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I felt like I could conquer the world after our intimate moment that night. Having the right person by my side with the whole universe being witness to our exchange of oaths, I knew there was nothing else I had to hide, and that moving forward will be a breeze as long as I had him by my side.

"Let's get you home, you need all the rest you can get.", Tawan said.

But I didn't want to leave just yet, I wanted to savor the moment and cherish it with him.

"Let's sleep together tonight.", I replied as I stopped midway our tracks out of the balcony.

Tawan stopped in shock too, and it was clear to me what he thought I meant when I said those words.

"Are you sure?", He asked, but not in an exciting manner. He was rather concerned.

I held his hand and brushed it softly, the small strands of hair on the surface brushing against my fingers.

"Of course. After this night, I won't be able to come back to the way I was before. My youth will officially end when I start my therapy, and with that I'd like to spend my last day as a teenager with you."

He sighed heavily before giving me a smile and guided me back to his room again.

"Stay here for a bit, I'll go get something."

Moments after he came back with a set of toiletries and a towel hung on his shoulders.

"Would you like to take a shower?"

"Sure.", I said as I took the towel in his hand.

When I walked towards the bathroom, an idea suddenly hit me and I turned at Tawan who was happily taking his own trip down the memory lane with all the pictures on the wall.

"Tawan?", I called for him from the bathroom door.

"Yes? do you need anything else?"

"Nothing..just, do you wanna take a shower together?"

His jaw dropped the moment I asked him to take a shower with me. I too, was shocked with the words that came out of my mouth, but it was already too late to withdraw. I guess it was something I wanted so bad that my mouth did the talking without actually thinking.

"I--I'm fine, you can go first.", He replied, completely feeling awkward as he stood a few feet away from me. He was brushing his hands repeatedly in his pants, and he looked funny because he looked agitated when he replied.

I walked out of the room and towards him, who still stood like a rock as I moved. When I got in front of him, Tawan's face was red and he couldn't maintain his eye contact.

"You're cute when you act like that.", I said as I touched his adam's apple. It was glistening with all the sweat coming from his face, and every now and then he gulped, his symbol of masculinity constantly moving up and down. It looked seductive though, and I couldn't keep myself from being deeply attracted to his adam's apple.

"H-hey, don't touch it.", He said as he softly brushed my hand off.

"Are you gonna shower with me or not?"

He gave me a few glances before he agreed, and we both went inside the bathroom.

It was a small bathroom that was clearly intended for a single person to use, but we could still fit comfortable even if we stretched our limbs. The floor was cold and marbled, and it was the only part of the room that had an accent. The walls, sink, and the tub itself were all painted white. A huge mirror covers a big portion of the wall, and below it was a counter where a single sink was located. In the white light that shone on the ceiling, the bathroom looked so pristine and organized.

"Is this your first time coming here? why are you behind me?"

"No, but this is my first time taking a shower with someone."

He was still awkward having me around that he refused having eye contact with me, and he either looked at the ceiling or the marbled floor. I grabbed his face with both of my hands and forced him to look at me.

"Calm down babe, we're only taking a shower."

I knew he wouldn't buy it, but I said it anyway to calm him down. At that point I thought as well that we were only going to take a shower, and if anything happened other than that would be something neither of us initially planned.

I let go of his face and proceeded to undress myself. I took off my shirt instantly and only had my pants on, but Tawan was still standing there.

"Hey, if you're not comfortable bathing with me, you can always say no.", I said as I smiled at him. Of course I wanted to experience the intimacy of taking a bath with him, but I wouldn't force him to do it if it makes him uncomfortable.

"I'll head on to the shower okay?", I continued.

A glass partition separated the shower from the remaining space, and when I entered it I was greeted by of course, the shower and Tawan's bathing essentials placed on a compartment on the wall. There were many bottles of skincare products. From facial wash products to body scrubs, he pretty much had everything. If I didn't know it was his bathroom, I would have thought it was a woman's.

I entered the shower area and closed the glass door behind me as I opened the shower. The icy feeling of the cold floor suddenly turned warm with the hot water coming from the shower, and soon enough the whole place was covered in steam. I started lathering my body with soap, and while I was scrubbing my body, I heard the door swing open. It was still steamy, but I definitely knew it was Tawan.

He was stripped of all clothing, and his damp hair was covering his eyes. When our eyes met, he still seemed a bit awkward that it made me laugh a bit.

"I...", Instead of continuing his words, he snatched the soap from me and turned me around opposite to him. He then started to rub the soap on my back and into my neck, trailing down my arms.

We were so close from each other that as he scrubbed through my body, I can hear his breathing. We were both silent, my eyes closed as his fingers travelled down my body. His breath felt very warm on my nape, like the water from the shower as it landed on my skin. While his other hand did the scrubbing, the other made its way into my torso, travelling around my chest and down to my pelvis. I felt a tingling sensation run down my spine as his delicate fingers danced on my skin, every touch sending me into an ecstatic state.

I couldn't quite describe the feeling, but it was really hot. It wasn't because of the water or the steam, but rather due to the immense heat that both our bodies gave off as we stood naked in that closed space. When he was done scrubbing, he turned me around and gave me the soap.

"Mind scrubbing me back?", He said.

This time, he was no longer feeling awkward. Nothing but affection filled the ting space as I took the soap away from him. He immediately turned around, his broad back facing me. Amid the steam partially hindering our eyesight, I had the clearest view of his whole body. It was masculine, but not overly buff. His tan complexion was gleaming with the beads of water trailing down his bare skin, and his waist was so sexy, I found myself controlling the urge to hold it with my hands.

When I scrubbed the soap into his nape, he let out a moan.

"Are you okay?"

"Y-yes...it's just.."

"Just what?"

"It's ticklish"

I couldn't see his face as he was facing the wall, but with the way he sounded, I knew what exactly he felt.

I continued scrubbing his body, and as my fingers walked off the surface of his bare skin, I felt how toned his body was. It was not overly muscular, and it still felt soft although he looked buff. My hand travelled from his neck down his chest, then his stomach. It was soft and squishy, just like a kid's tummy, but of course his abs can still be felt.

By the time we were done scrubbing, the soap had already gone dry on my skin and I felt all sticky. Tawan grabbed the head of the shower and opened it, sprinkling water on me. As the dried soap on my skin started wearing off, he brushed it down the drain using his hand. He massaged my skin so gently despite the tremendous strength his hand possessed. I still couldn't believe that the hands caressing my skin were the same hands that fought countless of people.

"See? It's very fun sharing the shower with someone."

"Only if I'm sharing it with you."

Amid the steam the filled the bathroom, I could see his lips form into a smile when he talked to me. He then turned off the shower and reached for the shampoo. He grabbed my palm and placed a generous amount of the liquid, and then on his.

"Place it on mine.", I said as I rubbed my palm on his damp hair. He did the same to me and we played as we massaged each other's scalp. As his long fingers massaged through the strands of my hair, I felt sleepy and weak. His fingers had a way of making my body feel submissive to him, with each touch holding me captive in his dominance.

"Shall we wash up?", He asked me.

I nodded, and we took turns scraping the remnants of the soap in our bodies along with the shampoo in our heads. It was only a small matter of time that we shared in that cramped space, but it felt like an eternity.

Of course, it was more than just a shower. It was the kind of intimacy we both wished would happen, the kind of romantic expression that we were able to do with all our clothing stripped off. The way his fingers danced on my skin as the water poured, and how his chest touched mine as we fit ourselves in the small space, the feeling of belongingness and pure liking brimmed the entirety of the room.

When we stepped out of the shower, the chilly feeling crept into my skin, so I hurriedly covered myself with the robe. Tawan, on the other hand was just nonchalantly changing his clothes.

"Are you from the north pole or something? it's freezung cold and you're just standing there as if the cold isn't bothering you."

"It isn't, I've gotten used to it already. I love the feeling of coldness."

"It's ironic how you love the cold when you emit such a warm feeling.", I said as I wore my clothes.

Then, suddenly, Tawan hugged me from behind and locked me into his arms. His warm hands made its way into my own and locked itself, removing the numbness in my skin. He pecked me at the neck and I felt ticklish, but he wouldn't free me from his embrace.

"Are you usually like this? one minute you're shy bathing with me, the next you're already planting kisses on my neck.", I said as I chuckled, his lips still kissing my neck nonstop.

"No, I don't usually share a shower with anybody or peck their necks, but with you I discover myself more and more. I wonder what i'll discover soon.", He said as he kissed me for the last time and let go of me.

"Let's brush our teeth now", He continued.

There was only a single sink to which we could share so we had to take turns, but he insisted that we brush our teeth together.

"You look funny brushing your teeth", I said as I looked at his reflection on the mirror. He was brushing the bristles hard on his teeth that his mouth was stretching to an ugly shape, making him look like a goofy character.

"Oh yeah?", He replied, and continued to make funny faces as we brushed our teeth.

I laughed so hard at the faces he made at the mirror, so much that I could feel my eyes watering from all the laughter. My stomach was cramping too from trying to stop myself from giggling, but he acted like a four year old in front of me and I was obviously buying his childlike behavior.

As our laughter filled the bathroom, I looked at the boy beside me. I realized only I had the privilege to see him like this, in his genuine self and completely opposite from what he shows to the public. I realized, that he loved me so much his true colors shone without effort, and it was a picture only the lenses in my eyes had the chance to capture. A picture I will hold dear in my heart even when I pass.

I love him, a lot.