Chapter 64
If you Don’t Love Me, I Will Die
Ania Bronte was recognized by many as the most beautiful woman in the Empire.
Seeing her golden hair flowing would make people instantly recognize her.
Thatâs why there was worry.
What if someone recognized Ania?
The Bronte family was still searching for Ania.
She had disappeared without disclosing her destination after the banquet.
Although letters had arrived at the Radner household, Ania hadnât arrived at the time, so naturally, they replied that they didnât have her.
And Iâve been hiding ever since.
If Valentine Bronte were to find out⦠he might even resort to violence.
He cherished his daughter so dearly.
He would have been devastated after Ania disappeared.
âCheers!â
But fortunately, no one recognized Ania.
The rumors circulating among the young people in the Capital were about the declining Empire, so most did not pay much attention to Ania, who was with me.
It was amusing.
Such a beautiful woman right next to them, yet they didnât recognize her.
They were quite foolish.
We sat in a corner, lightly sipping our drinks while watching them.
I poured whiskey from the South with ice while Ania sipped on the low-alcohol apple wine.
âAre you enjoying it?â
âYeah, itâs delicious.â
By now, Aniaâs cheeks had turned slightly pink.
Her eyes seemed a bit softer as if she could collapse from intoxication at any moment.
I wanted to stop her, but I didnât.
As long as I stayed sober, it would be fine.
I had promised myself I would let Ania do whatever she wanted this week.
But with each drink, her cheeks became redder and redder.
âAnia, slow down a bit nowâ¦â
âThis tastes good.â
âYou should think about your body.â
Ania leaned on me, her head touching my shoulder.
âI wish this moment could last forever.â
âYeah, me too.â
âBy the way, this alcohol is really good.â
ââ¦Drink slowly.â
Ania snuggled against my body with a silly smile.
âMy father never let me drink.â
âDrinking too much isnât good for you anyway.â
âThatâs not itâ¦â
She took another sip.
âHe never let me drink at all. Once, I secretly drank, and I got in big trouble.â
âWhen was that?â
âWhen I was fifteen.â
âBut fifteen is too young to drink.â
âYeah. But still, I did. I wanted to live freely.â
As Ania reached for her glass again, I held it back.
âAnia, youâve had too much. I said drink slowly.â
Her slightly unfocused eyes narrowed at me.
âIâll do what I want.â
âItâs bad for your health.â
âDo you dislike seeing me drink? Because I look reckless?â
âThatâs not it.â
âIâm not a lady anymore. Just Ania. Just a normal Ania you can find in the Capital.â
âYeah, I know.â
âIf so, let me drink.â
Ania reached for her cup, but I caught her wrist
She pulled her arm back and started punching my chest.
âDonât stop me from drinking! Iâm not a lady!â
âThat doesnât matter, Ania.â
âThen what does?â
âIâm worried about you.â
âYou donât need to worry about me. You donât need to.â
âHow can I not?â
âJust leave me alone.â
âI donât want to.â
âWell, I donât want to either. Iâll drink more.â
I grabbed the glass, and Ania glared at me.
âDonât look so depressed. Iâm not worried because youâre a lady, or your body is precious. Justâ¦â
As Ania clumsily reached for the glass, I found her adorable.
She lightly chuckled and then gently wrapped her head against my shoulder.
âIf you wake up with a stomach ache tomorrow morning⦠my heart wonât be well.â
âReally?â
âYeah. Because I donât want to see you in pain.â
âOkay then.â
Ania leaned against me with a smile.
She continued to talk nonsense afterward.
I couldnât remember exactly what she said.
Perhaps it was because I had also drunk quite a bit.
ââ¦Edward.â
She often called my name as if I were about to go far away somewhere.
I understood why.
The two years we couldnât meet was still a gap we couldnât ignore.
I didnât know back then, but now I understand.
âEdward.â
âYeah, Iâm listening.â
âIâm not bothering you, am I?â
âNot at all.â
âYou donât hate me? I promised but couldnât keep it.â
âDonât worry about it. Youâre back anyway.â
âI wonât leave again. Weâll be together forever⦠Us twoâ¦â
As I stroked Aniaâs hair, I slowly turned my gaze toward her.
Her flushed cheeks and drunken eyes looked up at me, almost closing.
âUsâ¦?â
âAgainâ¦â
As Ania spoke, her eyes slowly closed.
Her body, losing strength, leaned against me, and soon, the sound of her gentle snoring filled the air.
I quietly gazed at her face.
Us two againâ¦
âMarriage.â
Is that why she wanted to drink?
Was it to bring up that topic?
Butâ¦
It still felt too early.
I still remember the end that our marriage faced.
A premature marriage was what tore us apart.
Even if the unfortunate events hadnât⦠we wouldnât have truly understood each other.
Understanding.
Consideration.
Love.
Sacrifice.
Heart.
We couldnât handle any of these properly.
The tiny sparks we had eventually extinguished themselves.
Rushed love burns like straw, while deep love burns like firewood.
When everything burns away, when thereâs no desire or obsession leftâ¦
If we still donât understand each other deeplyâ¦
Our end would be like our previous marriage.
So please, just a bit longerâ¦
If we mature enough to truly understand and love each other, we can promise eternity someday.
âEdwardâ¦â
I gently brushed Aniaâs forehead as she called my name in her intoxication.
Her soft golden hair felt gentle.
My anxiousness started to fade.
I lightly pressed my lips against her soft, warm forehead.
âAnia.â
If you can, stay by my side,
Just that would be enough for me not to crumble.
***
âWait a moment.â
I supported Ania, who had fainted and strolled into an alley.
The intoxication was now slowly creeping up, so I reached into my coat pocket to grab the tin case, only to stop in frustration.
âI quitâ¦â
I used to smoke whenever I drank, so it had become a habit.
But the tin case containing the cigarettes was with Lorendel, so I couldnât smoke even if I wanted to.
Since I had promised Ania to quit anyway, I chuckled softly and turned back to return to the car.
However, someone was standing at the end of the alley.
It wasnât a passerby; he stood steadfastly, staring at me.
Only his silhouette was faintly visible in the darkness, but judging from his slightly bent waist and bushy hair, it was easy to tell he was a middle-aged man.
âDo you have business with me?â
It was nothing odd.
As the head of the family and the CEO of a company, such threats were always present.
Approaching him slowly, I took out the small dagger I always carried.
âYes. Thatâs correct, Lord Edward.â
âYou areâ¦â
But his voice sounded familiar.
As the figure of the man gradually entered the alley, he leaned his face closer under the dim light.
His faintly graying hair and deeply etched wrinkles became visible.
Though not familiar, I recognized him instantly.
âAssistant Joshua?â
âYes. Itâs been a long time, my Lord.â
Duke Bronteâs aide, Joshua.
A rugged character whom I didnât particularly likeâ¦
Thatâs why I always kept my guard up around him.
âWhatâs your business?â
Perhaps he noticed that Ania was with me.
The fact that he had caught up with me meant that he had likely been following me for a while.
âHe found out.â
But I didnât show any signs of it.@@novelbin@@
Over the past two years, I learned that as long as I didnât show any signs, I wouldnât get caught, no matter what.
âItâs about the young lady.â
âI have nothing to say about that.â
âBut I do. Would you like to hear what I have to say?â
ââ¦â¦â
His sharp and narrow eyes gleamed.
I looked at those eyes and slowly nodded.
He could just intimidate me if he had realized that Ania was with me.
If he didnât know, he could have followed in secret.
âI know. The lady is at Lord Edwardâs mansion.â
As soon as I heard that, my dagger flashed in the moonlight.
âIt would have been better if you didnât know. What a shame.â
âJust wait a moment!â
As I aimed the knife at his throat, he stepped back and raised his hands.
âI swear I wonât tell the Duke! I swear!â
âThe Duke?â
âYes. That man⦠heâs⦠plotting with the lady to threaten Lord Edward.â
âWhatâ¦?â
I narrowed my eyes and pressed the knife closer to his throat.
âSpeak. But if you utter nonsense, Iâll slit your throat right here.â
âYes⦠I understand.â
He glanced around and began speaking in a lowered voice.