chapter 26- talk with jayden

Sienna p.o.v.

No one said anything for a few moments making everything a little bit awkward. I wasnt sure if sarah wanted me to talk or for herself to talk.

I looked at Sarah who nodded at me for it to be me that speaks. I sighed and nodded while everyone else looked between myself and Sarah wondering who will be speaking.

"So as some of you may know that I had a meeting with my witch council today. To say it was one stressful meeting was an understatement.

Anyways I wanted to come and inform you that they have moved my "mother" punishment to tomorrow." I said the mother in venom.

I can not help it. All I keep doing is remembering everything she has ever done to me and other people. Not even just sarah and her parents but my whole coven. What she did is disgusting.

I could see that both the alphas and luna precious were suprised but they nodded.

"How are you feeling sweetheart.?" Luna Preicous asked.

I looked at her confused.

"Me?" I asked stunned.

"Yes." She said smiling softly.

To say I was surprised is an understatement. They really do look after each other.

"Actually I'm disgusted in my mom more then I was before and believe me I did not know I could be anymore disgusted in her." I said.

To be honest they all looked even more surprised. I could see as alpha xander furrowed his eyebrows.

"Why?" He asked.

I sighed and began to tell them everythin I have learnt about my coven in the short few days if me being there. To say they were all pissed off was an understatement.

"Well speaking of your coven. What is going on? You have your mate here but your coven somewhere else. " I heard Skylar (jaydens mom) ask.

I could feel my whole body tense up at her question. I decided to answer part of her question because if I'm honest I was not sure about everything.

"Well once I had the meeting with the council they agreed to let me become head coven leader." I said proudly.

I could see everyone was happy for me including jayden. Until his happy face turned into a frown. Clearly he thinking about me and him.

"What about you and my brother?" Daisy asked sadly.

I cleared my throat and avoided eye contact with everyone. I did not really know what to say to that because I am not sure on what jayden is feeling or thinking.

"Well I think that is something jayden and sienna need to talk about. If they do decide to not reject each other then sienna can still take over as there is me and rachel helping her for when she is not at the coven." Sarh said happily.

"Rachel?" A lot of people asked however all jayden did was stare at me.

"She is someone I met at the coven. She was my mothers assistant and I really trust her. She is the one I am telling you about when I told you about how much my coven have been receiving which will change. She is really nice and I honestly do trust her. She knows a lot more about everything then I probably do." I said softly.

"You really like her don't you." Luna precious said.

I nodded my head agreeing with her.

"Not more then you like me, sarah and daisy right?" Rose asked with a raised eyebrow Daring me to say yes.

I let out a chuckle but said no.

"Well why don't we get you settled at my house." Skykar spoke.

I smiled in thank you.

"I will be going back in two days  I will be having a meeting with my coven." I said softly.

I could see jayden did not want me going back but he has no choice and I think he kanes that.

Skylar nodded in understanding before we all headed back to skylars. I'm saying all it was just me, rose, daisy, Skylar, jayden and his dad.

As we got in and I settled back into the bedroom I was staying in last time I heard an knock on the door. I took a deep breathe because I had a feeling who it was.

Slowly i walked over to the door and opened. There stood jayden.

"Hey." I said awkwardly.

"Hey." He said clearing his throat.

"Would you like to come in?" I asked a bit shyly.

He nodded in thanks as I opened the door wider for him to enter. We both sat down on the bed but not really close to each other.

It was awkward and we both sat for a couple minutes in silence before jayden broke it.

"I just wanted to come and say I am sorry. I really am. I was stupid and I know I was. I guess part of me was scared.

I always dreamt of meeting my mate. However it always scared me. I was scared they would not want me with me having a very very dominant side. However when I met you I felt confused. Not because I didn't want you but because I did but I felt trapped. Like I was not sure if I was supposed to be happy that I met you or sad because of the circumstances.

I'm not excusing my behaviour and I really hope you can forgive me. I could go on and tell you every excuse I can think of and every excuse as to why you should forgive me. But I won't. I won't do that because I do not deserve your forgiveness and you do not deserve excuses.

I hope you can forgive me but I understand if not. I really want us to start over sienna. I promise you that I will do what it takes for us to start over and fresh. I wish I could take back time but I can not.

I promise you though that I will try from now on. I really do not want to lose you." Jayden spoke with so many emotions it was hard to keep up.

Tears came to my eyes feeling overwhelmed. I will not lie I really thought he would reject me. I guess I do understand where he is coming from but he still really hurt me.

"Thank you for coming and speaking to me jayden. I understand where you are coming from and how you felt trapped but you really hurt me jayden. You hurt me so bad.

All I ever wanted was to be loved. I- I thought once mate came out your mouth that just maybe I would get the love I have always dreamt off. But to my disappointment all I got was another person like my mother. All I got was compared to my mother as well which hurt so much because I am nothing like her. Never was and never will be. It hurts jayden." I said tears running down my face.

I heard jayden let out a whimper. I could see he was a fighting his Wolf for control and I guess his Wolf partly won because I could see it was both his wolf and jayden who was in control.

"I'm sorry. We will do what it takes to make it up to you. We want you more then anything. We want to make you feel happy and loved that's a promise. We will do it sienna. Even if you never accept us or forgive us we will do what it takes to make you happy." I heard both jayden and his wolf say.

My eyes softened and I gave them a small smile.

"I guess I ca give you another try. However this will be your last one ever. You hurt me like you have done and I promise you I will walk away and never look back. I will not allow myself to be hurt like that again. " I said calmly.

I could see they knew I was serious.

"You really going to give us another chance?" They asked happily.

"I believe we all deserve second chances. I mean it though you hurt me and I will do what it takes to forget your existence. Do not forget I know a lot of witches . I can make them make any memories with you disappear or even break our bond." I said with a shrug.

As much as what I said is true I know I would not do it. It hurts me to even think about doing anything like that. I am saying it to them because I will not allow myself to get hurt again. As much as I know my words upset them I will not back down.

A loud growl erupted out there chests.

"No." They shouted loudly with a snarl.

My heart was pounding out my chest but I ignored it and narrowed my eyes at them.

"Are you going to hurt me emotionally or physically?" I asked calmly.

"Of course not." They said.

"Then you should have nothing to worry about." I said casually.

They nodded there head before all of a sudden they stood up. They walked over to me before kissing my forhead.

"Thank you my love. For giving us another chance." This time I knew that was his wolf only.

Before I could say anything he closed his eyes and opened them again showing it was only jayden in control.

"Thank you. Can I ask you something?" He asked nervously.

I nodded my head hesitantly.

"Will you go on a date with me? I mean  I know youhvar all this stuff going on so what about in like 3 days? Probably give me time to actually get something planned." He said muttering the last bit to himself making me giggle.

As the giggle escaped my lips I could see his eyes light up and a smile appear on his lips.

"Sure. I would like that." I said softly.

His eyes lit up more and he almost jumped up excitedly. I laughed and he picked me up by my waist before spinning me around making me scream out in laughter.

"You will not regret it." He said with a chuckle before kissing my forhead and walking out happily not before saying goodbye.

As the door closed I let out a laugh  before laying on my back on the bed.

I hope I am doing the right thing. I thought to myself.