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" we should keep towel ? " he said " why should we take towel to beech " i said , picking my bag and adjusting my things , " and we should keep , sunscreen ?" he asked again " yes sunscreen will be good " i said , packing foods and stuff for him " we will go from my car " he said and i frown my eyebrows " no , we will not go from car , we will take public transport " i said " why public transport " he asked " because public transport is comfortable and make you interact with society and make you more social " why do i have to be social " he asked " because being social make you more , ummm what we can say , yeah social people are more happy and they live longer" i said " this don't make sense " he said " it will once you will study social psychology " i said and he just shrug it off " i am going to do more packing " he said

" you seems really excited " i laughed " yes i am , a lot happy " he said , and i smiled " really ?" i asked , he smiled and nodded " i am happy because i am going there after a long " he said " that's great , so you should go and pack your stuff fast " i said and he smiled ,

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" you really taking him there ?" novail's voice hit my ears " you don't have house , do you ?? " i asked " me and Alwar is one plus one " he said and I chuckled

" and yes , we are going there " I said as I take my bag with me , " ALWAR COME FAST " I shout his name and Novail laugh " we are going at beech , and you go enjoy here don't make the house mess " I said as I ran outside , I can hear Alwar's footstep behind me , I turned back , and what I saw made me shock to my core. Alwar was there in beach shorts with beach shirt wearing big hat and green color sunglasses  . I tired not to laugh but I couldn't control and burst into laughing , holding my stomach

" you really excited " I said in between my chuckles . " lets go " he said as he holds my hand starts moving forward . I stare at our joint hands , his hand fits perfectly in mine , a weird feeling happened I my heart , and I can literally feel butterfly in my stomach by just holding his hands

I smiled and took a deep breathe , as I look forward to today's session

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the bus ride here was really fun ,  let me tell you how , first when we climb on the bus Alwar was really mad because there wasn't any double empty seat and he had to sit with a woman with a three year old kid , and that kid ruined Alwar's mood by constantly annoying him , I can say Alwar was trying to control his anger , which was a good sign . then on next stop Seat beside me got empty , so Alwar quickly came to join me , even though he was really annoyed because everyone on the bus was constantly talking ,and was trying to pick up conversation at start with Alwar , he was really hesitant at first but soon after he gave in and trust me I never saw Alwar talking so much , he was discussing about business and politics with one uncle and fashion and things with a young boy , it get on the level that he went near there seat to talk with them  . I felt jealous , but I was happy for him , at least I can see some positive changes .

but I was jealous and pissed because he left me alone , and even now when we came down on our stop he was waving to them , he never waved at me

" bye , I will see you some other day " he said to them and turns towards me  " what happened to your face " he asked " nothing , lets go " i said lacing my arm with him , as we runs towards the beech

the cold wind hit my faces with the smell of fresh water  , I feel my feet dip a little in the sand as i see sky meeting the sea at far away . I hold his hand little tighter , which made him chuckled "  you scared ?" he asked " who gets scared of beeches ?"  I said " then lets go " he said with a voice of full of excitement and drag me towards the shore

we removed our shoes , and run on the wet sand , when water hits my feet , a shiver ran down to my whole body but holding Alwar's hand was providing me the warmth that was enough for me even in the coldest weather .

the chamber of  memory I locked  in my cage till now , got free today ,  the weigh of memories on  my heart lifted a little and I realized that sometimes facing the things you don't want to face and by unlocking the memories you don't want to unlock , can ease your pain and make you feel peaceful  .

and this all happens because of this one girl , whose presence is changing  my heart and mind , should I get scared of the change , or should I just embrace it and go with the flow

I stare at the tired Stella , she was breathing heavy , because she was continually playing with the water ,

" you get tired easily " she said panting , as she sat beside me " I wasn't tired , I was just enjoying my view " I said ,and Stella was my view " you are no fun" she said pushing me slightly " i really enjoyed today " I said and she smiled at me , only god knows what happen to my heart when she show me her beautiful smile

" what's your best memory of childhood , when you came here " she asked , there she goes asking her silly questions , but her questions makes me realize that my life was not blank , but it has these beautiful things also

" when I used to come here with my mother , she used to bring a lot of good foods , and we used to built sand castle " I said "you know , I still remember , how she tried to laugh in front of me even though she was hurt " I said " everything was really good I don't know why she left me " I said " my life went downhill after that " I added

" you never tried to find her ?? " I asked " well i did but last thing i got to know is that she used to work for a IT company , i guess it was Apex global " i said , and she went into deep thoughts

" do you miss her ?" she asked , and i went blank , do i miss her ? or i just really hate her ? or i just want the answers to my questions

" i don't know what i feel about her , but one thing is there , i don't want her to be happy , because she took away my everything from me " i said , and stela's eyes went wide for a moment . se turns her head to other side and /then turn back towards  me ts

" you wanna eat food ?? ' she asked , this is the thing i loved most about her , that she knows when to stop the conversation " you bring food ??" i asked , then she pulls out a huge tiffin box from her big bag and open it showing varieties of different dishes , this woman is something else

" just dig in " she said as she gave me spoon . i happily took a bite , and the taste took me another ride of emotions , and the tastes made me feel nostalgic  " your cooking improved " i said " i didn't cooked it Bella did "  she said , i stopped eating for a moment , then looked at her , " you and Bella really came too close in just few days " i asked , it is weird to see them so close in just few days

" well she is also my neighbor and always help me , so that's why , and she is really nice " she said " and what am I ??" I asked , and there goes  her signature big eyes red cheeks look

" you are also really nice " she said " how nice ?" I asked " as much as water in that sea " she said and i laughed " enough lying " I said and stand up  and burst my dust off  Stella followed my move but couldn't stand properly and was going to fell , but I catch her in time

her small frame fits perfectly into my arms , I don't know why , but whenever  her skin touches mine , i feel a shiver ran down inn my entire body ,  and i couldn't think straight . Stella is becoming that drug to me , which is more dangerous than the one life was giving me .

i stared deep into her eyes and i can't see anything except my face , then my eyes shift to her lips , she was shivering under my touch and i just couldn't stop myself and leaned into her to capture her lips , she is response closes her eyes .

i placed my lips on her , and she places her hands on my neck , i just slowly move my lips and she follows my beat , i was slowly exploring her mouth, her soft petal like lips was molding in mine , i hold her face in my hands and deepen the kiss , in that response she close her eyes and grab my neck ,my hand  travels from her face to her waist and i pull her closer , i wanted to pull her so close that her body and mine become one .

the kiss took me to the ride of fairytale , and her  presence makes me feel home  ,  she eels like home

this makes me question my feelings, am i falling in love with this girl ?? how can i fall for someone?? that too this girl ?

she broke the kiss first and place her hands on her lips , looking down , damn her small gestures make me wanna lose self control

" we again did that in therapy sessions ?' i said , i know she wants to keep it professional  for a time being , but i  don't want to

" its okay , we are in outdoor therapy session " she said " should we go home now ?" i asked and she nodded her head with a beautiful and calm smile on her face

the sun was about to set , signifying that the day was about to end , and it will rise again next morning , with new day , new beginning and new changes

and first time in my life i was looking forward to it .

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the day end with satisfaction , it went out exactly as I planed , expect for the kiss part , its not like I didn't enjoyed it , I enjoyed it way too much , and that was scaring me the most .

what if I fell for him?? or I already fell ??

this scared me to my core  , that what if Alwar don't returns my feelings ?? but he shows too much care and affection to me , and he even kiss me , why he will not returns my feelings

my mind was covered in all these thoughts , while i was working in kitchen , Alwar went to is room to sleep , and came in kitchen to do leftover work . I am really thankful for Bella to help me with all these things , she is really nice and kind, and helps me all the time

i am happy that Alwar will fill for her position so she can go meet  her mother .

This reminds me of Alwar's mother , i need to find her for him , this is the only way to fill the void feeling in his heart

he will be at peace once he will know her reasons and when he will get all his answers maybe then he can trust people around him

he said , she worked in Apex global , which is an IT company .

I took out my phone , while I fill the water in a glass for myself . I searched Apex global , on google , and the results come , that company was almost 50 km from here . which is 1.5 hours drive

i guess i can visit this place to know further about his mother , i drink water as i made my way towards my room , when i reached Alwar's room , i heard weird noise , from inside . something close too crying '

is Alwar crying ?

i slowly open the gate , as i saw , sleeping Alwar , covered in sweat in blanket , was crying in his sleep . he is having nightmares

seeing him like this hurts my heart , i slowly go near him , and placed ,y hand on his face , i can't wake him up directly ,because you shouldn't wake someone from nightmares , it can damage brain cells .

" Alwar , " I slowly called his name , as I runs my hand in his hairs  " wakeup , I am here " I said in a really calm voce , he slowly opened his eyes , " are you okay " i said and he nod his head , his eyes was filled in tears , as he slowly sat down on his bed , resting his back on the rest board

" let me take water for you " I stand up but he holds my hand preventing me from going " don.t go " he said " stay here "  he added

staying in this room might be not okay for him , because this is small and he just had nightmare here

" lets go in my room " i said , he didn't argued on that and stand up , he was wearing hoodie and his hairs was messy , his skin was glowing from the sweat , while his face was showing how tired he was

i hold his hands and guide him to my room

once we went there , i sat him down on the bed

"do you want anything ?" i asked he just said no, you know , i got shell for you , from sea " i said , and his eyes changed its shine

" you really find one for me ??" he asked ,  like a kid

" yes i did ," i said " but how you know , i love shells " he asked " i just know " i smiled , actually Bella told me that boys like Alwar love shells , i was trying to find one , when Alwar was just far away

" show me " he asked , I took out the small shell i found it for him , and bring it to him , and sat beside him

he  took it from me , and watched it closely , a smile spread on his face as he pulls me into a hug

this damn man play with heart beats so much

" you are best " he said and i laughed " how you became so easily to pleased "  i asked , but he was busy admiring the shell

" you should sleep now , you have work  tomorrow " i said an he made face " sleep with me " he said,  and my mind stopped working for a while ,, did he really just said that ?

" really ?" i asked " yes , please , i don't want to sleep alone "  he said

" okay " i said as i quickly jump on the bed and adjusted myself beside him , who, gonna miss this chance

" don't put leg on me " i said as i pull the blanket on top of me ,and lay beside him  he was shocked at how easily i agreed , " you are weird " he said as he sleep beside me , and pull me in hug and put his leg on me , literally treating me like a pillow and climbing on me

" i said don't put leg on me " i whined " shut up " he just said and the whole night went like this

Alwar was turning my boring life into the life i want it to be like , but it is scaring me also , i am scared of my growing feeling for him

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the speed of my scooty was never so high before , but it was necessary , because i have to go to Alwar's mother office before Alwar get free from mart

today is Sunday and Alwar is filling up for Bella as he promised , Novail also helping him at the mart and I got chance to visit  the office '

i didn't wanted to do this behind Alwar's back , but i had to , or else he will not let me , i have strong feeling that Alwar mom didn't left him , because she wanted to . i think there is something else going on also , but just in case i am wrong Alwar is right , i don't want him to know that , i will keep it to myself

I was standing near the tall building where Alwar's mom used to work , and was ready to go inside , I took  a deep breathe and went inside , the inside was completely empty maybe because of weekend .

the reception desk was mess , there was lady sitting there scrolling through her phone  ,

" excuse me " i said , she raised her eyes and was staring at my face " hello" i said , and broke into very kind smile , she was looking in her mid 30s and was looking really sweet .

" yes , how can i help you " she said " well actually i  came here, to get little information about your previous employee " i said " okay can you please tell me the name " she said as she started going through her computer

wait , i don't know Alwar's mother 's name , what do i do now , whom should i ask ?

" can you please give me a minute ??" i said as i take out my phone , the only person i can ask this to is Novail

i dialed his number and he picked in first go " hey Novail , i have to ask something , " i said , without wasting time " ofcourse ask " he said ," is Alwar near you ? " i asked " nope , that motherfucker left me in corner to talk to a girl " he said " wait , what girl ?? "i asked , how can he talk to a girl other than me

" he is talking to some chick , who came at mart , they are flirting with him " he said , i really wanted to go there and hit Alwar , but i have important thing to do " can you please tell me Alwar's mother's name " i asked , the lined went silent , for a moment  then he said

" Katherine De Leon "

" thanks alot " i said , " Stella " he said " if you trying to find his mom , don't do it " , i blink my eyes in confusion . i will talk about it with him later , with that thought i ended the call and turns towards the lady

" her name is Katherine De leon" i said . they lady stopped typing and looks towards me ," who are you? " she asked  " well i am DR Stella " i showed her my i'd , "and i wan to know about her for the case study of one of my client " i said " she don't work here anymore , her Ex husband , almost killed our boss to force him to fire her " she said " you mean Martino Le deon , did that ?"  i asked in shocked , how cam he do that to his own wife " yes he did that , " she said , in sad tone " Katherine was pregnant at that time " she said , and my mind stopped working  " in which year can you please tell me ??" i asked " umm ,, it not showing when she joined , but data is saying she left work in 2011 " she said , when Alwar's mom left me it he was 11 , means around 2008 , so that means Alwar has one more sibling ? " are you sure , she was pregnant at that time ? " i asked , " yes i am sure , her tummy can be seen from far " she said " and MR Deon knew it ?? " i asked " of course why he wouldn't " she said

this is more complicated then I thought

" do you know where is she now " I asked she just said no " do you know anyone who was close to her " I asked   " well yeah , there is a woman , who used to work here , she was her bestfriend " she said " can you please , give me her contact number ??" i asked , " wait " she said as she started typing something on computer , and then printed the profile , before i could take the paper from her , my phone rang , i saw the call , it was from from , i quickly picked it up

" hello " i said " Stella , there is new patient for you " DR robert said " but i am working with Alwar  i can't take any other patient " i said " you saying this from a while now , only 12 more days are left for you to get over from MR. Alwar's case , its time to take new cases " he said , he was right , but i don't want to divert my attention from him " okay send me the details of the patient " i said as i cut the call

i took the paper from her hand , to see who was her bestfriend , and at the same time , my phone's notification beep

i opened the text and my soul left my body , and when i saw the paper , i feel like i will faint . it was getting hard to  breathe , because there was too many information at once .

i sit with a thud on the chair near reception , as both phone and paper fell from hand .

my new patient is none other than Leon De Luca , who  was the last person i ever wanted to see on this earth , he said he will leave me alone , but some people never change

and the person on the paper , who was Alwar's mother was , no one other than My Mother

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end up with plot twist ?? i have to write atleast 3 chapters a day , if i want to end this story on time

wish me luck