: Chapter 12
Monster Among the Roses
When I drove home that night, I expected red and blue lights to start flashing behind me any second with some cop threatening to arrest me for theft. I drove with my eyes more on the rearview mirror than on the road ahead of me.
By the time I made it into town, handcuff-free, my worry only gained volume. People didnât own rides as nice or new as this in my neighborhood. If I parked this thing on my street, I might as well paint a huge target on it. It wouldnât survive the night.
Swearing under my breath, I found a better neighborhood about a fifteen-minute walk from my own, where the cars and trucks started to look nicer and were safer to park on the street. I still felt wrong about leaving it there, so far from my apartment, but hell, it had a better chance here.
âYouâll be okay,â I said, stroking the paint job and reassuring myself more than I was the truck. Then I stepped back, took a deep breath, and hurried home. Once I reached the apartment, I remembered to check the mail slot on the first floor before heading up the stairs. There were about half a dozen letters, all from people we owed money.
Realizing itâd been days since weâd received a single late notice, I started to sweat and tore open the first letter. I was halfway up the first flight when I realized what I was staring at. Slowing to a stop, I gaped in disbelief.
I knew Iâd made the deal with Mr. Nash, but a part of me had never fully believed heâd see to his half. Yet there I stood, slack jawed as I stared at the loan paid in full notice. It was exhilarating and kind of scary. I feared it couldnât be real.
Palms sweating, I tore open the second letter. Another loan paid notice.
Holy shit. Heâd done it. Heâd really done it. Heâd paid off all my motherâs debts.
With the third letter ripped open, I blinked, my eyes prickling with emotion. Every single thing had been paid off.
I covered my mouth with my hand and stared around the quiet stairwell, overcome.
She was free. My mother was finally free and safe.
If Henry Nash were standing there in that moment, I wouldâve hugged him. Heâd just saved Mom. To me, he was a hero.
By the time I made it up to my apartment, my relief and joy had left me somewhat drained and dazed. So I was even more flabbergasted when I opened my door, only to smell baking bread along with apples and cinnamon.
Oh God, it couldnât be. Not my momâs famous apple cinnamon rolls. Theyâd grown so popular around the neighborhood, they were actually the reason my sister Victoria had urged Mom into opening the bakery. Inhaling them now was bittersweet. It reminded me of how our life had been led into ruin, but it also told me Mom was up and about, actually baking.
I hurried toward the kitchen, worried Iâd find her hovering over the oven and hacking out the last of her flu. But when I came to the opening, I jerked to a surprised halt. Mom looked completely recovered from her sickness. She hummed to herself as she spread butter over the top of a still steaming bun. A limp remained as she moved toward a plate at the other end of the counter, but even her uneven gait seemed better than any movements sheâd made since breaking her hip three months before. Her walker sat unused on the other side of the kitchen.
âShaw!â she said, pleasure blooming across her face. âAre you hungry? I made enough to feed us for a week, I think.â Then she laughed her tinkling laugh that always reminded me of fairy bells ringing or angel wings flapping. I loved my motherâs laugh. Itâd been too long since Iâd last heard it.
Affection warmed my entire chest. Mom was back, better than ever. She was free from loans and she looked healthy and happy.
âI could eat,â I said, approaching. âBut firstâ¦â I wrapped my arms around her and gave her the biggest hug, even picked her up and caused her to laugh.
Patting my shoulder and then touching my cheek, she grinned. âWhatâs all this about?â
I shook my head, not sure if I could voice how pleased I was by all our good fortune if I tried. âItâs just been a good day.â
She, of course, totally misunderstood me, not at all thinking I was happy because of her. âSomething mustâve happened at work,â she mused, her brown eyes, the same shade as my own, twinkling with joy.
I started to shake my head before I remembered, oh shit, yes. âYeah, I guess.â I gave a rueful shrug, almost too embarrassed to tell her my news. âMr. Nash loaned me a truck to drive to and from work.â
âWow, thatâs nice.â Mom turned to pick up the cinnamon roll sheâd just buttered to hand it to me. âYou wonât have to spend so much time walking to that place anymore.â
She said that place as if it were a nasty omen. Iâd told her over and over again there was nothing shady about the Nashes, but she continued to doubt.
I took the roll and bit into it, moaning over the apple and cinnamon flavors that exploded on my tongue. Then I closed my eyes, enjoying the taste, before I swallowed. When I looked at Mom again, she was buttering another roll. I leaned against the counter and watched, taking another bite.
âMom, nice doesnât even cover half of what this truck is. You donât understand.â I went on to explain the model and year along with all the bells and whistles it contained. âI was so afraid to drive it home and park it in our neighborhood, I had to leave it outside the Dennyâs on Fifth and Grand.â
âOh, Shaw.â She rolled her eyes. âYou can be so dramatic, my sweet, precious boy. You make it sound like the Holy Grail when itâs just a work truck.â
I snorted and shook my head. âYou sound like Isobel.â
âWhoâs Isobel?â
I jumped at the question, because it hadnât come from my mother. Not realizing anyone else had been in the apartment, I jerked away from my casual lean against the counter and spun toward the new voice.
Gloria stood there, pointedly staring at me with her arms crossed over her chest.
âJesus, where did you come from?â
She began to tap her foot. âI was in the bathroom, freshening up, when you came in. Whoâs Isobel?â
Righteous indignation stretched across her face, and she continued to glare at me as if Iâd cheated on her. I narrowed my eyes and pinched my mouth together, refusing to answer, because it was none of her business who any of my acquaintances were.
But then Mom had to go and say, âI donât think Iâve ever heard you mention an Isobel before. Does she work for Mr. Nash as well?â Then she passed the newly buttered roll to Gloria, murmuring, âHere you go, dear.â
When Gloria took it, answering, âThank you, Mama,â I almost lost my cool.
I did not like her calling my mother Mama. I didnât like her hanging out in my apartment all day. I didnât like her staring at me as if she had any right to me, and I really didnât like that I was going to have to answer her demanding question because now Mom wanted to know who Isobel was too.
Dammit.
âUh, no,â I said, frowning between the two women. The bite Iâd just taken seemed to grow larger in my throat the more I tried to swallow it. âSheâs not another employee. Sheâs Mr. Nashâs daughter.â
Mom smiled politely. Gloria scowled harder.
âI didnât realize he had any children,â Mom said.
I nodded. âYeah, heâs a widower with a son and a daughter. The son lives elsewhere, though.â
âHow oldâs the daughter?â Gloria asked, her jealousy thick and livid.
I stared at her, my jaw ticking. I didnât want to answer her.
But Mom had to go and press, âWell?â
With a sigh, I muttered, âSheâs twenty-five.â
Gloria snorted. âTwenty-five and still lives at home with her daddy? Wow, thatâs impressive.â
I tipped my head to the side, drilling her with an insulted glare. âIâm twenty-eight and live with my mother.â
Face flushing, she immediately began to stutter, âThatâs notâ¦but your situation is unique. Iâm sure Mr. Nash could buy his daughter another home to live in. Besides, why doesnât she have her own job and take care of herself?â
âShe canât,â I snarled, needing to defend Isobel more than I needed my next breath.
But I was so vehement about it, both women reared back in surprise before Mom said, âWhat do you mean, she canât? Whatâs wrong with her?â
My instinctive answer was nothing. There was nothing wrong with Isobel. She was flawless in my eyes. But after my passionate she canât, I had to give them something.
âShe, uh, wellâ¦she was in a house fire that killed her mother, and it left herâ¦â
Mom pressed her hand to her chest. âOh, that poor sweet child. Is she crippled?â
âNo.â I smiled a bit to myself, thinking about how in shape she was. After running with her for a week, I still couldnât keep up with her pace. She definitely wasnât crippled. âI mean, she doesnât use the fingers in her left hand much because of the burn wounds.â Iâd noticed that about her, anyway. âBut mostly itâs justâ¦aesthetic.â
âSo she looks hideous?â Gloria guessed, a smirk of evil relish brightening her features.
âNo,â I said before I could check myself. Honestly, it was probably best if I let Gloria think Isobel was too revolting for me to have any interest in her. Sheâd probably hate her less, and I knew the two would never meet, but I didnât want someone to hate Isobel, even in spirit only. âI donât think the scars look that bad, but sheâs become quite self-conscious about them. She doesnât leave the property, like ever.â
The two women stared at me a moment longer before Gloria self-righteously proclaimed, âWhat a lazy, entitled coward.â
For the briefest moment, I was too shocked by her words to respond. Then I blinked and slowly said, âExcuse me?â
âSheâs so scared people might laugh at her looks that sheâs decided to live off her rich, fat daddy for the rest of her life and, what, eat bonbons while you shine her shoes? Thatâs appalling.â
âSheâs not appalling.â I was so flabbergasted by the critique I couldnât check my words. âThe way she pushes herself every morning during her run, and how tenaciously she tends to her roses, is the very opposite of lazy. Plus, sheâs been quite the trooper, helping me build her bookshelves. I think she carried just as many lumber supplies into the house from the truck as I did today. And who the hell cares if she lives the rest of her life on her daddyâs money? Trust me, he can certainly afford it.â
Lifting her chin, Gloria narrowed her eyes and sniffed. âI suppose youâll try to convince me itâs bravery that makes her hide away from the rest of the world, too, wonât you?â
âCan you honestly blame her?â I spat back. âHer life was irrevocably changed. Sheâs just trying to deal with it the best way she can. Until you lose your mother in a fire and get half of your face melted off, you have no right to judge her so harshly.â
âWell,â Gloria said, her entire being rigid with sanctimonious outrage. âI think itâs time I be on my way.â
Finally, I agreed with her on something. âI think youâre right.â
âShaw,â Mom gasped, sending me a disappointed glare. âI invited Gloria to stay for supper.â
Of course she had. Pulling my anger back together, I drew in a deep breath. âSorry, Mother. I wouldnât dream of kicking out your guest.â Sending Gloria a tight smile, I splayed out a hand. âPlease, stay and eat.â
With a satisfied little smirk, Gloria preened and tucked her hair behind her ear. âWhy, thank you. I think I will.â
With a single nod at her compliance, I took a step in reverse. âI hope you ladies enjoy your meal.â
They both blinked. âWhat? But where are you going?â Mom asked.
I sent her a sad smile, completely ignoring the woman at her side. âI think Iâll eat out tonight.â I gave her a kiss on the cheek before adding, âHave a great evening, Mom.â
With that, I turned away and started for the door.
Both Mom and Gloria called after me, but I kept going. Once I was outside and back in the stairwell of the building, by myself, I finally cursed under my breath. I wished I hadnât been so quick to defend Isobel. It felt as if Iâd just painted a great big target on her back for Gloria to hate. It wasnât a big deal, of courseâthe two women would never meet. Gloria couldnât mistreat her to her face, and Isobel would probably never even be aware that someone disliked her now, because of me. But I still wished Iâd been able to hide my feelings better.
What if Henry caught on to the fact I was starting to like herâ¦a lot?
Damn, I was definitely going to have to learn to control myself better than this. Everything seemed to depend upon it.