Chapter 18
0°Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart
Four days later, Jenâs confidence in her ability to control her emotions began to crumble. Keeping an emotional distance from Cash was harder than sheâd thought, especially when he was intent on being so wonderfully wonderful. He cooked for her, offered encouragement while she worked on putting together a portfolio, made her breathless with his kisses and dizzy with desire.
Theyâd spent nearly every waking moment together, except for the night Dylan came over to watch football again. Thereâd been no follow-up to their threesome, though. As fun as it had been, Jen only wanted Cash in her bed now. Thankfully, Dylan hadnât seemed to mind that sex wasnât on the table. Which didnât surprise herâshe got the feeling nothing fazed that guy.
âI get it, Mom. Sheâs unhappy.â
Cashâs mumbled voice drifted into the room, breaking Jenâs concentration. She lifted her gaze from the laptop screen and spotted him pacing the hallway in front of the open bedroom door.
âIâll do it now, okay? Uh-huhâ¦uh-huhâ¦got it. Iâll email you later. Uh-huh⦠Love you too⦠Say hi to Dad.â
Silence ensued, finally broken by a soft expletive from Cash, who entered the room, sank on the edge of the bed and dragged a hand through his hair.
âWhatâs wrong?â Jen asked. âWhat was that phone call about?â
He set his jaw. âThat was my mother.â
âIs she okay?â
âYeah.â
Jen waited for him to continue. When he didnât, she rolled her eyes. âCome on, cowboy, spit it out.â
âIâ¦â He was gritting his teeth now. âI need a favor.â
âOkayâ¦â
âI wouldnât ask you this if it wasnât important.â
A million possibilities ran through her head. âLet me guessâyou need me to serve as the getaway driver for the bank robbery youâre planning.â She paused. âWait, that makes no sense. Your parents are loaded.â
âRight, thatâs why it makes no sense.â
âFine, then you need me toâ¦kill someone for you? Wait, no. You could easily kill someone all by yourseââ
âI need you to take my picture,â he interrupted.
She gawked at him. âSeriously? Thatâs whatâs getting your panties in a knot? Donât tell me youâve never had your picture taken.â
Misery clung to his voice. âItâs not that.â
âThen what is it?â
âMy birthday was last month.â
âHappy belated birthday?â
Cash scowled. âI wasnât done. Anyway, the team was OCONUS so I didnât get to spend my birthday with my family, but my parents flew in for a visit a few weeks ago, and they brought a present my grandmother made me. Now she keeps harassing them, wanting to know if I liked it.â
âWhat was it?â
âA sweater.â He didnât elaborate. âI called to thank her, but apparently she doesnât believe I like it. Sheâs demanding I send photographic evidence of me wearing the sweater so she knows Iâm not lying.â
âThat seems a littleâ¦strange.â
âSheâs a strange woman,â he muttered. âScratch that, sheâs absolutely nuts. Thatâs one of the reasons my mom left home when she was a teenager. My grandmother has some issues. Serious case of OCD, gets hysterical at the drop of a hat, disapproves of anything she doesnât understand. Iâm not looking forward to spending the holidays with her this year, thatâs for sure.â
âLetâs not get ahead of ourselves. Weâll deal with this picture problem for now.â She closed her laptop and climbed off the bed. âI left my camera in the living room. Why donât you put on the sweater and meet me out there?â
As she headed for the doorway, she noticed Cash hadnât budged.
âWhat now?â she asked with a sigh.
His cheeks hollowed and she could practically hear his molars grinding. âBefore we do this, you have to promise me something.â
She waited.
âYou canât laugh,â he said in a deadly voice.
âI wonât laugh. Whatâs the promise?â
âNo, thatâs the promise. You have to promise not to laugh.â
She wrinkled her forehead. âOh. Okay. I promise.â
She slid out the door, hearing Cashâs low curses as he rummaged around in the closet. In the living room, she grabbed her camera and peered through the lens, snapping a couple of test shots to assess the lighting in the room. She adjusted the shutter speed and aperture until she was pleased with the results.
Five minutes passed and Cash still didnât make an appearance.
âYou coming?â Jen called.
Heavy footsteps thudded from the hall, then ceased.
âI promised I wouldnât laugh,â she told the empty doorway. âNow get that sexy ass out here and letâs start this photo shoot before I change myââ
Her words died in her throat when he stepped out.
And God help her, but even though sheâd promised not to laugh, she couldnât help herself. Doubling over, Jen laughed so hard she thought her ribs would crack. When she started wheezing, she clutched her side and dropped her gaze to her feet.
âIâm going to pee my pants,â she choked out between giggles. âI canât look at you.â
âThanks, thanks a lot,â he muttered. âIâll just go hang myself now.â
âNo, donât. Iâm sorry, I couldnât help myself.â She wiped the corners of her eyes. âIâll be good now, I swear.â
He tilted his head in the most adorable way. âItâs not that bad, is it?â
âItâs the most bizarre thing Iâve ever seen.â
She gave the sweater a long once-over, trying to figure out what the hell she was seeing. Itâd been knitted out of pink and green wool, clearly handmade judging by the uneven stitching and lopsided neckline. And as if the pink and green stripes werenât distracting enough, Cashâs grandmother had stitched an image in the center of the sweater. Jen suspected it was supposed to be Cash, since the disproportioned male figure wore a uniform. A red uniform. With a black helmet. And she didnât even want to know what he was holding in his hands.
She started to get dizzy from all the colors flashing at her. Pink, green, red, black. She swallowed another gust of laughter. âIs that you?â
His jaw was tighter than a drum. âYes.â
âWhy are you holding a dildo?â
Cash briefly closed his eyes, as if trying to talk himself out of murdering her. âItâs a shotgun.â
âWhy would a Navy SEAL carry a shotgun?â
âBecause she couldnât find a pattern for an assault rifle.â
âOh.â Jen clamped her lips together to stifle another giggle. âAnd why is the uniform red? Are you supposed to be a guard at Buckingham Palace?â
âCan you just take the fucking picture?â
She was still giggling as she picked up the camera and aimed it at Cash. She took a candid shot, then glanced at the digital display and laughed at the stony expression on his face.
âYou have to smile for the next one. Otherwise your grandmother will know exactly what you think of her sweater.â
For the next twenty minutes, Jen had an absolute blast ordering him around. She snapped far more shots than necessary, but she couldnât help herself. The sight of tough guy Cash in that pink and green sweater was too tempting an opportunity to ignore. She made him pose by the window, in the living room, in the kitchen. Sitting, standing, striking a thoughtful finger-on-the-chin pose.
But all bets were off when she tried to persuade him to lie on the couch in the ultimate male pin-up pose. Thatâs when he promptly grabbed the camera from her hands and announced heâd had enough.
âWeâre done,â he declared, then proceeded to strip off his sweater as if it was covered in ants. âAnd Iâm officially never wearing this thing again.â To punctuate the declaration, he whipped the sweater on the couch. âNow, do you want to grab some lunch at the grill on 4th? Iâm in the mood for a steak.â
âAt three oâclock in the afternoon?â
âAfter what you just put me through, I feel like a juicy T-bone is the only thing that will reaffirm my masculinity.â
With a sassy smile, Jen stalked over and cupped his package over his pants. âMmm. I could go for a juicy T-bone myself.â
He rewarded her with a wicked grin. âBaby, I like the way your mind works.â
âHow about my mouth? Do you like the way that works too?â She dropped to her knees and unzipped his pants. Heâd gone commando and his erection sprang out with an excited bob.
Licking her lips, she dipped her head and licked a little circle around the head of his cock.
Cash groaned, his hands immediately moving to tangle in her hair. His hips thrust forward, the hard length of him seeking her mouth.
She swiftly pulled back. âUh-uh, you donât get any sexy time until you do one thing for me.â
His eyes narrowed. âWhatâs that?â
âPut the sweater back on.â
Sadie Beckerâs first birthday party was in full swing when Cash and Jen arrived the next afternoon. Becker and Jane lived in a modest, two-story home in Coronado, and though the house itself was smaller than most in the area, the backyard made up for that. The large, perfectly manicured lawn was big enough to house a decent-sized swimming pool, a swing set, an enormous pine deck with a table that seated ten, and a stone patio littered with childrenâs toys.
Bright pink balloons hung from the tall fence surrounding the yard, and tables laden with food had been set up on the patio. A few dozen people milled around the yard, most of whom Cash recognized. Stepping onto the deck, he and Jen dropped Sadieâs gift off with Janeâs older sister, Elizabeth, a tall, slender blonde who looked nothing like her curvy, redheaded sister.
Speaking of the curvy redhead, Cash spotted Jane holding court by the refreshment table, chatting with a few women Cash had never met. She had one-year-old Sadie propped on her hip, and now there was a clear resemblance. The baby had a head of shocking red hair and big blue eyes just like her mother, but the expression of intense consternation on the kidâs face was all Becker.
âLetâs go say hi to everyone,â Jen said, searching the crowd.
Cash longed to hold her hand, but he resisted the urge. Theyâd already agreed thereâd be no PDA today, or anything else that could reveal theyâd been sleeping together for the past two weeks. The last thing he wanted to do was get into it with Carson, not in a backyard full of people they knew. Besides, keeping the fling on the down-low was probably for the best, considering it was supposed to end soon.
Supposed to being the operative words.
Because no way was Cash letting this end. For the first time in his life, heâd found a woman he actually connected with. A woman he had no problem communicating with. A woman who captured his attention in and out of bed.
Jen was the quirkiest, funniest, most amazing person heâd ever known. He loved the sound of her laughter. Her sunny smiles. The way she left yellow sticky notes all over the apartment to remind herself to do things. And sheâd started leaving him notes, tooâthis morning heâd found a Post-it on the bathroom mirror, with Jenâs feminine scrawl saying, âTop of the morning to you, cowboy!â
Yeahâ¦he wasnât ready to let her go yet. Not by a long shot.
âJen, Cash!â On the steps of the deck, Annabelle waved them over. Next to her were Savannah Harte, Shelby Garrett and a woman Cash didnât recognize.
âCash, do you know Mackenzie?â Annabelle asked, gesturing to the woman at her side. âSheâs married to Will.â
âItâs nice to meet you.â As he shook Mackenzieâs hand, he couldnât help but notice what a knockout she was. Tall and slender, with long black hair and blue eyes that sparkled when she smiled at him.
âWill told me about you,â Mackenzie said warmly. âHe said you were one of the most determined men heâs ever met and that you kicked ass during BUD/S training.â
Cash hid his surprise. Will actually said that? Receiving a compliment from the brooding SEAL, who was now an instructor on the base, occurred about as often as an eclipse. It surprised him that Lieutenant Will Charleston had mentioned Cash to his wife at all.
âI had no choice,â Cash replied ruefully. âHe was too intimidating. Every time I got tempted to quit, I pictured myself ringing that bell while the LT stood there glaring at me, and I knew I couldnât live with that kind of embarrassment. Is he here today?â
Mackenzie pointed to the pool deck. âOver there.â
He followed her gaze, instantly spotting Will. The mirrored Aviators and unruly black hair were a giveaway, but the menacing air the man exuded during Cashâs training was missing. Probably because Will held a wiggling dark-haired toddler in his arms: his son, Lucas.
John Garrett stood next to Will, also with his hands fullâtwo-year-old Penny kept grabbing at the beer bottle in her fatherâs hand, which he kept moving out of her grasp.
Garrettâs wife, Shelby, giggled when she saw what her daughter was up to. âSheâs got a fascination with bottles of all things,â the blonde revealed. âShe tries jamming all her fingers into the bottle like sheâs digging for treasure.â
Smiling, Jen searched the yard again. âHey, are my brother and Holly here?â
âThey were,â Annabelle replied. âI donât know where they disappeared to.â
From the refreshment table, Jane suddenly caught Cashâs eye and flashed him a delighted smile.
âWe should say hi to the birthday girl,â Cash said as he waved hello to Jane.
He and Jen drifted away, passing several men Cash knew from the base. He said a few hellos, then caught sight of Dylan and Jackson near the swing set, holding paper plates and munching on appetizers. Ryan and Matt stood a few feet away, beers in their hands, heads bent in deep conversation. He looked around in search of Seth, but their resident badass was MIA. No surprise thereâSethâs dislike of kids was no secret. No doubt heâd already come by to drop off a gift, said a quick hello, and hightailed it home.
âIâm so glad you could make it,â Jane said when they approached.
Baby Sadie made a delighted gurgling sound as her big eyes focused on the new arrivals.
âHey there,â Jen crooned, leaning in to kiss Sadieâs forehead. âHappy birthday, cutie.â
âGah!â
Jane grinned. âThat means thank-you.â She shifted Sadie to her other hip and gestured to the food table behind her. âWe decided not to barbequeââ She rolled her eyes, ââbecause Becker is scared the smoke from the grill will give our daughter cancer. But Holly prepared a bunch of yummy dishesâthereâs like five different kinds of salad, mini sandwiches, apps and a bunch of other finger foods. So help yourself, okay?â
âEverything looks delicious,â Jen said, reaching for two plates. âWhere is Holly, by the way?â
Jane wrinkled her brow. âI donât know. I havenât seen her since she set up the tables.â
Carson was noticeably absent too. Cash wasnât sure if that was a good sign, or a bad one. As much as he didnât want to imagine his lieutenant screwing around, he hoped Carson and Holly were inside getting it on somewhere. At least that would mean they were on their way to fixing the problems between them.
âIâm sure theyâll turn up soon,â Cash said, catching Jenâs frown. âCome on, letâs have something to eat.â
They spent the next twenty minutes chatting with Jane while they scarfed down some food. People drifted over to say hello, including Dylan and Jackson.
âSo youâre the Texan,â Jen said, giving Jackson a thorough once-over.
Cash knew she liked what she saw. Women went wild for the smooth-talking Texan, with his wavy brown hair and tall muscular frame. The guy lived in faded blue jeans, plaid shirts and combat boots, which made him appear laidback but at the same time tough.
Jackson winked. âAnd youâre even more beautiful than everyone described, sugar.â
âWhat the hell, Texas?â Jane grumbled. âWhy donât you ever call me sugar?â
âWhy donât I call you sugar?â Jackson hooked a thumb behind her. âThatâs why.â
Next thing Cash knew, Becker was barreling toward them with a surprising spring to his step. âThereâs my little angel,â he said happily, in no way resembling the man whoâd picked them up at the police station the other night. This Becker was relaxed and overjoyed, smiling broadly as he greeted his kid.
Sadie wiggled in her motherâs arms and stuck out her chubby fists in Beckerâs direction. âGah!â she cried.
Becker gave everyone a brisk nod. âThat means dad.â He promptly scooped Sadie out of Janeâs arms and tucked her against his chest.
âIt means everything,â Jane muttered under her breath. âItâs the only word she says.â
âThanks for coming,â Becker told the guys. He glanced at Jen. âYou too, Jen. Iâm sorry to hear about the troubles youâve been having with your ex-boyfriend.â
She shrugged. âThanks, but I think the troubleâs come to an end.â
Cash casually squeezed her arm before she could say more. He didnât want her bringing up the bar fight and reigniting Beckerâs anger.
âSo the little princess is growing up,â Cash said, reaching out to touch one of Sadieâs tiny hands.
She immediately curled her whole fist around his index finger and squeezed. Man, the kid was strong. Then again, she was the offspring of Thomas Becker, so no surprise there.
âShe sure is.â Becker planted an indulgent kiss on the tuft of red hair atop Sadieâs head. âAnd sheâs smart as a whip. Sheââ He halted, his eyes narrowing as he gazed at something behind Cash. Then he made an annoyed sound and turned to glare at his wife. âWhy the fu-fudge did you invite Steven?â
Jane was clearly braver than Cash and the others, because she didnât cower under Beckerâs hard stare. âIt was the polite thing to do.â
âPolite? That lunatic nearly killed our child.â
Cash and Jen exchanged WTF looks.
âIt was harmless fun!â Jane shot back.
âWhoâs Steven?â Jen asked tentatively.
Becker jammed a finger across the backyard. Everyone followed his gaze, but the only person in their line of sight was a chubby woman with a cherub-cheeked infant in her arms.
âWaitâStevenâs the baby?â Dylan said, looking confused.
âSpawn of Satan,â Becker corrected.
Jane sighed. âBeck tags along for my Mommy and Me program.â Which she sounded incredibly unthrilled about. âLast time we were there, Steven crawled over to Sadie and knocked her over. It was nothing. They both got giggly about it and wiggled around on the floor afterwards.â
Becker looked livid. âThat baby had malevolence in his eyes, Jane. He knew exactly what he was doing whenââ
âWho wants to help me refill the beer cooler?â Jane interrupted, turning away from her husband.
Cash spoke first. âIâll do it.â
He resisted doing a victory dance as Dylan, Jackson, and Jen all scowled at him in betrayal. Whatever. He didnât feel the slightest bit of remorse over saddling them with Becker. Babies with malevolence in their eyes? Fatherhood had clearly turned the commander into a crazy person.
Besides, Cash had been hoping to get Jane alone today. Now that the opportunity had presented itself, he pounced on it, trailing after the redhead as she headed for the house.
âWe stored all the alcohol in the fridge in the basement.â Jane opened a door in the hallway, pulled a metal string, and light illuminated a narrow staircase.
âIâm glad we have a moment alone,â Cash said as they trudged down to the basement. âThere was something I wanted to talk to you about.â
She looked intrigued. âOkay.â
The Beckersâ basement was unfinished, a large dusty room cluttered with boxes. Jane walked over to a large freezer against the far wall and leaned in to grab a case of beer, which Cash promptly took from her hands and set on the floor. âLet me do it. How many cases do you want to bring out?â
âTwo or three should be fine.â
As he grabbed two more and added them to the pile, Jane leaned against the wall. âSo what did you want to talk about?â
He hesitated before reaching into his back pocket for the flash drive heâd shoved there. Guilt pricked his gut. He hated going behind Jenâs back, but he knew that if left to her own devices, she would keep stalling, the way she had for the past five days.
Despite her insistence that she was ready to seriously pursue photography, sheâd already started second-guessing herself again, this time with the photos she wanted to include in her portfolio. Since no papers or magazines in the area had any open full-time positions, her best bet was to submit work to a bunch of places in hopes of landing a freelance gig, but the way she was agonizing over this portfolio, it would take years before she sent any submissions out.
Thatâs why heâd wanted to talk to Jane. Before marrying Becker, sheâd worked for a big-time magazine in L.A., and Cash was hoping she could put feelers out with her former editor. But he knew theyâd need to see Jenâs work, and he also knew Jen wouldnât dream of sending stuff to such a prestigious publication.
Cash shifted his feet. âYou still keep in contact with your editor at Todayâs World, right?â
âYeah, why?â
He rolled the flash drive between his fingers, battling another pang of guilt as he remembered how heâd snuck onto Jenâs laptop when she was in the shower earlier and copied her entire picture folder onto this drive.
âJenâs a photographer,â he started. âAnd sheâs damn good.â
âReally? I had no idea.â
âShe doesnât advertise it. And I donât think she realizes how talented she actually is, but trust me, sheâs the real deal. The thing is, sheâs too scared to show her work to anyone. She just started researching where she can submit to, but I remembered that you worked at Todayâs World and I figured it wouldnât hurt to ask you to take a look at this.â He held out the USB stick. âAll her stuff is on this.â
Jane tucked it in her front pocket. âSure, Iâd be happy to take a look. And if her photographs are as good as you say, Iâm happy to forward them to the photo editor at TW. Heâs always on the lookout for talented freelancers.â
âWow, that would be amazing. Thanks, Jane.â
She tilted her head pensively. âWhy didnât Jen just ask me herself?â
âUmâ¦well, she doesnât exactly know Iâm talking to you. Actually, if you donât mind, Iâd like it if we kept this between us.â
Her bewilderment grew. âWhy?â
âI donât want her to think Iâm overstepping my bounds and messing around with her career. Sheâs got this blog where she posts her pictures. I can send you the link, and if your editor likes her work and wants to meet with her, maybe he can pretend he came across her blog.â Cash offered a sheepish shrug. âThat way Jen will feel like she did it on her own, you know?â
Jane stared at him, slack-jawed.
âWhat?â he mumbled.
âYouâre sleeping with her,â she accused.
âNo,â he said in a half-ass denial. âWeâre friends, thatâs all.â
âBullshit.â Jane grinned. âYouâre sleeping together. And not only that, but you care about her, donât you?â
Continuing to deny it was fruitless. Jane would see right through it.
âYeah, I care about her.â
âA lot.â
âA lot,â he conceded.
âOh, Hot Stuff, youâve really gone and done it now.â
Cash arched a brow. Hot Stuff?
As if reading his mind, she waved a hand. âYeah, thatâs what all the wives and girlfriends call you. Deal with it. Anyway, you know Carson will kick your ass, right?â
âI know.â He let out a breath. âI tried to keep my hands off her, but she was determined to seduce me.â
Jane laughed. âHow long did you manage to hold out for?â
âTwo days.â
âThatâs actually pretty impressive, considering thatâ¦well, that youâre a man.â She paused. âWhat about Jen? Does she feel the same way?â
Discomfort rippled through him. âShe insists weâre only having a fling.â
âBecker insisted the same thing when we first got together. Donât worry, they always come to their senses eventually.â
He had to smile. âThatâs reassuring.â
âSheâd be crazy not to want something more. Youâre a great guy, Hot Stuff. A real catch. Sheâll figure it out sooner or later.â
âI hope so.â
Jane stood on her tiptoes and kissed his cheek. âShe will. Now, will you be a doll and carry these cases upstairs for me?â
âSure thing.â
Her sandals clicked on the wooden steps as she hurried up them. Cash bent and picked up the cases, easily carting all three up the stairs. He was two feet from the kitchen when a familiar voice caught his attention.
âCan we please just talk about this?â
Carson.
He followed the voice to a closed door off to the left. The hall bathroom, he guessed, and when a female voice joined Carsonâs, Cash realized the lieutenant wasnât alone.
âFor Godâs sake, weâre at Sadieâs birthday party. We can talk about this later.â
Holly.
Cash breathed a sigh of relief. Okay, well, at least Carson was in there with his wife, and not some member of the catering staff.
He felt guilty for even considering the latter as a legit possibility, but the memory of Carson with another woman hadnât left Cashâs head. Unfortunately, the identity of the woman remained a mystery since Carson was once again avoiding Jenâs phone calls.
âYou canât tell me seeing Penny and Sadie and Lucas doesnât make you want the same thing for us.â
âWhat I want is to fix this rift between us. A baby isnât the solution, Carson.â
âItâll bring us closer together, you know it will. And Iâm ready for this.â He sounded desperate. âBesides, itâll be nice for our kid to be around other kids his age. Heâll have an instant playmate in Penny andââ
Holly cut in angrily. âYou want to knock me up so that Garrett and Shelbyâs daughter has someone to play with?â
Cash stifled a sigh. Carson was really digging himself into a hole.
âThatâs not the only reason. Iâm getting older, babe. I just turned thirty-four. I donât want to be an old dad.â
âThen you shouldnât have married a woman whoâs five years younger than you! You shouldâve married one whose biological clock lines up with yours!â
Edging away from the doorway, Cash readjusted his grip on the beer cases. He felt like a shit for eavesdropping, especially now that the argument had treaded into TMI territory.
But he didnât escape fast enoughâthe bathroom door suddenly swung open and Holly flew into the hall.
She froze when she spotted him, instantly reaching up to wipe the tears welling up in her eyes. Her mouth opened as if she wanted to say something, but then a little sob escaped and she hurried past him. She rushed out the front door, which slammed with gusto.
A second later, Carson burst out of the bathroom, frustration clearly etched into his features.
When he saw Cash, some of the craziness left his eyes. âYou heard all that?â he said in a weary voice.
Cash nodded.
âFuck. Fuck. I donât know what to do anymore, man. I canât fucking stand having her mad at me all the time.â Carson raked both hands through his blond hair, then took a determined step. âI have to go after her.â
Cash hastily moved into the other manâs path. âI think you should probably give her some space.â
âSpace,â Carson echoed, his tone wary.
âHold up, let me put these away.â Without waiting for an answer, he quickly ducked into the kitchen and dropped the beer cases on the counter.
When he returned to the hall, he studied Carsonâs ravaged face and softened his tone. âLet her be for a while. Maybe Jen should go and talk to her. Theyâre close, right?â
âMy sisterâs the one who got my wife riled up in the first place,â Carson snapped. âShe filled her head with all these ideas about how weâre not communicating. Like Jennyâs one to dish out relationship advice, for fuckâs sake. Any advice, for that matter. Her taste in men sucks, she canât hold a damn job, sheâs the biggest underachiever Iâve ever known, sheââ
âEnough,â Cash growled.
Carson blinked in shock. âWhat the fuck, McCoy?â
âDonât talk about Jen like that,â he snapped, trying to control his anger. âI get that sheâs your little sister, but sheâs not a child, Carson. Sheâs a grown woman, and itâs pretty fucking sad that you donât know a thing about her. Sheâs intelligent and kind and talented and she deserves a helluva lot more respect than what you give her.â
Deafening silence followed.
Cash caught his breath, instantly regretting the outburst, but the damage had already been done.
Understanding dawned on Carsonâs face, along with the hard glint of accusation. âYouâre sleeping with her.â
Cash held the eye contact. âYes.â
âYouâre sleeping with my sister. Jesus Christ, McCoy. I told you I didnât want you messing around with Jenny.â
âJen,â Cash corrected. âAnd yes, I didnât listen to you, okay? But I donât regret getting involved with her. I care about her. Sheâs amazing, and itâs a damn shame you canât see that.â
Carson clearly heard the possessive note in Cashâs voice, because his eyes blazed again. âYou care about her? You expect me to buy that?â
âItâs the truth.â
Carson swore savagely. âThis ends now. I donât want you playing games with Jenny.â
âIâm not playing games,â he said evenly, crossing his arms. âAnd Iâm not ending it. I told you, I care aboutââ
For the second time that week, a fist came flying at Cashâs face.
And yet again, the knuckles caught him in the side of the mouth, ripping open the cut that had just began to heal. Blood spurted and dripped down his chin, but this time Cash didnât fight back.
He just stood there and eyed Carson. âYou done?â
The other man was breathing heavily, his fists clenched as he glared at Cash like he wanted to kill him. âYeah, Iâm done,â Carson spat out. âAnd so is your involvement with my sister.â
âWhat the hell is going on?â
Both men spun to see Jen standing at the end of the hall. Shock and horror contorted her features. When she caught sight of Cashâs face, she raced over and damned if she didnât blot the blood on his lip with the sleeve of her thin blue cardigan.
Keeping her sleeve there to staunch the blood flow, she turned to glower at her brother. âWhat the hell is the matter with you?â
âMe?â Carson said bitterly. âWhatâs the matter with you? Youâre the one sleeping with McCoy.â
Jen remained completely unfazed. âSo what if I am? Who I sleep with is none of your business.â
âIt is when itâs my teammate youâre fucking.â
She flinched, but recovered quickly. âSo what?â she said again. âYou just said itâCash is your teammate. Heâs your friend. I donât see how you can be so opposed to this.â
âIâm opposed because I know the way he operates,â Carson retorted, speaking as if Cash wasnât standing right there. âHe doesnât do relationships. One-night stands and casual flings, thatâs all heâs interested in, isnât that right, McCoy?â
Cash decided now wasnât the time to admit he wanted more with Jen, so he wisely kept his mouth shut.
âYou deserve better than that,â Carson told his sister. âYou deserve someone whoâll love you and honor you andââ
âAre you kidding me?â she interrupted.
She dropped her sleeve from Cashâs mouth and got right in her brotherâs faceâwell, more like his chest, seeing as Carson was a foot taller than her. But Jen didnât back down, and her petite frame vibrated with anger.
âYouâre such a hypocrite, Carson! Love and honor? Isnât that what you promised your wife when you recited those wedding vows?â
Carson jerked as if heâd been shot. âWhat the fuck does Holly have to do with this?â
âYou tell me,â Jen snapped. âWere you loving and honoring her when you were sneaking around meeting your little angel?â
Her brotherâs face paled.
âJen,â Cash said cautiously. âMaybe now is not the time toââ
âNow is definitely the time, Cash! Heâs standing here passing judgment on us when we both know what heâs been up to.â She glared at her brother. âWho was that redhead you met at Starbucks?â
Carsonâs ashen face took on a hint of defeat, and his broad shoulders sagged beneath his white button-down.
For a moment, Cash felt a pang of sympathy for the guy, which intensified when he remembered the heart-wrenching argument Carson and Holly had been having only minutes ago. He suspected there was more to the story than he and Jen would ever know, but rather than clarify or explain, Carson simply released a ragged breath.
âIâm not talking about this with you,â he mumbled, edging away.
Jen gaped at him. âThatâs it? Youâre just going to avoid the subject? Cash and I saw you. And I heard you on the phone with another woman. Not even an explanation?â
âI donât owe you any explanations.â
âWell, then apparently I donât owe you one either.â She looked at Cash. âWe should go.â
He touched his swollen lip and his hand came back stained red. âYouâre probably right.â
âWhy donât you clean up your face and wait for me here?â she said tersely. âIâll tell Jane and everyone you said goodbye. That way you wonât have to go out there and scare the kids with all that blood.â
Without sparing a glance at her brother, Jen marched away.
The two men remained, eyeing each other. Cash cleared his throat, knowing he ought to say something, anything, but he couldnât bring himself to apologize. Not about his feelings for Jen, anyway.
Unfortunately, Carson didnât give him a chance to speak. With one final scowl, the man stalked off and then the front door slammed again.
Shit. This was one headache he definitely didnât need.
Cash ducked into the bathroom and studied his face in the mirror. He was no longer bleeding, but his mouth and jaw were bathed in blood, making him look like an extra in a horror movie. Sighing, he turned the faucet and bent to wash the blood off. He dried his face using toilet paper, not wanting to use Jane and Beckerâs white hand towels in case the cut reopened.
When he stepped back in the hall, Jen was waiting, her mouth set in an angry line. âI canât believe him,â she muttered. âI know my brother can be an asshole, but this was something else.â
âDonât be too hard on him. I think he was angrier with himself than with me. I kind of showed up at the tail end of his argument with Holly.â
âThey were fighting?â
âYeah, and Carson took out his frustration on me. Iâm sure heâll come crawling back with an apology once he cools down.â
At least he hoped so. Because no matter what Carson thoughtâor wantedâCash had no intention of walking away from Jen.