Chapter 30: The End

Chapter 30

The End

Richard Neil Sky

The saying, 'first love never dies' is, I think, it's true. Cade and I, the world became cruel on us, and we parted ways. At that time, we were young and never knew how to deal with things we shouldn't have to deal with. We were supposed to feel love and no complications at all. Why did the world need to be cruel on us? We should have started our lives together when we got together as boyfriends back then. Our today would have been so different than what we have right now. But all the troubles we have gone through, all the obstacles we have bypassed, I think all of that has purpose. Even though we were apart for a long time, didn't see each other for decades, had no idea where we were, had no idea what to do with our lives, everything has a purpose. It made us stronger. We couldn't see each other but we always brought each other's hearts.

Our today would have been different if we had been braver. Our today would have been different if we had met in a different place, different situation and different time. Our today would have been so different if everything wasn't against us.

But our today wouldn't have been wonderful if we hadn't gone through all the troubles. Maybe we just needed a little time to be brave. Maybe we just needed more time to think things through. Maybe we just needed to think about us instead of thinking what would others think. After all, it's our life. Maybe we just needed to die a little, to feel alive again in the future. Does that even make sense?

Love was made to rule the world. Cade came into my life like a truck being out of control and it hit me hard. I got broken, I knew that. I got broken but Cade was there to mend me. I wasn't aware, but I felt that I was being fixed. I've read something on a book; it's about a Japanese culture. When a precious thing gets broken, they put a gold something to fix the thing, and it would come out beautiful to them. Love was the worst but at the same time, love was the precious and the best thing in the world.

When Cade left me, I was really broken it felt like I would never be fixed again. But then I continued my life. I picked up the broken pieces of my heart and carried it all the way. My heart's precious, and I knew someday Cade would mend it again. I always knew that I would be fixed again. And when I got fixed again, I knew that I would never be broken again. Cade was the one. Cade is The One for me.

When Cade came back into my life, I never expected it, but I knew that he would always come back for me. I just never expected for it to happen so soon, as if decades weren't enough for me to be saved.

Noemi, mother of Noah, was the first woman I've ever loved. Not much like what I had for Cade, but the love I had for her was enough to make my heart beat even just for a while. When Genny came into my life, she made me feel accepted and loved. She did love me with all her heart. Her love was enough to keep me breathing. But Cade... Cade's love was all I needed. Cade made me feel like I could just die just by seeing his smile. Cade made meel like I could be reborn. Cade made me feel like we own the world. Cade made me feel worst, Cade made me feel reckless, Cade made me feel like an idiot, Cade made me feel light. It was all about Cade. Cade. Cade. Cade.

His name keeps running in my head. I always think that he has a beautiful name. Unique and perfect. Cade is my life supporter. I'm always being saved by him. He's my superhero, my The One, my world, my everything.

Cade is like a photograph I can always carry if I want to remember everything about him. Cade is like a video I can always play in my head if I want to remember the best and worst things about him. Cade is like an old music that makes me want to groove. Cade is like the angel that has been sent to me to make my world better. Cade is like a rainbow to me just to make me see the colors of life. Cade is like a light blue sky; it makes me want to think that everything is okay. Cade is like a rain, pouring out all his love on me just to make me bloom someday. Cade is like a sun, making me feel warm and fuzzy.

I can describe Cade in everything.

But I can't describe how I feel whenever he's with me.

Because I love him. And he loves me. We don't really understand love.

But we always know if we love a person or not.

Does that even make sense?

Cade Felix Thompson

Richard is the light of my life. Richard is the best thing happened in my life. Richard is like the world's most precious jewel; needs to be protected and to be treated right.

I can't really describe what love is. To me, I think love means... Oh my gosh, I can't live without him. Please don't let him leave me. I'd die because he's basically my heart and we all know without a heart, we're heartless. What the actual fuck? Does that definition even make sense?

I guess to me it is.

Love is confusing.

Love is weird.

Love is weakening.

Love makes me stronger.

I guess love has a lot of meanings. And nobody knows what the real meaning is.

For me, I think I'd stick to my own definition.

Does my definition of love make sense at all? I guess not.

But my love for Richard Neil Sky does make sense in every angle.

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Cade Thompson:

► Dear Richard Neil Sky-Thompson,

Well, as you know, I'm stuck here in London and I won't be able to see you and our twins. You know, I really hate Skype and all. It doesn't suite us. Even though the technology nowadays is pretty great, it doesn't really suite us. I feel lonely hear, Chad. I miss you already, and I want to kiss you and hug you and cuddle with you and make love with you and it's driving me crazy, knowing that I can't do those things with you because I'm still here in London. But expect this, when I get home, please remind the kids to go out somewhere, or sleep with their friend's house. If you know what I mean. We don't want them hearing how the acapella music in our room is very great and awesome.

There are lots of stories I'm saving, and I'll tell you when I get home. Take care of the twins. Also, please remind Yumi to send me a message. And tell Josh and Ezerette that Chase keeps complaining on me about how his dads are trying to talk to him about safe sex and all.

Before I left, I told Noah and Gloss to take care of you. Are they doing their job well? If not, let me know and I'd totally kick their asses for you. Mike and Eros, they're here in London as well, with Brad. And they keep me company here. I swear if it weren't for the business I have, I would go running in your arms. But unfortunately, JOSH WAS BEING A DICK. HE COMPLAINED TO ME ABOUT HOW BADLY HE NEEDED A BREAK AND SPEND SOME QUALITY TIME WITH HIS FAMILY.

►PS: I'm coming home soon. Everyone has been talking about the upcoming marriage of Eros and Mike. I think we should get married again. For the 3rd time?

►Okay, I need to go. I love you so much. I so, so, so, so, so, so love you. I'll be home soon! And that's before Christmas!

►Another note: I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE SKYPE. BUT I DO KNOW HOW TO USE FACEBOOK. AND I JUST CHAT YOU. I LOVE YOU, BABE!

►WHY DON'T YOU REPLY? YOU'RE ONLINE!

►HEY.

►I SWEAR TO GOD, CHAD IF YOU'RE MAKING FUN OF ME WITH THE TWINS AND GLOSS AND NOAH AND EVERYONE'S AT THE HOUSE, YOU'LL PAY!

Richard Sky-Thompson:

►The twins are making fun of you. Not me.

►Dumb. I still love you though.

►I miss you. I love you. I'll wait for you. Always.

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"I love you so much," Cade says with a smile.

"I love you, too." I reply.

And the twins come running inside our room, shouting how cheesy we are. Both Gloss and Noah are smirking at us. My best friends are downstairs, doing God knows what. We all got broken, but seeing their smiles, I already know one thing:

We are all fixed. Thanks to love.

THE END