Chapter 53: Self Restraint

I had my eyes on Hayden’s broad back as he continued dragging me behind him. Struggling to keep up with him had become my life’s story as of late. I wanted to tell him to slow down and that my legs were nowhere as long as his, but I knew that he wouldn’t pay me any mind right now.

When we arrived out in front of the boss’s mansion, there was a large black limousine parked there waiting for us. It made me realize that Hayden probably didn’t take his car back here with that man called Luka which meant that his car wasn’t here right now. I was sort of relief because I didn’t want Hayden to drive right now.

"Master Hayden," a man standing next to the car greeted Hayden before bowing to him respectfully.

I guess that’s our driver for today. With a slight nod of acknowledgement to the driver, Hayden squeezed my hand and started leading me towards the car. The driver opened the door for us and we got into the passenger zone. The leather sofa of the limousine was supposed to be comfortable; however, I found it unnerving to be sitting there in such an enclosed space with Hayden right now.

I felt the moving vehicle under me as we headed back towards the penthouse. As expected, the atmosphere inside the passenger zone was stiff and dead silent. I glanced over at Hayden and was greeted with a ghost of a mask, his entire face afnd eyes were void of any emotions. It gave me the feeling that this was just the calm before a very devastating storm.

I can’t avoid talking to him forever…and to be honest, I didn’t want to. Right now, I wanted to talk to him more than anything.

"Hayden…does your head hurt?" I asked in a small voice as I tried my best to smile at him.

Three. Two. One…I counted in my mind as I waited for his response or any type of reaction.

Dead silence.

Kill me now…

I closed my eyes, feeling how tired I really was for the first time. This has been a very long night. I breathed out slowly and forced my eyes open. Now is now the time to give up!

"Hayden…are you tired?" I asked in the sweetest voice that I could muster.

I knew he was angry at me, and it was obvious why that was. Still…n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om

The silence stretched on and the smile I had plastered so perfectly on my lips started to die a sad death. Just when I had begun to truly give up on this seemingly-impossible feat, Hayden spoke…finally…

"Malissa. Don’t say anything and stay away from me…" Hayden said, warning me.

"…what?" I replied, confused at his words.

"…I’m very tempted to fuck you right here and now in the car. So, unless you want that…" Hayden continued, his tone dead serious.

His words, spoken in such a solemn and low tone shocked me to the core. What did he just say?

The worst part in all of this, was that I knew that he was dead serious. He really would…fuck me here in the car.

Hayden didn’t look at me as he stared straight down at a fixed spot on the floor in between his feet. Once again, I was inevitably reminded that I was dealing with a very dangerous man and that man had just admitted to having very little self-restraint left right now.

My body felt stiff from fear and shock but just as he had told me, I needed to get away from him. Slowly and as quietly as possible, I began moving away from him into the furthest corner of the passenger seats.

…

I spent the remaining time of the ride trying to make myself appear as small as possible as I holed up in the corner of the passenger zone. Occasionally, I would glance at Hayden. It was a mystery to me how he could be so still and so silent for such a long time. His appearance reminded me of the famous status of ’The Thinker’. Bless my mind to be able to make artistic references at a time like this.

By the time we arrived back at the penthouse it was closer to dawn than night. The driver knocked on the passenger door to signal that he was about to open the door before he opened it. I didn’t know how to react now that we have arrived.

Wordlessly, Hayden got up from his seat and exited the car. I watched him leave before I started to do the same. I nodded towards the driver to show my thanks, not daring to say anything in case I flip any of Hayden’s unstable switches.

I stood behind Hayden as I heard the sound of the limousine driving away. Now what? Do we just go our separate ways and return to how life was before?

Hayden turned around and took three steps towards me until he was standing directly in front of me. I have never felt so small before in my life and it wasn’t just because he was much larger and taller than me physically. I think…I’m about to be devoured…by him…

It took all the courage and nerve that I had left within me to look up into his face. When my eyes met his pale blue eyes, I truly understood for the first time since I entered this contract with his father.

I understood that…there was no way that I could escape from Hayden…

The dark look that I saw on his face told me better than any words ever could, that things would never return to how they were between us.

Everything felt like it was moving in slow motion as Hayden reached out a hand towards my face. His fingertips touched my right cheek and began stroking it gently. I watched everything in slow motion, as his face came closer to mine. I took in a breath and held it as I closed my eyes.

I felt Hayden’s fingers beneath my chin, angling my face up towards him and then the heat of his lips as it crushed against my own.

--To be continued…