First day back.

August's POV~

This weekend consisted of ice-cream, phone calls with Tommy, and a lot of Netflix.

I can't believe this. I mean it was hot and I definitely wanted it to happen again. But he could of just been horny or caught in the moment. He's the straightest guy in our school that had to have been a mistake. And the fact he had to touch me like that. For the first time in years I felt insecure. And I am not one to feel like this.

It got out of my shower and put Chanel Lotion on my freshly shaved skin. I than hopped in my Covers in my Pink panties. I had no one to show them to but I don't care. I put them on for myself. I needed to boost my confidence.

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I dreaded going to school on Monday but I forced my self to my first class. I walked through the hallway thinking about positive side. If everyone knew I could be myself. I could wear what I wanted to school. Maybe even get a boyf-

I got cut off by an arm pulling me into an empty room. I stumbled a bit than turned around to see Adrian. He looked stressed and he was rubbing his temples. As much of a bad bitch I am, he's a lot bigger than me. And no doubt stronger. If he wanted he could be me to a pulp. He looked at me seriously and held eye contact. He motioned towards a desk. He sat on one of the chairs and I sat on the table infront of him. He always has no reaction on his face. It's usually nothing or he's mad. But last night I saw a lot more. Right now though he looked mad. He stood up in front me. I stayed on the desk and brought my knees up to my chest. He put his hands on my ankles I yelped and he glared at me, telling me to be quiet. He situated himself between my legs and look at me in the eye.

" Let's make a deal" he started

I looked up at him and nodded

"I won't tell anyone about you're sexy shit show."

I relaxed.

Wait, Sexy?

"But you're gonna serve me on you're hands and feet".

I tensed again.

"You tell no one either, or I'll make you're life living hell"

I was terrified but his touch strangely calmed me. But as soon as he let go I was shaking. He noticed than touched me again

I stopped shaking

He let go

I starts shaking

He touched me and I stopped

He threw hid head back and chuckled the most beautiful sound.

I blushed and put my head down. I jumped off the desk and walked out of the room.

My next class I was looking at Adrian and he looked fine. No trace of anything happening. Me on the other hand looked stupid. I even tried to talk to him and he just walked past me or kept talking to his friends. I shrugged it off and decided what he said wasn't true.

I got in my car and my phone buzzed

Unknown- August

August- Who's this

Unknown- Adrian

August- How did you get my number

Adrian- I just did

August- oh okay

Adrian- save my number, you'll need it.

August- okay?

Than my phone started ringing. It was Adrian. I took a deep breath and picked up.

"Don't text me that way"

"Um how am I texting you Adrian?"

"Just don't "

Than he hung up. I shook my head and headed home. I went onto my fans only. What? A guy gotta get his bag. I never show my face of course. I put on nothing but thigh high socks and a crop top. I cupped my crotch so they dint see too much. As soon as I did I snapped a picture. That should get me money for a shopping spree this weekend.

I threw an over sized hoodie of some random guy I slept with that forgot it here. All the sex I got wasn't that good anyway.

I went to sleep in the oversized hoodie, panties, and thigh high socks. Around 2 in the morning I got woken up by my phone ringing. I picked up.

"Hello?" I said in a grumpy tired voice

"Send me you're address" Adrian snapped sounding pissed.

"Why-" he hung up on me.

I just sent it to him and as soon as I got in the bathroom and splashed my face and started brushing my hair I got a text. He was here already. And I dint even get to change.

Adrian- here

August- wait

Adrian- come outside.

August- I need to change.

Adrian- Now.

I groaned and quickly ran down the stairs. I saw what seemed to be his car and knocked on the window. He reached over and opened my door. I got in and he shut my door extremely strong that made my head ring. I was awake now and looked at Adrian. He looked extremely angry. I brought my knees to my face. Oh god what did I get myself into. He pulled up to what seemed to be his house and pulled me inside. There were no other cars so I'm guessing we where the only ones. He pulled me in gripping my wrist and it stung a bit. He walked in, heading to his room as he slamming all the doors. He shoved me on his bed and pulled down his pants.

"Suck"

I looked at him than his dick. I decided against arguing and went ahead. I sucked him off and he was groaning pulling my hair harshly. When I finished I wiped my mouth and he pulled up his pants and went in his bed and went on his phone.

"Uh Adrian".

"What".

I stood awkwardly.

"Can you drive me home?"

"No. walk"

"Adrian it's the middle of the night I'm going to get kidnapped."

"Don't care"

"Well I do. Do you know how much I would cost".

He didn't reply.

"Adrian, Adrian, Adrian."

"Stop saying my name so much"

"Adrian".

"Stop".

I grabbed his phone and sat on it so he would give me attention.

"What the fuck August give it back."

I dint say anything and just grabbed his face to make him face me. I climbed onto his lap where our chests were facing each other. I put my chin on his shoulder and attempted to rubbed circles on his back. He eventually stopped being tense and relaxed in my arms. He buried his face in the crook of my neck and I rubbed his back until he fell asleep. Well I don't know who fell asleep first actually.

I woke up to an empty bed. I felt a unsettling feeling that he wasn't here, but I didn't expect anything else. Usually when I stayed with someone for sexual things I woke up to empty beds. I had not right to think he would be any different.

But, I woke up in a different hoodie. Confused I looked around and saw the other one in the garbage. Adrian walked in as I spotted it.

" I threw it away. You smelled like some random guy."

"Oh, who's is this than."

"Mine. Dumbass."

"Oh."

I smiled to myself and hid under the covers.

"We need to go, we have school."

"No."

"I'm serious August."

"Fine" I rolled my eyes and got out of bed, stretching. His eyes darted down at my lower half. I looked down at my laced pink panties, quickly dropping my arms and pulled his hoodie as low as it could go.

"Oops so-" a pair of sweatpants came flying into my face.

"Put those on I don't want my dad seeing you looking like that."

I knew what he meant but I couldn't help but think into it. Did he mean I looked gross? or something like that? Whatever. I slipped the sweats on and they were way too large. But I shrugged it off and grabbed my phone to head out.

He pulled up at my house. And as soon as unopened the door he said something.

"Uh thanks".

"Ur welcome Adrian." I smiled at him

" Want a ride to school?"

" No I'm okay Adrian, but thanks."

"Ok."

And he left. I quickly ran to my room and changed into white shorts with a red hoodie and red and white checkered Vans. I grabbed my keys and headed over to school. When I got to school I spotted  Adrian. But that wasn't exactly who I was looking for. Right behind him was Thomas.

"TOMMY YOURE BACK!." I yelled making the both of them look up. I jumped into Tommy's arms and gave him a big kiss in the cheek.

" Hey babe, I'm sorry I was gone for so long." He cooed at me kissing my forehead. "Do you now where Miley is Hon?"

I shook my head and he put me down.

" I'm gonna go look for her. Well catch up at lunch okay?"

I nodded as he gave me another peck on the forehead and went another direction. I went on my phone to check how much I made on my only Fans. 200? That's not terrible. I walked down the hallway to got pulled into another room again.

"What was that?"

"What are you talking about?"

"You and the guy your always hanging out with?"

"Tommy? Where just friends."

"If you don't want anyone to think you're gay you shouldn't be so touchy with him."

"Why the hell do you care?"

" I don't."

I smirked and grabbed the collar of his shirt making him face me. I looked him in the eye and traced his neck and jaw line teasing him.

"Aww are you jealous Adrian?."

Welp that wasn't the right move. I was smacked into a wall and lips came into mine. Just as rough as the last time. I opened my mouth letting him slip his tongue in and moaned into the kiss. He licked around my tongue piercing. Oh shit I forgot to take it off. I traced a few fingers down my waist to my V line. I started getting hard and he stopped. He looked at me. Smirked. Than walked out. I stood there like an Idiot. I composed myself for a few minutes after the bell, went to class with my head down and sat in my desk.

"What's wrong Augy?" Thomas asked.

"Nothing just tired again".

"Okay, if you say so."

Tommy started rambling on about how amazing Miley was. I put my head down throwing out a couple mhmm's so he thought I was listening. The bell finally rang and I went home early without telling anyone. I got home and ran into my dad leaving for another trip.

"Oh hey dad"

"Hey Kiddo what's up"

"Nothing just tired"

"Alright I'm going on a business trip, if you need anything just call or ask your brothers, kay?"

"Okay, thank you."

"Okay buddy, I'll be back next week."

"Mmkay dad love you, bye."

"Bye Baby"

I don't mind my dad being away all the time. I liked being alone in a way. I liked parties and going out but when I was home I liked being left alone. I walked it my rooms and fell on my bed face first. I cried a bit and than turned on Netflix to drown my problems away.

I wonder why no one has ever wanted to date me. Like before I was even working as a stripper or had an only fans. I was really nice . But yet no one liked me. So I changed. And people liked me alright. But only for sex and that's it. It felt lonely in my big room. My flat screen blaring sponge bob while I tune out. I think it's time.

⚠TW: Binging and purging.⚠

I only do this when I have low self esteem and need to feel confident. I ran downstairs making sure no one was home. I grabbed everything that looked slightly appealing in the fridge I set it all on the counter. I put on Netflix in the living room. I shoved every piece of food down my throat until I couldn't walk. I stumbled over to the bathroom and drank a big cup of water. I stuck my finger as far as they could go. I threw everything up. After 4 flushes everything went down and I looked in the mirror. I ate a lot and still looked skinny. That's what boosted my confidence. If anything I looked skinnier.

I went to shower to was off any traces of what I did. I crawled into bed and turned my tv off. I slept with Adrian's hoodie and a random pair of shorts I had. I fell into slumber feeling a little bit better.

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