Chapter 15: indigo

TW

MENTIONS OF RAPE

ASSAULT (it's only a small bit but i love y'all and I don't want to trigger anyone ❤️)

PANI ATTACK

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He's here, he's really fucking here and he's waving at me. I can't breathe, I can't think I just want to get the fuck away from him.

I stumble from the bar and towards the upstairs office Enzo has that I know I can lock myself in, I check behind me and he's not there anymore. My vision is blurred with tears and I'm grabbing at my throat, I need to breathe.

I make it to the empty part of the club just before the stairs to the office and I'm just about to go up them when I crash into someone, I look up to apologies but I'm met with the same blue eyes that haunt my nightmares instead of a stranger.

He grabs my shoulder and suddenly I'm 6 years old again and begging for this disgusting, sick man to let go off me, begging him to stop touching me, crying and screaming at him to take me home because as strong as I may have become, the weakness that I felt then will always define me when Franco is around.

"Don't touch me!" I scream at him but it's so muffled by the loud music that I doubt he can even hear me, tears are streaming down my face and I'm trying to gulp in air.

"It's been so long my little bluebell" not the nickname, please. I thrash around but he's got such a tight grip on me.

"You may be his now but you'll be mine soon" he hisses in my ear and just like that he's gone and I'm left wondering if he was ever even here.

My legs are useless as I climb up the stairs and make it into the office punching in the code with shaky hands and practically falling into the office, I slam the door behind me and it beeps signifying it's locked. I go over to the corner and slide to the floor, i try to take deep breaths but I can feel his touch lingering on my skin, it feels poisonous to the point where my shoulder feels like it's actually burning.

I can't stop shaking and I can't breathe, so I pull out my phone and click on their contact while pushing the speaker button and putting the phone at my side. They pick up on the third ring.

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GREYS POV:

"-That's why we should add this to next years plan" one of the men finishes

I'm sat in a meeting and it's my most important one yet, it's the annual meeting for the American mafia and the first time I'm leading it, as I'll be taking over in 6 months as the official don. My dads sat beside me and he glares at me when my phone starts to vibrate.

I yank it out my pocket and I'm about to decline when I see the the contact name blue 💙 pop up on the screen. She hasn't spoken to me in days and she want to talk now? I press the answer button. I can hear music on the other end of the line.

"What indigo? I'm in the middle of a really Fucking important meeting, couldn't you have called later?" I hiss into the phone, all the men are looking at me and some are shaking their heads. My dad is rubbing his temples and sighing.

When she doesn't answer I go to hang up but stop when she talks.

"He-he touched me grey I-I can't b-breathe" fucking hell

"Who touched you indigo?" My dads head shoots up at that and as soon as he nods his head I'm up out of my seat and running out the door, i don't give a shit about my reputation or what those men think, somebody's touched my fiancée and I'm going to Fucking kill them for it.

"I-I can't breathe grey, h-he's coming f-for me" she's having a panic attack

"Ok baby just hang on, where are you?" I rush into the phone while grabbing my Keys from the receptionist and getting in my Lamborghini. I'd go on my bike but I need to stay on the phone with her.

"My dads c-club downtown" she stutters, I know the one she's talking about, I speed out of the parking lot and onto the highway, people are honking at me but I couldn't give a shit.

"Ok sweetheart I'm coming, I won't be long I promise" I reassure her

She's crying and sniffling and trying to breathe, I can hear her through the phone and it's breaking my Fucking heart.

"I-I need y-you please" why is she saying please, she can have me she can have all of me but I just need to get to her.

"I know baby, I'm so fucking sorry, just hang on for me" I say, I'm going 120mph already, I'm around 4 minutes away.

I can hear her mumbling my name through the phone, why won't this fucking car go faster?

I finally pull up at the club and leave my phone in the car, i weave between drunk teenagers and strippers before I race up to the office and put in the code that I know from all the boys being up here.

I walk in and she's over in the corner hugging her knees and saying my name whilst trying to breathe. I jog over to her and she reaches for me. I pick her up and she wraps her arms around my waist whilst clinging to my shirt.

"I've got you baby, I've always got you" I whisper to her and kiss the top of her head.

I walk over to the couch and sit down on it with her.

"Blue?" I ask and she lifts her head from my neck, mascara is running down her face and her eyes are red.

"I'm here now, I'm so sorry baby" I tell her and stroke her cheek. She's still struggling to control it. I think back to all the times I've seen her family deal with her like this and I copy what they've done.

"Hey blue?" I ask and her beautiful green eyes look into mine.

"What are 5 things you can see" I question her praying I'm doing this right

"D-desk, computer, s-stapler, p-printer and you" she stutters out and my heart clenches.

"4 things you can hear, you're doing so good darling" I encourage her

"Your voice, the m-music, t-traffic and t-the people d-downstairs" she's calming down slightly.

"I'm so proud of you baby, what about 3 things you can touch" I question

"Your face" she says bringing her left hand to my face

"Your h-hair" she says resting her forehead on mine

"Your heart" she concludes and places her right hand over my chest

Her breathing is getting slower and I keep quiet as her head rests on mine and her hand stays on my heart.

I wait ten minutes and her head moves off my forehead and slides onto my shoulder, her even breaths indicate that she's asleep. I stand up with her and walk out the door covering her ears with my arm and hand and taking her out the back exit where a group of men are putting a body in a van?

I don't question it and walk towards my car, I open the boot and grab out one of my hoodies that I keep for emergencies like when I get blood on a white shirt and sit indigo in the front passenger seat, i tug it over her head and she flops down into the seat.

Her face is red and she looks so tired.

I hop in the front and hang up on indigo from where I forgot to earlier.

I decide to take her back to the knightly estate where her family are, I have a feeling she'll feel more at ease there.

I drive to the mansion and hop out the car when we arrive, I pick her up out the car and carry her bridal style to the front door and ring the doorbell. He dad answers the door.

"What happened son?" He asked worry coating his voice.

"I'll tell you In the morning but I think she'll feel better here, she's fine though" physically at least.

"Alright, the boys are out with their mum so we'll see you in the morning for an explanation" he says and then finishes with a good night before I head up the stairs to indigos old room and set her on the bed.

I go into her wardrobe and pick out a pair of sweatpants and panties for her and lay them on the bed before I stick my head out of her bedroom door and call a maid that's just come out the bathroom with cleaning stuff.

"Would you mind changing her please?" I ask and the maid nods her head and steps into indigos room while I step out.

I wait a couple minutes and the maid reappears and nods her head at me, I walk in and indigos dress has been taken off and she's in a pair of sweats and my hoodie. I go into the bathroom and mentally congratulate myself for paying attention to her when I recognize the makeup remover she uses. I dab some onto a reusable face pad and make sure it's not one of the non-reusable ones because while I was shaving last week I listened to her rant about how she never uses normal ones because they're so bad for the environment while she was washing her face and go back into the bedroom, I remove her makeup and take the pad back to her bathroom.

I tuck her under the covers and I go to walk away when her small hand grabs mine.

"Stay" she mumbles half asleep

"Alright darling" I strip to my boxers and get under the covers with her, she immediately clings to my side and when that's not enough she gets on top of me instead. I smile at her and whisper a good night before I go to sleep myself, without my pills.

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I know that the writing could have been better on this so sorry about that but it is 2:20am however I really didn't want to leave you guys hanging for so long.

Hope you liked this chapter and love you all!

Happy reading!