106. Why am I not surprised

106.

“You have to wake up darling…I don’t think I can’t live without you. I didn’t realize this before but I’m only sane with you around. With you by my side. I know it may sound cheesy but you’re my heart so how will I survive without you?” I ask her.

It has been close to two weeks since the accident. Red was taken off the machines but she still hadn’t woken up. The doctor said that at this point it was all up to her. That she would wake up when she’s ready.

Her parents and Luke came in the next day early in the morning. They have been staying in my pack since. I haven’t left the hospital because I didn’t want her to wake without me being by her side.

“They came to monitor our little angel, did I tell you that? He or she is just perfect. I don’t know if I want a little boy or girl, but whatever we have is okay with me because they’re part of you” I continue.

The nurse told me to talk to her. Oftentimes patients in comas can hear us only that they can’t reply. At first I felt stupid but then, it made me feel close to her and I just got used to it.

“You have to go home and rest, son” Lucas tells me, walking into the room hand in hand with Hailey.

I guess they’ve resumed their relationship. I only hope that it will be the same for me and Lauren once she wakes up.

“I’ll rest when she wakes up” I simply answer her.

Everyone has been by to see every day. That just shows how much she is loved and cared for.

We sit in silence. I say nothing to her parents. My eyes just stare at her. Never leaving her beautiful face. Her bruises had faded all thanks to her wolves' super healing.

There were so many things I wanted to tell her. So many things I wanted to show. To prove to her.

Apart from our kids, she was the center of my world. Nothing else mattered, even my pack.

“We’re leaving…Do you want us to bring you something when we come back?” Hailey asks me awhile later.

“Just coffee” I murmur without taking my eyes from Red’s closed one.

Seconds later I hear the door shut behind me.

I take her hand in mine and kiss it. “I know at the restaurant I didn’t tell you this properly and I should have. Rushing it out the way I did made it seem insincere. It took a while to realize it but I did and by the time I did, you had already left me. You have no idea how I died every day without you by my side.

It’s like when you left you took my light and life with you”

“I would lay down my life for you and I don’t want you simply because I needed a Luna like you rudely put it before the accident. I want you because you’re the very air I breathe. I want you because you managed to get past my walls and mash your soul with mine. I want you because there is no me without you”

I take a deep breath. “You were wrong when you said that there was a chance I would want Mayra years later. Let me tell you there isn’t. Even if you push me away and leave, I will still want you. Even if you leave and move on with your life, I will still want you. I will never want Mayra because you’re it for me. Because I love you”

I lay my head on our joined hands feeling the ache in my heart. I want her to wake up. I want her to love me and give me a chance.

I feel her hand squeeze my hand before I hear her rough voice.

“Say it again” she says lowly.

My head whips up so fast I almost snap my neck. Her eyes, though drowsy, were glossy with tears.

“Fuck! You’re awake, thank the goddess…let me call the nurse” I rush to say.

I can’t even explain what I was feeling inside at seeing her awake. Seeing her beautiful eyes staring at me with what I hoped was love.

Before I can press the call button or go get a nurse, her hands grips mine in a vice.

“Say it again, please” she pleads.

I stare in confusion. Wondering what she was telling me to say that until it hits me. I sit back down and get her hand.

“I love you Lauren Ashford” say it.

“You mean it?” she asks, her voice full of emotion.

I smile wide at her. “With every fucking beat of my heart, darling”

I wipe the tears that fall down her face and hug her close to me. Letting my love wash over her. Hoping that she can feel it.

I hold her until her sobs stop, then all of a sudden she gasps and pushes me away.

“Oh my goddess…my baby?” she all but screams.

So she did know about the baby. “Calm down Red. The baby is okay though I would have preferred to hear that I’m going to be a father from your own mouth.”

“I’m sorry. I was going to tell you during the date but the whole thing got messed up when I over reacted.” She says her voice full of remorse.

I wanted to be mad at her for not telling me but how could I? This whole thing showed me just how unexpected life can be and how easily you could lose someone you love. There just wasn’t any time to be mad at those you hold close to your heart.

“It doesn’t matter. What I care about now is that you’re both okay. You’re both alive” I kiss her forehead.

She gives me another teary smile. “I love you, Sebastian. I know this isn’t the right place to confess my love but I want you to know that I feel the same and it all but ripped my heart, being away from you.”

The peace and love that settles inside me is unexplainable. It’s like everything just fell into place.

“I love you too and I will never get tired of saying it” I tell her, kissing her lips before calling the nurse.

She comes immediately along with the doctor. They check her and assure me that she will make a full recovery soon.

It was after everyone came and left and she was asleep when I got the call.

“Hello Alpha, we got the person that ran over the Luna” Hunter says.

I growl. “I will right there”

I turn to Lauren’s parents. They were the only ones who had yet to leave.

“I need to take care of some business. Tell Lauren I’ll be here soon…hopefully I can be back before she wakes up” I tell them.

I don’t wait for them to answer before I am out of the door. I get outside to the forest behind the hospital and shift. Within minutes I was shifting back and entering the pack house.

I contact Hunter through the pack link and he tells me that he’s in the pack dungeon. I walk to the dungeon and come to a stop when I see the lone figure seating in one of the cells.

“Why am I not fucking surprised” I growl when I look at her bruised face.

“Alpha” Hunter and two other of my warriors bow before me.

I ignore them and face her. “Why did you do it?”

We don’t normally hurt women but she had brought this to herself. She had cuts and bruises courtesy of my warriors. She after all hurt their Luna.

“You’re meant to be mine! She took you from me and then made Darren hate me. It’s because of her that I lost everything. Everything including my baby. I could have used the baby to blackmail the father into lavishing my lifestyle but no you ruin that for me. The stress caused by your exposure made me lose the baby. All because you were defending her. It was the perfect revenge. I would end her and you would lose her” she screeched.

I look at Miranda. Not believing that I was ever mated to the bitch. How cold can she be? Using her baby as a pawn.

I open the cell and walk in. I see the fear in my eyes when I unsheathe my claws. She wasn’t going to leave this place alive this time.

“The last time you were here I let you live because you were with pup, but now there is no baby and I am not going to let you hurt my mate ever again” I snarl.

“Sebastian please…remember the good times we had” she pleads.

I laugh menacingly. “There were no good times. The only good thing you gave me was Jax but you were never a mother to him. He doesn’t even miss and already sees Lauren as his mom. So you see, there is no reason to keep you alive”

I see her life flash before her eyes. I claw her. Not enough to kill her instantly but enough to let her bleed to death and do it in a painful way.

I stand there and watch as life drains from her eyes and her screams turn silent.

“Dispose of her body” I command them before leaving the room.

I don’t look back as I walk out nor do I feel remorse because she wasn’t ever going to trouble my mate again.