Chapter 191: Gift (1)
The Regressor and the Blind Saint
༺ Gift (1) ༻
Their next destination had been decided, but it didnât mean they were headed straight there.
Preparations were needed for the long journey ahead.
The supplies they had prepared beforehand were all lost when Locrion teleported them to Oben.
Thus, they had to start by restocking supplies. In the meantime, Vera used his spare time to look into Ardainâs legacies.
âLife, veil, eyesâ¦â
Vera, examining the Devourer of Life, Locrionâs bracelet, and Gorganâs shortsword, then thought of the Crown of Rebirth that resided in Jennyâs body.
ââ¦and power.â
Veraâs expression darkened.
âHow do I use it?â
He couldnât figure it out.
After all, these objects didnât react even when he used different methods.
There was a momentary reaction when Locrion handed him the bracelet, but aside from that, there was nothing more.
When they returned to Oben, the legacies had become lifeless again.
Vera held the Life Devourer.
âGillie definitely used this object.â
An artifact that absorbs the life of others and uses it as power.
He wanted to test it, but⦠he couldnât.
Its method of use was too strange.
After all, how could one easily use an object designed to be thrust into the userâs own heart?
Vera became more distressed.
As he continued his thoughts to find more meaningful clues before they leftâ¦
Knock knock.
â Sir Vera?
Norn knocked on the door of his room.
Vera lifted his head.
âYes, please wait a moment.â
As Vera opened the door, Norn bowed his head.
âI apologize for disturbing you during your rest.â
âItâs fine. What is it?â
Norn usually didnât approach Vera first.
Vera wondered if something bad happened and asked Norn, then he answered with a smile.
âThe Saintâs birthday is coming up soon. We have some time before we depart, but I wanted to ask about your plans.â
It was about Reneeâs nineteenth birthday, her coming-of-age ceremony.
Veraâs body froze, and his mouth dropped open.
ââ¦Ah.â
Cold sweat ran down his back.
The sudden news left his mind ringing.
âHmm? Sir Vera?â
ââ¦â
It was an emergency.
***
Vera sighed.
âFool. How could I forget that?â
Even if he was out of his mind, it was unthinkable that he forgot the coming-of-age ceremony of Renee, of all people.
It was a once-in-a-lifetime event, and he almost missed it.
ââ¦Three days.â
There were only three days left.
Even if he spent all his time preparing, it would be tight.
âI can make it.â
It was a daunting task, but not impossible.
Vera retraced his memory.
His own coming-of-age ceremony⦠he remembered the gift he received from Renee not long after he came to the Holy Kingdom.
ââ¦A meal.â
He remembered Renee, who only found out about his birthday the day before, celebrating his birthday with a tearful face.
As he recalled the past, a smile formed on Veraâs lips.
â Seriouslyâ¦! Next year, weâll definitely celebrate properly! I promise!
Back then, he had considered Reneeâs kind-heartedness to be regret over her failure to celebrate his birthday properly. But now, looking back, he realized something.
âSince thenâ¦â
She already had feelings for him and was probably frustrated about being unable to convey it.
He suddenly felt sorry.
Vera felt awkward and brushed off the thought, pondering on a meaningful gift for Renee.
âPracticality⦠thatâss not it. A gift should be more meaningful. Then, jewelry? No, not that eitherâ¦â
In the midst of these thoughts, he remembered something Rohan once said.
â Hey, twins. Listen well. If you want to impress a girl, yeah? You should be a bit shameless. If she has a special day coming up, just put a ribbon on your head and say, âI am your gift!â Shout it out! Thatâs the âtrickâ!
Rohan spoke with excitement in front of the twins.
Unconsciously, Vera felt attracted to the idea.
Bang!
He smashed the desk.
Immediately, the door opened, and Norn came in.
âWhat happened?â
Vera was startled.
ââ¦Itâs nothing.â
Looking at Veraâs blushing face and the shattered desk, Norn swallowed hard and left the room.
âWell, um⦠I hope you make up soon.â
Thinking that someone had upset Vera, Norn left that comment, shut the door with a âclickâ, and disappeared.
Vera covered his face with his hands and trembled more violently.
âDamn itâ¦â
No matter how much he thought about it, that idea didnât seem right.
***
Renee lay on her bed, huddled under the blankets.
The comforting, soft sensation helped calm her troubled mind, so she often did this when her mind was restless.
The reason why Renee was feeling restless now wasâ¦
ââ¦I have to change.â
Change is necessary.
For the things that will happen in the future.
For the impending fate.
Renee didnât know whether it was for her and Veraâs happy future, or perhaps for sake of the world.
They hadnât engaged in many conversations, but even so, there were things Renee could discern.
The version of herself from the regression that she saw in her dreams was truly suited to being called the Saint.
A far cry from her selfish self.
To that extent, it was possible that her intentions were for the good of the world, regardless of how she felt about Vera.
ââ¦No, maybe Vera is part of the peace that woman desires.â
I donât know.
Her naive self would not know.
However, that was why she was afraid.
âIf the future could be stopped if I used all my powerâ¦â
If the only way to stop the future was by sacrificing her soul, or if it meant that she could not be with Vera anymore, what choice would she make then?
It was a fear that existed only in her imagination.
With no defined standard, it grew in size according to the depths of her heart.
Even now, as her contemplation deepened, her fears were spreading endlessly.
âWill Iâ¦â
Will I be able to do it?
Will I be able to sacrifice myself for the world?
No, will I be able to allow such a future?
Renee clenched her fist tightly.
She shut her eyes even tighter.
Then, she abruptly stood up.
Renee mumbled absentmindedly and thought.
ââ¦Vera.â
I need to find Vera.
Sitting here alone made the world feel too dark.
She felt alone.
Still unable to stand on her own, she needed Vera to support her.
Thudâ.
Her cane hit the ground, and then her foot slid off the bed.
Her steps were as precarious as ever.
***
âSaint?â
In the hallway of the annex.
Vera was surprised to see Renee walking feebly from a distance, and he went towards her.
âWhy have you come out alone? What if you get lost?â
Since this place wasnât yet familiar to them, Vera always considered the possibility of Renee getting lost when she went out by herself. Veraâs question was due to his surprise at seeing Renee walking alone.
Renee lifted her head.
She held onto Veraâs hand that touched her shoulder.
ââ¦Oh, itâs Vera.â
An absentminded response popped out belatedly.
Vera noticed that something was amiss with Reneeâs condition, and his expression grew serious.
âIs something wrong?â
âNo, Iâm just feeling a little dizzy.â
It was obviously more than just feeling dizzy.
Veraâs expression sank.
âWould you like to go out for some fresh air?â
âYes, that would be great.â
Her gaunt face was evident even with just a glance.
Feeling stifled by this, Vera led her to the terrace.
***
Come to think of it.
Ever since they returned from the Dragonâs Nest, Reneeâs demeanor had been subdued.
Vera blamed himself.
âIâm so stupidâ¦â
He had been busy preparing for the coming-of-age ceremony and had failed to pay attention to Renee. Could there be anything more foolish than this?
Veraâs gaze turned to Renee.
Her attire was a mess, with her outer coat thrown haphazardly over thin clothing.
Her white hair was disheveled, and beneath her unfocused eyes was a particularly gloomy look.
âHer eyes look tired.â
It seemed like she hadnât slept properly.
Vera looked at Reneeâs gaunt face for a moment, then asked.
âIs something bothering you?â
âItâs just I have a lot to think about. About the future and all.â
Though she was trying to smile, her demeanor remained dark.
ââ¦Can you share it with me?â
Renee smiled awkwardly.
âItâs something I have to figure out on my ownâ¦â
That was how Renee saw it.
Regardless of her past selfâs intention before the regression, revealing the truth to Vera in a situation where her intention was unclear would be the worst option.
Instinctively, Renee had come to Vera for answers, but not having an answer added to her frustration.
âIâm sorry.â
âItâs all right.â
Veraâs gaze drifted away.
Reneeâs hand clinging to his index finger seemed even thinner today.
Vera felt bad, then he blurted out.
ââ¦If you ever need my help, please let me know. I will always be on your side.â
âAlways?â
âYes, always.â
Renee mulled over Veraâs mention of âalwaysâ, and soon bursted into a smile.
âThatâs right, Vera is always on my side.â
How could someone be so consistent?
Renee smiled and leaned her head on Veraâs shoulder.
Veraâs body shuddered, and then Renee made an excuse.
ââ¦Itâs cold.â
After saying so, she thought that even though the blanket was warm, it was not as warm as a personâs warmth.
The turmoil within her was gradually calming down.
Veraâs presence gave her a sense of calm.
Meanwhile, Veraâs gaze was on Renee.
Seeing Renee regain her smile, Vera bit his lip for a moment and then spoke.
ââ¦You can do this even when itâs not cold.â
He added in a trembling voice.
âIsnât that alright with our current relationship?â
He liked Reneeâs smile and wanted her to smile more, so he uttered those words.
Then, the both of them stiffened.
Their faces blushed.
A trembling anticipation filled the air.
Renee spoke in a firm tone.
âWell, yes. Now weâre, you know⦠in that kind of relationship. Yes, thatâs right.â
As she spoke, her posture, which had been leaning on Veraâs shoulder, slowly straightened.
She felt a new kind of embarrassment.
Vera spoke as he looked up at the sky, feeling down as Renee moved her head away.
ââ¦Weâre still lacking in many ways.â
Though he didnât know what exactly was lacking, he said it anyway because he felt like it.
âUh, we need to improveâ¦!ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
Renee also spoke about improvement without knowing exactly what needed to be improved.
Silence ensued.
Then, there was a subtle movement.
Though neither of them voiced such intentions, their distance naturally closed.
Their hips lightly bumped as they moved closer.
Both of them, who had been silent now, blurted out their thoughts as if they were talking to themselves.
ââ¦Now it feels like nothingâs lacking.â
âYes, weâve improved.â
They resonated again.
A giggle bursted out.
âWe look like fools.â
âI donât think so.â
âReally?â
âIndeed.â
Vera continued speaking, looking at Renee with a smile that had yet to vanish.
âAs the Saintâs complexion has improved, how could this be a bad thing?â
Reneeâs fingertips trembled.
âNow that I think about itâ¦â
Her mind had cleared up in no time.
Despite just having a short conversation, all her worries seemed to have flown away.
âThis is nice.â
Renee smiled.
Vera also smiled and nodded.
Then, Vera thought.
âTwo days.â
Two days until Reneeâs coming-of-age ceremony. Iâll make this memory an unforgettable one this time.
As he thought that, his motivation surged.