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I woke up with a heart ache , the first thing that came to my mind was Alwar .

If everything were normal , we would have woken up together .

"Stella ,what do you eat for your breakfast " my mother's voice came as I got up , I didn't had energy to even move out of bed .

But I have to meet Alwar, and I have to find his mother for him . I can't give up on him and I will never give up on us .

I didn't did anything wrong and he will understand me.

" Stella " my mother said " I am going out " I said as I quickly got out of bed , and pick my bag and rush out of house in the same dress

I can hear my mother calling my name but I didn't turned back, I have to go out . I want peace of mind before I decide what to do next .

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I can't believe my eyes. Is this the same orphanage I used to live ??

The whole structure is changed now , I wanted to go inside but I couldn't, this place also holds a lot of memory with Alwar ,

Alwar and I had our very first moments here , I don't even have courage to go inside , the whole place is changed now , I wonder who helped the orphanage in this , but whoever it was must be a great human

I took a deep breathe and stare at the building , wondering how I even prof that i am innocent ?? but why do I have to prof my innocence , He said he love me , how can he not trust me ?? How he can't even hear what I have to say .

is there any point in this love , if he can't even hear my side and direct break everything with me , was all those memories was nothing for him ?? all those moments were nothing to him ??  my sacrifices and efforts were nothing to him ?

I broke out of my thoughts when someone called my name " Stella ?"

I turned around , and my eyes meet with very familiar ones , whom oi was seeing after long

"  Jacob , is this you " i ran towards my childhood best friend , with open arms , there was a huge grin on his face as he embrace me in a bone crushing hug and lift me above the ground

" I missed you so much , my little sister " he said , we are not blood related but our bond is deeper then that , when Leon ruined my life and i had to live in orphanage , he was there with me

"he put me on the ground as I noticed , he changed alot

" wow you actually became police officer " i said , he always wanted to become an officer , now he has became one " I am soo happy for you " I said , he smiled and said " You also , wanted to help others and you exactly doing that " he said , i sadly smiled at it .

" anyways , what you doing here ??" i asked " oh , I am here because , the new incharge of the orphanage ask me to send a especial personal thankyou to the person who donated soo much money to the orphanage and renovated whole building " he said ," oh my god , really , people like them still exists ??" i asked in awe " yes they do " he said , and started walking towards his car " His name is Alwar Le Deón , I heard you giving him therapy " he said. And my breathe stuck in my throat hearing his name "y-you mean to say that Alwar donated all these ??" I asked, did Alwar actually became such a good human ?

" Yes he did that, I am going to meet him today, to give him our thanks in person " he said,  " can I go with you ??" I asked , I can't let this chance to slide , I want to see him

" Ofcourse you can , but I am actually going to his friend's club , he called me there " he said, why everything happens in Novail's club ??

" no , problem I will come with you " I said , and quickly run towards his police car before him .

" Come fast we don't have time "  shout ,as he watch me in confusion

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There is a knot in my stomach, I feel like throwing up as soon as the of Novail's club came to my view , it's kinda hard not to get scared of Alwar, his anger doesn't scared me , but his hateful gaze do. I don't to give up right now because I will regret my whole life ,if I didn't took a step forward and try to fix us.

" I don't understand why you wanted to come here "  Jacob asked " long story short , I love Alwar and things get messed up between us , so I want to fix everything" I said as I removed my seat belt and jump out of the car .

Jacob soon follow me , and his was looking shocked " are you serious" he said " why I wouldn't??" I replied

I don't know what I will say to him , but i need to face him. At any cost

We both went inside , the club was jam packed in the broad day light also ,  Novail's club become restaurant in day.

My eyes fell on the empty table as I hold Jacob's hand and go and  sit there .

"What are you trying to do " he asked, I don't even know myself what I want to do .

I scan the whole club , in the midst of crowd I wanted to see only one person , and my eyes finally found him .

There he was Alwar Le Deón , with his own aura , his eyes found me before mine.  He was already watching me intensely . He was with Miley , but Miley wasn't watching him , neither me.  She was watching .

"Jacob why miley is watching you like that?" I asked , as Jacob and miley's eyes was not leaving each other

"Long story short, I fell in love with her last night " he said.  And I broke into laughter , I was laughing so hard that I gained attention from people around me .

I can feel Alwar boring eyes in my head , I know he must be clenching his fist right now , I know he must be thinking, how I can laugh and happy after all this  .

I wanted to cry, but I can't show him , that I am weak , I know I should ask forgiveness , but I also know things won't go this smoothly with Alwar .

I want to first see that , do he even care now ?? Or everything was useless and meaningless with him .

"Jacob would you mind , if I hold your hands ??" I asked Him " no I wouldn't" he said , I slowly hold his hand in mine , i wanted to see Alwar's reaction.  But I don't turned my head towards him .

" Can you please check ,Alwar reaction for me??" I asked jacob "umm , he is looking like he will kill you and me both " he said.  And I laughed again , obviously fake laugh , I playfully hit Jacob on the chest .

As I heard glass breaking sound

"Your lover boy just threw the glass on the wall " he said , and I laugh again .

I slightly turn my head towards Alwar , and our eyes meet .

He watched me as he grabbed Miley's head and pulled her for kiss , my blood boiled and my heart dropped in my stomach .

He took this very far , but he also saw me kissing León , he also must be feeling like this ???

I wanted to cry. But I still laughed for the next four five minutes

When I couldn't control anymore.  I excused myself

"I am going restroom " I said as I picked my purse and rushed towards the restroom

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I splashed water on my face , as I watch my dull eyes in the mirror , my eyes was dead , and they were baggy , my pale skin is paler then before and my hairs was messy

I am a mess

Now what do I do ??? I asked myself as I tried to laugh but couldn't and broke into tears .

I sob silently as I put my hands on the wall and lean myself towards it , I punch myself in the heart to ease the pain , but It wasn't helping

Why does it hurts so much???

He kissed her in front of me .

Remembering that, I sob more.  I placed my hands on my mouth so I don't make noise .

After a while , when I was done crying I washed my face again. And took a deep breathe

Everything will be fine

I repeat this to myself , when the door of the washroom burst open , revealing a very angry Alwar .

My heart beat raised but I was trying hard to look normal .

I was trying to act like I didn't saw him, but he has different plan , he pounds towards me as he grabbed me by my hairs and pushed me on the wall,

He didn't said a word, but he grabbed my waist and raise my skirt higher, revealing my panties to him, he growled as he placed his hand on my pussy and started creasing it .

I moan slightly as I threw my head back , he pushed my panties aside and made skin to skin contact with my vagina , he without any warning and play insert his fingers in my pussy

A loud moan left my mouth as he placed his other hand on my mouth as brutally started pushing his fingers in and out .

The whole room was filled with his groans and my subtle moans  .

He pulled himself away as he grabbed my hands, and dragged me with him, my legs was feeling wobbly but he was showing mercy and keep dragging.

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He dragged me towards his room in Club , and he threw me on the bed , this whole scenario was giving me flashbacks of the past.

" What you doing, please don't " my voice was shivering , I don't want Alwar to scare me, I don't want to relate him anywhere to León .

I tried to get off the bed , but he didn't let me he grabbed me by my waist and threw me again on the bed

He gripped my throat and pushed me deeper in the bed as he climb on the top of me , I was pushing his chest hard but he was not bulging from his spot,

"Just because I left you, you think you got license to whore around" he said in my ears with deadly low voice , he bite my ear lobe as I moan in pain .

"You are mine Stella ,no matter how far I push you , you will forever going to be mine "  he said , as he tore my dress apart and bury his face in my neck ,leaving butterfly kisses all around, he bite the flesh on my neck and I again moan in pain, I should feel disgusted but why I am feeling turned on?

, "no stop " I said from my mouth but my inside was screaming for him , saying him don't stop ,

Because no matter how much he hurted me, my heart still belongs to him

" You didn't asked Your husband to stop " he said and this made me feel disgusted " you should have beg my forgiveness Stella.   And you dared to show up my door with another man??" He said as he raised himself and watch deep in my eyes .

" I am sorry, but I will never ask for forgiveness for what I never did " I said , his grip losen from my neck and I got chance to push him off me .

I quickly got up away from his grip " you said you love me, but you threw me away just because someone said something to you and believed them and didn't even asked my side ???" I said , tears starts to fill my eyes .

" I saw your picture kissing that piece OF SHIT " he raised his voice " he forced kissed me , he forced himself on me , THEY PLANNED ALL THESE THINGS "  this time I raised my voice

He grabbed my hairs and bring my face closer to him. " You were married to him , and you didn't even told me " he said , in deadly low voice

" That was my past Alwar, if not today but tomorrow, I would have told you everything. But you didn't trusted me and threw me out of your life , just like that ??? Like I was nothing to you??" I said , he didn't replied me back , he didn't said anything he just pulled himself away. And run his hands in his hairs .

He adjusted himself and left the room, and me , all alone by myself

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As soon as he saw Stella , he left me, why this Stella is always around the men I am interested in ??

First Alwar now Jacob .

I was sitting at the bar and this Jacob is also here from a while.  Staring at me uselessly

" Why you staring at me like that " I asked in annoyance " you are so pretty , I can't take my eyes off you " he said directly , I blink my eyes several as heat rush to my face . No one ever said that to me

" You are police officer , don't you feel shame doing all these ???" I asked and he just grin and said  " no "

" Double face , you was just flirting with Stella " I said and he looked confused " Stella ?? She is like my little sister , we both grew up in same orphanage " he said, and suddenly I felt guilty to accusing him

" But you sure was kissing Mr Alwar ??" He said as I turned my head away  " Do you know Stella love him ??" He said  , " I know , he also love her alot " i said , I already gave up on him , so it doesn't even matter anymore

" Stella already went Through alot , you can't even imagine the amount of things she went through " he said , and Stella's face came to my mind.  I had idea of her past but I never knew it's something this huge .

" Please help her, if you can " he said

" Why should I ??" I replied " because you are my woman " he said and patt my head , something weird happened to my heart

I meet this guy yesterday only , why he is acting like this ???  And why I am enjoying It ???

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I don't remember how long I cried , but it's already dark outside now, I am still outside in a park , I don't want to go home right now , I know my mother must be waiting for me , but I am not ready to go home right now .

I sigh as I got up, and started walking

" You are so pathetic " I heard a voice, and turned around " not more than you " I replied to my soul enemy " Stella my Stella " león said as he walks towards me .

"You don't have anything else rather then following me all around?" I asked turning my face away from him

" I am just following my wife , you don't have to be this rude to me" he said " we are already divorced " I shout .

He Just laughed " Alwar left you. Only for a kiss , what will happen when he will know that what kind of deeds we did together???" He said , my hairs on my body stands remembering all those disgusting things.

" You are sick " I said as I started walking away , but his men blocked my way " enough of this game Stella , come back to Daddy " he said as he wrapped his hands around me from behind .

" Let me go " I said as I punched my elbow in his stomach he groaned in pain as he fell on the ground ,I  pushed his men away and starts running .

"WHY YOU ALL ARE WATCHING MY FACE , GO CATCH HER ". He shouts from behind but I didn't turned away. And keep running  .

What kind of shit life is this ??? Why the hell I can't live peacefully in my life ?

I ran away from there , I turned behind to see if they are still following me , but couldn't see anyone, but as soon as I turned forward a bright beam of light blind me as car's honk made me deaf .

I put my hands on my eyes before the car stopped in front of me.

" Quickly come inside  " a female's voice hit my ears, I adjusted my eyes to the light and my eyes fell on the owner of the car

" Miley ??? " I said in shock " yes me, now come in or León gonna kill me and take you " she said, I quickly ran towards the other side of car, opened the door and hop inside as fast as I could

" Why you helping me " I asked , she just rolled her eyes and ignored my question " put your seat belt on , " she said, I quickly pull the seat belt and tuck it.

" I am tried of seeing Alwar all grumpy and you walking around like a corpse " she said , was she was this considerable??

" Where are we going??? I asked , " I am taking you to your man " she said as she pulled the gear and speed up

"And we gonna end all this shit " she added

A smile spread on my face as I see this Queen in front of me .

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Miley parked her car in front of Alwar's mansion, I remember last time when I came here to drop him , he was so happy that day .

" Let's go " she holds my hands as she dragged me inside .

The house was really big , I wonder how Alwar managed to Live inside my small one ?

As I entered from the main gate of his house, I can see a huge staircase in front of me , Miley dragged me from staircase to Alwar's room .

She without even knocking opened his door , the room was bright but dark at same time , the beer bottles was all around the room and everything was scattered here and there .

My eyes fell on Alwar , who was sitting on the ground, his back was resting against his bed as he buried his face in his knees .

" Stop being so miserable and hear me out " Miley said , Alwar raised his head as his eyes fell on me , he watched me in disbelief .

"Stella ??" He said  " yes Stella, I bring her here and I am here to tell you the truth " Miley said

" That day, Leon kidnapped Stella and bring her to his house. He on purpose forcefully kissed her , you father clicked photos on that exact moment , they both planned this out " she said , Alwar didn't reacted he was shocked to his core I can see it right away .

" Are you saying truth'???" He asked , Miley didn't replied to him, she just bring her phone out and dialed someone's number and put the phone on speaker

" Hello " she said " Yes miley " Alwar's father voice came from other side " YOU SAID AFTER WE WILL FRAME STELLA, ALWAR WILL BE MINE, BUT HE IS STILL DAY DREAMING ABOUT STELLA ". She faked trying to sound angry

" Don't worry, I will plan something big with León , you don't worry he has to marry you and only you " he said from other eyes. Alwar's eyes became watery  , so as mine, tears blurred my vision as it became hard to breathe and even stand

" You see ?? Now you believe me ??? It was all plan to separate you both, I can't see you like this because you are my childhood friend, and I genuinely care about you " she said as she looks down "!now you both handle from here " she said as she left , closing the door behind her

After she went ,

Alwar slowly stands up and dragged himself towards me , he was away too drunk because he couldn't even walk straight .

He didn't said anything just just fell on. His knees in front of me , he kneed down in front of my , lowering his head .

Drops of tears was falling down wetting his pants.

" I am sorry" he said as he started sobbing " I am sorry Stella , I am kneeing in front of you. Please forgive me " he said , I quickly go down and wrapped my hands around him ,

And we both started sobbing , wondering why people don't want us to be together??

Did I forgive him this easily???

Yes

Why??

I dont even know myself

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i am shit scared , only two days left , till 6 nov and my story is nowhere near complete