Chapter 96
If you Don’t Love Me, I Will Die
âCreatorâ¦?â
As Ania murmured, Ha Soo-Jeong nodded slightly.
He rose from his seat and reached out towards the document window in the air.
As he did, the novels he had written piled up and gathered at his fingertips.
âYou are the characters from my novels.â
âNovels? You mean books?â
âYeah. Books Iâve written.â
The document windows gathered at Ha Soo-Jeongâs fingertips and formed into a book.
[If You Donât Love Me, I Will Die]
âItâs a romance fantasy novel.â
On the cover of the book, Ania and I were depicted.
We stood as if looking at each other, yet not looking at each other.
But something was strange.
He said I was a character in the novel, but strictly speaking, I wasnât a character in the story.
Edward and Ania.
They were definitely characters in the novel.
But I am not Edward.
My body belongs to Edward, but⦠I am not Edward.
âWait.â
âYeah. Go ahead.â
Ha Soo-Jeong chuckled as I paused.
But before I could ask, he spoke.
âNo⦠you still seem skeptical, so should I speak first? What you want to ask is,
Ha Soo-Jeongâs eyes twinkled.
ââIâm not a character in the novel,â right?â
âHow did you know?â
âOf course I know. I created you. I know everything about you. What youâre thinking and what you want to say.â
I felt an uncomfortable sensation as if my insides were being read.
Before I could react, Ha Soo-Jeong continued.
âIâll answer your questions.â
As he flicked the book, a document window popped out and floated in the air.
It was written like this:
Name: Edward Radner.
â Eldest son of the Radner family. Just and sincere personality. Skilled in swordsmanship and magic. Became possessed by the book âIf You Donât Love Me, Iâll Dieâ under certain circumstances.
Ha Soo-Jeong quickly scanned the document window.
Then, Ania grabbed my arm abruptly.
âWhatâs that supposed to mean? Possessedâ¦?â
ââ¦Iâll explain later.â
I didnât know what to tell Ania.
The fact that the Edward she loved wasnât me.
I had resolved to reveal it someday, but fear gripped me.
If Ania were to learn that fact, would she still love me?
She loved Edward, not me.
âAre you afraid? That Ania wonât love you anymore?â
âWhatâ¦?â
âIf she finds out youâre not from this world, you think Ania Bronte wonât love you anymore.â
Heâs completely reading my mind.
No, thereâs no point in even trying to hide it.
That guy knows everything about this world.
âYeah.â
So, I had no choice but to answer obediently.
âIâm not the âEdwardâ Ania Bronte loved. That man is someone different from me.â
ââ¦?â
Ania looked at me with a puzzled expression.
âAnia.â
But I had to say it.
The man you loved isnât me.
âIâm⦠not Edward. I was possessed into this world from another world. To be precise, I possessed Edward from when he was twenty-twoâ¦â
âI donât understand.â
âYeah, I figured.â
Ha Soo-Jeong responded to Aniaâs question first.
âAnia, you couldnât possibly know you exist in a different dimension from Edward.â
âSo, in the end⦠No, I donât understandâ¦â
Frowning, Ania shook her head.
I felt a sudden surge of fear.@@novelbin@@
An assumption I had been entertaining since I came to this world.
âIf I were to see the end of this world, would I return to the original world?â
As I attempted to ask, Ha Soo-Jeong answered immediately.
âThe original world⦠Do you want to go back?â
âNo.â
I replied promptly.
As much as I had longed to return to that world, I no longer wanted to.
Because Ania Bronte isnât in my original world.
Because the woman Iâll love forever isnât there.
âHaha⦠I thought so.â
âHow do you know?â
âBecause youâre that kind of person; I made it so.â
âDonât talk nonsense. Iâm not a character you created. Iâm not Edward.â
âHmm⦠are you sure about that?â
Ha Soo-Jeong tapped on his laptop.
âAlright then, tell me. If youâre not Edward, then who are you?â
âI amâ¦â
For a moment, my mind went blank.
Who am I?
If Iâm not Edward, then who am I?
Ha Soo-Jeong chuckled softly and said, âCome on. Tell me, Edward. Who are you? If youâre not Edward, whatâs your name? Where did you live, who were your family? Your friends?â
ââ¦Nothing.â
Nothing came to mind.
Ha Soo-Jeong slowly shook his head as he observed my state.
âYou wonât remember.â
âWhy not?â
âWhy? Wellâ¦because there is nothing to remember. I never set it up.â
âWhatâ¦?â
âI didnât set up your past. Thereâs no need for details that donât appear in the story. Your past is not mentioned in the book, so it wasnât necessary to establish it. Where you were born, who your parents are, what your name is, who your friends are, and how you lived.â
I shook my head.
It couldnât be true.
âThis doesnât make sense.â
âIt does, Edward.â
Ha Soo-Jeong got up from his seat and approached me.
He slowly took my hand and helped me up.
âYouâre not anyone else. Youâre just⦠Edward Radner. You always have been.â
ââ¦â
It was shocking. The feeling of everything I had lived up to now being invalidated.
âEdward.â
At that moment, Ha Soo-Jeong lightly hugged me and patted my back.
His touch was unusually warm.
âYouâve worked hard until now. I didnât want to ruin your life like this.â
But the strange feeling lasted briefly, and my heart felt at ease.
Incredibly so.
I realized the identity of that feeling.
Relief.
The thought that I had been the Edward Radner whom Ania loved from the beginning brought a sigh of relief so profound.
âTake this.â
Ha Soo-Jeong took a notebook from his inner pocket and placed it in my hand.
âWhatâs this?â
âYour memories. Open it.â
Reluctantly, I unfolded the notebook, and countless memories flooded back in an instant.
Childhood promises.
Nineteen lives lived as Edward.
All of it.
It was only then that I realized.
I am Edward Radner.
I had always been Edward.
No one else.
âShall we try telling the story again?â
Ha Soo-Jeong sat back with a more relieved expression.
***
Ha Soo-Jeong slowly moved his hand to operate the laptop.
Then, numerous document windows appeared again.
âFirst, letâs start with this one.â
The compressed document window he created turned into a shining sphere.
âThis is the first story I ever wrote.â
As I gazed at the shining sphere, memories strangely flowed into me.
It was a story I knew well.
The villainess, Ania, and Edward fell in love with her and met his demise.
âWhy such a storyâ¦â
âI didnât want to write it like this either.â
The corner of Ha Soo-Jeongâs eyes flickered downward.
âWouldnât it be beautiful if we only wrote happy stories?â
âWas there a reason you didnât do that?â
âIf we only write happy stories, causality collapses.â
The shining sphere quickly transformed into a complex mechanism with countless gears interlocked.
âIf this story were to unfold as it isâ¦â
The gears moved rapidly, then began to collapse.
âIt collapses like this.â
âWhy?â
âBecause you two didnât go through the fate where you could love each other properly. As causality and coherence collapse.â
âCausality and coherenceâ¦â
âEvery story has causality. If you drop a ball from a high place, it falls to the ground, not into the sky.â
I nodded.
âItâs the same with stories. Suppose you try to end a story happily when the situation isnât suitable for happiness. In that case, the ball will shoot into the sky. And this happens.â
Ha Soo-Jeong pointed to the broken gears.
âSo, I wrote the story again. This time, I included a setting where Ania stole the necklace of destiny from the palace. And Ania went back to the beginning of time. Butâ¦â
âEven then, the causality didnât match.â
âYeah. By forcing causality to match, it took away one of your lives.â
He raised numerous document windows with a melancholic smile and handed us the memories.
In those countless memories, Ania and I faced death numerous times.
They were scenes I had witnessed in my consciousness.
âTen times in total. After ten attempts, I realized. I canât write stories full of happiness. For you two to be happy, inevitably, pain must be inflicted.â
Ha Soo-Jeong unfolded the eleventh document. It turned into a shining sphere, then into gears.
But despite the gears moving diligently, they eventually collapsed.
Fortunately, the form remained, but it was still broken.
âI wanted to make the end of this world into perfect happiness. But the more I tried to do that, the more problems emerged from elsewhere.â
âSo, for usâ¦â
âYeah. In the end, I had to make you two misunderstand each other and hate each other to reach a perfect conclusion.â
He laughed.
But within his laughter, there was a faint sadness.