: Chapter 4
So Not Meant To Be
âThere he is, Casanova himself.â Breaker takes a seat in my office and smirks at me. âHow was it? Love at first sight?â
I unbutton my suit jacket and take a seat in my office chair. The moment the elevator doors opened, I spotted Breaker waiting with a to-go cup of coffee in hand, looking for one person: me.
His text messages last night went unanswered.
I ignored him as I said hello to our receptionist.
I didnât bother making eye contact with him when I was grabbing my own cup of coffee from the break room.
And when he barged into my office right after me, I chose to not growl in frustration at his persistence.
But now that heâs sitting across from me, staring me down, looking for a recap, it doesnât seem like I have a choice but to tell him about last nightâs disaster.
From the inside of my suit pocket, I pull my phone out and set it on my desk before leaning back in my chair. âLast night?â I steeple my fingers together. âWell, when I first saw my date, I actually hoped it would go well, but that thought quickly vanished when she opened her mouth.â
âOh shit, did she have a screechy voice?â
I shake my head. âNo, she let me know how much she hated me.â
Breakerâs brow draws together in confusion. âWhat do you mean? Did she know you?â
I slowly nod. âOh yeah, she knew me.â
âHow? Did you go out with her once?â
âNope.â I shake the mouse on my desk, waking up my computer. âMy date was Kelsey.â
âKelsey?â Breaker asks in disbelief. âAs in Lottieâs sister?â
âYup.â
âOh, fuck.â Breaker busts out in a long, drawn-out laugh. The sound fucking irritates me. âDude, what are the chances?â
âPretty good, apparently.â
âLet me guessâshe walked out of the restaurant when she saw it was you?â
âNope. Because of the programâs rules, youâre forced to eat dinner with the person they set you up with. And because we showed signs of a full-out medieval battle, they put us in the private loft, away from everyone else.â
âAnd how did that go?â
âNot great.â I open my inbox and am flooded by emails.
âBut you said you were excited at first. Why?â
âBecause it was Kelsey,â I say casually. âI knew her, so I didnât have to try to get to know a stranger when I was already not in the mood to be there. Didnât think it would be uncomfortable, plus . . . she looked hot.â I shrug. âBut all of that washed away the moment she begged me to leave.â
âWhich she wasnât allowed to do, and Iâm sure that only made her even angrier. She has the same fiery spirit as Lottie.â
âYeah, and it showed. When I say she was unpleasant, Iâm not kidding. We ended up fighting the entire time and, sure, I didnât help matters. At the end of the night, we went our separate ways.â
âAnd how do you feel about that?â Breaker asks.
âRelieved,â I answer. âIt was fucking exhausting having dinner with her. Sure, I like some quick-witted repartee here and there, but when I got home, I felt drained.â
Breaker is silent for a moment as he studies me. Iâm sure heâs looking for some sort of tell that Iâm lying. Heâs wondering if Kelsey and I did hit it off and weâre secretly dating now.
Could not be further from the truth.
âWhy donât I believe you?â he asks.
Here we go.
âDude, trust me when I sayââ I stop speaking, my eyes falling on an email from Kelsey.
Subject line: Iâm coming to your office.
I barely have time to open it before the door to my office flies open and Kelsey steps in. The expression on her face reads irritated, and the way her hands clench at her sides makes me feel anxious. The surprised look in her eyes when she spots Breaker completely changes her demeanor in seconds.
âBreaker, hi.â She smooths her hand over her hair. âI, uh, I didnât see you there. Sorry about barging in.â
Breaker, of course, smiles, showing off his freshly whitened teeth. âHey, Kelsey, heard you had quite the night last night.â
Kelseyâs murderous eyes flash to me. âYou told him?â
âWell, heâs my brother, and he was the one who forced me to go on the date, so itâs only natural that heâd ask me how it went.â
Composing herself, Kelsey turns to Breaker and asks, âWould you give me a second with your brother?â
He smirks and stands. âOf course.â
Before he can walk away, Kelsey adds, âAnd I would appreciate your discretion in this matter.â
Breaker pats her on the shoulder and says, âI understand the need to not be attached by name to him. I wish I wasnât either.â
Wow, what a brother.
He takes off and closes the door behind him. I turn my attention to Kelsey, who closes the distance between us and takes a seat in the chair Breaker just vacated.
âTo what do I owe the pleasure?â I ask her.
âAfter last night, I figured we need to talk about how to handle this.â
âHandle what?â I pause and tilt my head to the side. âOh, hell, did you fall in love with me last night and now youâre trying to figure out how to muddle through work while harboring these intense feelings about me?â
Her face falls flat only for her top lip to curl into a sneer. âIf any revelation happened last night, it most certainly had nothing to do with love and everything to do with this extreme distaste I have for you.â
âOoh, distaste. Thatâs a new one.â I lean my forearms on my desk. âPlease do elaborate.â
âThis isnât funny, JP.â
âDidnât know I was laughing.â
Her eyes narrow and she speaks through clenched teeth. âYou donât have to laugh in order to make a laughing matter out of something thatâs incredibly serious.â
I pick up a pen off my very untidy desk, a desk that I know drives Kelsey nuts. The tension in her expression is from our conversation, but the death grip she has on the chairâs armrests is undoubtedly from the rumpled reports on my desk, the askew pen jar thatâs tipped over, and the unconventional way I have my computer tilted.
âOkay, tell me why our situation is incredibly serious, because unless I missed something, nothing, and I mean nothing, happened between us last night. Well, nothing that requires this level of psychosis.â
âJP, we went on a date last night.â
âNot by our choice.â I click the pen open and then shut.
âBut it still happened. We shared an intense meal, and then after, when we were leaving, you said . . . you said some things.â
âOh . . . the whole âIf you were in my bed, your cunt would be begging for my cockâ part?â
She swallows, her cheeks heating. âYes, that part.â
âIt was just basic facts. Nothing to make note of.â
âWellââshe smooths her hands over her well-pressed, possibly steamed, skirtââit was inappropriate, and we need to set some ground rules here.â
âThis should be good.â I lace my hands together behind my head and say, âLay it on meâwhat are the ground rules?â
âWell, for oneââ
âReal quick, I just need to put this out thereâyour reaction is completely ridiculous and over the top, but you know, to each their own. Your feelings are your feelings . . . all that bullshit.â I gesture to her. âYou may proceed.â
Her nostrils flare, and I realize itâs a small tick of hers when sheâs upset. âAs I was saying, our first ground rule is we donât speak of last night, ever. I didnât tell Lottie and I would appreciate it if you didnât tell anyone else.â
âAm I that repulsive?â
âYes.â
I chuckle because I thought she was going to say no to that and come up with some long-winded explanation, but got to give the girl credit for her honesty.
âI also donât want people thinking I get involved with any man who crosses my path or that Iâm trying to climb the corporate ladder by spreading my legs.â
âDonât worry, your sister covered that one.â
Her eyes narrow and she points her finger. âThat was not how that went down and you know it.â
âYouâre right, that was uncalled for. Sorry.â If anyone pursued that relationship, it was Huxley, because he couldnât seem to keep his hands off Lottie.
My apology seems to satisfy her because she continues, âSo we donât talk about last night, ever. Act like it never happened.â
âI wish it didnât.â I smile at her, which only makes her grind her teeth together. Jesus, talk about uptight. Could she relax for like a second?
âJP, I need you to say youâre never going to talk about it.â
âChrist.â I roll my eyes. âIâm never going to talk about it.â
That appeases the gremlin inside her.
âSecond ground ruleâthere will be no more inappropriate behavior.â
I kick my feet up on my desk and lean back in my chair. âNot sure what youâre alluding to with that ground rule.â
âThe way you speak to me and the little touches need to end.â
âYou act as if Iâm grazing your hand when I walk by or sliding my hand to your lower back . . . or gripping your thigh while at the conference table. Correct me if Iâm wrong, but that has never happened.â
âIt, uh . . . it hasnât. But you know, the things you say arenât appropriate for a workplace, so that needs to stop.â
âThe âcunt calling out for my cockâ thing was outside of work.â
âYouâve said more than that while at work, and donât deny it.â
I have.
âOkay, your wish is my command, babe.â
âAnd none of that.â She points her finger at me again. âNone of that babe stuff. Iâm Kelsey, youâre JP, and thatâs it. Nothing else. Iâm not your babe.â
âJust a term of endearment, but sure, Kelsey. Thatâs how Iâll refer to you from now on, unless you wanted something more along the lines of . . . fishwife?â
Letâs pause here for a moment. Iâm not a complete asshole . . . all the time. Iâm really not. But Kelsey just has the best reactions, and I canât resist. Sheâs so goddamned gorgeous, and itâs fun to rile her. To ruffle her feathers.
âYou do realize youâre the absolute worst to have a conversation with, right? Like . . . the absolute worst,â she says, her face wincing with irritation.
âI only seem to receive that sort of feedback from you, which makes me think itâs a you thing, not a me thing.â
She pinches her brow and I swear she silently counts to ten. âAnd thirdlyââ
âA third ground rule? Was not expecting that. Total plot twist.â I lean back in my chair again. âPlease, continue to pleasure me with your commands.â
âIâm talking to Huxley and asking him if I can fall under his management because our working relationship is volatile.â
âOoh, you see, I was with you on points one and two, but unfortunately, your line of work falls under my line of work, therefore, that makes you my employee. Huxley isnât going to bother taking on another task when his plate is already full. He also doesnât take too kindly to people telling him what to do, even if youâre his future sister-in-law. And if you do approach him, all heâs going to do is pull us into a conference room and ask that we work things out . . . in front of him. Now, given the restrictions that ground rule one presents us, youâre not going to be able to tell him the truth as to why you donât want to work under me anymore, and therefore have no validity behind your case. Also, youâre only going to paint yourself as confrontational since everyone else that does work with me has given me nothing but rave reviews. So . . . if you want to embarrass yourself and shine a spotlight on your difficult disposition, by all means, approach Huxley, but if you want to remain in his good graces, I would suggest you drop ground rule number three.â
The tension in her jaw is visible from where I sit. I know this isnât what she wanted to hear, but itâs also true. If anything, Huxley is a businessman first so he can remove emotion from business, which is why weâre so successful . . . something Kelsey needs to learn.
âThen maybe Breaker could do it.â
I chuckle. âManaging a certified organizer doesnât fall under his scope of responsibilities. Heâs the numbers guy. Organizing and managing the different properties isnât what he does. Hate to say it, Kelsey, but youâre stuck with me.â
She crosses her arms at her chest and mutters something under her breath.
I move closer to her and say, âI didnât quite catch that. Can you repeat it?â
She looks me dead in the eyes and says, âI despise you.â
âNow, now, now, is that something you should be saying to your employer?â
She stands from the chair, grumbling some more, and then puts her manicured finger on my desk. âFrom here on out, we adhere to the two ground rules. Do you hear me?â
âI do.â I smirk. âI hear you quite well.â
âAnd weâll only talk to each other when we need to, and about business only. When Huxley and Lottie invite us over, I want you nowhere near me. Donât even think about talking to me. Do you understand?â
âIâm practically shivering in my shoes.â
âJP, Iâm being serious. Do you understand?â
Whatever caused this much animosity toward me must really be affecting her because Iâm not sure Iâve ever seen anyone this worked up before, let alone Kelsey.
Whatâs behind this anger?
They always say thereâs a thin line between love and hateâcould it possibly be love?
I hold back my chuckle. Hell, if she heard what was going on inside my head right now, sheâd have me hung up by the balls.
I think thereâs one thing clear, thoughâshe wants nothing to do with me. This entire conversation has made that crystal clear.
Smiling up at her, I say, âI understand you. And I look forward to our newly established working relationship where we donât ever mention the hot date we went on or the way you shivered when I talked about your cunt, or how you secretly love it when I call you babe.â
There . . . just one more jab for the road.
She tosses her hands up in frustration, turns on her heel, and charges out of my office, slamming the door behind her.
That went exceedingly well.