. Then you can show me just how much you miss me."

She continues to tell about her day and how intolerable her Mom is being. I just sat there and listened to her voice. Her laugh. Her emotions. And I loved it. I loved everything about it.

I loved her.

End of Chapter Thirty

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