chapter 108

Sadhvi's pov :

I was startled hearing him calling me a baby girl.......

It is sounding so wicked yet sexy at the same time.

I just stood like a statue as I don't know how to tackle his words........

He again grabbed my hand, I tried to wriggle from his hold but inturn he jerked me towards himself.

I observed one thing today.....

Whenever I struggle in his arms his temper seems to be risen as his hold will tighten.

'Wow Sadhvi.....what a great thing you have learnt' my subconscious mocked me.

I bit my lips as I looked at him.......

He still had his evil smirk plastered on his face.

"What baby.....I hate it when you think about other things when you are this close to me."  He said naughtily.

I blushed listening to it.......

If only he knew.......I always think about him.

Gosh!!!!! I couldn't take my mind off him.

I am getting addicted to him......to his sexy smile and his warm hugs.

And they only belong to me.......

We'll atleast for now.

Untill he didn't want to leave me for his crush.

This thoughts made my mood off.......

I don't want him to leave me immediately.

"Say you love me again dear." He asked me again.

Is he again at that????

I shook my head saying I won't do it again.

But he pinched my waist making me gasp out loudly......

He chuckled looking at my state.

I glared at him for laughing at me.

"Come on baby??" He said teasing me again.

How many times should I say the same thing when I already know that he gonna reject me.

It's is so annoying for me right now and I didn't hide my annoyance from him.

I frowned my eyes and said

"Siddarth......why are you teasing me?

I....I know you don't love me."

"Who said that baby?" He whispered near my ears.....

I shivered when I felt his breath near my ears....I feel like melting in his arms.

Just then I got reminded of our situation.

"You...have a crush." I said like it's a matter of fact.

He chuckled listening to this.

Now feeling his chest heaving from his chuckle I just want to punch him on his handsome face.

"Yeah.....I do have one baby." He said with honesty dripping from his eyes.

I can feel the faint pain in my heart......

How can I bear when my husband whom I loved more than my life accept having a crush on other girl.

It literally breaks my heart.

I just want to go away from his arms......I don't want to look pathetic to him. Even if he rejects me I shouldn't let anyone trample on my dignity.

I know he won't do that......but when he said having crush on others I literally felt like he stomped on my heart mercilessly.

I tried to push him away again but I think my arms have no strength left in me.

I helplessly looked at him.....begging with my eyes to leave me alone.

I hope he understood my gesture.

But he plastered his whole body with mine as he pressed me more to the wall leaning to me.

'Why can't he understand me??? He is hurting me.... emotionally." My heart cried.....

Where I just stood without any emotion like a lifeless doll.

"I know yo...you don't love me.

It...it's just me. You don't have to feel burdened with me.

You can love that girl. I....hope you will have all the happiness with that girl." It is breaking my heart saying this.

How can I say this to him......to be with other girl when my heart can't even tolerate when my mind fantasises him.

I fucking feel jealous of myself!!!!!!

But here I am saying the shit which I don't even mean.....I am just saying for his happiness.

"Sadhvi..." He tried to say something but I cut him off saying

" Siddarth.....you don't have to worry about me.

I......I will be fine.

We can divorce in few days.....I will be available whenever you are free . We can proceed for that. You....don't have to worry about it. I won't bother you." I said when all I wanted was to kiss him and assure myself that he is mine....

Tears fell from my eyes.....

May be I should just cry over fate.

"Baby.....what the hell are you saying?" He whisper yelled at me.

I rubbed my tears hastily as I looked at him to look at me with 'i am disappointed' look which is quite evident on his face.

Now what more does he want?????

I am already trying to makey heart a stone and supporting him to make his crush his......I am not even trying to make him heart broken.

' Or may be he want me to leave immediately????"

I sniffled as I rubbed my cheeks again.

"Yo.....you want me to leave now??" I asked him hesitantly.....

I...I really don't want to leave him just now atleast.

I want to make fee more memories with him.

I mentally prayed that he would say no.

Suddenly I felt something passed by.....near my ears and I heard a loud sound.

I looked at that source of sound only to be frightened and anxiousness took over me as I grabbed his hand hastily which he just picked to the wall.

He has gone mad........

I am already trying to make the situation in his favour he is showing his anger.

I pulled him to the bed and grabbed the first aid box from the bedside table and took his injured hand in mine.

I flinched as I looked at his bloody knuckles......

A sob escaped from my mouth....looking at his state.

I couldn't look at my love suffering........

"Sid..... Siddarth....why did you do this.

I....j already said I will leave you as soon as po...." I tried to complete the sentence.

But before that I heard his growl so I paused.....before I could continue my talking....he grabbed my face with his injured hand.

I looked at his face worriedly as I am not understanding what he is doing???

He is injured as it is not treated yet.

But I felt a pair of lips smashed on mine when I tried to speak......

I gasped in surprise....as it isn't anticipated.

My eyes remained wide as I was looking at his tightly closed eyes.......

He is kissing he roughly......he is biting my lips , if he did any harder my lips would definitely bleed.

It was the first time he kissed be this roughly.....it is like he is trying to remove his anger through this kiss.

He is chewing my both lips before he sucked my lips and  tangled my tongue with his .

He is sucking my whole life out.......

Like he want to own it.

I was just unresponsive as I don't want to break the kiss.....

Because how much ever I deny it.....it is giving me a slight hope to my hopeless Herat which is irrevocably in love with Siddarth.

At the same time I don't know how to kiss him when he is so aggressive.

Even at the normal circumstances I couldn't match up with his pace....now I definitely couldn't.

Now after sometime I felt the I will die because of asphyxia.

My fist balled up as I started beating his chest for him to release me for sometime......

Can't he atleast let me take a breath???

But he want just missing me with so much of passion.....but after my repeated attacks he left me like he did that because he had no choice

If he would have one will continue kissing without any interruptions.

"Don't ever fucking say you will leave me understood????" He reprimanded me like I am a child.

I suddenly remembered the whole situation.....how he kissed me when he is crushing on others andme being a fool let him kiss me.

I scolded myself for doing that.

"You.....why did you kiss me??" I asked him angrily as I wanted answers.

"Why should I kiss you??" He raised his brows.

Now I couldn't control anymore.

I stood up and threw the cotton roll which was in my other hand as I tried to first aid him directly on his face.

It directly landed on his face......

His eyes darkened as he is not expecting me to throw things at him.

But I am very much filled with anger right now to care about other things.....

" You jerk......you just said you have a crush on other girl and you are asking me why can't you kiss me???

I.....I will leave now. You can stay happily." I spatted in anger and just ask took a step he pulled me by waist.

Now I am very much irritated with his 'grabbing me again and again' behaviour.

I agree I like it whe he do it.....but now I am very much confused at his behaviour.

I need time or may be he will never be mine.

I whimpered lightly as his hold on my waist was very hard.

"Didn't I just said to not utter those 'i will leave you shit' on my face????

Couldn't understand my words Darling???" He darkly said.

My heart fluttered when I heard him calling me 'Darling' but I recovered immediately from the shock he gave me remembering my anger on him.

"Why......I will definitely.

Reason with me.....why shouldn't I????" I asked him angrily.

"Because you are mine........only mine.

You can't leave me. Remove the thoughts or whatever you have in your mind about leaving me.

I will never leave you. Understood sweetheart????" He said dangerously.

I gasped hearing the seriousness in his tone.

It surely did something in me......fluttering my heart and countless butterflies were in my stomach.

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