chapter 14- leaving

Sienna p.o.v.

I stormed out the office with tears running down my face. I ran straight out the pack house and ran all the way to the forest. I needed to get away from everyone. I just kept running through the forest with sobs escaping me chest.

I stopped once I came to a river. I fell straight down onto my hands and knees at the side of the river and cried my eyes out.

I couldn't stop crying no matter how much I tried.

Maybe mom was right. Maybe no one will ever love me.  Jayden was meant to be my soul mate. If he won't love me or care about me then who will? I whispered out loud to myself.

"We all care about you sienna. Including jayden." I heard from the side of me making me jump.

I looked over and watched as Sarah walked out behind the trees.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you jump. You must be really upset if you never sensed me." Sarah said.

I stayed quite. Not to be rude but because I was worried I would cry my eyes out more if I start to speak.

Sarah sat next to me and we both just stared at the river as the water streamed down.

After a moment of silence and me managing to calm myself down I decided to speak.

"Sarah?" I asked.

She hummed in reply.

"What made you forgive me?" I asked.

She looked at me a little confused about why I am asking the question but she answered anyways.

"I could see you was honest. I could see that you really wanted to make it right. It was in your eyes. It was not just because my mom trusted you or because you wanted to help me out. Nor was it because you saved my life but because I could sense you truly are a good person." Sarah said softly.

As much as it made me feel good to know sarah truly believed I was a good person it also hurt to know that my own soul mate could not see that.

"Thank you. For believing in me. Thank you for not holding my past and what I did to you against me. I truly am sorry about that." I said.

"I know." Sarah said with a smile.

After a moment of silence I spoke because I knew it was for the best.

"I'm leaving now sarah." I spoke up.

"I know." Sarah said sadly.

I looked at her confused. She looked at me and gave me a small smile.

"I knew as soon as you asked why I forgave you. I know you need to sort out what is going on with your coven. I know you need to think as well about you and jayden. Please don't think he does not love you or care about you because he really does. I think he just felt lost and confused. Hunter told me he was always scared of finding his mate because he feared she would not want him because of his dominance. This will hurt him, you leaving will hurt him and anger him. " sarah said.

Tears poured down my face and I nodded.

"I'm sorry." I sobbed out.

"You have to do what you think is best. We knew you was leaving tomorrow anyways." Sarah said.

"But you are not leaving tomorrow are you." She said sadly

I shook my head no.

"Its best I leave now sarah. I I have to." I said.

"You will be back though sienna." She looked at me with hope but also honestly. Like she knows I will come back.

I kept quite. I didn't really know what to say to be honest.

"I will come back in like a week. I just need to sort my coven out. I need to explain everything. I need to help them." I said softly with determination.

"I understand." Sarah said and I could see she was worried.

"He will be fine sarah. He will get over it." I said. He will get over me leaving and probably move on.

"No he won't. You are his soul mate. He is going to be devastated but hopefully he will understand." Sarah said more to herself.

I stood up and gave her a small smile.

"Need a lift?" She asked.

"That would be nice." I said with a chuckle.

We both looked at each other and laughed. I held her hand and closed my eyes with tears rolling down. With that she teleported us back to my coven and inside my house.

I opened my eyes and looked around my living room. I closed my eyes again taking in a deep breathe. I have not been here since mom left. It feels weird already.

I could hear everyone from my coven shouting through our bond. Some saying welcome back while others are asking what has happened.

"Maybe I will come visit." Sarah said with a chuckle.

"Yeah." I said with a laugh.

"I best get going." Sarah said wincing.

"Hunter know you left?" I said laughing.

"Yeah. He is not happy." She said with a laugh.

I started laughing with her and hugged her.

"Thank you." I said aoftly.

"Anytime. Sometimes I like to have a break to. It's easier to think clearly." Sarah said.

We said our goodbyes before she teleported back home.  As she left tears poured down my face.

It's for the best. I thought to myself.

I looked around the house and sighed. It still hurts me about my mom. More what she did and how I wished she could have loved me but I have to ignore the hurt now. I have to be there for my coven.