Chapter 87

steps back, his , leaving him in the of his shredded clothing, his heaving up and down as he into Leandra’s She looks up him shock and fear all her she hand mate mark on her neck. Johannes chuckles to himself at my beta in equal parts surprise and disappointment.

Well, won’t be needed all,” Johannes says, sounding disappointed.

Why would you…” Leandra searching his silent for an .

He stumbles and then turns his forlorn face to me, he can’t believe what just took place.

Fuck ” I mutter my hand down my .

“I’m sorry,”

murmurs I don’t know what came me.”

Yes you do,” I . “She your fucking mate and your lycan thought you going to lose her so he took action without you.”

“

,” he , taking tentative step toward Leandra. “No, it was a mutual decision. I panicked. I have panicked before and I thought… I was I would lose you forever.”

“It simple compelling trick.” I remind him but he doesn’t look me, instead he stares at Leandra, who is against the wall white as .

“Can you forgive me?” He whispers to her, tilting his head. She skirts her eyes to me for a brief moment and then back at Hayes.

“Why did you do it? You were the one that fought accepting me for so long? I didn’t think wanted me- you 19 “Him compelling you is an invasion of your mind and ability to control yourself. It like what lily did to you all over again but with a different . I couldn’t let you do that again, not when you are just finding yourself again.” Hayes rushes out to explain, licking his lips to wet them.

He makes a fair point, one I hadn’t openly thought about or expressed due to the nature of my desperation. But Hayes is right. I was asking her to back into the very thing she had finally escaped. It wasn’t fair, even if it is used to save my Colette.

“I agreed to it this time.” She , and he shakes his head.

You out of guilt.”

“I want to help,” she retorts, and he sighs.

“Then let me help you do it.” then he drops to his knees, inching closer as he takes her hand in his and his other on her waist. “Finish the bond, me fully.”

She her brows and then looks around the room and back down at Hayes.

“This is and all, but am I needed or can I ” Johannes says with a yawn as he rolls his .

“

him with a and he grins before he saunters off. Caspian gives me small nod as he follows suit and I step up to my brother and his half mate.

this work?

. “If I see pang and hurt in he turns to look at me.

It is me in any way other than telling you that you a mate bond because you want it, not someone . I not what to do to my mate, I am selfish and I will sacrifice your happiness for admit.

“Look me, softly “I been stubborn asshole and I am so sorry And I shouldn’t have done what I did, but I see all now want if odds, is more important.”

“

think you love ? Not right not , but She shyly, dropping hand .

, moving his to her cheek as he ”

whispers.

reaches and grabs his turning his neck to the and I look them moment, but I don’t go far much want this to their , I now no option but on it Colette. I keep my to them for

him, my still turned.

He and look at them. They both shy about their new bond, looking like a couple Leandra blushes but determined look.

“

would like officially become a member alpha.” She , bowing respectfully.

you to your and our kind with your life ask her and she nods.

the mate of the Beta, his responsibilities if he is not able or will fall to you to in his .

you am capable and willing She responds.

“Then I you into our pack and subject under my protection.”

bowing my head in return. She gasps in shock, her eyes going wide before they flash and she grins, placing her hand over her heart.

“

do you feel her and she .

feel accepted. Like I am finally home.” She whispers looking at him giddily.

I clear my throat and she blinks at me before giving a curt nod and her demeanor changes. She braces herself, bending her knees she waits for my alpha command.

“

will be best you try not to . The alpha command can feel strange first but you are willing to share the information, it won’t feel like you are being forced into anything it’s your choice.” I tell her and she nods.

“I have nothing to hide.”

“Leandra show me your lycan.” I command her.

head snaps back and her arms fly out. Hayes takes a step to the side, watching closely as her bones and her skin changes. It looks like a shift, one where she is in serious pain, her cry breaking through the large room she falls to her knees.

lycan reveals itself, looking right at me before bowing in acceptance of me as it’s Alpha.

“I will yes or no questions.

truthfully.” I instruct and she growls in acceptance.

“Do you have any memory of when you were being controlled in your form?”

ask and her lycan nods yes.

you travel in lycan form often?

Another head nod Did you kill any other lycans or She head in shame looking directly at Hayes she nods her head okay. You not to blame for what you could not control.” I tell her gently before continuing. “Did you stay with all the others who under Lily’s control?

shaking her head, she with a simple nod .

it the same and again, lycan nods trying to think of how to they so I can gather an idea of if the others are at this mountain and a of this ambush that will be waiting for “The mountain?

and I the before tilting head to the side, confused. “Unblock the memories from other half she The blinks me bowing its . After moments, and turns back into Leandra a panting, naked ball on the ground she shakes.

Hayes is on her in a , wrapping her in a and up in his arms. She she him, pulling him close.

and arms “I see all of she whimpers.

“The memories ask and she nods into ‘

.

“Everything it. I know they what to do with the they controlling. All of it…

she whispers swelling in her