Chapter 24: Our Last Night

Soap POV

After our night together, I found myself in his arms, resting next to each other. I've been awake for a minute now, feeling his hand on my chest. He's a quiet sleeper, no noise just laying still on his side. He might be on his side cause I'm here, being in the military you're taught to not turn your back to anyone, even when sleep.

Knowing that you trust me enough to allow yourself to be this vulnerable, makes me happy. You hear that? You make me happy. I smile, suddenly Simon takes his hand back, turning over. The world feels cold again, I turn over, seeing that he has his back to me.

You trust me, I snuggle up behind him, putting my arm under his. Feeling his heartbeat through his back, but also shaking. "Johnny..? Are you awake?" Simon asks, his voice quiet and trembling. "Mhm" I respond, kissing the nape of his neck, keeping my eyes closed, "Does knowing what I've done keep you up?" Simon asks.

I stay quiet for a moment, That's why you're awake, "No.." I respond, yawning after. I feel his heartbeats in his chest start to speed up, "Do.. They keep you up?" I ask. "No" Simon responds quickly, I let out a silent chuckle, staying quiet. "Hey Johnny?" Simon says, quietly. "Hm?" I respond, a moment goes by, "Simon?" I say.

"Do you ever worry that one day, everything that you've done will catch up to you?" Simon says, his voice trembles more than before. I open my eyes, shifting them slightly, thinking of what to say, "Is this what you think when you're alone?" I ask. I feel him take a big breath, "No" He responds. He takes my hand, intertwining his fingers with mine, pulling me closer.

With the back of my hand, I can feel his heart pumping harshly in his chest. Telling me that you don't mean to shut down my questions, but yet it's hard. I stay quiet, "Johnny?" Simon says, I let out a small sigh, "Yeah?" I respond. "Can I.. Face you?" he asks. I'm a little shocked by his request, by everything we've just done, I'm not sure facing me is anything bad. "Sure" I respond, he turns over, scooting down a bit, hugging me at my chest.

He puts his leg between mine, and his face in my chest, I softly chuckle. I start to rub the back of his head, closing my eyes back. "Is this alright?" Simon asks, his voice still quiet "It's alright" I respond. This is new, a softer side of himself that he otherwise wouldn't be capable of showing.

Proving to not only myself but to him, that our relationship is something more that neither of us thought it would evolve into. That between us, there's more than desire, there's adoration, passion, warmth, love... Love. RINGGG RINGG RING, the alarm sounds, I reach over Simon, grabbing his phone. 4:30am, I set it down, laying back in my position, I pat him "Simon, your alarm" I say.

He stays quiet, keeping his face buried in my chest, "Simo-" He pulls me closer to him. "Can we... Stay like this? Just for a few more minutes" He asks, another strange request. "What's the alarm for?" I ask, "...I'm being deployed tomorrow " He responds. I stay quiet for a moment, "Do you usually get up at four?" he shakes his head. "What do you have to do?" I ask, "Pack" he says.

I take a deep breath, putting my fingers through his hair, "Thirty more minutes" I say. The room goes back silent, Things between us feel different, more... Connected. I feel myself drifting back to sleep, "Hey.. Johnny?" Simon says, "Yeah?" I respond, half asleep. "Do you trust me?" He asks, I open my eyes, looking down at him, shocked that he's asked this.

I feel his hand behind me start to grip onto the sheet, he still has his head down, I grab his face making him look up at me. His cheeks wet, and his eyes filled with tears, You're crying... He sniffles, looking up at me. "Do you.. Trust me... Please.. Tell me you trust me.." Simon cries, trembling. I've never seen him in this state before, I smile softly at him, pulling his face in, kissing his tears.

"I trust you, Simon" I say to him, he allows his tears to flow, quietly crying. "It's ok, you can cry, I'm here" I say. He rests his face back into my chest, he breathes quickly, struggling to gain his composure back. I sit up, allowing him to lay on top of me, he crawls closer.

I rub his back, calming him down, he wraps his arms around my waist, keeping me close. "I trust you..." I say quietly, wiping his tears away. "I can't speak for anyone else but I have a good feeling Maddison also trusts you" I say, "Really...?" Simon asks. I chuckle at his response, "I mean she probably upset you have her favorite toy, but she's 4, and her grudges don't last longer than a day" I say.

Simon stays quiet, I feel his chest is breathing regularly again "Simon?" I call out quietly. I look at him, Asleep, I smile down at him. It almost makes sense, it's not a matter of him needing me or me needing him, but both of us needing to find solid ground. And on our way there, we found each other, not destined, yet I found you... Simon.

I'm right here, I'll keep you afloat, so please don't cry. I'll shower you with my love, until you no longer need me...

Ghost POV

Time goes by, filled by heavy breaths and imaginary pictures drawn into my skin. A comfort that was once unknow to me, no longer do I need to be envious of a feeling I'm able to grasp onto. And now that I have you... I won't let you go. I feel John move my arm, trying to get out of the bed.

I wrap my arm back around him, "So you are awake" John says. I stay quiet, hopefully he'll think that I'm asleep, and stay. He pats my face, trying to wake me up, failing to do so, I hear him chuckle. "Simon I'm pretty sure it's been longer than thirty minutes" John say, rubbing my back again. "Thirty more" I mumble, he turns and crawls back on the bed, reaching over me, grabbing one of our phones.

I grab him, flipping him on his back, crawling on him. "Simon-" John says, I lean down, kissing his neck. I grab his hand that has the phone, pining it back on the bed, making him unable to check the time. He turns to me kissing me back, using his leg, locked with mine, flipping me on my back.

He climbs on me, putting both my arms above my head "Wow.. This is.. New" I say. He lets go of my arms, sitting down grabbing his phone "It's almost 5:20" John says, looking down at me. I slide my hands up his thighs, into his underwear, digging my fingers into his skin. He smirks down at me "You have twenty minutes" John repeats, patting my chest.

I ignore him, pulling at his underwear, "Simon.." John says, in a slightly disappointed tone. "Ok, ok, I'll get up" I say sitting up. John gets off my lap, fixing his underwear as he walks out of my room. I get up stretching, I pick up my pillow from the floor, smelling it. It all smells like you.. I put the pillow back on the bed, walking into the closet, grabbing a towel.

I exit my room, seeing John looking around in the fridge, I walk over, wrapping my hands around his waist. "I see you got food in your fridge now" John says, I kiss his shoulder "I thought about what you said, so I brought more food, being that I won't be here for a while, it wasn't the smartest decision".

He kisses my cheek, I look to him making eye contact, we stand there for a moment. "Pick a number between one and ten" John says, "Six" I respond. He closes the door to the fridge, "Six minutes" he says, turning towards me. "Ten" I correct myself, "Six" John repeats, "Johnny.." I plea. He walks over to the table, leaning back on it, pulling at his underwear.

I walk over, putting my hands on his waist, "Nine" I say. He grabs my shoulder, slowly pushing me down to my knees. I look up to him, feeling along his legs, his eyes looking down on me. "Five and half" John says, his voice almost sultry "S.. Six" I say, kissing his legs, keeping eye contact. "Five and a half" John repeats, running his fingers through my hair, pulling at it.

"F-five and a half" I beg, digging my hands into his skin, he chuckles. Kissing his thumb, running it over my lips, "Should I take charge for these five and a half minutes I've given you?" John asks. I quickly nod, excited by his words, Fuck..

TIME SKIP LMAO

I dropped him off in the bases parking lot, for him to get his car that he left last night. After being so intimate, it was a bit difficult to leave, more for him than me. During the car ride here, he held hand, intertwining his fingers with mine. As soon arrive on base, even in the parking lot he couldn't keep his hands off me. Keeping held on my arms around him, teasing me, almost as if he wanted more.

Please Johnny, I can only handle so much..

Soap POV

Simon's more different than I've realized, seeing him cry for time, showed me that there's more to him than I know. Last night, he basically poured his heart out to me, which seemed out of character. Or maybe it's just what I thought he'd be like, guess I was wrong. I've been watching him, ever since this morning, he's been stuck to me, at the hip almost.

Kisses and hugs, when I walk too far from him, he pulls me back in. Almost like a newly adopted puppy, but instead of the puppy jumping on you, wanting attention every moment, he's.. No that's pretty accurate. Except, instead of a dog, he's a 6'7 lieutenant in the military.

I lock the car seat in place, closing the back door, I chuckle at the thought. It leaves me thinking for a moment, "He's being deployed.." I say out. It's disheartening in a way, knowing that the only person who's able to be there, isn't going to be here, hurts. No, I've been through this before, it's fine.

I get into the driver seat of my car, gripping the leather of the wheel, It's not like he's not coming back. I feel a stiffness in my chest, It's fine, I shouldn't be worried over something like this. I start the car, I trust that he'll be safe, I trust him.

VRRMMM VRMM

"JESUS FUCK-" I jolt at the sudden noise, I pick up my phone. Lydia, 'I'll drop off Maddison later, I have to do something, and I assume you have no arguments about taking care of your own daughter for the night. I'll let you know when I'm on my way'. Lydia is taking what I said into consideration, I should probably get started on the whole Divorce thing. I sigh at the thought, This is fine, small hurdle to have peace.

Some form of peace..

{This story isn't even supposed to have smut in it, this was meant to be JUST story. LISTEN! I haven't written smut in like 4 months ever since I started writing this, THE THOUGHTS ARE LEAKING OUT MAN. But if you do want smut with this ship... *cough* You should really follow me- IDK IDK. Hope you enjoyed!}