37.

Ketki:

"Arya" I stepped out of the kitchen, the bakery was about to open. He hummed her eyes pinned into her laptop.

"I need to talk to you about something" She lifted her gaze, feeling the situation seriously she closed the laptop lid and we both got settled on an empty seat.

"What happened?" she asked, holding my hand to calm my nerves. "I think I need to visit a doctor... for a check up" she frowned hearing me.

"why? Are you okay? Hurt?" I shook my head, "You see me and Rudra are trying for a baby but I don't know I just wanna get checked up" Her eyes softened.

"But you see Aryan is outside. If I ask him to take me to the hospital he'll inform Rudra. I don't want him to know until I'm sure about it" Arya knows Aryan informs Rudra about everything to Rudra every smallest detail.

"Are you sure you want to go?" She asked me to which I nodded yes. "Okay I'll take you don't worry about Aryan I'll handle it" Arya squeezed my hands assuringly and we got busy with the day.

In the evening Arya gave our workers a few instructions and we both stepped out of the bakery.

"Mam" aryan walked to me, I held Arya's hand. "Aryan... we are going to Zoya's place I'll drive her you can pick her up from there later" arya lied swiftly only she could lie like this I would have got caught.

Aryan didn't doubt us and Arya held my hand dragging me to her car.

***

My feet stumbled when I stepped out of the doctor's cabin. Her words echoed through my mind.

'can't get pregnant'

'can't get pregnant'

'I am sorry Mrs Chauhan you can't get pregnant'

I stumbled on the bench outside the cabin. Why did it have to be me? Why can't I get pregnant? I loved kids after so much struggle we were finally ready to have a baby... but why why why?

I felt a squeeze on my shoulder, I looked up at arya. "W..why?" she pulled me in a warm hug. My tears automatically made their way. What am I gonna do? How am I gonna break this to rudra?

What would he feel? How would he react? Will he be disappointed? Will he leave me? Will he abandon me? What should I do?

My mind was blocked. I felt dizzy and would throw up at any moment.

"Let's go from here" I gulp the lump in my throat. "Where?" she asked, pulling back.

"Anywhere but home...z... Zoya let's go to Zoya's place" She nodded and with no time we were at Zoya's place.

"You go... I'll be fine" I spoke as we stood in front of Zoya's door.

"No Kat I'm not leaving you in this state" Arya spoke, I sighed why does this girl forget that she needs to take care of her mum?

"Arya you need to give Aunty medicines don't worry about me I'll be fine" I spoke and tried to sound as calm as possible.

I urged her to go before my tears betrayed me and I started crying. She sighed "call me if you need me okay if not for Maa I would have never left you alone"

I patted her shoulder and she turned her heels to leave. I rang Zoya's doorbell. Once, twice, thrice I kept on ringing her bell. I didn't want to panic in front of arya her mother just had a heart attack I didn't want her to worry.

I heard the clicking sound, and Zoya opened the door. Her eyes softened seeing my tear-stained face.

"What happened keti?" I didn't say anything, I just hugged her crying. She rubbed my back trying to calm me down. Once I stopped crying she took me to the couch and helped me sit.

She handed me the glass of water and settled down beside me. "Now tell me what happened?"

"Z.. Zoya I... I went for a check-up today" I teared up, "the doctor said the doctor said that I can't get pregnant im infertile" I burst into tears again.

Zoya wrapped her hands around my shoulder "What do i do Zoya... how will I tell rudra this... he'll be so disappointed"

Zoya rubbed my shoulder blade "Shh calm down ketii we'll find a solution don't cry"

She spoke through her tears, Zoya shows the whole world she doesn't care but I know how much she cares for me and how much of a softie she is.

"Rudra won't leave me right" I know Rudra. I trusted him too but the fear of abandonment was more than that. I was panicking.

Zoya held my shoulder, "look at me keti" Zoya spoke sternly. "Do you think Rudra's love for you is limited till baby?" I shook my head, Rudra has proved again and again how much I mean to him and how much he loves me.

"Then do you think he'll leave you for just a small reason?" I shook my head again. "Tell him the truth, keti in relationship communication is important... he deserves to know"

She paused before speaking, "see keti I don't believe in love shit because of my past but when I look at you and rudra I feel like there's this 1% of love in between people... he loves you more than you think to talk to him"

***

I was sitting in Zoya's room waiting for rudra. I called him after contemplating a lot. I heard the door opening. I didn't have to look up to see who it was.

I saw him kneeling in front of me. He wiped tears on my cheeks. "What happened Chashni?"

I held his hand tightly, I closed my eyes taking a few breaths to calm my nerves.

"I... I went to visit the doctor today Rudra she said I won't be able to get pregnant... our dream of a happy family will be incomplete" I broke down, and his eyes softened pulled me in a warm hug.

As soon as I felt his warmth I started crying even more, I felt safe worry-free. He is the only person who calms my nerves. I clutched his shirt tightly he rubbed my back pulling me close.

"Rudra what do I do now" I spoke between my tears, he ran his hand through my hair locks.

I stopped crying. He pulled back from the hug and caressed my jaw. "As long as you are with me fine and fit I don't care about anything else chashni"

He wiped the single tear that left my eyes, "We'll have a happy family chashni, medical science has evolved so much there are many ways and we can always adopt right?"

He got up and settled down beside me, I leaned my head against his shoulder linking my arms with his tightly afraid he'll go away.

"I'm with you right?" he asked and I nodded, "do you trust me?" He asked again to which I nodded.

"then there's nothing to worry about, I'm with you you are with me that's enough for me." He kissed my forehead wrapping his hand around my shoulder.

Everything was silent none of us spoke anything but even that silence was comfortable. All my worries were gone just by staying in his arms.

"Feeling better?" He asked keeping his chin on my head, I nodded burying my face in his chest.

"You won't leave me right?" I asked glancing up and looking at him, his eyes softened and pecked my lips.

"Is my love that weak to leave you when we came across a small problem?" I shook my head, "Then if suppose I had a problem in me would you have left me?" I shook my head, never in my life i would leave him.

"I have said it before and im saying it again, you are my life, and our hearts beat together there's no way I would leave you. Because I don't know how to breathe without you. this lip smiles when you smile, this heart beats because you are with me if you are gone it will simply stop beating, and I'll go back to that lifeless soul I was before I met you. You are mine and im yours"

He caressed my cheekbone, "Let's go to the doctor again tomorrow okay?" I nodded and buried my face in his chest again.

We heard a knock on the door, "guys I have ordered food" Zoya spoke through the door. Rudra got up and brought the tray of food. He settled down in front of me.

"We'll worry about things later first you fill your stomach" rudra took a spoonful of rice and brought it near my lips. I ate it, he fed me until I finished up the bowl. After eating he handed me a glass of water.

"Let's go now" He got up and held his hand out for me to hold, I held his hand and we both walked out of Zoya's room.

I walked to Zoya and hugged her. "Thank you so much" She smiled and gave a small squeeze to my hand, "Take care" I nodded and walked back to rudra.

Rudra held my hand and we left Zoya's house, he opened the car door for me and got into the car. He started driving, he was not driving back home but somewhere else.

"Where are we going?" I asked looking at him.

"You'll know baby" he focused on the road, I turned on some music till we reached wherever he was taking me.

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

Haar ke baad hi jeet hai

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

Haar ke baaz hi jeet hai

It turned on the volume, as the song played in the background.

Thode aansu hai, thodi hasi

Aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

Haar ke baad hi jeet hai

I hummed the lyrics of the song,

Thode aansu hai, thodi hasi

Aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

Haar ke baad hi jeet hai

Rudra applied break, I looked out of the window my face lit up. He took me to an amusement park.

"Chalein?" he asked raising a brow, I nodded with a wide smile.

He got out of the car walked to my side and opened the door for me. I got out of the car, we both took our tickets and walked into the amusement park.

"Which ride you wanna go first?" He asked, I looked around my gaze fell on Columbus. "There the Columbus" we got in the line I had long forgotten about whatever happened. He was right medical science has evolved a lot there are many ways to get pregnant and adoption is always there. At least a kid will get a better life if we adopt them.

We went on many rides, rudra was scared of the rollercoaster yet he sat there with me for me.

I settled down on a bench and rudra went to get ice cream for me, he returned with ice cream and a bunch of balloons.

"Here you go, Ma lady" I smiled and took the balloons and ice cream.

As usual, he didn't get one for himself, so I shared mine with him. After we ate ice cream we left the amusement park with huge smiles on our faces. I let go of those balloons in the air like I was letting go of my fears and my worries it felt nice.

Rudra drove back to the mansion, I looked at him he held my hand with his free hand. He kissed my knuckle. "I love you chashni"

"I love you too my cheesecake" He laughed at the nickname I gave him. He loves cheesecake correction cheesecake made by me only.

Just like the song, thode ansu thodi hansi that's what life is as long as you have a person whose hand you can hold you are fine in the toughest phase of your life.

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

Haar ke baad hi jeet hai