Chapter 20
If You Want Me (The Toronto Terror Series)
Itâs late when I get home. Rix is staying at Tristanâs, as is typical when heâs not traveling. The end of the season is coming, which means Iâll be minus a roommate soon. And I only have the apartment until November since itâs a sublet, unless the owner decides to extend her stay.
On cue, my phone starts ringing. Itâs like my mom knows when I need to hear from her. âHey, mom.â
âHey, honey. Iâm missing my girl. Howâs school?â
Balancing classes and everything else has been hard, but I donât want her to worry. âItâs been great, my projects are going well, and all my group members all pull their weight this year.â
âThatâs so good to hear. I know it isnât always the case. Do you need anything? I can get you an appointment with the sound bath healer you like, just to center you and help with some of the stress,â mom offers.
This is one of the ways she shows me she loves me. âI could probably go next week in the afternoon if heâs available.â
âIâll make the appointment. I canât wait to see you. Iâm sorry our last visit didnât work out.â I hear the sincerity in her voice.
Thatâs the thing about my mom, she always tries her best, but itâs hard for her to be a constant in my life when sheâs always on the move. I learned long ago the importance of accepting people as they are, though. She loves me the best way she can. âItâs okay, Mom. North was sick and then you had that trip to the mountains, it was outside of your control.â
âStill, I donât want to be away from you for this long. I can book a flight if you need me sooner than your birthday.â
âItâs okay. I just have a lot on my mind. And youâll be here soon enough.â
âIf you need to talk anything through, Iâm always here,â she says.
âI know, Mom. I promise Iâm okay.â
âOkay. I love you, honey.â
âLove you, too, Mom. Talk soon?â
âAbsolutely. Iâll text you the appointment details.â
I check my mailbox on the way up and find a package. I donât remember ordering anything, so the contents remain a mystery as I take the elevator to my apartment. Once inside, I flip the safety latchâRix will go straight to work from Tristanâs in the morning. I drop my keys in the bowl, toe off my shoes, and hang my coat in the closet before I tear open the package and dump the contents on the counter. Inside are three identical scrunchies. Theyâre the same as the one I left with Hollis the other day, navy blue with a yellow banana print.
I press my fingers to my lips. Itâs well after eleven. Hollis is regimented about his sleep and usually doesnât stay up late, especially since heâs spending a lot of hours on rehab.
I still send him a pic of the scrunchies along with a message:
Aurora
Are these from you?
He responds immediately.
Hollis
Yes. So you have spares in case one goes missing again.
Aurora
Youâre up late.
Hollis
So are you. Donât you have class in the morning?
Aurora
Donât you have physical therapy?
I startle when my phone rings and nearly fumble it as I answer.
âI know what you sound like and look like when you come, and itâs all I can see and hear when I close my eyes.â His voice is a seductive rasp.
âItâs the same for me,â I admit.
âYouâve been quiet since the other night,â he says.
My conversation with the girls gives me the confidence to be honest. âI felt you needed the space, and I didnât want you to tell me it canât happen again.â
His swallow is audible. âIt probably shouldnât.â
âBut you canât stop thinking about it either,â I finish as I cross to my bedroom.
âI really canât.â He sighs. âAre you in bed?â
âI just got home. I was out with Rix and Hemi, but Iâm on my way there. Are you?â
âYeah. Is Rix at Tristanâs tonight?â
âShe is.â I put my phone on speaker and drop it on my bed.
âSo youâre all alone.â His voice is gravelly.
I almost suggest he come over and dry fuck on my couch, but itâs too soon. Hollis canât handle a repeat yet. âYup, itâs just me.â I lower my voice to a sultry whisper. âNo one around to hear me moan.â
He groans. âYou canât say shit like that to me, Princess.â
âIf you canât stand the heat, Hollis, get out of my bedroom.â I pull my shirt over my head. I fully anticipate another chastisementâsecretly theyâre becoming my favoriteâand then him hanging up on me.
âAre you getting undressed?â
âDo you really want to know?â I pop the button on my jeans, but I grab my phone from the bed and hold it close as I drag the zipper down.
âFuck. You are.â He exhales a harsh breath. âWhat have you taken off already?â
My nipples tighten. âJust my shirt.â
âYou wearing a bra?â
âYes.â
âIs the bralessness mostly for my benefit, then?â
âAnd to get a rise out of you.â
âSuch a bratty girl.â
âI probably need to be taught a lesson.â I press my fingers to my lips and wait.
âI should come down and spank the naughty right out of you.â
âYes, please.â
He makes a sound in the back of his throat. âNot tonight. Take your pants off.â I step out of my jeans and toss them in the hamper.
âWhat do you want me to take off next?â
âPull your covers down first and get into bed,â he orders.
I turn down my comforter in a rush, pillows tumbling to the floor, and clamber onto the mattress. âIâm in bed.â
âGood girl. What do you have left to take off?â
âMy bra, panties, and socks.â I rub my thighs together. Iâm pretty sure weâre about to have phone sex.
âHmm⦠Tell me about your bra and panties.â His voice is deliciously compelling.
I look down at myself. I could lie and tell him Iâm wearing a matching lace set, but honestly, I donât think thatâs what he wants to hear. âIâm wearing the same bra I had on the day you crashed my date.â
He exhales heavily. âI still donât regret that. What about your panties?â
âTheyâre boy shorts. Seamless with a blue and white cheetah pattern.â
âAnd your socks?â
âTeam colors.â
âTake off the bra and panties but leave the socks on.â
I give the phone a look, which he canât see, but I do as he asks. âIâm naked apart from my socks. Now what, Hollis?â
âWhere to start?â He hums softly.
It sounds like heâs moving around in his bed. I picture him shirtless, one hand tucked behind his head, the other fisting his generous erection.
âWhere are your hands?â he asks softly.
I look down at my naked body. âThe right one is cupping my breast.â
âAnd the left?â
âIs fisting the sheets.â
âI want you to bring that one to your lips.â
âWhich set?â
He chuckles. âThe ones above your neck.â
I follow the order. âNow what?â
âDrag them gently down your throat.â
I do, shivering at the sensation, a soft moan leaving my lips.
âSuch a good girl,â he praises. âNow follow your collarbones until you reach your breast.â
I do as he asks. âIâm there.â
âAre your nipples hard?â
âYes.â
âI couldnât resist them the other night,â he admits. âCircle the left one with your fingertip and pinch the right.â
I suck in a gasping breath as the sensation ripples through my body.
âThatâs it. Do it again. Thatâs the fucking sound I canât get out of my head,â he growls.
I pinch and tug, circle and moan. âI need more.â
âTrail your right hand down your stomach,â he orders. âBut slowly.â
I groan and follow his command, sliding my fingers over my stomach, eyes closed, imagining itâs his hands on my body, his fingers pulling at my nipple, skimming my stomach.
âStop before you touch your pussy.â
âIâm so achy, Hollis.â
âI know, Princess. Weâre going to fix that,â he cajoles.
Iâm vibrating with anticipation. I canât get enough of his voice in my ear. My breath comes faster as I wait for the next directive.
âDrag one finger through your slit, but just one.â His breathing is labored now.
I groan as I graze my clit. âShould I get my vibrator?â
He chuckles darkly. âBaby girl, you came from rubbing yourself on my cock fully dressed. You donât need your vibrator to get off.â
He has a point. Itâs just a lot easier with assistance. âBut youâre not here to help.â
âDonât worry, weâll get you there. Circle your clit, nice and slow, and tell me how it feels.â
I rub lazy circles around the wet, swollen flesh. âGood. It feels good.â
âIs it helping with the ache?â His voice is so soft in my ear.
âI need more,â I whimper.
âSlide two fingers into that sweet little pussy.â
I moan at the low timbre of his voice and his words. I curl my fingers, and it makes a liquid sound.
âAh, fuck. I can hear that,â he grunts.
I curl my fingers again.
âYes. Thatâs it. Good girl. Now rub your clit again, before you add another finger.â
âI wish it was you. I want it to be you,â I whimper as I circle my clit, harder this time, faster, chasing the wave of bliss. Iâm panting now, my body covered in a sheen of sweat as sensation builds and spirals.
âThree fingers, Princess. Fill that pussy for me,â he grinds out.
I start with two, curling once, twice, before I add the third. I bite my lip, used to muffling the noises I make.
âStop trying to be quiet. I want to hear you.â
I can picture him, muscles tight and corded, expression severe, his hand sliding up and down his cock. And I imagine what it would be like to be filled by him, to have his hands on my bare hips, moving me over him. Fucking me. Filling me. I gasp as I find that spot inside that makes fire rush through my veins. I press the heel of my palm against my clit and roll my hips while I curl my fingers. And I moan, long and loud as the orgasm gathers like a storm.
âThatâs it. Thatâs the sound I want more of.â
âI-I-Iââ The words are lost as bliss washes through me, weighing me down and making me feel like Iâm floating at the same time. Iâm chanting oh, God, my body shaking, my hips rolling.
âAh, fucking hell.â Hollisâs breaths come fast and hard. âSweet dreams, Princess.â
âWait, whatâ ââ
He ends the call.
Iâm still panting. My fingers are still inside me. My clit is still pinging.
I use voice-to-text to message him.
Aurora
Did you come?
It takes a minute before he responds.
Hollis
No.
Aurora
Why did you hang up then?
No response. Itâs not a surprise. I put on my brat hat and send two more before I leave him alone.
Aurora
Try not to be too hard on my scrunchie. Or yourself.
Sweet wet dreams.