Chapter 11

Recap

"Kai, do you honestly think I'm going to want to be with you if you keep treating me like this?" She asks but before I could answer her she answers for me "no, I won't! You have to start treating me like a women! And not like one of your men who you can just control and tell what to to!" She says

"I-"

"I'm not finished!" She cuts me off again "I don't want to be controlled! I'm my own person and your not my dad or my boss so stop thinking that everything you say or want me to do I'm going to do because I'm not! And I don't want to fight and argue like this all the time over stupid things just because you don't agree with what I have done or your angry! If we are ever going to work out and be together you have to learn that I'm not some obedient dog who you can control, this is my life! I'm in charge of what I do! I don't need you telling me that I can't do this or I can't do that!" She stops for a moment but before I could say anything she continues however this time, I cut her off

"Your right! I'm sorry"

"And I wan- wait what did you just say?" She asks

"I said I'm sorry, your right I am controlling it's just the way I've been brought up, I've always been the boss and I've always been the one to tell others what to do. It's just how I am but I don't want to be like that with you, not if it means your going to hate me and we aren't going to be together because I love you Ellie. And I'm sorry for everything that's happened over the years! And for today, I just got so angry because I want you to be mine and I don't like when others see you like this" I tell her

She goes to say something but I cut her off again "how about we start over? Like from the very start and I promise I'll try my best to keep my anger and controlling side away from you and our relationship" I ask

She smiles "I'd like that"

End of recap

Ellie's P.O.V

It's officially been a week since me and Kai agreed to start over and in that week we have spent pretty much everyday together without fighting. Kai helped me get a new job, and when I'm not busy with university work I've been with Kai. It's been nice to spend time with him without arguing all the time, sure we have had a few disagreements.

Like when he said that I don't need to go to university and 'waste time studying about art' to become a home designer and that he could just 'make a phone call and I'd have the job' but I didn't agree and I told him I wanted to study it and get the job by myself. He didn't understand why I wanted to wait longer when I could start my dream career now but I told him how I wanted to do this by myself and he agreed. That's when I realised that he meant what he said, he really does want to start over because the old Kai would have argued with me and told me I was being stupid.

Maybe I was, I mean I've always wanted to become a home designer and here he was saying that he could literally snap his fingers and I'd become one but yet I resisted his offer and told him no and that I want to do it properly. But I can't help but not want to cheat because I don't agree with cheating your way through a job cause then I'd not know what I'd be doing and I could mess up. And messing up is not something I enjoy.

So instead I became a receptionist in a hospital, sure Kai may have pulled a few strings to get me the job but I had the GCSEs for it so that didn't count. He got me into he job but my skills kept me the job and made it possible for me to be good at it.

Another thing we disagreed on was me not moving back in. He tried to convince me but I told him no and that people don't move in with each other straight away in a relationship and that they have to give it time. I don't think he was very happy and I could tell how much he wanted to argue but he managed to not to.

Today is the first day in a week where I'm not going to be spending my free time with Kai. He's at a 'business' meeting and is out of town for a few days so instead of spending time with him I've decided to watch vampire diaries and chill out of my sofa eating Ben and Jerry's cookie dough ice cream.

Well that was the plan until someone payed me a surprise visit. Rachel came over with Ollie and as much as I wanted to spend my Saturday relaxing and watching TVD I was happy go go out.

We ended up meeting up with Marcus, Savannah and Clara (Clara is their child in case you forget). And the six of us all went out to get ice cream and then we went to the park.

I was sitting with Marcus and Rachel whilst savannah pushed Clara on the swing and Ollie was playing over by the climbing frame. Or so we thought.

I looked up at where Ollie was and my heart stopped as I didn't see him, he was literally there 2 seconds ago. I glanced around the park quickly, he wasn't at the sandpit which is is second favourite spot at the park. I felt my face pale as it I couldn't see him anywhere.

"What's wrong?" Rachel asks

"I-I can't see Ollie" I tell her, I look up at her face and she frowns at me

"What do you mean?" She asks

"He.. he was right there" I say pointing to the climbing frame behind her "bu-but he's not there no more, come on we have to go find him!" I stand up and go to try find him but she grabs my arm and stops me. I look down at her frowning. "What are you doing? Come on!" I tell her

"Ellie, calm down" she says

"Calm down? What do you mean calm down? I just told you that your son is gone and your telling me to calm down?" I shout at her

"He's not missing, he went to the toilet with Marcus" she tells me

That's when I realised that Marcus wasn't sitting there, I felt a huge weight lift off of my chest and I sat down with a sigh of relief.  Thank god he's okay.

"Are you feeling okay? You must have zoned out, how did you not hear him coming over?" She asks

"I-I don't know, i don't remember zoning out. I just looked over to where he was and didn't see him then I freaked out once I couldn't see him anywhere" I tell her

"That's weird.."

She was cut off my Ollie running over and grabbing my hand "spider web!" He says excitedly, I smile down at him and take hold of his hands.

"Ollie, I think your still a bit too young to be playing on the spider web" Rachel says making the 3 year old in front of me frown.

"Pwease mummy!" He cries

"It's okay Rach, I'll be with him and we won't go up too high" I try to convince her

She sighs "okay then but be careful" she says

"Yayyyy" Ollie screams happily, I laugh at him and we make out way over to the spider web climbing frame.

After another half an hour, the sun went away and the clouds got darker. It started to get a bit chilly so we decided to leave the park and go get something to eat. We all got into our cars, Me in the car with Rachel and Ollie and Marcus, Savannah and Clara in their own car. We decided to eat at McDonald's

"So Ellie, you want to come back to the mansion and have a movie night?" Savannah asks

"Yes, that's such a good idea! Come on El, please!" Rachel begs

"I don't know" I sigh

"Why not? What's the problem?" Rachel asks "come on it will be fun!" She persuades

"Okay fine" I sigh

"Yes! Okay I can't wait for this! It will be just like old times! We haven't had a movie night in ages!" Rachel beams, I smile at her. It has been a while.

***

"What are you doing here?" A familiar voice that I haven't heard in ages says, I spin around and smile at him

"Oscar!" I dive into his arms and give him the biggest hug "I haven't seen you in ages!"

"I know because you never come around anymore" he says sadly

"Hey! That's not fair! You can come to mine too" I tell him

"I know, I'm sorry I just haven't had the chance" he says

"It's alright, just don't be a stranger" I say

"I could say the same thing to you, how come you never come over here?" He asks curiously

"I.. you know why"

"No, actually I don't" he says, crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow at me as if to say 'go on, explain'

"I don't know, it's just.."

"Your afraid" he cuts me off

"No i-"

"You are. Your scared that if you come here you'll not want to leave again" he accuses, cutting me off again

"I-"

"Just admit it, it's okay" he interrupts me again

"Will you stop talking already and give me a chance to speak" I huff, crossing my arms over my chest

He chuckles at me, making me glare at him "Your right, I'm sorry" he says holding his hands up in surrender. I roll my eyes at him and then continue to explain why I don't come around here much no more.

"Your right, in some way I am afraid to come back here" I admit "BUT" I shout before he can interrupt me again "it's not for why you think, well part of it maybe but part of me doesn't want to come here in case I find myself tied up and forced to stay"

"That's not going to happen" he tells me

"You don't know that" I tell him " not like it hasn't happened before..." I mumble, but he didn't hear me

"Come on Ellie, that's basically a metaphor to hide the fact that your scared if you come in here you'll not want to leave" he says

"Whatever" I roll my eyes at him and walk away

"And now your going to walk away to avoid the truth" he shouts after me. I freeze in my spot and turn around. "It's okay" he says

"It's not okay! I want stay here but I can't!" I tell him

"Why not?" He asks

"B-because, I need my space"

"You need your space? What does that even mean?"

"I don't know! But I just know I can't give into Kai and move in with him after everything! Yes I agreed to give him another chance because a part of me is hoping he changes and we can be together because I still do love him. But after everything that's happened I think it's best if we take it slow" I admit my feelings

"Well, what about if you move back in but have your own room?" He asks

"Maybe one day but not right now, I'm happy enough in my own little home" I say.

And it's the truth, I love the house that I'm in now. And I haven't been there for long. I don't want to just get up and move... again! Because what if it doesn't work out? Then what? I'll be stuck having to look for a house again and it will be a constant loop. That's why I don't want to move back in. Because when you live with someone you tend to fight a lot more and I'm not ready for that again.

Before Oscar could say anything else Rachel comes over to us. "There you are! I've been looking for you! Hurry up the movie is about to start" she says

"You guys are watching a movie?" Oscar asks

"Yes and you can't join!" Rachel says

"Oh come on. Why not?" He asks

"Because it's a girls night!" She says

"But Marcus is with us?" I butt in

"No he's not, we kicked him out" she says

"Fine I don't want to watch your girly Barbie movies anyway!" Oscar says

"We aren't watching barbie!" She says

"What are we watching?" I ask. "I can't believe yous picked a movie without me!"

"Well you were taking for ages! And we are watching a horror movie" she smirks at Oscar

"Probably won't even be scary" Oscar mumbles

"What was that?" She says

"Nothing" he huffs "whatever enjoy your 'horror' movie" he says using quotation the word horror as if he doesn't believe her that it's a scary movie. But before Rachel could argue he walks away

"Aw, I feel bad for the guys. We never let them join in on movie night" I say as we make our way to the room where we are watching the movie

"Yeah because it's girls movie night" she says

"Okay well how about next time we make it everyone's movie night?" I ask when we enter the room

"Fine" she huffs before sitting down beside savannah

"About time, I was about to press play and start it before yous" savannah says

"She was held up by Oscar" Rachel says

"Oh that explains it, he never shuts up"

End of chapter 11

Thanks for reading! Sorry if this chapter was a bit boring, it was a bit of a filler chapter. Think that's what it's called 😂😂

So questions (I know some people like this at the end of the chapter)

1. Did you actually think Ollie was missing or got kidnapped? Be honest, who freaked out?

2. What's your favourite flavour ice cream? Mines would have to be cookie dough or anything chocolate

3. Who's missing McDonald's due to quarantine? I am a bit but not as much as other people I know 😂

Remember the self isolation rules, please don't start ignoring them. They are only there to keep us safe!

4. What do you think about Ellie and Oscars conversation? Do you think she should move back in or wait for a while?