Fear of 2011

Tears run down your soft checks

Reminiscing about what it was like to love

Without doubt

Shame

Regret

Or pain

It was simple for a child's heart

Hearts change and I think someone should've gave me a warning

The fine print kills me, I should've read a little closer

Maybe listened a little better

Anything to make my mother proud

While I continue to make Dad guilty

Forgiveness is easy to do until you have nothing in you but sadness and anger

There's emptiness in their words

All you wanted was to see them smile

Everyone around you was supposed to make it possible

But you can't depend on that anymore

Finding yourself in a pit of misery because no one knows

They can't

You won't allow it

I open my eyes and time raced me by

To find me doing things I regret

Spitting pure rage at my sisters behalf for her wrongdoings

Just to turn around and do the same thing

Bodies change with heart, but people forget about the second part

Just remember that

My mind is the only thing I listen to anymore

It tells me a lot even when I can't bear to hear the truth, but then again it stays to listen when no one else will

Pathetic little things that make me break

Years went by, yet the child in me is frightened

The outside world is too much to handle and she's afraid

I'm petrified of never being content with my reality

But then I think back to the the little girl yelling at her sister for her mistakes

I keep it dear to my heart while she watched her mother lead a hard life as well

Her father a sad, old man who had forgotten what he created

She deserves more

We all do