Chapter 28
If You Want Me (The Toronto Terror Series)
âYou look so much more rested than you did before I left.â Roman holds Aurora at armâs length at the Pancake House, inspecting her.
Iâm itching to wrap my arms around her, breathe her in, and tell her how much Iâve missed her. Instead, I shove my hands in my pockets and feel guilty for wanting what I want.
âIâm fine, Dad, just a lot on my plate with the gala and finals coming up.â She pats his arm, and he releases her.
âDo you need me to take anything off your plate? I can order my own groceries and handle my laundry when I get back from away games,â he offers.
âI do your groceries when I do my own, so itâs not a big deal. And we both know how you are about laundry.â She slides back into the booth. Sheâs already ordered for usâprobably as eager as I am to get this meal over with. But Iâm not sure our reasons are the same. All the things I love about our diner tradition are now a reminder of the lies Iâm steeped in.
âI could get better at it.â He frowns. âI should get better at it. You canât do my laundry forever. I could get a housekeeper.â
I drop onto the bench across from Aurora, as does Roman. Her gaze shifts my way, and she smiles like itâs any other day, like we donât have plans to go back to her place after this.
âOr you could start dating,â Aurora says cheekily.
Roman rolls his eyes. âStop sending me apps.â
She sips her coffee and shifts gears. âYou really kicked some butt this week. Two solid wins, and against high-ranking teams. How are you feeling about the game against LA on Monday?â
While they talk game strategy, I try desperately not to think about all her messages from the past few days.
Princess
Iâm rearranging my dresser so my mirror catches the bed, in case you want to watch yourself fuck me.
I should probably be on top for the sake of your knee.
Unless youâre more inclined to fuck me against the front door. I guess weâll see how far inside the apartment we make it.
Auroraâs foot bumps my shin under the table. I glance at her. Weâre not playing footsies again. Her eyes dart to the table. My food is sitting in front of me.
âYouâre preoccupied today,â Roman observes.
âI have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow.â Itâs true, but not why Iâm distracted.
âDo you think youâll be cleared for practice?â Aurora asks.
âThatâs the hope.â
âHave you given any more thought to sportscasting, or are you still considering coaching as an option after you hang up your skates?â Roman asks.
I rub my bottom lip. âI have at least another season before I need to think about that.â
âYouâd be great leading a team.â Roman pats me on the back.
âYouâd be a great coach,â Aurora agrees. âYouâre a patient teacher, and youâre great at giving direct instruction.â
I sure as fuck know sheâs not talking about hockey. âIâm not out of the game yet,â I grumble. Roman shifts the topic, probably mistaking the tension for career stress.
We finish our meals and leave the diner. Itâs warming up, the snow turning to brown slush.
âI need to grab a couple of things from the grocery store. Either of you need anything?â I ask once weâve crossed the street.
âNot that I can think of,â Roman says.
âI went shopping yesterday, so Iâm good, too,â Aurora replies.
âOkay. Iâll see you later.â They push inside the building, and I make the short trip to the store. I pick up Auroraâs favorite candies and stop at the local florist on the way back.
By the time I return to the building, Auroraâs already messaged to let me know the coast is clear.
My palms start to sweat when I step into the elevator. The line weâre stepping over today will change things again. For half a second, I question whether I should go through with this. But I canât deny her after all the shit Iâve put her through. Itâs about more than how it affects her, though. Itâs me, too. I canât keep sitting on the fence with her. I donât want to.
The elevator dings, and I step into the hall. I half expect Roman to be standing outside her door, but itâs bodyguard freeâand it opens before I can knock. Aurora pokes her head out, looking both ways before she grabs the front of my shirt and yanks me into her apartment. The door falls closed as she tries to pull my mouth to hers.
I tilt my head back. âHi.â
âHi, please kiss me before I die.â She pushes up on her toes and puckers her lips.
I laugh and drop my head, parting when she strokes the seam of my lips. Her hands are already on the move.
I break the kiss and murmur, âSafety latch.â
âRight. Yes.â She releases my shirt and secures the door.
When she turns around, I hold out the flowers. âFor you.â
Her expression softens as she brings them to her nose and inhales deeply. âTheyâre beautiful. Thank you.â
âJust like you, and youâre welcome.â
âIâll put them in water later.â She sets them on the side table, takes the grocery bag, and doesnât bother to look inside before she drops it on the floor. âI know we have a lot to talk about, but I would really like to save the whole important-conversation part until later.â
âFeeling impatient, are we, Princess?â I stroke her cheek.
âExtremely, yes. And even though I wanted to jill off this morning, I didnât, because I knew you would be worth the wait. But then I had to sit through that meal with you looking yummy.â She pushes my jacket over my shoulders and runs her hands down my arms as it falls to the floor.
âYou think it was any different for me?â I trace the edge of her jaw and skim her cheek with my lips. âI wanted to wrap you in my arms, like this.â I pull her against me. âAnd tell you how much I missed you.â I take her earlobe between my teeth. âAnd that I havenât been able to stop thinking about all the ways I want to make you feel good.â
âI want all those things, too,â Aurora whispers.
âWeâll get there, eventually.â I bite my way along her jaw. We have uninterrupted hours ahead of us. This is my chance to show her exactly how much I want her, to give her what Iâve denied us for the past several weeks. I want to be exactly what she needs. âBut I plan to savor every single moment of this. No rushing.â
I tip her chin up and take her inâeyes rimmed with liner, lashes long, full lips glossy. Sheâs wearing one of the many shirts Iâve bought her for various occasions over the years, and jeans Iâve complimented. If I looked down, I would find her wearing socks I gifted her.
âPlease kiss me,â she whispers.
I slant my mouth over hers, and she softens against me. For a minute, she lets me lead. But then her hands begin to wander, fingers traveling lightly down my spine until she reaches my ass and squeezes. âI canât wait to do that when weâre naked and youâre inside me.â
âYouâre getting ahead of yourself, donât you think?â
âThinking is all Iâve done for months, Hollis.â Her fingers travel along my beltline. âAbout getting my hands on you, exactly like this.â She pops the button of my jeans.
âTell me what else youâve been thinking about.â This is not just about distracting her and slowing us down; I want to learn what makes her tick in the bedroom. But more than that, I want to figure out if weâre in this for the same reasons. I donât want to be a passing fantasy for her.
âSo many things.â She tugs the zipper down. âAbout how good it will feel to touch you.â Her fingertips dip inside my waistband, gliding from one hip to the other. âHow much I loved it when you fucked me with your fingers, and how much better it will be when itâs your cock filling me.â
âThatâs a dirty little mouth you have, Princess.â
Auroraâs hot gaze meets mine as her hand slips into my boxer briefs. Her fingertips graze the head and gently skim the length. âI think you like my naughty mouth.â
âFucking hell,â I groan as her warm, soft palm wraps around me. I spin us around until her back meets the door and brace my left forearm above her head.
âYou feel so good in my hand.â Auroraâs thumb sweeps over the head.
âYour hand feels so good on me,â I grind out.
My eyes roll up, and my teeth snap together as she reverses the motion. I cup her chin in my hand so I can kiss her again. Her strokes are slow, a gentle exploration. Every time she reaches the crown, her thumb runs over the slit and circles the head before she drags her fist back down. Itâs fucking bliss.
Her free hand slides under my shirt, fingertips gliding over my abs and up my chest to circle a nipple. Sheâs all sultry sweetness as her tongue drags across her bottom lip. âCan you take your shirt off for me please, Hollis? I donât want to stop touching you.â
âThat makes two of us.â I canât get enough of the feel of her hands on my skin, of her sweet, breathy sighs and her lust-heavy eyes. I pull my shirt over my head and toss it to the floor. Her greedy gaze rakes over me, making me feel like a fucking godâespecially with the way her fingers trail over my inked skin, her eyes tracking the movement.
She frees me from my boxer briefs, and one side of her mouth kicks up. âI knew it.â
âKnew what?â My voice is all gravel.
Her grin turns impish. âThat youâd have a boyfriend dick.â
I grunt when her thumb circles the crown. âExplain that, please.â
âItâs pretty, like the rest of you.â Stroke up. âAnd thick.â Circle the crown. âAnd big.â Stroke down. âIâll want to ride it all the time.â
âYou mean youâll want to ride me all the time.â My fingers twitch on her hip. I want to put my hands on her, get her naked. But Iâm afraid Iâll lose control and weâll end up fucking on the living room floor. Which is not how I want this to go.
She moves my hand to cover hers. âShow me what you like. I want to learn.â
âAh, fuck, Princess.â And like a neanderthal, I want to castrate every single guy sheâs ever touched before. Thankfully, that thought stays in my head.
I lace my fingers with hers, tightening our grip. Her gaze flips between my face and our twined hands as they move over my cock. She squeezes with every downward stroke, loosening her grip as she reaches the head so she can smooth her thumb over the crown. It feels too good. Every stroke taking me higher. Too soon, Iâm teetering on the edge.
âI wonât last much longer,â I warn.
âBut you can go again, right?â she pants.
âYeah. Of course.â What kind of question is that?
She nods. âOkay. Good.â
I untwine our fingers. âI need you to stop or Iâmâ ââ
âI want to see. I need to see what I do to you,â she pleads.
Thatâs all it takes. My body goes rigid as I thicken in her hand, and my hips jerk, chasing her touch. I grab the doorknob so I donât end up on my knees.
When my vision clears, Iâm staring at Auroraâs cum-covered hand still wrapped around my cock. âWell, fuck.â I finger the hem of her shirt, which didnât escape this event unscathed.
Her eyes light up, and her smile is radiant.
âSo proud of yourself, arenât you?â
She holds her thumb and forefinger a hairsbreadth apart. âMaybe a little.â Her smile turns shy. âI want to be what you need.â
âYou are, Princess. Youâre everything and more.â This woman brings me to my knees.
âIs it my turn now?â she asks as my lips brush hers.
âI think we might need to clean you up first.â I tuck a finger under her chin. âWhy donât you show me all the naughty things you get up to in the shower when youâre thinking about me?â