chapter 14

"Haan, lekin wo Syed hain aur unka khandan bohot orthodox hal. Tumhein ye yaad rakhna chahiye tha.""Maine sirf yeh batana chaha ke hamara firqa bhi Islam ka ek hissa hai taake wo na samjhein ke hum ghair-Muslim hain," Imama ne kaha."Agar wo humein ghair-Muslim bhi samjhein, to kya farq parta hai? Wo khud ghair-Muslim hain," Hashim ne bohot jazbati lehje mein kaha. "Wo gumraah hain, galat raaste par hain.'"Baba, usne kaha ke aapko foreign missions se funds milte hain, ke wo aapko logon ko hamare deen mein tabdeel karne ke liye paise dete hain."Hashim Mubeen ne nafrat se sar hila diya. "Mujhe paisa sirf hamari community se milta hai-wo paisa jo hamari community mulk aur bahar se jama karti hai. Humare paas apni zaruratein poori karne ke liye kafi paisa hai... kya hamari apni factories nahi hain? Agar foreign missions mujhe paisa dena chahtein hain to main khushi se qubool karunga-ismein burai kya hai? Agar is mulk mein Christianity ka tabligh ho sakta hai, to hamare deen ka kyun nahi? Aakhirkar, hum bhi to Islam ka ek aur firqa hain jo logon ko asal hidayat ki raah par lana chahte hain, unhon ne tafseel se samjhaya."Is mamle par doosron se baat mat karo," unhon ne aage kaha. "Bahas ya guftagu ka koi faida nahi. Hum ab minority hain, lekin jab hum majority ban jayenge to aise log hamare samne bolne ki jurrat nahi karenge wo humein zaleel karne se darenge. Tumhein abhi aise logon se nahi ulajhna chahiye.""Baba, humein kyun ghair-Muslim aur minority qarar diya gaya jab hum Islam ka ek firga hain?""Yeh sab mullahon ka kaam hai-unhone apne maqasid ke liye hamare khilaf saazish ki. Jab hamari tadaad barhegi, to hum bhi apne haq mein kanoon banayenge, aur aise saare amendments ko radd karenge," Hashim ne pur zor lehje mein kaha. "Aur tumhein aise apne aap ko band kar ke rone ki zaroorat nahi," unhon ne kaha aur uth gaye. Imama ne unhe door jaate dekha.Yeh Tehreem ke saath uski dosti ka aakhri din tha. Tehreem ke ilzaam ne Imama ko itna dukh pahunchaya ke wo apni dosti ko jari rakhne ke qabil na rahi. Tehreem ne bhi khamoshi todne ki koshish nahi ki. Hashim Mubeen Ahmadi community ke mukarrar leaders mein se ek the. Unka bara bhai Azam bhi ek ahm ahmadi leader tha. Ek do afrad ko chhod kar, unka pura khandan kai saalon pehle Qadiani aqeedah ko qubool kar chuka tha jab Azam ne ye mission shuru kiya tha; jin logon ne nahi kiya, unhon ne doosron se taalluq khatam kar liya tha. Apne bhai ke qadmon par chal kar, Hashim ne bhi tabdeel laayi, aur apne bhai ki tarah, wo bhi iske tabligh mein lage rahe.Kareeb das ya pandrah saalon mein, dono bhaiyon ne apni community mein aik naam kamaya. Wo Islamabad ke elite mein se the lekin apne dolat ke bawajood, unke ghar bohot rawayati the. Unki auraton ne purdah karti thi lekin unpar koi na jaiz pabandiyan nahi thi.Imama bhi is mahaul mein bari hui thi. Asal mein, wo un mein se thi jo chandi ke chamche ke saath paida hoti hain, aur jabke usay pata tha ke uske walid Ahmadi deen ki tabligh mein masroof hain, usne isay aam baat samjha. Usne apne walid aur uncle ko apne deen ka tabligh karte dekha tha aur uske liye yeh Islam ki khidmat thi.Imama apne khandan ke saath muntazim taur par mazhabi ijtimaat mein shirkat karti thi aur unke leaders ke lectures ko London se satellite ke zariye sunti thi.Tehreem ke saath jhagda hone se pehle, usne kabhi apne deen par ghor nahi kiya thauske liye, uska firqa Islam ke mukhtalif firqon mein se ek tha. Usay yeh talqeen di gayi thi ke uski community hi asal raaste par hai aur sirf woh hi jannat mein dakhil hogi. Boht jaldi Imama aur uske behan bhaiyon ko yeh samjhaya gaya tha ke school mein apne deen ke bare mein kuch na batayen. School mein Imama ne yeh seekha tha ke 1974 mein Constitution mein amendment ki gayi thi jisme unhein ghair-Muslim aur minority community qarar diya gaya tha. Usne samjha tha ke yeh ek siyasi faisla tha jo doosre mazhabi leaders ke dabbaw mein aakar kiya gaya. Magar Tehreem ke saath behas ne imama ko apni community aur apne deen ke bare mein aur gehra sochne par majboor kar diya.Isne usmein tabdeeli le aayi: usne apne deen ke adabi aur mazhabi kutub parhne ka aaghaz kiya, saath hi doosri kitaabein bhi parhne lagi. Ibtida mein uske zehan mein bohot uljhan thi, magar jab usne isko gehraai se samjha, to uske zehan mein saafiyan aa gayin. Apne matric ke imtihan ke foran baad uski mangni Asjad se ho gayi, jo uske uncle Azam ka beta tha. Yeh shadi mohabbat ki nahi thi, lekin Asjad aur Imama. is rishte se khush the aur mangni ke baad Imama ko Asjad ke liye ek narmi mehsoos hone lagi."aap kuch dinon se kaafi pareshan lag raho hain-kya koi masía hai?" Waseem ne us raat Imama se poocha. Imama kuch dinon se udaas aur khamosh thi."Nahi, kuch nahi. Yeh aapka weham hai," Imama ne muskurane ki koshish ki."Yeh mera weham nahi hai: kuch na kuch ghalat hai. Magar agar aap is par baat nahi kama chahti, to phir alag baat hai," Waseem ne sar hilate hue kaha. Woh Imama ke double bed par lete hue the jabke Imama dur bethi apni file mein notes dekh rahi thi. Waseem ne jawab ka intezar kiya aur phir bola, "Main theek keh raha tha, na? Aap is par baat nahi karna chahti.""Haan. Main abhi is par baat nahi karna chahti," usne ah bhari."Mujhe batao-shayad main aapki madad kar sakoon," Waseem ne phir koshish ki.."Waseem, main khud aapko bataongi lekin abhi nahi. Aur agar mujhe aapki madad ki zaroorat hui, to main zaroor keh dungi," usne file band karte hue kaha."Theek hai, jaise aapki marzi. Main sirf aapki madad karna chahta tha," woh uthte hue bola.Waseem ne theek samjha tha: Imama un dinon se udaas aur khamosh thi jabse uska Javeria ke saath jhagra hua tha. Halanki Javeria ne agle din us se maafi maang li thi, lekin Imama ki pareshani aur dukh kam nahi hua tha Javeria ke alfaz ne usko pareshan kar diya tha. Yeh usko Tehreem ke saath ek saal pehle ke jhagre ki yaad dilate the, aur woh shak aur sawaalat jo uske zehen mein us waqt uthe jab usne apne mazhab ka tafseel se mutala kiya. Javeria ne kaha tha ke uski zindagi ki sabse bari khwahish yeh hai ke Imama ek asal Musalman ban jaye.Woh ek ajeeb se uljhan mein thi. "Kya main Musalman nahi hoon? Kya meri sabse qareebi dost bhi mujhe Musalman nahi maanti? Kya yeh sab hamare mazhab ke mutaliq propaganda ka nateeja hai? Kyun sirf hum hi nishana ban rahe hain-kya hum waqai ghalat raste par hain? Kya humne ghalat mazhab apna liya hai?Lekin yeh kaise ho sakta hai akhir meri family aur hamara poora community aisa kyun karega?" Aur shayad in sawaalon ke jawab dhoondne ke liye, agle hafte usne aik mashhoor Islami scholar ke tarjuma aur hawale ke saath Quran ka ek nuskha khareeda. Woh jaan na chahti thi ke doosre firge uske firqe aur uske aqeedah ke mutaliq kya raaye rakhte hain. Usne pehle bhi Quran ka tarjuma parha tha, lekin woh jo uske community ne recommend kiya tha. Usne yeh nahi maana tha ke jo nuskha woh parh rahi thi usme kuch jagah badal di gayi thi, ke us firqe ka Quran ka tarjuma asal se mukhtalif hai.Ek ke baad ek, usne mukhtalif firqon ke scholars ke tarjume padhe-kisi mein bhi woh tabdeeliyan nahi thi jo uske firqe ke nuskhe mein thi, halan ke tafsiron mein farq zaroor tha. Jaise jaise usne mukhtalif tafsiron ka mutala kiya, uski pareshani aur uljhan barh gayi. Har tarjuma aur tafseer yeh tasdeeq karta tha ke Hazrat Muhammad (PBUH) Allah ke aakhri paighambar hain; kahi bhi doosre waris ya nabi ka zikr nahi tha. Masih-e-Mauood ke bare mein haqeeqat bhi us par bilkul wazeh ho gayi. Uske mazhabi rehnuma ke daaway aur asal waqiat ke darmiyan jo tanazur tha, wo uske samne khul kar aa gaya.Jis tarah unke rehnuma ne apni paighambari ka daawa karne se pehle Hazrat Isa (AS) ke khilaf aib jo zuban istemal ki thi, usne usko hairan kar diya ke kya koi haqeeqi paighambar aise alfaaz ka istemal kaise kar sakta hai?Bohat hi subtle tareeqe se, Imama ka apne mazhab aur iske adab o kitabein mein shauq aur aqeeda kam hota gaya. Uska sirf aqeeda hi nahi, balke usne inki sachai par bhi shak karna shuru kar diya. Usne Javeria ko nahi bataya ke woh apne firqe ke adab se door ho chuki thi aur doosri kitaabein parhna shuru kar di thi. Ghar mein bhi kisi ko nahi pata tha ke woh kaise kitaabein ghar le aati thi; usne unhe apne kamre mein bohot achi tarah se chhupa rakha tha.Ek martaba aisa hua ke Waseem uske kamre mein aaya, koi kitaab dhundte hue aur pehli kitaab jo uske haath lagi, woh us Quran ka tarjuma tha jo woh parh rahi thi-woh hairan reh gaya. "Yeh kya hai, Imama?" Usne hairani se uski taraf dekha. Imama ka dil ruk gaya jab usne uski taraf dekha."Yeh yeh yeh Quran ka tarjuma hai," usne apni awaz mein larzah ko rokne ki koshish karte hue jawab diya."Mujhe pata hai, lekin yeh yahan kya kar raha hai? Kya tumne yeh kharida hai?" Usne sanjeedgi se poocha."Haan, maine yeh kharida, lekin tum itne pareshan kyun ho rahe ho?""Kya tumhe pata hai ke Baba kitne ghusse mein aayenge agar unhe pata chal gaya?""Haan, mujhe pata hai, lekin mujhe yeh koi itni aitraaz wali baat nahi lagti.""Tumhe yeh lene ki zarurat kyun mehsoos hui?"Waseem ne usse wapas table par rakh diya."Kyunki main yeh jaan na chahti hoon ke doosre log Quran ko kaise samajhte hain. aur Quran ki roshni mein hamare bare mein kya raaye rakhte hain, Imama ne soch samajh kar jawab diya. Waseem ne uski taraf ghoor kar dekha."Kya tum apne hosh mein ho?""Main bilkul hosh mein hoon," usne pur-sukoon hokar kaha. "Mujhe doosre firqon ke bare mein jaan ne aur unka Quran ka tarjuma parhne mein kya nuqsan hai?""Humein aise cheezon ki koi zarurat nahi hai," Waseem ne ghusse se jawab diya"Tumhe zarurat nahi hai, lekin mujhe hai," Imama ne tez jawab diya. "Main andhitaqleed karne ke haqq mein nahi hoon," usne wazeh kiya."Toh kya in tarjumaon ko parh kar tumhare shak door ho gaye?" Waseem ne tanzeeha poocha.Imama ne uski taraf dekha. "Shuru mein mujhe apne aqeede par koi shak nahi tha-ab hai"Waseem phat pada. "Dekho yeh un kitaabon ko parhne ka nateeja hai! Isi liye main keh raha hoon ke yeh kitaabein parhne ki koi zarurat nahi hai; hamari kitaabein hamare liye kafi hain.""Maine Quran ke bohot saare tarjuma aur tafsiren parhi hain, Waseem. Yeh bohot ajeeb baat hai ke kisi mein bhi hamare firqe ka zikr nahi hai! Har ek mein 'Ahmed' ka zikr Hazrat Muhammad (PBUH) ke hawale se hai aur kahin bhi hamare nabi ke hawale se nahi. Aur agar hamare firge ya hamare nabi ka zikr hai, to woh ek jhoota dawa-e-nabuwat ke tor par hai." Imama ki uljhan uski awaz mein saaf zahir thi."Humare bare mein aise baatein aur kaun karega? Agar woh hamare nabi ko maan lete to masla hal ho jata, lekin woh kabhi bhi apni kitaabon mein hamare bare mein sach nahi likhenge," Waseem ne nirash hoke kaha. .   Continue ✍️ ✍️ ✍️