13 - the kiss.

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'When love is real, it'll

find a way'

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MY POSTERS!

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I was staying over Lukes house once again to not actually hit him again, he just pisses me off and another thing is he spam calls me or text me all the day long. the only call I ever took is from Elijah or Noah.

Luke is sitting at the edge of his bed playing his game, and surprisingly am doing our homework since he begged me to do it.

Everything is going well. [or is it?]

We already had dinner and already showered which was awkward at first. "We should head to bed"

"Why it's 11pm?"

"That's exactly why" said while I plugged the tv out "come on let's head to bed" the lights were turned off and since we watched a horror movie I turned on the bathroom light for him.

Luke expression was off for some reason he bit his lower lip trying not to say something.

"If you have something to say, say it"

"Are you.."

His sign was all that was heard in this room, ruffling was heard and a sec later Luke was standing in front of me putting his hands on my shoulders.

"Luke..."

"Do you like boys" the word 'like boys' hit me hard of course am going to say no but my mouth won't opened but I forced it to open.

"No, where are you going with this"

His face came closer and it just hit me "nonsense, go to sleep"

"No"

"Fine then am heading to sleep"

His hands cupped my face before I could turned around, his face was closing the distance between us.

No no this can't be happening.

"You got this all wrong am straight not gay" he kept ignoring my words, am too tired for this help me.

"Sure you are"

"What's that supposed to mean."

"You showed it the moment you kiss my forehead" well.. NO he's wrong and very wrong am straight as hell he's never gonna change my mind.

"Let's just head to bed" ignoring his comment.

"No"

Without any more comment he's kissed me..

Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay Am not gay, am not gay.

Those exact words repeats in my head. His head turned sideways to get me to open my mouth and I did.

His tongue entered my mouth tasting like strawberry he ate a while ago, Luke leaned more into me causing me to moan into the kiss. Our tongue was fighting for who's in control. Which was me... obviously.

His hands were on my side pulling away from the kiss my hands were covering my face with embarrassment and angry.

"Why did you do that" wiping of my mouth

"To prove it"

"Am not gay!"

"Well what if I kiss you again" he leaned more closer to my face. What would mom say or even worst my siblings, what if I get outcast like that boy who was openly gay I need to stop this before it's goes under control.

I pushed him hardly which resulting him to land on his but "what's your fucking problem"

"You can't just kiss me"

"Not a big deal" he shrugged his shoulders which angered me more.

"You're unbelievable!"

"Well you could have stop me the time at Elijah then this wouldn't happen would it?"

"I did you fucking idiot!"

"That wasn't convincing enough"

"Luke.." I signed "we're just friends nothing more" rushing the covers over me.

"Fine then" he said then a mins later a door opened then it slam shut. So... sassy.

Am sure this will move on eventually. The front door was opened which I could hear it shutting after a sec, was he seriously going to walk at 12am and at the same time he needs space.

My eyes started to shut and the only that came up in my head was Luke, let's hope he doesn't get kidnapped or killed.

It was just a kiss why did i enjoy it?

It's been 2 days since I kept ignoring him and yes am petty, 2 days ago when I came back in the early morning he was gone.

Am the one who's in the wrong and who fucked up our friendship why did I have to kiss him.

Sarah and Avery have been hanging up with Ava more often and forgetting about me, she definitely told them something about me that bitch.

And you know what am not gonna win their friendship back because a real friend would ask the person for proof or even ask the one if it's true or not but no they straight up block and ignore.

I was now at my forest hangout wearing a grey hoodie with an grey shorts my earbud were plugged in playing one of my favorite songs 'sweater weather' the one and only song that I could sing all the lyrics in one go.

The walk there was muddy and slippery at the same time, I kept rethinking that moment, i mean HES OBVIOUSLY GAY litterally Shouting in my mind.

Ever since the moment my stomach has butterflies it all made sense when I feeling weird towards a boy who was in my 7th grade class. Now when I had it with miles I knew I was gay from that moment.

Or bisexual.

I don't even know my own sexuality.

Shit I just need to apology to miles first cause I think I blocked him he's probably worried or not.

I took out my phone that was in my back pocket, my hand hit the unblock button on miles and began texting him.

Luke🗝️:  miles.

Three bubbles appeared faster than I expected.

Miles🔓: I thought you died, you fucking idiot!

Miles🔓: where are you so I could smack some senses into you.

If I told him where I am he's knows am the stalker, Luke it's miles where talking about.

Fine.

Luke🗝️: forest.

He didn't respond, so he definitely knows where i am. I ran my hands through my hair as well as a deep breath.

Why am i nervous?

Fucking stalker shit it was so obvious am not even mad at him am mad I didn't notice it in the first place.

The past 2 days felt like hell, Damien and Mike even notice my mood swings sometimes, even worst sometimes we pass each other without saying anything but I could see the guilt in his eyes.

I pulled in a parking lot and took out the key which turned it off. My hand reached the door handle twisting it open.

I close the door and began my journey.

The walk there was really muddy rip white shoes, maybe we could still save our friendship.

Then there was him standing in front of me flashing a light right at me , my walking pace became more faster fuck I miss him.

But first thing first am gonna kill him.

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My hand was pinching his ear walking back towards the car, long story short he held out a piece of paper of apology and kept laughing between takes.

i ended forgiving for his stupid pettiness then I confronted him about the forest place which we argued back who found it first.

"You're so fussy" I said to him who was now in the passenger seat.

"Can you help me with my homework?" He commented.

"Fine"

"Great, next stop your house!" Before I could answer his eyes were shut and already laid back the seat with more space to stretch his leg.

My eyes were now focusing on the red light that was about to go on green "yep my house." mumbling as I started driving once again.