Expectations

I Expected the best from you

You were constantly proving yourself to me

I gave up

You don't deserve that

I quit trying just to think it'll all be over soon

Somehow you'd figure out what you gotten yourself into

I was never good at this

I'm to blame

I looked to places where I was good

Good at making them want me

Not in the way I needed

At the time it seems to make sense

It's scary to see you look at me the way you do

Makes me wonder if you'll see what everyone else sees, or the truth

I try to hide well, but you know me

I've wrote about so many, yet you confuse me

It's never black and white with you

You're just so pure for me to begin

Never been good with my words but I can tell you a story to tell you how much you mean to me

I want you and only you, but I'm afraid so I beat you to it

I hurt you time and time again.

I maybe did it just so you'd get the hint of warning

I wanna be better but what if it's not in the cards for me

Or any of us