Dukes of Ruin: Chapter 17
Dukes of Ruin (Dark College Bully Romance): Royals of Forsyth University Book 4
Whore.
I hear her shut up in that room with Remy and Nick, but even if I didnât, Iâd still know. Itâs in the air, charged with sex and disgusting, private things. I spend too long frozen in front of the door, straining to hear their grunts. Her gasps. The moans and breath. The soft creak of a mattressâ springs.
And Iâm hard.
So goddamn hard, all the time now.
I gather it up and shove it down with the anger, my fists curling into tight, shaking fists as I tuck the feelings away. An ocean. Thatâs what I use. It churns inside of me, white-caps of rage frothing it up, but Iâm good at keeping it below the surface, always hidden under the depths. Itâs the only useful thing my mom ever taught me. Visualizing, meditating, learning to make myself tidy and even. Even though it sounds like wishy-washy nonsense, thereâs science behind this. Research. Verifiable evidence that itâs effective.
So why is my ocean suddenly so goddamn difficult to still?
Nick is the first to come out. I wait from the entryway into the kitchen, leaning against the arch as my eyes track his path to his bedroom. Heâs flushed and heavy-limbed, fucked-out probably. I wonder how he took her. Did he bend her over Remyâs drafting table? Did she spread herself wide for him on Remyâs bed? Did she take them both, one after another? Or at the same time? Did Nick take her pussy while Remy fucked into her asshole? Did they fill her up, their cum leaking from her holes, dripping down her thighs likeâ
âOof!â Slamming into me, Lavinia staggers back, a sheet fluttering to the floor around her. âJesus Christ!â She scurries to cover herself with the sheet, but itâs trapped beneath her. âWear a bell, Lurker.â
She says it derisively, with a curl to her lip, but Iâm too distracted with the sight of her naked body to pay her insolence the attention it deserves. Her shoulders are bare, two stark clavicles framing a delicate-looking sternum. Her tits are round and heavy-looking, two perfect handfuls crowned with two pert nipples.
The next thing I know, Iâve got her shoved up against the wall, my fingers digging into her warm flesh. She smells like sweat and honey and pussy, and goddamn, Iâm going to fuck her. Iâm going to rip my way inside and slam into her little body until I canât anymore. Iâm going to put my ocean into it, pumping her cunt so full of my cum that sheâll be weeping it from her goddamn eyes. Iâm going toâ
ââoff me, you fucking psycho!â Laviniaâs fists beat against my chest, which is the only thing that sends me careening back to myself. My erection is pressing into her belly, pinning her against the wall just as much as my own two hands. Hands. One is gripping her shoulder while the other palms her full tit. I blink at it for a suspended moment, wondering when I started losing grip on my own internal tides.
But I already know the answer to that, donât I?
When all she does is gape at me, I snap, âCover yourself up! I know you just got double-teamed, but believe it or not, this isnât the Velvet Hideaway!â
Lifting her chin, she grits out, âI did not just get double-teamed!â
My anger flares anew, almost satisfied by her flinch when I surge against her, gripping her breast. âDonât lie to me. I heard you in there, taking their cocks. Probably at the same time. Which one got your ass?â Her jaw drops and I scoff. âRemy, of course. Nickâs too full of himself. He always comes in through the front.â
Her teeth visibly clench. âI didnât take anyoneâs cock. You watch entirely too much porn.â
âYouâre lying!â
âAm not!â
Itâs the heat of her eyes just as much as her skin that drives me to spin her, my hand landing between two smooth scapulas, pressing against the delicate bumps of her spine and crushing her into the wall. My other hand dips down and I force my fingers to her soft, warm center, blood boiling at the slickness I find there.
âYouâre a fucking liar,â I growl into her ear, sliding my fingers into her wet cunt. âYouâre a goddamnââ
But sheâs tight.
Too tight, too tense for someone whoâs just had my brother inside of her. Nick isnât as big as me, but heâs still big. Sheâd be fucked open if heâd had herâand chafed, swollen and raw if Remy had.
Jaw clenching, I pull my fingers from her cunt just to slide them up an inch, finding her asshole puckered and taut.
Huh.
Sheâs smooth down here. Hairless. Wanting. So much heat is radiating between her plush cunt lips. My mouth parts against her ear as my fingers run up and down her slit, learning the topography of her sex. If this is how she feels around my fingers, then I can only imagine how itâd feel around my cock. Constricting. Slick. The sound of her muffled cries as I pushed her face into a pillow and took, sinking into the depths of her, my fist tangled in her hair.
Iâm three fingers deep into her pussy when I slam back to reality, a sharp, pained squeak coming from her throat. Fuming, I fling myself away. âThatâs what you get for bouncing around here like a whore!â
She whirls on me with lava in her eyes, hastily gathering the sheet up. She wraps it around herself like armor, and the thing is, itâs convincing. For a split second, that flash of fire in her eyes makes her look less like she just got violated and more like sheâs about to do the violating. âYouâre just as cracked as your friend. I hope someoneâs put you on medication, too, because Iâm done stitching psychopathsâ knife wounds! The next time one of you is carving yourselves up like a Christmas ham, Iâm just going to stand back and let you go to town!â
I pry my eyes from the patch of skin above the sheet to ask, âWhat are you talking about?â
âRemy?â She gives me that haughty, condescending look that always makes me want to slap her. âSix-four, super rapey, likes to draw on everything and slice his arms up? Ring any bells?â
This time, when I slam her against the wall, it isnât to get my hands on any part of her body. Itâs forcing her gaze to mine. âTell me what happened,â I demand, fingers digging into her chin.
And thatâs how I learn about what went down yesterday. Through her fiery glare and tense jaw, Lavinia tells me about Remy cutting his arm.
âHe looked me right in the eye, and justâ¦â She makes a slicing motion, her eyes conveying the gravity of the situation with a flinty sort of anger. âHe might as well have been using a marker. Thatâs how casual he was about it.â
It rests in my gut like a boulder that gets heavier with each revelation. My grip slackens, my shoulders fall, and my feet shift as if theyâre tiring of lumbering my body around.
I leave her there against the wall, falling into a chair at the kitchen table. âFuck.â I drop my head into my hands and exhale. Heâs supposed to be better. Meds and rest and a solid routine. It was supposed to make shit like this a thing of the past.
âI stitched him up,â she says, shuffling her feet in an awkward, impatient gesture. And then, âWhoâs Tate?â
The question, just as much as the person asking it, makes my spine go rigid. I turn to look at her over my shoulder, noting her bedraggled, powder-blue hair, and the curious tilt to her head. âDonât,â I say, voice full of warning. âYou did Remy a solid today, and I wonât forget that. But donât you ever say her fucking name.â Without waiting for a reply, I pick up the plastic bag Iâd walked in with an hour earlier, thrusting it into her arms.
Brow furrowed, she fumbles with it, her sheet almost slipping. âWhatâs this?â
âA necessity.â Folding my arms, I chew the words through gritted teeth. âAccording to my brother, weâre supposed to take you on campus with us. I donât drive thereâI run. Itâs part of my workout. So, on the days you go with me, you need to be dressed like someone who isnât prepared to get penetrated by the fists of Forsyth.â
Shooting me a glare, she peers into the bag, seeing the pair of sneakers and athletic attire Iâd bought for her. Out of my own goddamn money, too. A wild laugh rips from her chest. âYou want me to run with you?â
âI donât want you to do anything but get the hell out of my life, but since thatâs not happeningâ¦â I pause to wait for her eyes to finish rolling, reaching out to jolt her chin up. âIâve decided that Iâm not adjusting to you. You can adjust to me. Iâm leaving in five minutes. Get changed.â
Jesus fucking Christ.
This was a terrible idea.
And thereâs no one to blame but myself.
When first Nick told me it was time to take Lavinia on campus, I knew why. Heâs kept her locked up in the tower, and heâs salivating at the chance to show Forsyth who she belongs to now. I didnât need him to remind me that itâs part of the game. Flaunting females is a Royal flexâone Iâve earned and one thatâs respected. I agreed for those reasons alone, but I had my own caveat. Weâre running there. Not just because of my workout process, but because I need to expend as much energy as possible when Iâm around this bitch. Exercise helps more than anything.
Or it would, if we were actually running.
I bark, âFor fuckâs sake, Lucia! Weâre in Prince territory here! You want to run out of it before we get shanked, or what?â Iâm a block ahead, finally outpacing the scent of her hair like itâs the boogeyman or something. Every glance over my shoulder reveals her tits bouncing in the strappy contraption Iâd bought for her. Athletic wear. Skin tight. Curve hugging.
Fuck the absolute entirety of my life.
âI told you I donât exercise,â she gasps back, red-faced. Even when she slows to a lumbering gait, hands on her hips, chest heaving with big, strangled gulps of air, her tits pulse at me like two firm beacons, and now Iâm remembering. I had one of those things in the palm of my hand. Fuck. âWhatâd you think? That I was doing Cross Fit in my various cells over the last two years? Fuck the Princes; Iâm already fighting for my life here.â
Irritated, I stop, waiting for her to catch up. The townhouses on either side of the road stand over us like a threat, making my neck prickle. Itâs too visible, but Iâve been running this loop since freshman year, and Iâm not about to chart a new one just because Iâve become a Duke. The closest townhouse is PNZâPsi Nu Zeta, the Princesâ fratâand itâs just what Iâd expect. A cash-money facade that reeks of stale beer and generational disappointment. Thereâs something pungent dripping from the balcony two floors up, and I stop just short of walking into it.
âI thought you looked like you were in pretty good shape.â I try not to look at her body as I say it, but itâs impossible. I know sheâs fast. She got a swipe in at Remy that night at the Hideaway, but that may have just been adrenaline. In the light of day, her arms are thin and feminine, although thereâs some slight curve to her bicep. Her stomach is flat, but on closer inspection, I donât see a lot of muscle underneath. Youâd think that a female primed for a life of selling her pussy would have better stamina than this.
âI guess looks can be deceiving,â she says, finally catching up. She leans against the concrete wall of the townhouse, pressing a fist into her side. âLike you.â She squints up at me, a lock of her blue hair fluttering with a gasping exhale. âYou look like a normal guy and not a circus freak with a dragon dick tucked in his sweats.â
Itâd be easier if it were just the rending claws of anger. I could shove it below the surface of my ocean and let the rhythm of the waves take it. Itâd even be easier if it were just the lizard-brain spike of lust that I had to wrestle beneath the ripples, starving it of attention.
The problem with Lavinia Lucia is that I want to kill her almost as much as I want to fuck her.
Thatâs what propels me forward, and the fear that flickers in her eyes is enough to bring both raging to the surface. âIâm about to look like the guy who strangled your ass in the East End and let the Princes take the fall for it. You think youâre special because you sucked a couple of cocks a few hours ago? Youâre not.â
Her head jerks back in outrage. âI didnât suck their cocks!â
Scoffing, I counter, âPlease. I know my boys and their afterglow. If they didnât fuck your cunt or your ass, they definitely fucked your face.â Iâve discovered the more I accuse her of being a whore, the more she reveals.
She proves me right, pulling her shoulders back to glare at me. âFor your information, the only person getting head this morning was me!â At my dumbfounded expression, she smirks. âThatâs right, while you were picking out sports bras for this little cardio sesh, your buddyâs face was planted firmly between my thighs. And while I was riding his tongue like a goddamn stallion, your brother was jerking off to it.â
I blink at her for an extended moment because Iâm building it in my head. The ocean gets swiped away like sand on marble, making room for the vision of Remy licking her pussy as Nick watched. I donât need to wonder what she tastes like. That bit of investigation was solved the moment we parted in the kitchen doorway, my tongue curiously sucking her from my finger.
But why?
Neither of them fucked her afterward.
What was the point?
Before I can think of a retort, weâre startled by the sound of a door opening above us, making my hackles rise. Thereâs a split moment of rowdy music, the static of distant life, and then the door slamming shut, casting the alley in silence once again.
Or near silence.
Thereâs a small, soft cry overhead.
Laviniaâs eyes dart up. âDo you hear that?â
Mostly I hear my molars grating. âHear what?â
She holds still for a moment, head tipped back, palm raised. She points overhead. âThat.â
Looking up, I see whatâs unmistakably a tiny white paw batting between the bars of the balcony. âItâs a fucking cat.â
She pushes off the wall and walks out toward the other side of the street to see better. âItâs a kitten, not a cat. They justâthey just threw it out there!â Her face hardens as she peers up at the thing. âPsi Nu cocksuckers. Shouldnât be in charge of a Princess, let alone a kitten.â The ball of fuzz spots Lavinia and starts meowing in earnest. Itâs small, about the size of my fist, but it cries like itâs a grown thing, long and pitiful. Laviniaâs face falls, her eyes dropping to mine. Thereâs a moment of tension that I donât quite understand until she pleads, âCome on, canât we get it or something?â
âExcuse me?â I look between her and the balcony. âThatâs not our cat, and more importantly, no.â
Rolling her eyes, I watch as she calculates the height of the balcony, gives her feet a testing bounce, and then takes a loose run at the townhouse. I see the attempted jump coming from a mile away. Before her feet leave the ground, I catch her, arms wound around her waist, and jerk her back toward the street.
She slaps ineffectually at my forearm. âHey, you fucker!â
âIâm going to be late,â I growl, tugging her away. âAnd if you want to have any time in the library, then you need to get your ass in gear!â
The kitten lets out an even sharper cry and Lavinia jolts away, glaring at me. âThat kitten is too little to be out on that balcony! It could rain or get cold orââ
âNot my problem.â
âButââ
I force her to keep walking. âItâs not either of our problems. That kitten has a home, unlike other annoying pets.â I slide her a significant look. âSomeone put it out there for a reason.â The little cries get louder the farther we walk away. âProbably because itâs annoying as fuck.â
âWow.â She glares at me through the awe. âYouâre just an asshole all-around, arenât you?â
Snorting, I say, âTell me something I donât know, Lucia,â and start jogging toward campus.
The library isnât a typical spot for Royals to congregate. They tend to hang around the student center or the fountain in the middle of campus. Wherever they can flex and be seen. Nick would be into thatâRemy too, when heâs feeling more like himself. Remy loves to be in the middle of shitâfeeds off the energy of a crowd, the attention. Itâs why he loves the fight so much. But not me. Sometimes the worst part of a fight is the din of the crowd, the heat of their bodies, and the thrum of their energy. Iâm beyond letting it distract me in the ring, but before and after? I could do without it.
Itâs the winning that does it for me. The thought that Iâve come out on top. The feeling of having conquered. Itâs just like I told my Pops about becoming a Duke. I never would have been happy as a mere Forsyth alum, and I never would have been happy as a regular DKS. If thereâs a step in front of me, Iâm going to climb itâconquer it.
My major is no different.
âIs there a reason, other than torture, that you canât work on one of the two floors we just passed?â
In my mind, I thought Iâd bluff my way through tucking her under my arm and publicly claiming Lavinia. Iâve seen the other Royals do it with their females. The Lords basically piss on their Lady, marking their territory like a pack of wild dogs. The Counts may as well lead their bitch around on a collar and leash. The Barons crowd around theirs like they donât want anyone to see her, but we all know itâs bullshit. The Princes are the worst. They could carry their Princess through campus on a palanquin, and it wouldnât even surprise me.
Point being, Iâd planned on making a show, but the second our arms brushed coming in through the doors, my cock grew harder than a lead pipe, which sent my ocean into a tempestuous froth. Twice today Iâve lost my grip. If it happens again, it could go one of two ways. I punch someone in the face, or I blow my wad in my shorts. Neither is acceptable.
I look back and see her half a flight of stairs behind me, flushed and breathless. Iâd made her put on the sweatshirt sheâd had tied around her waist before we walked in. Itâs cold in here and the last thing I need is her nipples staring at me all afternoon.
âItâs more quiet,â I reply, although I owe her no explanations. âAnd the books I need are up here.â
She drags herself up the last few steps, eyes skating over the sign hanging over the entrance to the floor: Behavioral Sciences. âHuh,â is all she saysâwhether itâs meant to be judgmental or just due to the fact sheâs still struggling for breath. I cross the room to the bank of computers in the back corner and grab a seat, pointing to the one next to me. She drops into it with a loud sigh, sprawling out like sheâs been on her feet for days instead of two hours. I turn away from the sight of her spread thighs and open the screen.
âBehavioral Sciencesâ¦â She peers over at the screen. âWhich one?â
I slide her a look thatâs full of warning. âYou know, the amazing thing about being at the library is thereâs no reason for small talk. Itâs in the rules.â
âUh, huh. And you seem like such a rule-follower by nature.â She reaches behind her head and yanks out the elastic holding her hair back, shaking it free. âFine. If you wonât tell me, Iâll guess.â Her eyes narrow in assessment, and I avoid them at all costs. âEconomics? Seems boring, but then youâre not exactly a paragon of adventure, are you? Or maybe Poli-Sci?â She hums to herself, looking way too comfortable here. âI guess that could come in handy, dealing with the Royals. Especially if you were going to be King. Which you arenât. Your brother is lined up for that spot.â
Her voice is increasingly like nails on a chalkboard. Fucking stuck-up, know-it-all, big-tittied pain in my balls. We could have had a sweet girl like Verity, but no.
She bends over, flipping her hair forward to gather it up into her hands. While she canât see me, I take her inâthe pale blue hair that doesnât go to the roots, her long slender neck, the gentle jut of her shoulder bones, and Iâm hit with one immutable, striking fact.
Sheâs mine.
I could have her anytime I wanted.
With a sharp whip of movement, she rears back up, smoothing her hair into a neat ponytail. The scent almost overwhelms me.
âPre-law? The Dukes could use a good lawyer, but thatâs also a shit job with a terrible life expectancy, so Iâm crossing that out.â I glance over and see her tilt her head dramatically while tapping her finger on her chin. âThat leaves sociology or psychology.â
Not liking how good she is at this, I snap, âDidnât you want to come to the library to look for a book or something?â
She pushes a scoff through her plump lips. âAnd what, youâre going to just let me wander around on my own?â
I fling a hand toward the stacks. âGo for it! Anything to shut you up so I can get some work done.â She perks a little too much to be comfortable, but I donât really want her around to see what Iâm looking up anyway. âJust stay on this floor and donât cause any trouble.â
Before I can even finish my sentence, sheâs off, nearly sprinting toward the stacks. I watch as she takes a minute to orient herself and then disappears down the closest row. I have to trust that whatever deal she made with my brother is solid enough to ensure she really doesnât run. If she does? Iâm not sure thatâs the worst thing either. At least not for me.
Once sheâs gone, I open the PsyGui portal and type in a few search terms; parasomnia, hypomania, mixed affective states, emotional dysregulation. All things that describe Remyâs recent behavior.
At first, I thought it was just the transition. Moving into the Dukesâ tower was always going to be a big adjustment for him. Remy has a thing about structuresâhomes, buildings, rooms. Itâs not just that he grows attachments, but also that heâs so weirdly selective. Nick could probably sleep on a sidewalk if itâs quiet enough, but Remy needs his wall scrawlings and what heâd once described to me as âpurple energy.â Whatever the fuck that means.
Pausing, I think of him eating Lavinia out this morning, and add hypersexuality to the list. Thatâs the only thing that can explain that. Itâs not a surprise heâs obsessed with her. It was one of my concerns about bringing a Duchess into the house, and it didnât help that weâd already had the dust-up with her in the Hideaway. But itâs been a long time since Remy refused to take his meds. Since he legitimately tried to hurt himself. Since he actually succeeded. This is some freshman year shit, and if I donât find out whyâand how to stop itâthen I really am going to have to call his dad.
Itâs the deal I made when Remy got out of the hospital. We convinced his dad to let him enroll, to let him pledge DKS so I could monitor his moods and symptoms. Truth be told, I was naive enough to believe that, like me, the structure of training would help him level out. Itâs not that simple for him, though. Remy and structure go together like eight-balls and good decision-making.
Itâs why I chose psychology as my major. I figured Iâd go into athletic training and really focus on developing the talent at the gym. But when shit hit the fan three years ago and Remy really started struggling, it clicked. My mother, predictably, was both ecstatic and worried. Happy Iâd decided to follow in her footsteps. Worried about my motivation.
Sheâs wrong about both. Iâm not following in her footsteps. Sheâs a goddamn psychologist. Iâm a double majorâpsychology and biology. Iâm going to be a psychiatrist. A real doctor. Remy doesnât need to talk out his feelings to get better. He needs to fix his chemistry. And most importantly, he needs someone whoâll give a fuck. Not his dad, whoâd be happy to lock him away in a padded room.
âOh, wow, whoâs the hottie? I wouldnât mind him guiding me through freshman orientation.â
âEw. No. Thatâs the one we were talking about,â the hissed female voice floats over the computers, too loud to be unintentional.
âWhich one?â the first girl replies.
âYou know! The one with the giant donkey dick.â My eyes flick up, and I see the Countâs bitch, Sutton, standing next to another girl, openly watching me.
âOh god, you mean the one whoââ
âBlew his wad before he even got it in Richelleâs pussy? Yep. Thatâs the one.â
Richelle. The name brings sour bile to the back of my throat. It all went down at the Fourth of July party on the river, sophomore year. Itâs one of the few events where weâre forced to co-mingle with the other frats. The University requires it as an attempt to keep us in the spirit of brotherhood and community service, just like the dumb charity carnival. The royal women take the brunt of it by having to work together for planning, while we mostly get drunk, fucked, and have a good time. This particular Fourth party was no differentâuntil this blonde with big tits and a barely-there bikini started following me around. She wasnât local, and had no idea who I was, which was admittedly a selling point. She started rubbing up against me in the boat dock, smelling like coconut and spiced rum, and I couldnât even think of a good excuse.
It was a weak moment. A bad day. I was coming off a dirty fightâthe kind of fight you feel like Superman for winningâand I had enough shots and Jell-O shooters to fuel a fucking jet engine. I let her grind her ass against me to the music, and then I let her drag me to her car. Ten minutes, one kiss, and some unskilled fumbling later, I was shooting off into the soft skin of her thigh.
On the upside, she never had the chance to get weird about the size of my dick.
Suttonâs eyes meet mine. She flips her hair over her shoulder as she crosses the distance between us, approaching me with an unearned swagger. âPerilini. Howâs the Royal life treating you?â
I keep my eyes on the research, scrolling the mouse. âBetter than the case of clap, youâre probably nursing.â
Suttonâs not new to the game, and she shows it by smoothly sliding her ass onto the desk, her bare, smooth legs crossing. âI was just curious. Things must be pretty chilly, considering.â
âConsidering what?â
She gives a delicate hum. âA Bruin in the belfry again. Heâs got the keys to the kingdom, and youâre just riding bitch. Figuratively speaking, of course.â I hear her smirk more than I see it. âPlus, he brought that sneering bimbo with him. You realize Lavinia Lucia is a murderer, right? To tell you the truth, we thought the Dukes were better than royal dumpster diving, but itâs really nice of you to clean up our trash. Recycling is so important.â
I click the mouse, already bored. âSince youâre their bitch again, youâd know all about Count trash being recycled.â
Thereâs a long moment where the only sound is my typing, and then, âIâm being serious.â When I finally feel irritated enough to look up, Suttonâs eyes are hard and grim. âDuke or not, youâre pre-med, like me, so Iâm going to give you some advice. Get rid of her, Perilini. Take her to some abandoned West End warehouse, put a bag over her head, pull the trigger, and give the Barons a nice stack to get rid of the body.â Her face is inscrutable, except for the flicker of displeasure when she looks away. âLavinia is trouble, but her blood runs North, which means sheâs ours. Sheâs theirs. The longer you have her, the worse the Counts are going to get.â
The chuckle comes involuntarily. âYou royal bitches never stop, do you? Youâre the pettiest, most insecure cunts in all four corners. Iâm going to let you in on a little secret.â Pitching forward, I keep my voice low and even. âThe Counts being this wound up about itâso much that they make their pet whore risk life and limb to scare me away? Itâs the only good thing about Lavinia being my Duchess. And thatâs exactly what she is now. Ours.â
She arches an eyebrow. âYou really want to kick a nest of vipers?â
âI really want to whip out my donkey dick and piss on a nest of vipers, but taking Lucia as my bitch is a close second.â
âTheyâre only going to get worse,â she insists, fingers tightening around the edge of the desk. âAnd theyâre already bad enough. Trust me.â
âIs there a reason youâre whining to me about your problems?â I ask, trying to figure out why the Cuntess is even talking to me.
âI thought you were smart, Perilini.â A long beat pulses between us, and she leans in just like I had before, voice soft and secret. âI wasnât sent here to scare you. I was sent here to distract you.â
âShit.â I jolt to my feet. âWhere is she?â
âAw, did you lose your Duchess already?â With a cluck of her tongue, she drops from the desk, turning away. âDonât whine to me about your problems.â
I push past her, trying to remember which row of books Lavinia went down. I take a calculated guess and rush down the narrow aisle, craning my neck to search. Itâs empty and so is the next. Iâm midway down a collection of medical journals when I hear two voices on the next row.
Fucking Perez.
âYou and I both know this canât last,â heâs saying, the words uttered in a harsh whisper. âIf you think kneeling for those meatheads is enough to save you, then youâre about to be disappointed.â
Thereâs a sharp cut of laughter. âPoor Bruno. You look like a goddamn mess. Daddy must really be putting the heat on you. I imagine heâs pretty disappointed in you for losing that fight.â Thereâs a pause, and then her voice emerges with a reedy tone. âNot to mention your trigger finger.â
No one calls Perez âBrunoâ, yet hereâs this little girl, calling him out.
âYou cockteasing bitch,â he mutters, followed by the sound of books dropping. âThe only reason I lost that fight is because you canât keep your mouth shut! When are you going to stop fighting and acceptââ
âIâm never going to stop fighting.â The hatred in her voice is so full of venom and steel that it even brings me up short. âIâm never going back to him, and most importantly, Iâm never going to be yours.â
Thereâs a quiet, pained sound, and then Perez hisses, âYou think I want you? You think the Dukes want you? No one does. News flash, you Smurf-haired slut; youâre the consolation prize. Youâre the bronze fucking medal of the Lucias. People take you because itâs that or nothing. Leticia was better than you in every conceivable way, and when I finally have my collar around your neck? Youâre going to pay both your debts.â
I stalk down the row, turning at the end, and feel the ocean inside me rage when they come into view.
Lavinia is pressed against the shelf, a pile of books at her feet. Perez has his forearm shoved against her throat, lips pulled back into a sneer. Spitting right into her face, he says, âThe clock is ticking, sweetheart. Even you canât manipulate your way around a Kingâs order.â
My fists tighten, vision going red in that very particular way. Itâs been years since I got into a scuffle outside of the ring, which is the only reason I unhinge my jaw enough to speak.
âTen seconds.â Perez doesnât flinch at the flat, threatening sound of my voice. In fact, when he turns just enough to glimpse me over his shoulder, he barely looks surprised. âThatâs how long Iâm going to give you to take your hands off my property. Iâd say five, but honestly, I donât like her very much. Not that itâs going to make a difference for you.â I stride toward him casually, as if Iâm taking a stroll through the titles, but the truth is I canât even feel the surface of the ocean anymore, dragged under by the thrum of my veins. âShe belongs to the Dukes, to me, which means Iâm about to make whatever my meathead brother did to you look like schoolyard roughhousing.â
Laviniaâs eyes ping from me to Perez, and the closer I get, the more I realize theyâre welling with tears. It brings me up short, because a few hours ago, I had her in the same position. I can say what I want about Lavinia, but this bitch is anything but soft. Her ability to take a little abuse is the only redeeming quality she possesses. Itâd take a lot more than a little manhandling to break her.
This means, âYouâve upset her.â Laviniaâs forehead creases at the fury in my tone, but itâs wiped away the second I snatch Perez by the neck. âOnly I get to do that.â
The ocean is a whirling, brackish froth now, and itâs made all the more turbulent by the fist Perez swings out at me, still bandaged from his amputated finger. Itâs easy to dodge, to catch his wrist in my hand, to look at the forearm heâd had pressed into my Duchessâ fucking throat, and let the ocean loose, releasing the dam.
Just a trickle.
Just enough to clutch his elbow and bring my knee up, jabbing hard into his ulna.
The bone snaps audibly, a crunchy, fleshy sort of human sound that echoes through the aisle, just as brittle as the pages around us.
Perezâs face goes slack, but only for the smallest moment. The yell comes next, strained through his gritted teeth as he flings himself back, cradling his broken arm. Redundantly, he screams, âYou broke my arm!â
This is always the hardest part, tucking the ocean away. Stilling the waves. Calming the currents. In a perfect world, I could bury the fist Iâm flexing into his jaw a few good times. Maybe a couple kicks to the kidney while heâs down. Fuck, itâd be glorious.
But I wouldnât stop.
This isnât the gym. This isnât a fight. Thereâs no rules, no boundaries, no structure. Iâd keep hitting and jabbing and crushing, until Bruno Perez was nothing but a lifeless lump of tenderized meat. Heâd deserve it, but I wouldnât. Heâs not worth doing hard time.
So I breathe hard, fighting to pull the rage back into myself. I think of my parents and the look on their faces if they got the call. I think of Nick stepping into my shoes and taking over. I think of Remy, because if I were sent away, all itâd take is one bad day, and heâd be locked up in a different kind of cell.
The reality of the consequences cycle in my head, over and over. But theyâre not what finally snaps me back to rationality.
Itâs Lavinia, lurching forward and slamming her fist right into Perezâs grimacing face. âI donât kneel to anyone, you piece of shit!â She pulls her fist back again and I see it in her eyes. This is a girl with no ocean.
Sheâs not going to stop, either.
It takes more of my strength than Iâd expect to haul her back, arm hooked around her waist as I drag her out of the aisle. Even two rows down, sheâs still struggling, mouth pulled into a snarl.
âCalm your goddamn tits,â I growl, pulling her toward the emergency exit behind the records department.
By the time we reach the door, the fightâs mostly drained out of her. âLet me go!â With one solid wrench of her body, she frees herself, shooting me a glare. âI could have gotten a few more shots in.â
I glare back. âYou always get your knuckles wet on someone elseâs kill?â
She flings her arms out. âIf the opportunity arises, then why not?â
âThat was pathetic,â I tell her. âIf heâd had a weapon or wanted to, he could have fought back.â
She rolls her eyes, turning a tight circle. âIâm fine, Simon. Thank you for asking.â
âAnd that punch was justâ¦â Shaking my head, I donât bother disguising the awe in my voice. âDid you really tuck your thumb? Has no one ever taught you how to hit someone before? That shit is embarrassing, Lucia.â Strangely, I find my lips twitching. âYou hit like a girl.â
Her eyes flash angrily and damn. She might not have the form or skill to back it up, but the pure determination in her glower could probably get her by, to a point. âI kick like a man, if you want a demonstration.â
I turn to walk toward the social sciences section, knowing instinctively sheâll follow. âI think youâve demoralized yourself enough for one day.â
As expected, the sound of her sneakers scurrying behind me makes my ears prickle. âYou broke his arm.â
Unapologetically, I confirm. âUlna. Clean break. Heâll be out of the game for a bit.â
There are a few moments where I hear nothing but the sound of her shoes, and then her quiet voice, full of malice. âGood job.â Itâs the tone that gets me. All patronizing and smug.
âLetâs make one thing clear.â Whirling around, I catch her shoulder, stopping her in her tracks. âIâm not your goddamn attack bear, Lucia. Perez got his due because you belong to the Dukes. Youâre not untouchable because youâre special.â Reaching out, I brush my fingertips over the red, angry skin on her neck. âYouâre untouchable because weâre special. Donât forget that.â
She follows me to the second floor without needing to be told, but her footfalls sound weirdly resentful, like sheâs dragging them along. Probably glaring at my back.
âSo long as Iâm untouchable.â
The knock on my door is soft but determined, and thereâs no doubt whoâs behind it. I consider not opening it at all. Itâs almost eleven, and Iâve had a long, bullshit day filled with bullshit hurdles and far too much Lavinia Lucia.
I just want to get some fucking sleep.
Tap, tap, tap.
âJesus Christ,â I mutter, resting my book on the bed. Sure enough, Lavinia, dressed in an oversized DKS hoodie and leggings, stands a few feet back, shifting her weight from foot to foot. Iâd spent an hour in the shower scrubbing the scent of her off me, while pretty much rubbing my dick raw, and here she is again, assaulting me with her⦠goddamn fucking everything.
My eyes flick over her head to where my brother leans against his own doorjamb, arms crossed over his bare chest. A hard expression is plastered across his features. Jealousy, if I know Nick as well as I think I do. This is exactly the kind of shit I didnât want to get into.
âItâs late,â I snap. Her eyes pin to my chest before roaming down to the band of boxers. I fight the urge to cover my crotch with my hands. This bitch is on my turf. Iâm not hiding my cock from her. âWhat do you want?â
Her gaze travels back up my body. âI know this isnât ideal for either of us, butâ¦â She seems to find some spine, straightening to her full height. âIâm sleeping here tonight.â
Again, I look over at Nick. Heâs watching us with a quiet intensity, but the knot in the back of his jaw tells me everything I need to know. I raise a hand toward him. âYou realize my brother would throw a goddamn parade if you slept in his bed?â
Her jaw works from side to side, weight shifting, and Iâve only spent a handful of hours with this bitch, but somehow I can read the dull, wary cast to her eyes.
The problem isnât that Nick doesnât want it.
Itâs that he does.
Heaving a labored sigh, I step back into the room. âWhy canât you just sleep in the loft like a good dog?â
She quickly follows me in, shutting the door behind herâprobably more to keep Nickâs glare off her back than anything else. âI made a deal. This is part of it. Three nights a week. Last night was Remy and the two before that were my nights off.â
I know thatâs only part of the answer, but it doesnât matter. I know why sheâs here and not across the tower. Nick has attachment disorder the strength of an h-bomb. My brother never wants something at a reasonable level. Weâre alike in that way. âComing on too strongâ is probably an understatement. Nick hasnât formed a healthy attachment in his whole goddamn life. I still donât see why that means I have to share my bed with this skank. Verity would have never made me do this shit.
Irritated, I point to the chair in the corner. âYou can sleep there.â
She rubs her temples. âIt has to be the bed, or it doesnât count.â
I glare at her. âAre you fucking kidding me? You negotiate worse than you punch!â Seething, I burst, âFine. Take the left side of the bed.â
The bed is king-size, but Iâm not a small man. I move my textbook from the middle of the mattress and replace it with two pillows to act as a barrier, giving myself the majority of the space.
Lavinia stares at it for a long moment before shaking her head. âGod, youâre weird.â
âStop acting like this isnât the reason youâd rather sleep here.â I reach for the pull on the lamp on the bedside table. âYouâd better sleep like a goddamn rock, because the second you wake me up, Iâm going to take it out of your ass.â I pull the quilt up to my stomach. âAnd donât steal the blanket. If you piss me off, Iâm taking you back to him. He can fuck you into corpsehood for all I care.â
I yank the pull, shrouding us in darkness. Itâs not enough to block her out entirely. I can still sense her, but I drag the pillow over my head and roll away, pushing my back toward her.
I donât exactly know what my brother is trying to do with all this. Make me as crazy as Remy? Whatever it is, Iâve worked too hard on my self-control, my discipline, to let a pathetic little girl like Lavinia Lucia destroy all of that just by moving into my house.