chapter 12

CONQUERED BY MY FIRST CRUSH.Chapter 11 :I totally become rigid, making myself keep away from others. I couldn’t live like before, who used to be very cheerful and jovial. My parents felt very anxious to see the drastic change in me and tried to cheer me up. They tried their best to get the reason for my change but nothing worked out leaving them helpless. They concluded that Roshini's departure made me feel lonely as we used to hang out regularly and we got along with each other like siblings. They tried their best to interact with me whenever I was at home and tried to make me not feel lonely.At last, after realizing my parents' efforts to keep me cheerful like earlier, their distress towards my behavior made me feel guilty to trouble them for my selfishness. I understand that I am indirectly making them suffer for my stupidity of raising feelings for  a person who didn’t even try to communicate with me.I realized my mistake and started to concentrate on my studies to achieve  good marks so that I can get a seat in a reputed university to do my engineering. My parents were happy to see me again being serious in my studies and interacting with them normally like earlier. My daily routine was going to school, returning from school, completing my homework and preparing for the entrance exams. Other than this, I didn’t look for any other entertainment as my heart started to build a shield around it not allowing anyone to invade my heart.The only wish behind my hard work was not known to my parents. The only reason to work hard is by completing the engineering from a reputed university can help me in getting the job in a highly reputed organization which can help me to meet Sriharsha at any time.The only person who knew about my secret and my crush towards Sriharsha is Sarika. She was not only my childhood friend but we didn’t keep any secrets between us. Sarika is from a normal middle class family and a very understandable girl who behaves very responsible like an elderly person despite her age. As she helps her mother at home with house chores, we usually don't hang out for entertainment but we were the closest people among our friends.She understood the change in my demeanor after Sriharsha’s departure and tried to find the reason but failed miserably. But it didn't last long as she realized something after Roshini’s departure . She kept pestering till I shared my pain with her. I poured my heart to her as I was carrying the weightage for a long time and was unable to take it anymore. I want to release my pain and feel relief by sharing it with someone. I know that she will not misjudge me as she is more mature than me when it comes to situations like this.Sarika didn’t judge me after hearing my story but encouraged me that I will slowly forget everything and move on in my life. She advised me That it was an infatuation at my age and slowly I will come out of it when I meet the correct person in the future. I was very glad to have a friend like Sarika as she is the only support and on whom I can lean to release my agony. She supported me in all ways and made me feel at ease whenever I drown into misery.I completed my secondary high school with good marks. I gave all the entrance exams for engineering and got a seat in a well reputed university in the computer division. Fortunately, my friend Sarika also got a seat in the same college with the same division which made me feel content.