Chapter 23
If You Want Me (The Toronto Terror Series)
âOh, my God! Yes!â I pump my fist in the air, then realize exactly what this means. âOh, shit.â
âWhatâs going on?â Rix asks. âFirst, you looked thrilled, now you look like someone stole your favorite vibrator.â
âHa ha. Hollis has the go-ahead to travel with the team again.â
âWhich is great for his morale but not so great for fingerbangs and make-out sessions,â she finishes.
I love that she understands, and that I can tell her things. And even if she tells Tristan, heâs good at keeping his mouth shut.
There was a zero-percent chance that I could keep what happened to myself. Plus, my buoyant mood was a real tipoff. And Hollis must have gone to the twenty-four-hour grocery store at stupid oâclock in the morning, because he left my favorite muffins on the counter. Without a note. But still. It was sweet.
I flop down on the couch. âI was kind of hoping weâd have four days with no one around so I could finally get my hands on his cock.â
âI still canât believe you havenât touched it. Likeâ¦â She makes the mind-blown gesture.
The apartment door opens three inches, startling the shit out of us, but the safety is engaged. âWant to let me in, Pegs?â
I hop off the couch and push the door closed, flipping the latch before I open it again. âYou know knocking is a thing, right, Dado?â Then I see Hollis, standing behind my dad with his phone in his hand. Spending time with the two of them is hard these days. Part of me just wants to get it over with and tell him, but the other, bigger part is so scared of how hurt heâll be. Mad and disappointed too, probably. How much it could change things.
âSorry. Yeah. I keep forgetting. We got some good news, and Hollis and I were heading to the Watering Hole for dinner to celebrate. Maybe you want to join us?â Dad is all smiles.
âWhat kind of good news?â I pretend like Hollis didnât send me a text message five minutes ago. Which means he told me before my dad. My heart gets all mushy and my nether parts all zingy while my bucket of shame over all the broken rules and lies weâre telling him gets a little heavier.
âHollis is cleared to travel with the team. Heâs not back on the ice yet, but this is a step in the right direction.â He claps Hollis on the shoulder.
âThatâs amazing!â
âIsnât it? Itâll be nice to have my roommate back.â Dad grins at Hollis.
He nods. âItâll be good to get back to a normal routine. Or as normal as it can be, for now.â
âSo, what do you say? Coming for celebratory nachos?â
âYeah. Of course.â I havenât been with my dad and Hollis together for any length of time since the fingerbang and him holding me to sleep. Which, oh my God, was literally my favorite way to fall asleep in the history of my almost twenty-one years. But I have no idea how to manage this situation now that his fingers have been inside me.
âWhat about you, Rix? Want to join us?â Dad asks.
âUhâ¦â She glances from my dad to me.
âYes, please. Join us.â If ever I could use some freaking backup, itâs now.
âCool. Iâll change into something that isnât this.â Rix motions to her ratty sweats and old tank top that clearly belong to Tristan, based on the size.
I look down at myself. Iâm braless and wearing jogging pants and an old shirt. Thankfully not Hollisâs. I sleep in that. âIâll do the same. Do you want us to meet you there, orâ¦â I let it hang.
Hollis checks his watch. âWeâll grab a table.â
âCool. Yeah.â I give them the thumbs-up. âWeâll be right behind you.â
âGreat. Donât take too long, though,â Dad says.
âSee you soon,â Hollis adds with a tight smile.
Once theyâre gone, I flip the lock and the latch and turn to Rix, who is still standing in the kitchen. âOh, girl.â She shakes her head.
âIs it obvious? Am I being obvious?â
âYouâre being a little weird, but to be honest, youâve been a little weird for the past few months, so your dad will probably chalk it up to working for the team so hard and school stress?â It comes out more of a question than a straight answer.
I run my hands through my hair. âHow the hell did you do this with Tristan for two freaking months while living in the same damn space as your brother?â
Rix gives me an empathetic smile. âIt wasnât ever easy. We were hate-fucking each other for weeks before that hate had turned into not-hate. You two are kind of already in love and have been fighting off the feelings.â
âHeâs not in love with me,â I say. I donât deny that I probably am though.
She opens and closes her mouth a couple of times, then crosses the room and takes me by the shoulders. âDo you need to believe that to make this easier to handle?â
I purse my lips. âI donât know.â
âI see the way he looks at you when he thinks no one is watching. Weâll have four days to dissect all of this while theyâre away.â
âThank you for being such a good friend.â I pull her in for a hug.
She squeezes me back. âYouâd do the same for me. You have done the same for me.â She takes my hand and pulls me toward my bedroom. âCome on, letâs put you in something sexy so heâs rocking an uncomfortable boner all evening.â
The entire crew ends up at the Watering Hole, so the potential awkwardness is diluted by all the other people. Rix and I stuff ourselves into a booth with the girls and discuss the gala. Iâm even more nervous about Scarlet attending now that this thing with Hollis has moved to another level. But I play it off like itâs fine, because having her attend is another checkmark on my resume, and what else can I do?
It isnât until Iâm home and getting ready for bed that my phone buzzes with a new message.
Hollis
Dinner tomorrow night at my place.
Aurora
A date? With my dad across the hall O_o ???
Hollis
He has a dinner meeting with his agent.
Heâs had a lot of those lately. When his contract ends, he plans to hang up his skates and move on to the next phase of his career.
Aurora
What time?
Hollis
You have class until five thirty, right?
Aurora
Yes.
Hollis
Romanâs dinner meeting is at six, so come up any time after that.
Aurora
Can I bring anything?
Hollis
Just your beautiful self.