Phantom: Act 4 – Scene 27
Phantom (Tattered Curtain Series)
One Week Later
Scarlett
Masque is busy again tonight, as usual, but the same thrill I had the night I was here with Sol is gone. All of it is gone.
The music. The roses. The notes. The comforting feeling Iâm not all alone in this world.
Gone.
I know I shouldnât care, that I should be grateful heâs leaving me alone. Hell, I asked for this. But even though itâs exactly what I thought I wanted⦠it still hurts that he truly did just let me go. Our time together was like a match held between two fingers, effortless to light, glorious in the darkness, and painful when it was snuffed out in my grasp. It doesnât matter how long we burned together, I still canât alleviate this sting under my skin.
No matter how hard I try to forget him, I miss my demon of music.
âOrdered your favorite,â hot breath whispers against my ear and I shudder before turning to give Rand a bland smile.
He messaged me incessantly after my falling out with Sol. When I finally texted Rand back the next day, Solâs warning was heavy in my mind. But Sol hadnât been able to give me more to go off of aside from what happened a decade ago with Randâs older brother, not Rand. And I was so lonely that day, I needed someoneâanyoneâand my childhood friend seemed like my best option. Frankly, my only option.
Ever since, Rand has been trying so hard to cheer me up. Heâs never left my side, always asks me if Iâm doing alright, and makes sure Sol hasnât âbotheredâ me again. At first, I was grateful to not be alone, but now I canât help but be annoyed with his perpetual charm.
âThanks,â I reply and accept my Cinderella mocktail. He frowns from behind his red devil mask when I set it aside, but I told him I only wanted my bottled water and he hadnât listened. My nerves are too shot to hype up with sugar, so Iâll have to wait to enjoy it after I sing.
âI saw Jaime at the bar,â Rand offers before straightening the lapels of his all-bloodred suit. âLooks like he really misses you.â
The sarcastic tone has me turning in the direction he just came from.
Sure enough, Jaime is standing at the bar in a dapper silver suit, with a shining silver mask over his eyes, surrounded by members of the cast and crew. Everyone breaks into laughter over something he says, and that gnawing loneliness in my chest digs deeper.
I guess I really was a job to him.
âLooks like it,â I mutter, both to myself and Rand.
Iâve barely seen Jaime since he dropped that bomb Monday. He hasnât talked to me or looked at me during rehearsals and classes. Rand even pointed out just yesterday that the few times weâve seen him, he turns the other way.
âWhat an asshole. Youâre better off without him, Lettie.â
âI donât know,â I hedge and rub a pang in my chest. âI kind of miss him.â
Rand frowns. âWell, maybe heâll figure out what heâs missing. And hell, it might not have anything to do with you and Sol. Maybe heâs just jealous of how much time weâve spent together. I swear heâs into you.â
I snort. âFor the hundredth time, Iâm not Jaimeâs type. Besides, even if he was interested, Iâm not. I donât see him that way. Heâs my friend.â I squeeze Randâs hand across the table. âJust like you are. I donât know what I wouldâve done without you if you hadnât warned me about Sol.â
His charming smile grows brittle and he pulls his hand out from underneath mine. He sips his scotch before sucking his teeth.
I lean forward conspiratorially. âYou know⦠just because Laurent drank scotch doesnât mean you have to.â The grin I receive is much smaller than I expect as he stares into his glass.
âMy brother could never find his favorite brand in New Orleans. I think about that all the time. How he tried to make this city better and was never satisfied. I donât prefer the drink, but it reminds me of why Iâm here. When I rebuild the Chatelain name, weâll take all of New Orleans, starting with the ports. Itâll be better than my brother couldâve dreamed.â
My brow furrows. âI thought⦠I thought you didnât care about all that stuff. I thought you were back here because itâs your home. For the art and the culture.â
He shrugs and rolls the bottom of his drink on its edge. âI love New Orleans, but art and culture donât make money, Scarlett.â
Frowning, I twist the rose gold opal necklace that was delivered to me this morning by a local boutique. With the necklace were earrings to match and a long, black satin dress. I debated wearing the outfit, since I have no doubt it was meant to be a gift from Sol and he just never canceled the delivery. But after realizing I had nothing else to wear besides theater costumes and leggings, I caved. Honestly, Iâm glad I did because I feel gorgeous.
The dress is sleek with a plunging neckline, and an embroidered sparkling black butterfly spans my back. The design looks just like the mask Iâm wearing over my eyes.
One of the reasons I know it was Sol who left me this dress is that the wrap skirt opens up to a slit that starts right at my right hip bone. Every now and then, I graze my hand over the sensitive skin, imagining that itâs his instead.
But no. I did this. I decided that my future would be without Sol, and I need to stick to my decision. Heâs a ruthless stalker who manipulated me for months.
âI love you.â
That admission still shreds my heart and resolve to pieces. I close my eyes and shake my head.
âHey, you okay?â Randâs hand covers mine, prompting me to open my eyes. His thumb caresses my palm, making my skin itch under the soft touch. But concern furrows his brow, so I resist tugging away. âIf this is too much for you, we can go. There will be other chances to sing somewhere like this. These places are a dime a dozen.â
âNo, no. Iâm fine. Just a little headache,â I lie.
The truth is, I would like to leave, but Madam G and Ziggy Miles are letting me sing, and I donât want to pass that up.
âOkay, if you say so. I can see why youâre getting a headache though. Itâs dark and musty down here and this theme is gauche. I might get a migraine from these flowers alone.â He sniffs the air for emphasis. âDefinitely not freshly cut.â
He gestures around the speakeasy, at the gorgeous red, white, and black roses everywhere. Another donation from my demon of music, Iâm sure. He, however, is nowhere in sight.
My head has been on a swivel looking for him all week with no reward. He probably bought an exorbitant amount of decorative bouquets just to support Miss Mabel and Madam G, but a secret part of me hopes he at least thought of me when he ordered them.
âReally? You donât like the flowers? I think theyâre gorgeous. And the lady who sells them is the kindestââ
âFrom Treme, though, right?â He snorts. âSweet Lettie, I grew up in the gorgeous Garden District. These look⦠sad in comparison.â
My jaw drops. He was never this pretentious growing up.
Or maybe Iâve just idealized him in my head? Itâs certainly more comforting to remember the good than face the bad.
âThe bandâs pretty good though. Speaking of music⦠how did your audition go? If youâre the lead, Iâm sure I can get you in with the best people on Broadway.â
Iâm shaking my head before he even finishes. âI actually donât want to do theater after I graduate. I think Iâm going to stay here. Maybe sing at venues like this. Besides, I didnât get the part.â
Jilliana got it after killing her audition. She owns that role now.
Rand frowns. âSeriously? I thought tonight was just a one-off. Donât you think lounges and bars are a little⦠humble for someone with your talent? Wouldnât you want to reach your full potentialââ
âWeâve got a special guest in the house tonight,â the lead singer, Ziggy Miles, announces into the microphone. âMiss Scarlett has graced us with her presence again. Scarlett, come on up.â
Anxious energy tumbles in my stomach and chest and I look to Rand for encouragement.
âDonât embarrass me.â He winks with a teasing grin.
I wince before muttering back, âIâll do my best.â
âLettie, Lettie, Lettie⦠Iâm kidding. Canât you take a joke?â He squeezes my hand as a sincere smile finally graces his lips. âYouâll be great. Canât wait to hear you.â
âThanks.â My lips lift at the corner before I take a deep breath and get up from my chair.
Ziggyâs unmasked, wrinkled grin greets me as I navigate through the black, white, and redâclad masked crowd toward the stage. Everyone I pass is clapping and it makes me giddy and nervous at the same time. When Iâm nearly to the platform, a white blur catches my attention. My heart races and I stop in my tracks, trying to search for it, but Ziggy reaches down with a hand to bring me up to the stage.
âCome on up here, now, Scarlett. Canât keep your audience waiting.â
âSorry!â I laugh nervously and accept his helping hand to climb onto the stage.
But even after Iâm settled underneath the spotlight, visions of a raven-haired Phantom in white keep flitting in the corner of my eye. I canât stop myself from peering out into the crowd, but Ziggy interrupts my scouting when he speaks into the microphone again.
âMiss Scarlett has agreed to sing a song for us all, havenât you, Scarlett?â
I nod quickly and stutter into the microphone. âYes!â
Iâm not nervous exactly, but my excitement is finally back after a week away from Sol. I chase the feeling even if itâs muted.
That was the first-time rush, thatâs all. The second time just isnât as exciting.
I know thatâs not true. Iâm quickly learning that lying to myself hasnât worked before and it wonât now.
âTake it away, Miss Scarlett. Let an old man get a drink while you sing the house down.â Everyone laughs, although Rand seems preoccupied over at our table near the wall. Heâs scanning the room, seemingly looking for someone. I ignore him and join in with a chuckle as Ziggy gives me space for the mic.
The band starts playing without my prompting, and my heart freezes in panic because itâs a different song than the one we discussed. But when I realize the tune, my pulse stutters back to life.
It doesnât have any lyrics⦠unless I sing my own.
My eyes search the cozy venue until I finally find the man who wrote the notes for me. His midnight eye sparkles underneath the barâs dim lights. The all-white suit he wears matches his skull mask, and the candles flickering everywhere give him an ethereal glow. My breath escapes me when he tips his glass and head to me.
âSorry about that folks.â The music stops behind me as the pianist talks into the microphone. The band never has to wear a mask, so when I look back at him, I can see the mirth and encouragement on his face as he gives me an out. âWe all get stage jitters. But you can do it, canât ya, Scarlett? We got a special request to do this one just for you.â
I bet you did.
âRight, so sorry, guys.â I swallow and give an awkward laugh. âTake it from the top.â
The band counts down again and plays the song Iâve only heard echoing up through my vents, the siren call of my demon. I canât help the twist of guilt in my chest over leaving the way I did. The look on his face was one of utter betrayal, which made no sense considering I was the one whoâd been betrayed by him and Jaime.
Right on cue this time, my mouth opens and I release the words Iâve only sung for my demon of music. They pour from me, practically unbidden. My lyrics fit perfectly with the low, sensuous melody, and I sing about finding my one true love and him accepting me, my light and especially my darkness. Weâve written many songs together over the past several months and I know he chose this one for a reason.
As I sing, I begin to analyze the lyrics, trying to figure out what my demon is telling me. In them, I talk about how my secrets are buried in tombs like my fatherâs and how I have to hide my emotions behind my own mask. The irony of those lyrics isnât lost on me now. It isnât until I get to one very specific verse that my heart begins to pound with realization. I almost stutter as I describe how it took one night to bury all my secrets, but the next day brought the rest to lightâ¦
Does he know?
He said he started watching me the night my dad died. Why? Does he somehow know what I did? Was he there? Did he⦠fix it for me?
My mind is spinning and it takes me getting to the second chorus to realize Iâve been staring at Sol the entire time. I try to look away but my eye catches on the man in silver next to him.
Jaime?
Why on earth is he with Sol? He sees me staring at him and raises his flute glass, an apologetic look on his face. The skull on his leather bracelet glints in the bar light and I look away. Randâs all-red suit catches my eye and I almost miss the beginning of the final verse thanks to the look in his eyes.
Theyâre not looking at me. Heâs glaring at Sol from behind his devil mask, and the murderous scowl on his face sends my protective instincts soaring.
I take a final look at Sol and once again, I desperately wish I could see his whole face. The left side is practiced indifference, making my chest ache, and the other is hidden behind the mask. I canât help but wonder if the light would glint off the scars as beautifully as it did in the tunnel.
When I realized heâd forgotten his mask, his bare face had stolen my breath. The burned tissue and stitched-together flesh shimmered, practically iridescent in the dim lamplight. Iâd almost gotten lost in a moment of reverence when heâd stripped his shirt to reveal an intricate patchwork of scars interwoven with tattoos over his arms and chest, the veins of which all lead to a striking skull that takes over his entire back. But then realization hit, and my body had warred with kneeling in awe, and bending over to vomit.
How much pain had he been in? At fifteen? Heâd said Laurent had done that, but the Laurent I knew was nothing but kind to me when I spent time with Rand during one of my dadâs late shows. But you never really know anyone. Iâm living proof of that. Everyone wears a mask. Sol is just more up front about his.
The one Iâve worn the past year hides the secrets and rage boiling under my veins, threatening to ooze from my pores.
Has my demon seen under my mask⦠and loved me anyway?
âYouâre my pretty little muse, Scarlett. I worship your voice. Your body, mind, and soul are no different.â
âEven the darkness in my mind?â
âEspecially the darkness.â
I blink as I find the last note and when Iâve opened my eyes again, my phantom is gone, and so is Jaime. Despite the applause, I feel more nerves now than before I started. I thank the crowd and quickly make my way off the stage before beelining to the womanâs restroom.
People praise me and I smile, but I canât catch enough breath to thank them. Iâm about to turn the corner for the bathroom when an arm wraps around my waist. Iâm clutched from behind and tugged into a very familiar alcove. A mirror at the end of the diagonal hallway is at the perfect angle, and I can see us clearly.
The white suit jacket is a stark contrast against my satin dress and I fall back into the embrace as a strong hand travels between my breasts and up to my throat. I donât fight when calloused fingers grip my jaw and turn my head to the side as his nose skates up the column of my neck. The scent of whiskey, sugar, and leather is overwhelming in the small space. His other hand dips beneath the slit in my dress and tugs me by my bare hip.
I moan when my demonâs lips brush my ear as he whispers. âYou were perfect up there, ma jolie petite muse. Did you figure out why I chose that song?â
âW-Why?â I ask as his wide hand pulls my hips against his hardening length.
âYou wanted to know why I started to follow you? Itâs because I saw your darkness that night, Scarlett. Your darkness called to mine. My life was pitch black before you. You were the moonlight to my midnight.â
His forearm presses harder into my chest and his fingers brush my pulse. âDo you feel it, Scarlett? Close your eyes and feel my heartbeat with yours.â
I do as he says and swallow past his fingertips as I feel our heartbeats together. My head nods before Iâve even decided to agree.
âListen, pretty muse. Listen to the song my heart beats for you and admit you know its rhythm.â
His warm lips caress my cheek and our reflection flashes in my vision. My demon of music in white. His angel in black.
Everything inside me is telling me to give in. To trust this man who understands me better than I do myself. But then my brain fights me, reminding me of the manipulation, his skewed justice. And even though my entire body tries to rebel, I shake my head.
âI⦠I canât, Sol.â
Despite my words, I soak up the fullness of his lips against my skin⦠until itâs all suddenly gone.
âSo youâve made your choice. Itâs done.â
At Solâs deadened tone and the abrupt chill coating my skin, I snap my eyes open to see my reflection in this dark corner.
Alone.
I hold my own silver gaze as my hands slide over my throat and belly, to see if I can still feel where his fingertips caressed me. But I canât feel anything.
Iâm numb.
If I didnât smell Sazeracs and leather, and I didnât know for certain that Iâm in my right mind, I wouldâve thought Iâd made the whole interaction up.
My hands drop from my own body and I collect my breath before remembering what I was even doing in this darkened area of Masque in the first place. Taking a steadying breath, desperately trying to convince myself that Iâve made the right decision, I step out of the alcove.
âScarlo!â I stop immediately and spin around at Jaimeâs tenor voice cutting strongly through the din echoing from down the hall. Heâs looking sharp in the three-piece metallic suit I saw him in earlier, but his fervent glance around puts me on edge.
âHas he talked to you?â His eyes are wide behind his silver mask.
âWho?â
âMr. BorâSol. Did he⦠did he explain?â
I purse my lips. âGonna need a little more to go on, Jaime.â
He sighs. âI told him to give you another chance.â
âYou told Sol Bordeaux, the Phantom of the French Quarter, what to do?â
âI had to. Heâs convinced youâve made your choice. Poor broken bastard thinks that since you saw underneath his mask that you canât stand him.â
âWhat? Thatâs not it at all. What I couldnât stand is the way he orchestrated my life, hired a friend for me, and then punched him for no reason!â
âNo, fuck. Listen, Scarlo. He asked me to stay away from you this week, since you asked for your privacy, and Iâve been trying my best. But youâre my best friend, so Iâve got to tell it to you straight. The way you guys played together last week was incredible. Iâve never seen you light up like that on any stage or for anyone. If someone in this shitty world can do that for you, you have to keep them.â
âJaime, he manipulated meââ
âYes, he protected you, but he never controlled you or took your decisions away. As for me⦠Iâm sorry I ever made you think our friendship wasnât real. Sol just asked me to watch over you, not steal you as my best friend and never give you up. I did all that on my own. My job was to protect you when he couldnât. Thatâs all.â
âOkay, so what about punching you?â I ask, my nose scrunched as I try to take all this information in. âWhy did he do that?â
âI fucked up. I thought it was Sol because of his ring but I was wrong.â
âWhat? How do you know? Didnât you see his face?â
He sighs and shakes his head. âIt was dark and it was my third day straight of getting shit-faced because I felt guilty for not sticking up for you. The guy was wearing a hoodie and a mask that looked like him, so I assumed it was Sol. But seeââ He points to his healing bruise where a skull imprint used to be a week ago. âIf the Phantom had done it, then Iâd still have a nasty skull-shaped scar. He doesnât pull his punches. He also reached out to check on me andââ
I shake my head. âWait, so youâre telling me that thereâs a⦠copycat Phantom of the French Quarter?â
âYeah, I guess you can say that.â
âWhy would a copycat come after you? And how could he have a mask with Benâs face?â
âOne of his shadows has gone missingââ My eyes flare, but he keeps going. âWe havenât been able to find him, so maybe someone got a hold of his mask somehow? Thatâs what weâre trying to figure out. Whoever this is was trying to turn you and me against him. And it worked.â
Hope unfurls in my chest like a flame. I tried to push Sol away from the beginning, never giving him my full trust. And I realized this week that Sol was right about me loving his possessive, primal side. It was finding out heâd hired a friend for me and then beat that friend up that had been my final straw.
But what if he was framed? Knowingly or not, Iâve been able to trust Sol, my demon of music for almost a year. What if I had trusted him on this? Weâd still be together, but now⦠Could he forgive me for doubting him?
My hand clasps my necklace over my chest, as if it could hold me back from sprinting to him right now and begging for forgiveness. I canât be too hasty, though. Thereâs still one huge question that needs to be answered.
âBut⦠who would do that?â
Jaimeâs jaw tics as he leans in. âScarlo, letâs be real. I think thereâs one person in particular who wouldââ
âJaime, what are you doing with my date?â
My best friend tenses and sidesteps away from me, revealing Rand. A sour look has his face twisted and his arms are crossed over his red suit. He glances up and down at me. âYou okay?â
âSure sheâs okay.â Jaime smiles and throws his arm over my shoulder. âSheâs just chatting with her bestie. Got a problem with that?â
âHer bestie? Where have you been all week while sheâs been upset? And what does your boss think about you being all over his former obsession?â Randâs smug tone slithers up my back, making my stomach knot.
Jaime shrugs. âHe couldnât care less about her now. Heâll probably be under a tourist by midnight tonight. Theyâve always been his favorite.â
His fingers dig into my shoulder, telling me heâs lying, but his words still couldnât have cut deeper if theyâd been knives. I use all my acting chops to stay blank faced, despite the blood fleeing it.
âReally?â Rand frowns. âI thought he was just being a bastard and not talking to her. But he doesnât care about her anymore? Just like that?â
âJust like that.â Jaime snaps for emphasis and I jump.
âInteresting.â Randâs brow furrows even more. âWell, if you donât mind, Iâd like my date back.â He gives me a small smile that reminds me of when we were younger.
My own smile is thin. After experiencing all these emotions whirling in my body, the last thing I want to do right now is be around Rand. But I also donât want to hurt his feelings. Heâs been there for me since I left Sol. Iâll placate him tonight, then go back to my dorm and think over what the hell just happened. Tomorrow Iâll face all of this.
Hopefully I wonât be too late.
âOh sure.â Jaime beams back at him with a grin he only saves for the stage. âTalk to you later, Scarlo. Text me.â His face falls before he bends into my ear with a whisper. âThink about what I said.â
I almost ask which part, but heâs gone just as quickly as my phantom was. Like the shadow he is.