Chapter 46
If You Want Me (The Toronto Terror Series)
âIremember going to a keg party when I finished my final exam.â I take a swig of my beer. Itâs warm, since Iâve been nursing it for a good hour and a half. I have plans for tonight, and beer isnât getting in the way of them.
Roman chuckles. âI probably went to all of two keg parties in college.â
âI went to way too many keg parties,â Flip says.
âI donât like beer.â Ash sips his rum and Coke. âOr keg parties.â
âThey are usually full of bad decisions, vomit, and regrets,â Tristan says.
Roman excuses himself to the bathroom, and Tristan glances around before he shifts his attention to me. âRoman seems like heâs rolling with things pretty well, though? You never ended up with a black eye.â
âWeâre aware that punching each other wonât solve the problem. And yeah, heâs coming around.â
âHindsight is a real asshole,â Tristan observes.
âThatâs absolutely true,â I agree. âYou and Rix doing good, though?â
âYeah. Beaâs a fucking miracle.â
âYou looking forward to her moving in full time?â I ask.
âSheâs almost there already, but Iâm looking forward to her officially giving up the second bedroom, you know? Itâs like confirmation that weâre on the same page.â Tristan scans the room, maybe to make sure no one else is paying attention. âIâve been looking at rings. I know itâs probably a little early, but Beaâs applied to a couple of programs for the fall. Sheâll have to make a decision soon.â
âThatâs good though, right? Thatâs what she wants?â
âYeah, and Iâm all for it. Sheâs good at the finance stuffâgreat, actuallyâbut itâs not where her heart is. Thereâs no reason for her to stick it out in a job she sort of likes when I can afford to send her to school for something that brings her joy. Hell, Iâd pay for courses for the rest of her fucking life, if that makes her happy. But I canât piss a circle around her all the time, you know?â
âThe smell would be a lot. And Hemi wouldnât be happy about the public indecency charges,â I offer.
âRight? But I can put a huge fucking rock on her finger so all those potential douchebags know sheâs mine. I figure at the end of summer weâll have been dating a year, and sheâll have lived with me for a few monthsâbut not so long that sheâs totally sick of my shitâso I can lock her in.â
I chuckle and pat him on the shoulder. âI donât know that you need to worry about locking her in. Sheâs pretty damn in love with you. I canât see her getting sick of your shit anytime soon.â
âI really fucking hope not, because Beaâs it for me. I would do anything for her. You know?â
âYeah, man. I do.â
Roman returns from the bathroom, wearing his worried-dad frown. He looks over at the ladies. âHow many pitchers of margaritas have those girls had?â
âThe last two have been non-alcoholic,â I tell him.
âThatâs a relief.â
Roman polishes off the rest of his beer. âYou sticking around?â
âUntil Auroraâs ready to go, yeah.â This part is hard to get used to. Heâs my best friend and my girlfriendâs dad. Iâve watched out for her a lot over the years. But her staying at my place, thatâs new.
âYou want to knock on my door in the morning and we can head to practice together?â he asks without looking at me.
Itâs an olive branch. Weâve been driving separately.
âFuck, finally. Letâs take your SUV, Hollis, and you two can drive my ass for the next couple of weeks.â Tristan shakes his head. âItâs been seriously inconvenient for me to drive while you worked your shit out.â
âI feel like I had a right,â Roman says.
âIâm not saying you didnât. Iâm just saying it was inconvenient, and you two can share the responsibility while youâre making it up to me.â Tristan grins.
I shake my head. âYouâre an asshole.â
âI know.â
âSee you two in the morning.â Roman sets his beer bottle on the table behind us and stops to hug Aurora before he leaves.
âSpeaking of people who need a girlfriend, itâs about time Roman jumped back in the pool,â Tristan says.
âAgreed. Especially now.â
âI donât even know what his type is,â Tristan muses.
âHe doesnât talk to women when Aurora is around,â I explain.
âWhat about the one from the gala? Has he gone on that date yet?â
âNot that I know of. She lives out in Illinois or Wisconsin, so I donât know if that has any real potential.â
âThey seemed to get along pretty good on the dance floor. At least before shit hit the fan. Speaking of shit hitting the fanâwhat the hell are you going to do about Scarlet? I canât see Hammer being all that excited about you going on a date with your ex.â
âScarlet saw the interview and gave me a pass on the date. I reimbursed her.â
Tristan cough-chokes on his beer. âYou gave Scarlet fucking Reed a hundred thousand dollars to get out of a date with her?â
âSeemed like the right thing to do. It wasnât her fault I couldnât uphold my end of the bargain. If Iâd taken your advice like I should have and manned the fuck up, I wouldnât have been in the auction. Aurora would have and should have been my date that night.â
âThat was an expensive lesson.â
âAnd totally worth it since I got the girl.â
Auroraâs eyes find mine from across the room. Sheâs so fucking beautiful, and sheâs mine. I will spend the rest of my life loving her. She looks around, maybe checking to see whoâs watching out of habit. Then she rolls her eyes and sashays across the bar toward me.
âAnd Iâm out. Iâll see you later.â Tristan claps me on the shoulder and walks away.
I drink in the wide smile and impish look on her face as she approaches. âHowâs it going, Princess?â
âMy dad left?â she confirms.
I nod.
She links her hand behind my neck. âI feel weird about being affectionate with you in front of him,â she admits. âI donât want to throw it in his face, but also, kiss me, please.â
I pull her close and press my lips to hers. It feels damn good to love her without reservation.
She fiddles with the top button on my shirt. âIâm suspiciously sober considering the number of margaritas Iâve consumed.â
I run my fingers down the back of her arm. âI wonder why that is.â
Her bottom lip slides through her teeth. âSwitching to virgins was smart.â
I arch a brow.
She clears her throat. âThe number of times Iâve masturbated to that facial expression is obscene. Take me home and put me to bed, please.â
I tap her lightly on the ass. âGo say bye to your friends.â
âOkay!â She kisses my cheek and bounces across the restaurant to where the girls are sitting. A round of hugs follows, and then we link pinkies and step outside into the cool evening.
She threads her arm through mine and rests her cheek against my biceps. âAs much as I wanted to celebrate today in bed, and I absolutely still do, it was so nice to be out with our friends.â
I press my lips to her temple. âLoving you out loud feels so much better.â
âYou are the best boyfriend in the universe.â She squeezes my arm. âAnd my dad seems to be handling things.â
âHe is.â I open the door to our building and usher her in out of the cold. âWeâre driving to practice together tomorrow.â
Her face lights up as I hit the elevator button for the penthouse floor. âReally? Who suggested it?â
âHe did.â The elevator zips upward.
âIâm so glad to hear that.â She runs her hands up my chest. âYou and my dad have been so close for so long, and this changes that, but I didnât want the damage to be permanent, too.â
âWe both love you too much to let that happen.â I kiss her softly.
The elevator dings, and I release her as the doors slide open, taking her hand instead.
The second weâre inside my place, Aurora drags my mouth down to hers. Unfortunately, Postie and Malone are on us, trying to trip us as they weave between our legs.
âTheyâre adorable, but theyâre cockblockers,â Aurora says against my lips.
âLetâs feed them. Then I have something for you.â
âYou mean orgasms, right? You have lots of those for me.â
âIâve been willing to provide those all week,â I remind her.
âThey came with stipulations.â Her fingers curl around my belt buckle.
I grab her wrists and spin her around, raising them above her head as I press her into the door. She parts her legs, and my knee slides between them. She sighs and rolls her hips.
âOne stipulation.â I drag my lips along the edge of her jaw, breathing her in. âAnd it was reasonable. It still is.â
âI know. I canât separate sex from feelings when it comes to you,â she whispers, eyes brimming with emotion. âIt feels like my heart and soul are on fire when youâre inside me.â
Her truth soothes the broken parts of me. âI feel the same way.â I release her hands and slide my fingers into her silky hair. âThatâs why I needed you to be in this with me before we got here again.â
âThank you for being patient.â She rests a warm palm against my cheek. Everything about her in this moment is soft, open. âI love you.â
Her admission unravels me and heals my heart. I memorize this moment: the gentleness of her words, the truth in her eyes, how beautiful she is, hands on my skin, grounding me, tethering me to Earth.
âIâve been waiting to hear those words.â
âIâve been waiting to say them. Now give them back to me, please,â she whispers.
I take her face in my hands, emotion making my voice hoarse. âI love you, Aurora.â
Her smile widens. âWith all my heart,â she murmurs and pulls my mouth to hers.
The kiss lasts all of five seconds, though, because my cats are back to being pests.
âLetâs feed these two.â
âAnd then orgasms?â
âSurprise first, then orgasms.â
She sighs. âIâll get their treats if you get the food.â
âOn it.â I head for the fridge.
Aurora gives the boys treats, which they gobble up in two seconds, while I plate their soft food. Once our hands are washed, I lace our fingers. âCome on.â I guide her down the hall, past the spare bedroom, to my home office.
Nerves twist my stomach as I flick on the light and push the door open.
âHollis,â she breathes as she moves into the room. âThis is⦠You redecorated.â
The room formerly contained a single desk and an unused exercise bike. As far as home offices went, it was pretty uninspiring. But I usually sat at my dining room table with my laptop if I needed to review paperwork or contracts. If Aurora joins Hemi in the PR office, sheâll need space to work outside of office hours, and maybe so will I in the future.
âI want this space to feel like yours, too.â I want it to feel like home. Like she belongs here with me.
âThis is amazing.â She crosses over to the double desks. One side has a black executive chairâthatâs mine. The other chair is baby blue and plush, designed for function and comfort. The walls have been painted a pale, icy blue and new art decorates them, including a banana-duck print. Two custom lounge chairs face the window overlooking the harbor. âYou even picked coordinating throw pillows,â she muses.
I wrap my arms around her waist from behind and kiss her cheek. âI thought this would be a nice place to have coffee on work-from-home days.â
âI love that.â She tilts her head up, and I press a soft kiss to her tempting lips. âWhy are you so perfect?â
âIâm far from it.â I want to stay wrapped around her, but this is only the beginning, so I step back and link our hands. âThereâs more. Come.â
âMore?â
I guide her down the hall to my bedroom. âEyes closed, Princess.â I move her in front of me, covering her eyes with one hand while I open the door with the other. She holds my forearm as I urge her forward. My reflection stares back at me from the full-length mirror across the room. Auroraâs cheeks are flushed.
Nervous anticipation makes my chest tight, but I need her to see how serious I am. I drop my hand to her hip. âYou can open your eyes.â
They flare as her nails bite into my arm in the most delicious way. âOh, Hollis.â She spins in my arms, awe on her perfect, stunning face. âYou did this for me?â
âFor us,â I correct. âItâs decidedly self-serving.â
âItâs incredible.â She pushes up on her toes to kiss me, then scans the bed.
âYou bought throw pillows.â
âI know you like them.â She has a ridiculous number on her bed. Iâve discovered they can be useful and not just a nuisance.
She flits across the room and grabs the one in the middle. âYou got me a princess pillow.â
âI did.â
âYou like me a lot.â
âI definitely do.â
She hugs the pillow to her chest with one arm and follows me across the room to the new dresser. I open the top drawer. Iâve already folded and put away all the things sheâs left here over the past few months. âThose are yours. I didnât want to clear a couple of drawers to make room for you. I want this to feel like itâs as much yours as it is mine.â I skim her cheek, needing the contact to ground me. âI know this is all very new and we need time to figure us out, but Iâm also aware that Rix is moving out, and your sublease is only a year. Whenever youâre ready to be here, here is ready for you. But no pressure. Itâs okay if you need more time than that.â
She sets the pillow on the dresser top and settles her palms on my chest, her soft smile warming me. âYou bought me a dresser.â
âYou have a lot of clothes,â I point out. I hope this isnât too much.
âThis is true.â She runs her hands over my shoulder. âYouâre really serious about me, arenât you?â
I swallow past the lump in my throat. âToo serious?â
She shakes her head. âThe perfect amount of serious.â Her smile grows soft. âTell me something real and true.â
âLoving you is so easy. But hiding that feeling, denying you, was the hardest, most painful thing Iâve ever done, and Iâm so glad I never have to do it again.â I tuck her hair behind her ear, tracing the delicate shell. âTell me something real and true.â
Her chin trembles as she rests her palm over my heart. âYou settle my soul, Hollis. Your heart is my home, and I never want to leave it.â
Our lips meet, a gentle brush, a wordless promise. The wash of need is sudden and consuming as we press closer, hands gripping hair as we angle our heads and deepen the kiss.
She untucks my shirt and pulls it over my head, then does the same with hers. âYou know what I want to do now?â
âI have a pretty good idea.â
She unclasps her bra and tosses it aside, then pops the button on her jeans. âI bet my ideas are better.â She shimmies her pants and underwear down her legs and kicks them off, leaving her in a pair of socks with a blue and black stripe around the top.
She tucks her fingers into the waistband of my pants and tugs me toward the full-length mirror.
âYou planning to tell me what this better idea is?â I ask as she adjusts my position.
She shakes her head as she slides my belt through the buckle and pulls it free from the loops, dropping it on the floor at my feet. Her tongue drags across her bottom lip as she opens the button and pulls the zipper down. And then she grabs the princess pillow and tosses it at my feet, sinking to the floor.
She smiles up at me. âIâm going to show you with my mouth how much I appreciate your thoughtfulness.â
I smirk. âArenât you sweet?â
âThe sweetest.â Her grin is saucy as she frees me from my boxer briefs and wraps her palm around my length. I have to close my eyes for a second and gather myself. It feels like Iâve been without her softness for an eternity, and Iâm not adequately prepared for this.
She places a kiss on the tip.
âFuck, Princess,â I groan.
âMy mouth, Hollis,â she replies.
My eyes open as her full lips part. Her tongue slides along the weeping slit and circles the head before she takes me in her mouth. One hand moves to my thigh, and her gaze shifts to the sideâto her naked reflection, kneeling on a pillow, her lips wrapped around my cock.
She pops off, lips brushing the head as she speaks. âI like this mirror.â And then her lips are sliding down my cock, pulling me deeper. She moans around me, one hand dropping between her thighs. I stroke her cheek, gaze bouncing between her right in front of me and her reflection in the mirror.
She moves my hands to cradle her face, and her eyes lift to mine.
I arch a brow.
She moans and slides three fingers into her pussy.
I pull my hips back until the ridge hits her bottom lip.
âYes, please,â she murmurs.
I push back in, slow strokes at first, going deeper on every pass, until the head hits the back of her throat, and she moans. Her fingers move between her thighs, eyes darting between my face and our reflection in the mirror. Iâm close. So close. I start to pull out, because Iâm one thrust away from coming. But her free hand rises, and she grabs my ass, nails sinking in as she pulls me forward until sheâs swallowing my entire fucking cock.
I come so hard I grab the edge of the dresser to stay upright. Her nails retract from my ass, and I pull out. She sucks in a gasping breath and smiles up at me. âI always wanted to try that.â
âFor fuckâs sake, Princess.â I crush my mouth to hers.
And then sheâs pulling me onto the floor with her. I tuck the pillow under her head and bury my face between her thighs, fucking her with my fingers and tongue until sheâs fisting my hair and screaming my name.
And then I carry her to the bed, roll a condom on, and settle in the cradle of her hips.
âI need you in me, Hollis,â she murmurs, her trembling fingers skimming my cheek. âPlease.â
âEverything for you, Princess.â I drag the head through her wetness.
Aurora arches, canting her hips up as I nudge her entrance. I pause, memorizing the moment, how gorgeous she looks with flushed cheeks and lust-drenched eyes.
And then I push inside in one smooth stroke.
We both moan as I bottom out inside her. âFuck, I missed you,â I groan against her lips.
âI missed you, too.â She runs her fingers through my hair. âI missed this feeling.â
Itâs so much more than physical connection. Being entwined with her feels like home. I stroke her cheek. âSo did I.â
âLetâs never take it away from each other again, okay?â she murmurs.
I shake my head. âNever.â
âIâm yours.â Her hands slide down my back.
âMine forever now,â I promise.
âEvery part of you.â
I roll my hips, and she moans softly.
âI used to imagine how good it would feel to have you inside me like this. Right here, in this bed. But itâs so much more than that.â She puts her hand over my heart. âYouâre inside me here, too.â
âI didnât know what I was missing until you,â I murmur against her lips.
She wraps herself around me, feet hooked at the small of my back. And we move together, a slow tide rising, until it washes over us, blanketing us in bliss. In a promise of forever.