Chapter 113: I’m tired

The coffee was now cold. He took the tray and went to the kitchen. He placed it in the sink and went to the sitting room, Arianna was not there.

She is definitely sobbing somewhere. He went to the balcony, Eli’s room and she’s still not there. The second master bedroom, she isn’t there.

He decided to go to the guest room. After all, she stayed there for a few days before moving into his room. He got there and tried pushing the door open but it wasn’t opening.

He knocked but no response.

“My love, I’m sorry for the harsh words. I shouldn’t have been so hard on you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me” Jace pleaded from the other end.

Arianna didn’t respond. She wanted to tell him to go away from her. But she couldn’t. Her tears ran down her cheeks again and she sniffled.

“Please open the door. Let’s talk” Jace pleaded again. No response. He remained on that side of the door, pleading and no response.

He left and soon returned with the spare key. He slid it through the keyhole but it didn’t open. Arianna had shut it from inside.

“My love, please open the door for me. I’m sorry I was harsh and hard with my voice. But you know it was wrong of you to go to my study without my consent.

There are a lot of things in there that no one should have access to except me. I wasn’t pleased to find you there and going through what doesn’t concern you. Please try and understand me.

If it wasn’t necessary, I wouldn’t have kept it away from you. I just can’t help it now. You should understand please. I could compromise with you on everything, but not on that.

You know I love you, right? Please don’t shut me out. Open the door and let’s talk like two people who love each other. Please my love” Jace pleaded, his hands on the door knob.

We wished there could be a miracle and the door opened. If she didn’t say anything, he would give the door a viscous kick and send it flying just to get inside.

Arianna sniffled. She swallowed hard and said “I understand you perfectly, Jace Hudson. You don’t have to apologise or explain anything, it’s your Mansion and you can choose where your guest should touch and the boundaries she shouldn’t cross” Arianna replied.

Jace let out a deep breath. Arianna is saying something else, entirely different from the point he was driving at. Oh gosh! She’s really upset with him.

“Okay. Would you please open the door? I’m begging you” Jace pleaded. Begging, pleading and apologising, these words were so familiar to him as his name now. Thanks to Arianna.

He can’t remember using those words once in several months before he met Arianna. But now, he’s become so used to them that it doesn’t carry the weight he thought of it in the past.

And the peculiar thing about it is that he uses it, only for Arianna. Maybe next time he would keep compromising to her and who knows if he would be going on his knees next.

“Go to sleep, Jace Hudson. There’s no use begging me”Arianna said and gently placed her head on the sofa. She was feeling sleepy already, and that is with an empty stomach.

“Should I wait for you in the bedroom then?” Jace asked and Arianna said “Just leave Jace. I am spending the night here and as it is, I won’t be sharing your bedroom with you anymore ”

“What? You are getting everything jangled together. You are making things appear complicated and complex here. I haven’t meant to be separated from you.

I only said you shouldn’t go to my study anymore. Is that too much to ask, Arianna? Why are you making a mountain out of a molehill?” Jace Hudson queried.

Jace looked around. Thank goodness it is late into the night. How can he be talking to his girlfriend from behind the door? It’s ridiculous. And to think that Arianna is making it look complicated is hurting him.

“You really think so? You…you..(sobs) you do.. n’t love me. You only pity me but not love me “Arianna paused. She sniffled and took a deep breath before continuing.

“I share your bed but you never cuddle me to sleep, you never make love to me except once when I asked you. You rarely kiss me and today, I can’t even touch your clothing, you said you don’t like being touched that way.

Which man says that to his girlfriend, huh, I haven’t heard that a man say such words to his girlfriend. Except he doesn’t love her.

I had come to your study with an innocent intention to call you over to have your coffee. I knew I flopped and I said sorry. I went too far but you wouldn’t accept my apologise.

You even held my wrist and hurt me. You glared at me as if you were going to choke me again. You threatened to do to me, what will make me hate you again.

I’m tired of living my life like this. I can’t settle for anything else that’s not love. I want to be loved and cherished. But I can never get that from you.

So please, let me be Jace, just let me be. I don’t have the right to your body, I cannot be horny and be sure my boyfriend will please me. I don’t have the right to your study.

I don’t have the right to be free in this Mansion because of boundaries and limits set by you. I cannot go wherever I like without your bodyguards trailing me and giving you updates.

I cannot do this, I cannot do that. I am tired Jace Hudson, I am tired. I want my freedom back. I want to live my life on my own terms, I have the right to freedom. I am leaving you, Jace. I’m sorry but I’m leaving” Arianna helplessly seethed.

She started sobbing all over again. She wants to sleep but cannot help it. She stood up and went to the bathroom. She sat on the toilet seater and sobbed helplessly, she’s tired, it’s too much now, it’s gotten to her bottle neck.

Jace was quiet and stood rooted to a point for a long time, completely speechless. It was as if an icy cold water was poured on him. He couldn’t lift a foot, his guilt was heavier than a sack of gravel placed on his both shoulders.

This was too much from him to a woman he claim to love!

What is wrong with him, is he alright at all?