: Chapter 8
So Not Meant To Be
Two weeks later . . .
âHey.â Thereâs a knock at my door. I lift my head to see Huxley poke his head in. âConference room in ten.â
âGot the eleven fucking memos you sent already. Iâll be there.â
âJust making sure.â
âIâm a grown-ass man, Hux. I know how to schedule my damn day.â I turn back to my computer and click through the annoying emails Iâve put off answering all morning.
When my door shuts, I heave a sigh of relief, thatâs until I realize Huxley never left, but rather let himself into my office. He occupies a seat across from me and crosses one leg over the other.
âMind telling me why youâve been such a bastard lately?â
I press my fingers into my brow, attempting to massage the impending migraine away.
âHow about you go back to your office and leave me the hell alone?â
âYou see, I would do that, but we have a meeting in ten minutes and I canât have you acting like a dick in there.â
My eyes snap up to his. âWhen have I ever been a dick to people in the conference room?â
âUh, all fucking week. Not to mention, youâve been stomping around here with a chip on your shoulder. Everyoneâs aware of your mood and there have been rumblings that people are uncomfortable.â
âOh, well, Jesus Christ, I should just slap on a happy face, then, shouldnât I? I wouldnât want to cause a stir in the office. Heaven forbid someone should have some fucking feelings in this place.â
âDude,â Hux says, sitting taller in his chair now. âWhat the hell is going on? Youâve been like this ever since the fundraiser. Is this about Genesis?â
Of course, heâd go there because I havenât spoken a goddamn word to anyone about that night. Neither Huxley nor Breaker saw how the old man took me out. Neither saw how I danced with Kelsey and held her so close to me that, and how, for the first time since I met her, I felt something click inside my head, that where I was, what I was doing, was actually right.
I didnât say anything, because the night didnât end the way I wanted it to.
There was no intention of taking her inside my house.
There wasnât even a thought of taking her to my bedroom.
My only purpose at the end of the night was to make sure she understood how fucking beautiful she was. How I hadnât been able to take my eyes off her and couldnât fathom how stupid her date had been in leaving her, missing his one chance at having her. I wanted her to know that, in my eyes, her smile had outshone all the radiance of the room, and that she was easily the most captivating woman in there.
I didnât want her to leave thinking she wasnât valued, that she was disposable.
I meant what I said, Edwin was an idiot. An absolute fool.
Genesis is beautiful and smart. But she has nothing, and I mean absolutely nothing, on Kelsey.
And I wanted to show Kelsey that. But, Kelsey didnât take it that way.
No, she saw me as a man acting kind to have a chance at lifting her skirt.
She saw me as nothing but a man with an agenda that involved the bedroom.
She could not have been more wrong.
Insult eclipsed me.
I shut down.
And there was no coming back from it.
Iâve been a bastard ever since.
When Iâve seen her in the office, Iâve avoided her. All correspondence has been through email, and Iâve canceled two meetings with her so far, blaming some media bullshit that I made up.
âYeah, sure, this is about Genesis,â I answer.
Huxley studies me and is about to say something when Breaker comes into the office and says, âThere you are. Hux, I need your signature on a few things before the meeting.â
Eyes on me, Huxley stands and says, âThis isnât over.â
The fuck itâs not. In my eyes, this conversation is dead at this point.
I wave him away and when the door shuts, I let out a heavy breath and push back from my desk. I turn toward my window and lean back, staring out over the lines of palm trees along the streets.
I donât think Iâve ever been in this kind of funk, one that has taken over just about every aspect of my life. Sleep evades me. Working out has become more of an escape for frustration rather than enjoyment. And my nights out with friends have turned into nights in, vibrating with anger as I pace my house, only to end up in my workout room, where I slip on a pair of boxing gloves and repeatedly punch my bag until my knuckles canât take the abuse anymore.
Just . . . fuck, how could she think that all I wanted was to fuck her?
Am I really that much of an asshole that sheâd confuse my intention with a bargain? My kindness, my compliments, in exchange for the spread of her legs?
I can be a dick.
A prick.
An absolute asshole.
But Iâm not that man, the one who takes advantage of a woman whoâs clearly not in the right headspace.
I stand from my chair, pull my suit jacket back on, and stick my phone in my pocket before heading out of my office door. On the way to the conference room, I pop into the kitchen and grab a can of waterâwe just started carrying water in aluminum cans, thanks to fucking Kelsey and her sustainability initiativesâand then head into the conference room. I take a seat on the left-hand side.
Just as I pop open the can, one of the chairs to the right of me swivels around and, lo and behold, Kelseyâs face comes into view.
Fuck . . .
âJP,â she says with a smile that barely reaches her eyes. I can tell a polite smile from a genuine one, and this screams Iâm smiling at you because I have to, not because I want to. âI wasnât aware you were going to be in this meeting.â
âYeah, well, Huxley sent me eleven messages saying my attendance was required.â
âDo you have any idea what itâs about?â
âNope,â I snap.
âOh . . . okay.â She fidgets next to me and heat crawls up the back of my neck.
Fuck, I can smell her sweet, flowery scent that seems to follow me everywhere I go. I donât know if itâs my mind playing tricks on me, but I swear, I smell it everywhere I go, and itâs more prevalent than ever right now.
âDid you, uh, did you see my designs for the Anderson building?â
âYeah,â I answer.
âDid you like them?â
âSeemed like everything else youâve turned in. Unless Iâm mistaken and you used something other than bamboo storage.â
I donât bother to look at her, but from the corner of my eye, I can see her mouth turn down in a frown.
âJP, if thereâs something I didââ
âYou know, I have some emails to answer,â I say, pulling out my phone and tapping away on it.
Instead of going to my inboxâbecause thereâs no way in fuck Iâm answering any emails right nowâI scroll through Twitter, checking out what all the trolls have to say about the Vancouver Agitators and their recent playoff loss. Talk about a weak showing. Not sure they even decided to show up.
âI know youâre ignoring me,â she says, clearly not getting the hint.
Keeping my eyes on my phone, I say, âKelsey, I have better things to do with my life than to ignore you. Youâre not that important.â
I can feel the sting of my words as they fall off my tongue, and yet, I donât stop them.
I donât even bother to look at how they affect her.
I donât need to.
I know Kelsey will take offense to such a sentence, and yet, I still said it.
Yup, really living up to that bastard persona.
Thankfully, Huxley walks in at that moment, along with Breaker and Lottie. I expect maybe a few other employees to join us, but when Huxley shuts the door and takes a seat, I realize this is it.
Just us five.
Not so sure Iâm going to like this.
I swear to fuck if this is some sort of attitude intervention, Iâm going to have a Hades-inspired conniption, flames and all.
âWe got some news yesterday.â Huxley looks over at Lottie and my heart sinks. Holy shit, are they pregnant?
I sit a little taller in my chair.
Attempt to put on a happy face.
âAre you pregnant?â Breaker asks.
Huxleyâs eyebrows knit together. âNo, why would you think that?â
âUh, the way you looked at Lottie, the fact that itâs just family in this room, and the inconspicuous meeting invite.â
All facts.
âDo you really think I would use company time to announce something like that? That would be a private affair, not something weâd do in the conference room at work.â
Huh . . . also facts.
âPlus, there will be no pregnancy for at least another year. I need a killer honeymoon and babies arenât invited,â Lottie adds.
Well, there goes the pregnancy guess.
âThen why are we here?â I ask.
âBecause, what I have to say canât be said outside of these walls. Itâs highly classified, therefore, weâre the only ones who are allowed to know at the moment.â
âJust spit it out,â I say. âEnough with the dramatics.â
Huxley shoots me a withering glare, but luckily for me, I couldnât care less about his menacing scowl.
âWe got a call from William Edison, our realtor. We won the bid for the historic Angelica Building in San Francisco.â
Oh shit . . .
Kelsey looks around for answers. âWhatâs the Angelica Building?â
âItâs one of the most prominent apartment buildings in San Francisco. Currently completely empty because it needs deep renovations. It was put up for sale a few months ago, but instead of simply submitting an offer, we had to submit with accompanying plans as to how weâd preserve the building during renovations,â Huxley says.
âThe building is beautiful,â Breaker adds. âSits just beyond the Bay and has panoramic views and some of the most intricate marble work Iâve ever seen.â
âSo why is this a secret?â Kelsey asks.
âBecause before the news breaks, we want our team to go in, assess, and then draw up plans on how weâre going to proceed. Once the press finds out, itâll be very hard to get our work done in peace without restoration groups knocking at our door, telling us how to do the job.â Huxley presses his palm to the table surface. âWe have two weeks before the deal is announced. I want plans drawn up and contracts made before those two weeks are up.â
âIâm sorry,â Kelsey says, glancing around the room. âHow does this pertain to me?â
âWe want your input on sustainability for the building. Weâre already in talks with a solar panel specialist to see what our options are for energy, but when it comes to building materials and organization, we want your input as well. Which means, youâre going to San Francisco tonight to meet with Edison and the team.â
âOh.â Kelsey blinks a few times. âOkay. Sure, not a problem.â
âAnd JP will be going with you.â
And there it is.
I knew that was fucking coming.
Even though I knew it was coming and I know the reasoning behind it, I still say, âWhy do I need to go? I believe this is something Lottie and Kelsey can handle themselves. Iâm not her babysitter.â
âUh . . . I have a bunch of wedding planning meetings scheduled.â Lottie winces. âI donât think I can reschedule anything. I wasnât aware I had to go with Kelsey.â
âYou arenât required to go,â Huxley says, keeping his eyes on me. âSustainably Organized falls under JPâs management, which means heâll be going.â The steeliness in his voice would scare any other employee, but it washes right over me. His intimidation tactics are useless on me.
We stare each other down, the tension growing in the room, and I wait for Breaker to jump in, to say something, but when the room remains silent, I know thereâs no help coming my way.
Itâs pointless.
Theyâre going to gang up on me and then Iâll be headed to San Francisco with Kelsey, the person I most want to avoid.
But being the people pleaser that she is, Kelsey chimes in and says, âIf JP is busy, I can go on my own. Iâm sure I can handle this.â
âThe fuck you can,â I say before I can stop myself. All eyes fall on me, perhaps shocked at my obvious anger. Shit, that was harsh. I attempt to tone it down. âThereâs more to it than just walking around an office. Hate to say it, but youâre not sufficiently educated to handle this on your own. This is more like a job for Huxley, given the logistics of it.â
If looks could fucking kill, I would be six feet under right now.
But all care has left my body.
I canât seem to scrounge up one ounce of giving a fuck.
Speaking in a clipped tone, Huxley says, âI have to be at the wedding planning meetings with Lottie.â
âYouâve had no problem flying back and forth before.â
âWhat do you not understand about this being your responsibility?â Huxley asks.
âI never asked for this responsibility,â I say and then motion to Breaker. âWhy doesnât he go?â
With a confused look on his face, Breaker tilts his head and asks, âWhy the hell would I go when Kelsey works with you? I have no fucking clue what you guys are doing over there with the buildings and all the environmental changes happening in this office. All I know is that my water comes in an aluminum can now and I like it.â He leans close and asks, âDude, what the fuck is going on? You love San Francisco, and this is your job, so why donât you want to go?â
Great question.
Canât tell him the real reason.
This conversation is already humiliating enough, and I donât need to add to that humiliation.
Nope, I need to come up with an excuse. Something good.
Something that will require my attention in Los Angeles.
âI canât go,â I say, as if itâs the most preposterous suggestion. âI have . . . things to do. Important things.â Christ, thatâs not exactly what I was hoping to say, but then again, kind of drawing a blank here. I have no things. I basically sit on my ass waiting for my brothers to tell me what to do because thatâs how much I despise this job. âThings that canât be rescheduled.â
âWhat kind of things?â Breaker asks skeptically. Heâs onto me.
âImportant things,â I repeat.
âBut what kind of important things? Give us an example.â
Huh . . .
Umm . . .
*Mentally taps chin*
What could be so important in my otherwise boring life that could prevent me from flying up to San Francisco with Kelsey?
Nothing.
Absolutely fucking nothing.
But that doesnât prevent me from continuing the farce.
âAppointments,â I answer. Vagueness is the way to go. âThe kind of appointments I donât care to discuss in front of the ladies.â
There. That should work.
Man troubles.
Itâs written in bro-code that when a man says he has an appointment he doesnât want to discuss in front of the ladies, that it should be kept hush-hush and talked about later when feminine ears arenât around.
âAn appointment you donât want to talk about in front of the ladies?â Breaker asks. âLike . . . are you having man troubles, dude?â
God, I hate him.
Now what the fuck do I say?
If I confirm I might be having man troubles, Kelsey and Lottie will ASSUME I have man troubles, and thereâs nothing troubling about my manhood. Everything is in healthy, working order.
But if I say no, then that exposes me and Iâll have to go to San Francisco.
So . . . pride or giving in?
Save my self-image or spend two weeks in agony with Kelsey?
Fuck . . . this is a hardâ
Pinning me with a stare, Huxley says, âTell me right now something is wrong with your dick or youâre going to San Francisco.â
Shit.
Nothing is wrong with my dick.
I donât want anyone thinking thereâs something wrong with my dick because, yes, Iâm shallow, thank you very much.
And Huxley fucking knows it.
âThatâs what I thought. Youâre going.â
Fuck.
So much for being able to think on my goddamn feet.
âYou leave tonight. I had Karla call ahead to the penthouse. Itâs already been cleaned and stocked with food.â
The penthouse?
No fucking way.
Okay, sure, I have to go to San Francisco, but the penthouse? Has he lost his goddamn mind?
âDo you really think the penthouse is necessary? A simple hotel room will do, donât you think?â
âWhatâs the penthouse?â Kelsey asks.
âHousing the company owns,â Huxley answers. âAnd, yes, the penthouse is necessary. You will be much more comfortable there. Weâve already set up a car service, and Karla is working on scheduling meetings with our architect and contractors. If weâre sending you up there, we want to make the most of our time. The trip will last two weeks.â
âTwo weeks?â I shout. âYou want us to be up there for two weeks? I thought we just had a two-week limit to turn things in.â It shouldnât take that long.
Huxleyâs jaw ticks, his frustration coming to a boiling point as his forehead starts to turn a dangerous shade of red. Heâs frustrated with me, but who the fuck cares? He wants me to be sharing a penthouse with Kelsey for two weeks, the one person I donât want to be around? Is this some sort of scheme by the engaged couple to get two singles together? When have we ever forced two employees to share the penthouse before . . . for two weeks?
Never.
In a firm voice, Huxley says, âYou will be there for two weeks. I expect to receive daily reports on all decisions. And while youâre up there, make sure you set up meetings with the mayor. Youâre the media relations for this company, after all, JP, the face. Donât forget it.â
As if heâd ever let me.
Pushing away from the table, I stand abruptly and ask, âWhen does the plane leave?â
âSix sharp. Donât be late.â
âWouldnât dream of it.â I move past everyone, straight out of the conference room, and toward my office.
This is bullshit.
Thereâs no need for us to be in San Francisco for two weeks, sharing a place. Itâs like heâs purposefully trying to make my life a living hell. But thatâs how itâs always beenâHuxley gets what he wants.
Starting this business was his idea. I jumped on board because, frankly, I didnât have anything better to do with my life, but when responsibilities started to roll out, it was as if Breaker and Huxley just came up with jobs they wanted and gave me the leftovers. Does it look like I want to be the face of the company? The guy who talks to the media and waves his hand about and cuts ribbons?
Fuck no.
Thereâs no purpose behind it.
Nothing.
I donât feel fulfilled when I go to work.
And now, this . . . Iâm a fucking glorified babysitter.
I reach my office, but when I go to shut my door, Iâm quickly stopped by my brothers, who apparently have been hot on my heels during my retreat.
I donât bother arguing with them to leave me alone, because thereâs no point, they wonât give me privacy. I take a seat on my couch and spread out, ready for the lecture.
Breaker shuts the door and then joins Huxley, whoâs standing in front of me, hands in his pockets.
âWhat the actual fuck was that about?â he asks.
âMe?â I point to myself. âYou donât think you couldâve told me that in private? You know, so we could discuss it without the girls being there? Instead, you just gave me a sentencing and went on with your life.â
âSentencing?â Huxley asks. âI fail to see how spending two weeks in a penthouse in San Francisco, one of your favorite cities, is a sentencing. I assumed youâd appreciate the break from LA.â
âNot when I have to spend it babysitting someone,â I say.
âItâs not babysitting,â Breaker says. âYouâd be helping Kelsey and taking on one of our most prestigious renovation projects. This is fucking huge, man.â
âNot to mention, weâre working with a new set of contractors in San Francisco because thatâs who was available. They know how much weâre worth and they know the importance of the project. We donât need them taking advantage of Kelsey, who isnât experienced in this at all.â
âYou donât think she can stand up for herself?â I ask. âBecause I have it on very good authority that she knows how to put a man in his place.â
Sheâs only done it half a dozen times with me.
âItâs not that she canât handle herself,â Huxley says. âBecause if sheâs anything like her sister, then I know thereâs a solid fighting spirit in her. But this is about headlining the process as an owner, making sure things are done the way we want them, and assisting Kelsey with her initiatives. We have one shot at impressing the historic societies in a city we love. If we can make good on this building, think of all the other buildings we could help with.â
âIf itâs that important, then you fucking do it.â
Huxleyâs jaw tightens even more. âYou know I canât. I have commitments with Lottie, and even though this company means everything to me, she means more. Youâre the one who represents Cane Enterprises, youâre the one who works directly with Kelsey, and unless you can give me a specificâand I mean very specificâreason why you canât go up there tonight, then youâre leaving in four hours.â
I look away because fuck . . . Iâm frustrated.
Because I donât have a good reason other than Kelsey hurt my man feelings and I havenât been able to get over it.
Because I donât want to be around her.
Because . . . shit, because I think I like her, and I donât know how to navigate those feelings, feelings Iâve been suppressing for quite some time. And because she wants absolutely nothing to do with me, it makes navigating those feelings that much more difficult. She thinks of me as a player, a man who seeks his own pleasure, nothing more.
Spending two weeks with her in the penthouse is going to be absolute torture.
Iâll be surrounded by her heady scent, subjected to her nighttime wear, forced to share meals . . . Itâll be like having a live-in girlfriend without the girlfriend part.
But I have no excuse.
No out.
So, might as well stop fighting it and go fucking pack.
âWell, then, I guess Iâm leaving in four hours.â In silence, with their eyes watching my every move, I shoot up from the couch and make sure I have everything I need before walking past my brothers and out of my office, straight to the elevator where . . . of course, Lottie and Kelsey are talking.
Great.
I stand a good five feet away, but their conversation is loud enough for me to hear.
ââIâm sure it wonât be that bad, as there are two large rooms, separated by a living area and kitchenette. So, donât worry. Hey, remember the time we went to San Francisco with Mom?â Lottie asks. âShe took us to that dim sum restaurant and we ate so much that the owners took a picture of us because theyâd never seen two girls consume as much food as we did.â
Kelsey asks, âWhat was it called again? Dim Sum Star?â
Jesus, how long does it take for an elevator to get here? And clearly, Kelseyâs not happy with the plan to share the penthouse with me either. Donât worry, Kelsey, I know how you feel about me.
Lottie nods. âYup. It was so good. And, of course, the Ghirardelli store. You have to go. Oh, and hey, kind of convenient that Derek will be up there, right?â
Derek?
Now my ears are turned in their direction. Who the hell is Derek?
âOh yeah, youâre right. This trip already sounds better.â
âWant me to text Ellie and see if heâll meet you for dinner? I mean, itâs kind of perfect that the timingâs matched up.â
Ellie . . . thereâs only one Ellie I know and thatâs Dave Toneyâs Ellie. Dave Toney is one of our business partners. Ellie and Lottie have grown close. Which means . . . Derek must be Derek Toney, Daveâs younger brother.
Is Lottie trying to fix Kelsey up with Derek?
âMight be nice to have something to do at night,â Kelsey says.
Well, Jesus fuck, Iâll be there. Itâs not like youâre going to be banished to an island all alone.
Then again, why would she consider me a decent companion? The obnoxious asshole.
âIâll set it up,â Lottie says. âEllie was telling me that Derek is a total foodie. Iâll bet he takes you somewhere that will blow your mind.â
âWhich means I need to pack some dresses for a date or two,â Kelsey says with excitement.
Fucking . . . great.
Just what I need, to stay in the penthouse for two weeks while Kelsey goes out on dates with Derek.
This is going to be a fucking fantastic trip.