Chapter 12

I have been feeling so sad lately. I can't find what I'm looking for on the hook up app. It just seems like there's something wrong with every girl I meet. They're too young, or they talk too much, or the sex isn't great. I don't know, but I think I need to take a break from the app for a while. Other than that though, I've been thinking a lot about my life. It seems like I'm always the one helping others, but there's no one to help me. I enjoy using that app to hook up with people, but sometimes I just want to talk to someone. I want to share my feelings and have someone cuddle me for once. I can't talk to Jade. She's crazy. I won't dare text or call her again.

I have Liv, but that's my baby. For some reason I feel like I have to make sure she's always ok, it shouldn't  be the other way around. It would be nice to have a real FWB right now. There's a lot I need to get off my chest. My life is pretty good, but I'm still not where I want to be in life. I look like I have it together, but I really don't. Lately my relationship with my family has been bad as well. Honestly, I've just been ignoring their calls and texts for the last few days. I don't know if I ca-

At that moment, Ryley heard a knock at the door. She got up to see who it was, and to her surprise it was Liv!

"Hey. Uh- what are you doing here?" Ryley asked as she wiped her eyes

"I was on my way out and thought I'd stop by here first" Liv said happily walking into the apartment

"Oh" Ryley said as she closed the door. She looked Liv up and down. "You look nice"

"Thank you! I'm going out with some people tonight.. But I still have a few hours to kill. I just didn't want to sit in my boring house any longer"

Ryley laughed. "Are you going to be responsible tonight missy?"

"Yes, of course. No alcohol this time"

Ryley gave her a look showing her concern

"I'm serious" Liv said

"I feel like I should come with"

"No"

"Why not?"

"People will wonder who you are"

"I just want to make sure you're ok. Girls never go out alone"

"I won't be alone"

"Do you even know these people?"

.

"Yes. They are my friends"

"Babe- please I just want to help"

"I don't need your help!!" Liv yelled. "You always think you have to protect me"

"I'm sorry. I wasn't-"

"Just because you saved me before, doesn't mean I always need your help. You're treating me like my parents"

Ryley could tell Liv was furious with her. She waited a few seconds to reply so that Liv could calm down

"You are right. You are an adult. You can make your own decisions"

"Exactly!" Liv said folding her arms

Ryley walked up to her and folded her arms too to mimick her

Liv eventually laughed

"There we go! A laugh"

"I can never stay mad at you for long" Liv said as she wrapped her arms around Ryley's neck

"I'm glad!!"..."I care about you" Ryley replied

"Come relax with me for a while" Ryley said leading Liv to the bedroom

The two sat and watched Netflix for a while. They were both sitting back on pillows watching a movie. Ryley started tearing up and Liv eventually noticed

"Ryley? What's wrong?"

"Nothing girly"

"You are crying. Something has to be wrong"

"It's just hard"

"What's hard?" Liv said caringly moving closer to Ryley

"Being me"

"What.. What are you talking about"

"My life isn't perfect you know? I'm always making sure you're ok, but I barely get anything other than how are you every now and then. It's not your fault though. I started this. I showed you that my feelings don't matter and now I have no one" Ryley said trying not to cry. She didn't want to look weak in front of Liv

Liv moved closer and put her hand on Ryley's back "I'm soooo sorry. Please talk to me now. You know I care."

"It's ok. You don't have to"

Liv straddled Ryley and stared at her

"Ok. If you don't want to talk you don't have to. But we will come back to this"

Ryley pulled her closer and hugged her. Her arms wrapped tightly around her waist. This was the most vulnerable Ryley had ever been with anyone

Liv didn't really know what to do. She had never seen Ryley like this before. She wanted to comfort her but she didn't know how.

Ryley eventually stopped hugging Liv. Her face was red from crying. Liv wiped her tears then hugged her tight. After the hug, the two ended up staring at each other

Ryley wrapped one arm around Liv's waist and pulled her in close. Liv leaned down and kissed Ryley on the lips

It was the softest, sweetest kiss she had ever received. Ryley smiled and flipped Liv over so that she was on top of her now.

Ryley started placing soft kisses down Liv's neck. She was being very gentle for some reason- more gentle than she had been every other time. Liv grabbed Ryley's waist and pulled her closer.

Ryley continued to kiss this girl for what seemed like an eternity. She didn't want to stop. She loved how close they were. She could tell Liv was enjoying it, so she decided to take it slow.

Eventually, Ryley broke the kiss and stood up. Liv stood up next to her. Ryley took off her shirt and her bra. This was the first time Liv actually SAW her. Liv looked anxious and a little nervous. It was as if she just realized what was about to happen.

Ryley walked up to her and kissed her cheek.

"We don't have to. You know I love holding you too"

"No. I want to" Liv said as Ryley kissed her cheek again

"Ok love"

Liv turned around and Ryley unzipped her tight dress. It fell to the floor and Liv was left standing in her underwear

Liv looked a little nervous about fully undressing right now

"I can take the rest off later if you'd like" Ryley said trying to make Liv feel as comfortable as possible.

"I'd like that" Liv said smiling

Liv laid on the bed on her back and Ryley laid on top of her. Ryley began kissing her lips again. She started to kiss lower this time. She kissed her chest. Her stomach. And finally the inside of her thigh. She stayed there for a while. She enjoyed teasing Liv. Liv started to giggle while she was down there.

"I'm glad you're enjoying it babe" Ryley said as she kissed Ryley's lips again.

Ryley's hand wandered down to Liv's panties and she started rubbing her pussy. Liv's body jerked in excitement. Ryley enjoyed seeing Liv like this.

Ryley started to rub faster while kissing Liv. Ryley started to take Liv's panties off slowly. Liv was definitely wet and that made Ryley excited

Ryley unfastened Liv's bra and started kissing her boobs. They were perfect. Ryley's tongue ran over the left nipple while her thumb gently grazed over the right one. Liv's nipples were nice and hard now. Ryley put the left one in her mouth and swirled her tongue around the nipple. Liv started to moan Ryley's name.

Ryley went back to kissing Liv while she caressed her body. Her hand eventually made its way down to Liv's pussy again. She gently spread her lips and started to insert her middle finger into Liv's wetness.

Ryley noticed Liv's body start to tense up

"Are you ok, love?" Ryley asked

"Mmmmhmm. Just keep kissing me"

"Yes ma'am"

Ryley went back to kissing Liv like she wanted. She only put a small portion of her finger inside Liv. She started pumping in and out slowly. Liv seemed to enjoy it so she pushed it in a little more. Liv's mouth flew open and a loud moan came out. Ryley started pumping faster.

"Babyyyyyy" Liv moaned out. "Harder please"

Of course Ryley obeyed

"Ahhhh!!!! Fuckkk"

Ryley loved hearing Liv curse. She barely cursed when she talked. It made her feel like she was seeing a different side of her

Liv gripped the sheets and threw her head back

Ryley took the opportunity to kiss her neck- down to her boobs

"I love you" Liv said as Ryley continued to feel her wetness drip down over her finger

Ryley decided to put a second finger in

"Ahhhh!!!" Liv moaned out in pleasure

Ryley started pumping both fingers in and out faster

"Cum for me baby" Ryley demanded

Liv's body began to shake uncontrollably. Ryley's finger's sped up while Liv's pussy clenched against them.

Liv started to breathe heavily after her orgasm. Ryley kissed her lips and laid next to her.

Ryley got on top of Liv again and started kissing her neck, her collarbone, and finally her cheek. Ryley stared at Liv thinking about how beautiful she was

"Does this mean we're together now?" Liv said smiling as she touched Ryley's face with both of her hands

"Of course baby" Ryley said as she kissed Liv's lips again.

Just then, there was a knock at the door.

Who the hell could this be? Ryley thought.

Ryley got up and quickly put on some clothes. The knocking started to get louder so Ryley rushed to the door to open it. The door swung open and Ryley's stood there motionless.

It was Jade.