Chapter 18: Fire and Ice

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Monday

{Alex's P.O.V}

I woke up feeling warm, too warm. I turn over and see Jordan sleeping soundly besides me. Thats right I let him stay the night.. well no he insisted to stay, I smiled softly looking at him taking in the details on his face. He looked adorable even when asleep, His dirty blond hair really messily laid across his face, his parted lips, ... soft pink kissable lips. I leaned in unable to resist and lightly kissed his lips.

He started to stir awake stretching, then rubbing his eyes open. "Good Morning" He tiredly said. I nearly lost it at how sexy his morning voice sounded, really husky and low. "Goodmorning." I leaned in again pecking his lips, he smiled. I wish every morning could be like this, im even lucky my Mother didnt find out about this secret sleep over cause 1. It was with My bully/Boyfriend who knows what we could of done and 2. she doesnt want me to have weekday sleepovers because of school.

We both got ready but I changed in the bathroom, yeah were both guys and it shouldnt matter but im self conscious about my body compared to his witch is probably totally ripped. I entered back into my room without knocking thinking Jordan would be done dressing by now but oh how I was so wrong, There he stood in white basketball shorts, thats it, JUST SHORTS. He turned around and my eyes were blessed with the view of a six pack my face went immediately red realizing I was intruding. "S-Sorry!! Ill just-" I was about to leave into the hallway until I was pulled into his chest, he chuckled. "There is nothing to worry about." He said looking down at me. I kept my eyes on his chest not realizing I was running my hands across his abs and getting every detail. God he was perfect. "I have to put my shirt on now Dork." He grinned kissing my forehead then throwing on a blazing red shirt. He looked so good in everything meanwhile in here in my black skinny jeans and white sweater with my bulky glasses and bed head.

"Why are you wearing long sleeves? Its supposed to be really humid out today?" Jordan looked at me making me nervous.

Sure it was fall but why did it really have to be this hot and humid still.."I-uh... Just really like sweaters in the fall..." I looked away holding my arm. That was partially a lie, yeah i liked sweaters in fall and winter but I didnt like looking at my scars, it just reminds me of all my fails in life..

"Alex..?'' He held my chin up to look at him. "Scars.'' I said. "Scars? Wait Alex?" He grabbed my arm pulling up my sleeve revealing faint scars and a new one going up my wrist, I heard him inhale sharply. "Alex, I  love you so much.. I dont know why you would do this to your body... but next time promise me instead of using that razor come to me now.. Im here now." Hot tears streamed down my face quickly being wiped away from Jordan, I was embarrassed but happy. I wrapped my armed around him tightly. "I promise." I quietly said almost like a whisper.

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We were walking to school hand and hand each step made my nerves rattle. We entered school grounds with our hands still held tightly intertwined, we got looks some disgusted and angered, others shunned us and very few looked at us in awe. My heart was going crazy I stopped at my locker trying to open it but my hand was to shaky to open it thats when Jordan placed his hand over mine calming my jitters a bit, I twisted the combo with his hand twisting smoothly with mine. I opened it and grabbed my binders then shut it. "ill meet you in class." Jordan said heading off to his locker. I quickly went into class waiting for Jordan taking my seat by the usual window spot.

I glanced over at Emma's seat and she was there with her head down, i couldnt help but feel bad, I dont know whats going on through her head either but im determined to find out if she was mad at me. It was my job to fix my problems and I can fix them on my own. Class was about to start and Jordan came in sitting next to me.

"Class we have a new student! Please come on in good sir." Mr willakers said.

We all stared at the door waiting to see the new kid, I mean what kid would transfer half way through the first month of school thats odd. Then he walked through, my heart sunk, I went pale, I felt weak, and I couldnt stop shaking at the male in the front of the room.

"Hi Im Mark Stuart."

Jordan looked over at me gripping my hand tightly, "Is this...That mark..?" He whispered in my ear, I nodded. Yes, this was the Mark who I dated at my old school, the one who I gave everything too even my virginity then he dumped me and turned on me. I will never forget he was the one who introduced me to using razors...but I dont plan on telling Jordan that..

"We will also be moving seats! So please gather your things and stand in the back." The teacher said. My heart was pounding why would he transfer here out of all the schools he could of gone too.

Everyone was now standing in the back, one by one people got sat at desk. Jordan was now in the front. Now it was time for the back row and there was only Me, Emma, Mark and 3 others. I got sat in the back in the middle with Emma to my right and Mark.... next to me. I couldnt tell you how much hell he put me through.

He took his seat next to me and looked at me, "Hey Alex. Long time no see, how have you been?" He smiled at me giving a strange feeling. I avoided his eyes looking up at the board. "Alex, baby~ Talk to me ive missed you." His hot breath whispered in my ear giving me chills. Once again I ignored him keeping it together until I felt his hand crawl on my thigh his index finger drawing circles making me stiffen getting really uncomfortable so I swatted his hand off but only had it come back gripping my thigh making me yelp.

"Mr Walker are you alright back there?" The teacher asked drawing all eyes on me, my face went crimson. "E-Everything is fine!!" I shakily said getting a weird concerning look from Jordan.

"MR WILLAKERS I THINK A SAW A RAT!!!" Emma called out hopping up on her chair pointing to the back. Mark's hand left my thigh immediately as the teacher started to approach and everybody getting up on their chairs and desk screaming "Where?!?!" and "Oh My God!!!" I noticed Emma mouth me 'pretend to catch it and go!'and winked, I smiled and hopped down walking to the corner, "I think I see it. Hand me a box!" Some one handed me a box and I pretended I caught it. "Ill let it go outside!" I informed the teacher. "Ah thank you very much Alex, please hurry up now."

I left hiding in  the bathroom sighing. Thank god i was out of that mess, he hasn't changed at all..

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It was finally after school and I was walking out hand and hand with Jordan, I didnt sit with Emma at lunch but I think ill go back tomorrow. We were about to exit school grounds to go to my house when.."--Hey Alex!! Wait!" I turn to see Mark. "What the hell do you want with MY Alex." Jordan growled. Mark smirked, "Oh so your his boyfriend Jordan?" Marks eyes traveled up and down Jordan with his grin only growing. I tugged on Jordans sleeve to get going but he wouldnt budge. "Yeah, Whats wrong with that?!" He glared. "Oh well dont you remember, you came to me to get dirt on little old Alex here?" I looked up at him, "Y-you did that..?" I felt as I was being ripped apart limb by limb. "A-Alex! Its from before!! Its in the past I really love you I wouldnt hurt you again." He spoke. "Hey Alex does he know?" I grit my teeth knowing two things he could be talking about. "Here." He handed me a small box. I untied the ribbons and carefully opened the small red box and dropped it onto the pavement, out came a small razor. My breathing then became unpaced and hot tears flooded my face. The sight of a razor brought back unnecessary memories and I was never able to escape my past.

I ran. I ran home as fast as I could, I could hear footsteps behind me so I pushed harder and ran in my house shutting the door running up into my room locking my door then sitting on the other side balling my eyes out. My heart felt like it was being ripped out and battered all over again but with my past, I wanted the pain to take away this dark feeling engulfing my heart but I made a promise. I heard loud bangs on my door, "ALEX OPEN UP PLEASE!" "ALEX" But one cut shouldnt matter right? I found my old razor holding it tightly. "ALEX I WILL KICK DOWN YOUR DOOR!"Pulling up my sleeve lowering the blade down onto my skin, "Im sorry...just one.." I softly said. Then BANG! Jordan kicked my door open throwing the razor across the floor embracing me tightly. I cried harder why does he love me, I clenched onto him tightly. Why would anybody want to stay and help me.

"Dont scare me like that again..." He whispered, I felt drips fall onto the back of my sweater. Im sorry im such a burden..why and how did you fall in love with someone like me...a mistake.

"Im staying the night again."

And he met it, he left and got cloths then came back and took care of me.

I love him..

"Today Jordan helped me through a horrible break down...Im glad we got paired up together..Our bond grows stronger every day..~Alex"

We were also happy with todays report response too but we were unsure what was about to hit in the future.