chapter 16

Rosa's cafe.

Linah...

Busy as always, happy faces all around me. Some walking in alone others walking in as couples, giggling and holding hands each having something to whisper to their partners, each knowing what his or her company was in craving for. Oh how sweet, the feeling of knowing that someone would hold you, have your back know you likes what your favorite food was what your favorite color is and so much more.

I was jealous totally envious of the different women who walked into the cafe and experienced this. For those who walked alone they seemed confident, they did not need a man beside them but the could surely make head turns and not men only but women too.

I know what they say comparison is equal to death but here I was. I just could not help it. I could notice a nice toned body, beautifully done hair, well applied make up,a gorgeous smile from others and well there were those ladies who walked like models, how could I not help it. Maybe I should have switched from saying comparison to say inspiration. Maybe that would not make it sound so bad or pitiful.

But what the hell, every other woman looked like his type just not me maybe that's why it had been two weeks since our last interaction. I had run out of excuses for him and now I was boiling in furry. I am not his ideal woman am just a girl a cheap girl who lost her virginity to him and from one experience I thought he would think and see me as I see him.

What did I think that he would be hooked on me constantly on my phone texting and calling, that he would be obsessed with me or be possessive..."

I scoffed at myself , "how naive!..."

This is not the same as the teenage love we kids experience, he was a man ten years older than me. What wishful thoughts ,... Scratch that wishful dreams I had.

Shaking my head at how stupid I was I decided to carry on with the orders and try to get my head from things.

"As if I could" I said to myself.

"Am sorry..." A customer's voice interrupted.

"Sorry i was just thinking out loud, here is your order..."

Just my luck, this was the same woman who James was at the town square that night, pretty sophisticated lady a total opposite of vanilla self.

I handed her the two cups of coffee.

Who did the other cup belong to?

Did she recognize me? Coz I definitely remember her.

She nodded with a polite thank and turned around headed for the empty tables by the window.

I didn't have to ask who the other cup belong to or wish it was for some other guy other than... Right then he walked in.

His 6.4 height towering boldly as he walked in calculated strides towards where she sat.

She stood, with a beautiful smile now playing on her beautiful face. Everything about her was beautiful till it hurt. He also had a grin that could easily bring every woman to their knees, he was sexy and he knew it. His arms stretched wide he went in for a hug.

It all felt like it was playing like a movie in slow motion, although there encounter did not take that long to me it felt like eternity.

My body stood still, then my hands began shaking, I felt like my heart had been pierced and an ache too painful was starting to spread through my chest. It was hard to breath, my eyes watered and I did not want to watch them but it was like I was stuck there.

So i watched.

Time seemed to have slowed down and a whole lot of diminishing thoughts ran through my head.

I felt disgusted with myself.

Going back to serving but all I felt was numb... I wished I was anywhere else but here.

James...

Mallory had insisted we have a cup of coffee before she left town for one month. She had made a new contract overseas and she was excited to be leaving although I knew she would miss me. As a favor I agreed , apart from our usual fucks we were good friends she was a part time teacher. Her looks and her personality drew me in the first time we met at a teacher's conference some years back. Many were stunned by her beauty and it was hard to believe that she was a teacher. What made us really click is when I realized we enjoyed the same dark fetishes when it came to bedroom business I gathered this during our talks.

Talk about women with balls, she was not ashamed when I brought the question up and thats how we started.

And here we were.

"I will use the washroom,"Mallory said standing up. I chose to go clear the bill before we left for the airport.

"Here's my card, you can..." There she was, looking numb and in pain. "Linah"... She could not even look at me but it was evident that all this was because of me.

I knew that I needed to stay away and I ghosted her but seeing her like this. It felt so wrong and it did hurt me that this is what I had done to her.

She quickly took my card swapped and cleared the bill before handing it back with a receipt.

Our hands did brush but she was quick to pull away as if I burned her.

"Is everything okay? " Mallory asked .

"Yes" I replied quickly.

"Then let's go before I miss my flight." Mallory said as she pulled me away.

My eyes were still on her. I have to come back.

Linah.

And then he left.