Chapter 623: 623: You let them see your corpse?

Following Bai San was her last ditch effort.

It was her defiance against the cruel fate.

She gambled her destiny.

But how could she ever stand against the heavens, she lost.

Three times she defied fate in her life. Marrying, receiving fifty taels of silver, and then eloping.

All three times, she lost completely.

The heavens did not want her to live…

If it weren’t for her thoughts on Qiao Xiaomai and Qiao Dami, she would have killed herself long ago.

Now, Qiao Xiaomai and Qiao Dami have found her, and Xiaomai has achieved such incredible success… she even married the best young man in all the surrounding villages.

With such happiness and fulfillment, she, their mother and bearer of such bad luck and nasty reputation, should die even more.

Her existence was just a stain on Qiao Xiaomai and Qiao Dami.

Her final destination was Hell.

“Please, let me die… I really do not want to live…” She looked at Tong Sanlang, pleading in her eyes and her voice shaking, “Just claim that I died in an accident while working somewhere else, let me die, let me die…”

“How can I face Xiaomai and Dami with this appearance…”

The clothes she was wearing were the old ones of Zhan Jin. The clothes she brought had been snatched away by Zhan Jin’s mother. She was filthy, neither human nor ghost, this appearance of hers would only scare the two children.

“Sanlang, I really can’t bear to live anymore, please grant me this wish…” Zhuang Luhe wept as she pleaded.

Tong Sanlang looked at her, his fist clenched tightly, his eyes filled with a mist, “Mother, believe in Xiaomai, she can handle this. In her heart, you will always be her mother.”

“If the Suns can live openly, then what reason do you have to die? Xiaomai and Dami have traveled a day by ox cart to get here, not to see your corpse, they came to take you home.”

“Even if you’ve made mistakes, you don’t deserve to die!”

“You don’t understand, you don’t understand…” Zhuang Luhe covered her face with her skeletal hands, tears streaming through the gaps, leaving Tong Sanlang’s heart in even more discomfort.

“I understand everything, you’re worried about tarnishing Xiaomai’s reputation, aren’t you? No one will dare to gossip about her.”

“If Xiaomai and Dami really mind, they wouldn’t come here in the first place.”

“Besides, are you live for those gossipers? Why should you care about the perceptions of people who are irrelevant?”

“The Suns have already been driven out of the village, now our family is the top-notch household in Anping Village. Every day we have no less than ten occasional as many as dozens of people working in our house, every day we pay hundreds of coins. Don’t you yearn for such a life?”

“Exactly, Luhe, rest assured, no one dares gossip, you can return with me.” Qiao Changshun also spoke up, hugging Zhuang Luhe and comforting her, “We don’t mind, nobody in our family minds. Don’t overthink.”

“Mother, no matter what, you must give it a try.” Tong Sanlang spoke again.

“No, I have no face to see them, please, do me this favour, let me die…” Zhuang Luhe’s body shook as she cried, her voice imbued with such despair that would drown anyone.

She was truly determined to die.

Tong Sanlang furrowed his eyebrows at this, his mind whirring rapidly. He tucked his lips, changing his tactic, “Mother, you always say you’re thinking for the good of Xiaomai and Dami, but how are you doing that? You are willing to let them witness your death?”

“They haven’t seen you for half a year, and as soon as there was word about you, they hurried here on an ox cart. They brought huge hopes with them, and you were going to present your corpse to them?”

“Have you thought about the psychological trauma this would inflict on them?!”