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"what's your plan for today" Petal asked me , pushing her specks toward her eyes

"Nothing much " I casually said flipping the papers , we are in my cabin , reading case study of other patients

"But You have a session with Mr Le Deón today " she said , I stopped and think about that man . " I have an outdoor session with him today " I said as I check the time in my wrist watch 8:45 I have session with him 9:30 .

"You already having outdoor sessions with him  aren't we supposed to wait and then after sometime go for outdoor sessions?" she asked, she is right but her knowledge is limited. To make her understand better I raised my hand and spread my palm separating each fingers from others

"You seeing these finger??" I asked , she nodded curiously " they all are different in size , different In structure , different in appreance , even they different names , thumb , forefinger , middle finger, ring finer , and pinky finger" I said holding each finger at a time

"Just like this , every human is different, everyone of them needs different kind of therapy , you need to make your session's plan according to that " I said as made a 'O' mouth

"This is psychology of individual differences " I said , " oh yes , I had this subject in my semester" she said , happily

"So what you gonna do with him today " she asked " I am gonna make him realize" I said , his beautiful automatically came in my mind , but he was dangerous I need to handle him with all my brain

"What?" She asked " a human do mistakes when he is not aware of the consequence of his mistakes " I said as I stand up and took my keys " and I am gonna make him realise the consequence of the things he do " I said as I flipped my hairs showing my shoulder , I again wore a off shoulder top , I mostly wear them because they are comfortable and pretty .

"But how it gonna change him please give examples"she said and I gave her a frustrated sigh , once I told her psychology is nothing without example, since that time she ask me example of everything .

"Like ,if you wake up late at night and then no one let's you sleep at morning , you will realise the consequence of your action , you will feel guilty and from the next time you will wake up late at night , you will remember the consequence of it " I said and she started clapping "waoh , you are geniuse she said  giving me standing ovation .

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I was standing outside our next destination of outdoor session . I parked my scooty in parking lot and came here waiting for Alwar, a part of me was really excited to see his beautiful face .

His beautiful car parked right in front of me and he came out of it wearing his signature sunglasses , which was hanging loose on his nose showing little bit of his eyes , he was wearing extremely loose shirt which was open from his chest to stomach and one end of shirt  was tug inside his jeans .

He was walking like model , seeing his tall figure gives me butterflies in my stomach .

"Hii" I said , " you wanted a session here ???" He said noticing the high building " yes " I said

"But why hospital??" He asked " today we going to learn a very important lesson" I said with a pride smile , he looked at me and roll his eyes " how you manage to stay that energetic first thing in the morning?" He said as he started walking inside , I also ran behind him but I. Couldn't match his long strides , he noticed it and hold my hand to match his pace , the connection of his hand with mine sent shiver to my whole body , how I am supposed to focus on my work like this ?

" You are a slow walker " he said, I stopped , and he automatically stopped with me than I slowly stepped ahead of him and grip his. Hand little tight . " You going to follow me mister" I said as I started walking , he without any protest followed me .

We came to stop in front of general ward , there were almost 7-8 patients lying there

"Why you took me here " he asked , getting disturbed in place like this " you seeing him???"I said pointing towards a man who was laying on a general bed , his wife was feeding him because his hand was plastered , his little girl was playing around him , the man's head was covered in bandage ,and there were a lot of injuries on his face .

"He is the guard you beaten The first time you came to my clinic" I said , his body stiffened " you see him? He has a family, he is not even rich enough to afford a private room ,that's why he is here in general ward" I said " because of your little anger , you wasted his three months salary , he couldn't sent  his daughter to trip because he had to pay for medical facilities" I said , his eyes was fixed on the man

" You took me here to show me ,how bad of a person I am ?" He said in a low deadly voice " Oh god No , I took you here to show you consequences of your actions" I said facing him

He removed his hand from mine and walked out of the ward

"Alwar , Alwar listen to me "I said and I ran behind him

I saw his back in the the crowd and I continue walk behind him ,he gets out of hospital

I pick a pace and grab his hand , he jerked his hand off with such a intensity which made me fall

I fall with a thud and a loud cry came out of my mouth.

He stopped dead in a track slowly turning around , he watch me as I was on the ground rubbing my injury . There wasn't any cut but it was still hurting

"Stella " he said in a low voice , as his big hand curled around my body and he picked me up

"I hurted you " he said with a disbelief " it's okay , i am not hurt " I said "Alwar , please listen to me " I said and he nodded

" When you hurt someone and take out your anger for useless reason , it won't effect you , but it can effect the other person. "I said , his hands was still curled around my body as his eyes was hung low .

" Like with the guard , you take out your anger for three minutes and his next three months life got affected " I said, he was looking guilty but didn't said a word .

"You wait here " he said and ran into the building again , I thought to follow him but he said to wait here

After like half hour he came out with satisfactory grin .a smile automatically came to my lips ,seeing him happy actually makes me happy

"What did you do?" I asked as he pull me in a side hug and start walking " I paid his whole bill, ask for forgiveness and even paid for the girl's trip " he said with a proud smile , my heart swelled up at his. Gesture .

He is slowly changing , it's only two session but he is already developing .

He came near his car and suddenly he stopped ,

"What the fuck" he shout hugging his car " my tire got punctured " he said and I started laughing, imagine a big guy hugging his car like a baby

"" You uncultured swine how can you laugh , " he shout at me as I fake tried to control my laugh

"How will I go home "he said with a pouty face "don't worry I will drop you " I said showing him my key

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"I SWEAR TO GOD STELLA , IF I FUCKING FELL FROM THIS MOTHERFUCKING TWO TIRE THING , I SWEAR I WILL CUT YOU IN HALF" he shout in my ear, as his both hand was gripping my stomach like his life depends on it , his long legs was hard to fit in my Scotty but its okay, my pink helmet was looking super cute on his , as he was sacred as shit sitting behind me

"Calm down , nothing will happen"I said racing the accelerator as he shout more

" Oh god Alwar relax , and feel the air around you, close your eyes and feel the air around you" I said he slowly rest his cheeks on my back and grip my stomach more closely, remember the butterflies from earlier? They became dinosaur now .

He wasn't making any sound , he was calm behind me as I was giving him ride of the whole city, it was peaceful , really peaceful

He gives me happy feeling , his everything makes me want to protect him and I will protect him , the injuries on his body from earlier,I didn't forgot about that , I remember it and I will find a way to know what exactly is going on with him .

Our little journey came to stop once we reached his massive house , this makes me realize how different our lives are , Alwar was quite whole ride , he just speak when I needed to know the direction

He force himself to step down from Scotty handing me my helmet

" I wanted to ride more " he said with a pouty face , I smile at him

"Untill next time Le Deón"

"When I will see you next ?" He asked and I was shocked ," soon " I smiled " make it really soon okay?" He said touching my cheeks and I nodded " it will talk therapy so , we will do it in clinic" I said and he nodded ..

"Bye " he said touching my fingers " bye I said but didn't removed my hand " you should really go , or I won't be able to let you go " he said , it was looking double meaning ,but it gave me a weird feeling ,Things with him is little different, he attracts me towards him like no others .but he is my patient and this is wrong

I slowly start my Scotty and rush out, knowing if I stay another minute , I might also wants to stay with him.

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She went her way, and my heart ache in a different way , when I spend my time with her , my life feels different, I don't feel a heavy burden on my heart .she sure is doing something to me , because I can feel ,alot of things are getting taped from inside

"Why you are here so late ?" Miley's voice hit my ear , There we go again , my old self came back " you don't have home of something?" I asked "this is my future home " she said hugging me from behind

I pushed her aside , I don't want Stella's perfume to mixed with her ugly one

"Why you always push me " she whin " because you are a bitch " I said " you again messing with her ?? My father's voice came again , as soon as I enter my house they both made my life hell ,

" If you keep bringing this bitch up here , I will move out of this house " I said " oh well, I expect this from you , because you are son of a slut , she ran, you ran , not surprising"he said. And it was my trigger point, now all I was seeing was red , I picked the vase from my side a threw it at my father with a animalistic scream .

" YOU FUCKER ," I shout and that's breaking everything around me , Miley scream filled my ear as she was helping my bleeding father , I am again doing this , I am again doing what Stella told me not to do , but what can I do ??? Whatever she fix in day they ruin it at night .

I broke everything around me , scream and  cursing , my father was scared as shit because it's been a while since my this side came out , last time I went crazy was the time my father broke his two bones

After an hour I destroyed the whole place , blood was everywhere , my blood was everywhere . My father and Miley was nowhere to be seen .

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I quickly go out of the house and went to the club ..I need to get high ..

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I entered the club , and start breaking everything around there too , whoever come in my way was getting beaten ....the loud scream filled the whole club as all I was seeing was red , I was not able to control myself. I pick up a bottle from bar and drank whole bottle ..one after another the shit goes on for whole night

I was drunk as shit ,as Novail came near me ,

"Hey man " he said , the club was deadly silent, all the people left the club , if the club didn't belong to Novail I am sure I would be in jail ..

"Novail" I said as I hugged him crying , he patted my back to make me stop but I cannot , they abused my mother , the woman who gave birth to me , but why I keep fighting for her ?? She also left me , no one stays with me

"Calm down " Novail said, but his hug was not giving me peace , my inside was burning , I need her , I need Stella

"Novail, please bring Stella "I said begging him , he looked confused " NOVAIL BRING HER OR I WONT BE ABLE TO SURVIVE" I shout

"Okay I am calling her give me her number"he said and I handle him my phone, I dialed her number, Dr Psycho flash across the screen as she picked my phone In one ring

"Alwar?" Her voice hits my ear,as my whole body went cold ," are you okay?" She asked , and again again remind me of today I starts sobbing on the call, I was embarrassed but I couldn't help it " oh my god Alwar , what happened"she said , I can hear her ruffling through out of me bed

"Come here , I need you" I was only able to say this as novail took my phone and gave Stella address

How can I depend this much on someone in just few days ?? She was like drug to me,making me her addict day by day

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The clock hit 1 am in the mid night as Stella footsteps hit my ears. ,her feet connect with the glass around and the sound echo in the whole empty club ....

I was laying there. Between the mess I made , drunk as fuck

"Alwar" her small voice hit my ear " Stella" I said as I stand up , she quickly came and hug me , her arms curled around my body as I fell on the floor , she try to keep me at place but came on her knees with me

"I swear I was controlling myself , I thought about the conclusion but I still did all this " I said looking at her concerned face she placed her hand on my cheeks and said "it's okay Alwar, it's okay "

" I won't to be able to get treat ever right?" I asked , pain flash across her face

" You will be alright , soon ...just promise me you won't give up " she asked " I promise"I said as she hugged me , all the burning flames came to stop like someone threw water on them ,

Her hug feels like water in desert to a thirsty person ,her hug was like a shadow under a sunny summer , her hug was like a cold wind in burning weather ,

She broke the hug and She looked in my eyes , and I looked at her they she needed to be looked like , Like whatever she going to say next ,is going to be right

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He was asleep , on the couch of the club , as I was staring at him , I thought he is changing but he is still the same Alwar , except the thing that he feels guilty now , and he trust me enough to tell me all these

"He won't be healed , untill he will stay there " his friend Novail said " what do you mean ?" I asked

"If he keep stays with his father , he will never going to be treated " he said siting next to me , giving me coffee

" His father do this to him?"I asked , I knew it he is somehow behind all his injuries , Novail nods his head and I knew what exactly next I need to do

I can't let my Alwar stay with that piece of shit , but wait my Alwar?

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My throat feels dry, i gathered up courage later but now standing Infront of Mr Le Deón office,I can feel .my courage fly away .last night after making Alwar sleep ,I stayed for the night then in morning directly came here , leaving sleeping Alwar behind . still in night suit

I need to do this, for Alwar

I knock the door as. His come in voice came, I slowly open the door finding a huge office behind it, the Wall of the office was plain white with all of showcase build on it ...

In the middle of office There was a huge white marble desk , behind desk there was Mr Le Deón ,wrap in bandage .

"As you can see ,Ms Stella , your are not working, your patient did this to me"he said showing his head , i disgust at this man knowing he was the one who did that to Alwar

And maybe he is the one behind Alwar's messed up personality.

"I know , that's why I am taking this therapy to new level " I said , playing with my finger to ignore my nervousness , he raised his eyebrow " I mean , I will keep him in 24 hours surveillance" I said " I mean it will be therapy in which he needs to be with around me whole day" I spat out , knowing what a terrible liar I am , he probably won't going to believe me

"What are you trying to say Stella " he said in a cold voice " I am saying Alwar should stay in the hospital" I said , ofcourse a lia , I can't leave him in hospital all alone ,I will take him with me " is this will help him?" He asked and I nodded my head

"Then do whatever you can do, I want his signed documents before 30 days are over " he said , wait I still have 22 days left with me , means 22 days with Alwar in my house , alone , goddamns

A huge grin broke on my face

"Why you smiling like that" he asked "oh nothing I will just take my leave , and help Alwar pack his stuff so he move out soon "

I quickly exit and start dancing in the middle of floor , everyone was seeing me like they saw some ghost , I quickly became normal and I squealing in happiness

Now Alwar won't be tortured, he will live peacefully. With , me

My heart start beating faster as I thought about Alwar and me under same roof , oh my god it's going to be awesome

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