Chapter 68
The Devious Husband: Sierra and Xavier’s Story
I sigh when I hear heels clicking behind me, expecting my mother to walk into my living room like sheâs done every day for the last week, just to scold me until I showered and ate. âSaved you the hassle,â I say, refusing to get up and face her. âI showered not long ago, and I ate something sometime today. I donât remember what, but I remember doing it, so please, just leave me be today.â Iâve been sitting here ever since I got out the shower, somehow just not having had the energy to get dressed or do anything else.
Everything in my house reminds me of Sierra â especially my soap, and itâd just been too much. Iâd stood there as I remembered the times sheâd get in the shower with me, and Iâd soap up her body, touching her suggestively as I pretended to clean her body thoroughly. Sheâs giggle, until her laughter turned into moans, and then sheâd breathe my name in the moments before sheâd come. Knowing Iâd never get the experience that again was too much to bear, and Iâd walked out of the shower and sat down on the sofa with nothing but my towel on, my body still dripping wet.
âI can⦠I can come back another day if now isnât a good time. Iâm sorry, I shouldâve called.â
I rise to my feet in a rush and turn around, certain my mind is playing tricks on me. âSierra.â
She smiles shakily, her gaze roaming over my body as she takes in how wet my skin still is, her cheeks flushing. I stand there, frozen as her eyes follow a drop of water running down from my neck, to my chest and abs, until it disappears against my towel.
My wife walks around the sofa, and my eyes drop to the book sheâs holding, the one I wrote for her. âI came to return this,â she says, looking down at it.
My heart wrenches painfully, and I swallow hard as I follow her gaze. Thereâs one part of the story I omitted â just one. Iâd started writing it because Iâd planned to propose again on our one year wedding anniversary. The last few pages were meant to be all about how Iâd give her the book and Iâd watch her read it, mentally documenting all her smiles and little squeals as she reads, something Iâve really come to love doing. Iâd sit with her in our library, until she got to the part where sheâs reading all about how I got down on one knee in our front of her, and sheâd have frowned, knowing that never happened, and then sheâd have gasped when I do it in real life. Iâd tell her, âthe way this story currently ends is fictional, but I want nothing more than to make it our reality. I know I donât compare to the heroes you read about, but I will never stop trying to make your wildest dreams come trueâ. I had it all memorized, spent months working on what Iâd say. This was supposed to become her new favorite book, our story her favorite of all. Now itâs one she doesnât even want to hold on to.
I reach for it wordlessly, but she pulls it to her chest, keeping it out of my reach. âThe ending sucked,â she tells me, and my eyes meet hers. âSo I rewrote it.â
âWhat?â
Her hands tremble as she hands it to me, and I stare at it for a few seconds, scared of what Iâll find. Iâm tempted to stretch out this moment, desperately wishing I could stay here forever, in the unknown, where I donât have to acknowledge that weâre truly over. âRead it,â she whispers.
I reluctantly flip the book open and navigate to the last few pages, the ones Iâd left blank. Underneath my last sentence, in her handwriting, it reads: this isnât how The Story of Us ends. Itâs just one arc of our lives, the first real hardship we had to overcome as a couple. We nearly failed, you and I. We failed to understand each other, failed to communicate despite the promises we made, but weâll learn from it, wonât we? This book is proof of it, of how far you and I had come together, before we let our efforts go to waste.
So here I am, offering you an alternate ending. Our story has veered off course, but what if we just rewrite it together? I still love you, Xavier Kingston, and youâre still the only man Iâve ever wanted, the only one Iâve ever loved. That kind of love is worth fighting for, so here I am, asking you if youâre willing to be vulnerable with me, to acknowledge the pain weâve both caused and start healing with me.
After all, âHappily Ever Afterâ isnât a moment, itâs a choice, one we must make over and over again, every single day. Itâs a commitment to each other, a promise to keep working toward happiness, to never take it for granted or forsake it in favor of our fears and insecurities. Letâs uphold our vows, Xavier. Letâs honor the promises we made. Letâs rewrite this ending, together.
âI left some space at the end,â she says, her voice breaking. âMaybe someday, we can add a few sentences.â My wife looks at me with so much hope in her eyes, and my eyes never leave hers as I put the book down and reach for her.
Her breath hitches when I thread my hand through her hair and pull her closer, my forehead dropping to hers, her arms moving around my neck. âThere is nothing I wonât do to rewrite our ending,â I tell her, my voice breaking. âI love you so much, Sierra. Thereâs nothing I wonât do for another chance with you.â
Her hand moves up my nape, into my hair, and then her lips come crashing against mine. I groan as I pull her against me, savoring her taste, and the feel of her. Iâll never take this for granted again. Iâll never forsake her. âIâll never let you go again,â I whisper against her lips, grateful to have her here in my arms. Thereâs nothing I wonât do to ensure her happiness, nothing I wonât do to make sure she turns out to be right, and thisâll be just one arc in our story, one weâll learn from and never repeat.