Chapter 20: Sun and Moon

Ghost POV

Seeing John fidget is normal, he's always thinking, so his mind unknowingly fidgets. Currently, he's rubbing his fingers together while pacing. Being in the military, I'm trained to pick up on these types of things. Cause if they're anxious, they know something, but not in this scenario. This isn't a military situation, so I'm a bit lost, his eyes aren't really looking in any direction, but in the direction of the gravel.

He's thinking, whatever is going through his head must be important. I let out a sigh, I look around, we're at the park John wanted to go to, waiting for Lydia to drop off Maddison. I don't go to parks, the screaming children, the chaotic activities. Shadowing John, I've learned that's just being a kid, or so I think.

I look over to him, he's leaned back on car beside me, hanging his head. "We've only been here for for two minutes" I say, he kicks his foot out "I know" he says, annoyed. "Anxious?" I ask, he starts to tap his foot, I'll take that as a yes. A car pulls in a few spots away from us.

Soap POV

Lydia, I take a breath, walking over to the car. I look in the windows, Only Lydia and Maddison today, that's good. Lydia hops out and walks towards me for a hug "Hi Johnny, I'm so-" I step back, avoiding her. She stops, lowering her arms "Right.. Sorry, well I'm glad you texted me, and I see you brought Simon" She looks past me, waving to him. He gives her a light nod, staying leaned on his car.

"Maybe we can have a family day! At the park, having fun, like we used to!" Lydia says. I take a breath "Where's Maddison?" I ask, her smile fades, she scoffs. "Right" She walks over to her car, opening the backseat. Maddison is sitting in her carseat, holding onto a stuffed bunny I gave her when she was first born.

Lydia takes her out, grabbing a small bag, she sets her on the ground. Maddison clings onto to Lydia's leg "Maddie, daddy's here!" Lydia says, pointing my direction. Maddison excitedly turns her head, her smile lights up, quickly running my direction. I smile down at her, "Hi Maddie" I pick her up, spinning her around.

I kiss her cheek, "How's my baby girl doing?" I ask, "Awesome!" She responds energetically. "Guess who's also here?" I ask, Simon walks up next to us, his face stagnant as always. Maddison gasps, and reaches over for him "GHOST!" She yells excited, I put her down. Immediately she clings onto his leg, "Ghost Ghost Ghost!" She chants, while jumping up and down.

Simon reaches down, patting her head, I chuckle at their interaction. "John" Lydia calls out, Right, she's here. I turn to her, my returning to my normal face, she hands me the small bag she has. "What's this?" I ask, opening it, "Maddison's EpiPen, after this I'm going to pick up her refill" Lydia says. I close the bag, putting it over my shoulder, I pause for a moment.

This is a good time, I turn to Simon, who is walking backwards in a circle while Maddison follows. "Simon, take Maddison and get a snack, I'll be right over" I say. Maddison walks over, pouting up at me "Why aren't you coming?" She asks sadly. "I'm going to join you guys, I just have to talk to mommy first, so right now Ghost is going to take you to get a snack, isn't that right?" I ask, looking over to Simon.

He looks down to Maddison, nodding, I grab her face, kissing her forehead. "Be a good girl and stay next to Ghost" She nods, walking over, grabbing his hand. "Can we get ice cream?" Maddison asks, Straight to the point, "Let's see what they have" Simon says. They start off, seeing them together reminds of the day after I moved out of that house.

I took Maddison to the park, it was late in the afternoon, so we didn't have a lot of time. So we walked, her hand held onto two of my fingers, holding that same bunny. I didn't talk much that day, my throat was sore from crying, losing my daughter and the life I thought would never end. I'm not sure if she really knew that I cried that day, but her smile that day.. It just made everything so much better.

"John?" I turn, Lydia has a worried look on her face, So to keep that smile I need to do something. "I think we should finalize the divorce" I say, Lydia's eyes widen "I.. John..." I cut her off. "I've been thinking about it for awhile now, and I don't think being seperated is enough, I don't.. Want to be connected to you, I'm sorry to say but you're... Not a great person. I know it, you know it, and I could name the things you've done, but I think it would be better if had our lawyers during that discussion" I say.

"Johnny you can't be serious, you heard what Ben said last night" I scoff at her words. "What? About me overdosing? That was 6 years ago before I ever met you, and I hate to say, but Ben wasn't even there that day, it was his brother" I shoot back. Lydia throws her hands up, "Well who's going to help you now?" Lydia asks.

I furrow my brow "I haven't done drugs since I found out you were pregnant with my kid, and the fact that you think I would call you, when I can't even trust you to not sleep with my friends, I'd say I'd rather anyone else find me" I say. "Who then? Simon?" Lydia asks, Yes, "If it ever came down to it, yeah, I would" I say.

"Who the hell even is he? You're always together, he picks you up, you let him be around Maddison. Are you fucking him?" Lydia yells out. I feel my face get flustered, I rub the bridge between my eyes "I'll talk to my lawyer, I'm not arguing with you" I say. I turn away, walking where Simon and Maddison went, my heart feels like it's beating out of control in my chest.

Breath, remember the breath, 'Are you fucking him' why would she ask that? I slap my face lightly, I don't think of him like that... I.. Well...

Ghost POV

I hand Maddison her ice cream cone, I offer her my hand, she takes it starting on her snack. We start walking again, It's not that big of an ice cream so I don't think John will have a problem with it. "Ghost?" Maddison calls me, "Yeah?" I respond "Do you think that Mommy and Daddy are fighting right now?" Maddison asks. Yes, I do, "No, they're just talking, why do you think that?" I ask.

She looks down sad, "The last time daddy brought me here, he was sad, he didn't tell me he was, but I could tell.. So is daddy sad again today?" Maddison asks finishing her ice cream. I don't know, "He's.." Before I speak John walks up from behind us "You guys sure walk fast, hey baby girl, hi Simon" John says. I nod to him, Maddison takes his hand "Daddy are you sad?" Maddison asks.

"Sad why would I be sad? I'm at the park with my favorite girl" John says smiling, "Who's your favorite boy?" Maddison asks. John laughs at her question, "Can I pick myself?" John asks. Maddison shakes her head, John looks up to me and smiles "Then Ghost is my favorite" John says.

Seeing his smile that day felt different, I'm not sure if it was how the sun hit your skin, or how your eyes sparkled when you talked, or how you laugh at every word you say, or how you allow your thoughts and emotions run wild. Maybe it was how you looked at me, or the tone you used when you said my name.

Maybe it was how even when you cry, I can't help but fall in love with you. I stop, shocked by my own thoughts, Is this how I see you Johnny? I look up to him, he's by the grass with Maddison as she picks a flower, your praises to her as she puts the flower behind your ear. It matches your smile, your eyes, your heart, it matches you, Johnny...

He looks over to me, picking up maddison, bringing her over to me "Go ahead" John says to her, she reaches over and puts a flower behind my ear. She giggles "Pretty Ghost" Maddison says, John chuckles at her comment "Yeah Maddie, pretty Ghost" John says. His eyes shift to mine, and at that moment I understood, John is your sun, because of how he shines, and I'm your moon, because John shines allowing you to see me.

I'm happy to be a part of your world Maddison, "Ok, time for you to walk" Johnny says, placing her on the pavement, she coughs a bit feeling her throat. "You good Maddie?" John asks, she reaches up for John "You wanna get picked up again? Maybe after a bit ok?" John says. He leans down to kiss her head, he stops looking at her face.

"Why are you crying? Aw baby" He wipes the tears from her eyes as she starts to sniffle. "What's wrong?" John asks, he crouches down to her examining her face. She tries to say something but is struggling to get it out "What's going on? Did you get her a snack?" John asks. "Yeah, got her a small ice cream cone" I say, keeping my distance, allowing John to do whatever he's doing.

"Can you tell me what's wrong?" He asks, Maddison grabs her throat, scratching at it lightly. He gets on his knees, "What flavor did you get her?" John asks "Strawberry" I respond confused, a look of horror frozen on his face.

Soap POV

Maddison is allergic to strawberry.

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