Chapter 158

Chloe's POV

How could it be like this?

It has been five years. For those five years, I did my best to forget everything. Desperately, I did my

best to abandon my feelings, to the point where I foolishly fooled myself that I have put everything

in the past.

All that sadness, the way my heart aches when I think of those painful memories I had with Blake...

the way my soul still longed for him despite everything that happened... the way my body yearned

for him to come closer so that I could touch his body heat...

All those feelings of happiness and belongingness that he taught me...

I thought I have forgotten Blake and made everything, all the memories we made together a

colorful part of my past. I deluded myself that when I saw him, I would be able to put everything

behind and only strive forward towards my goals.

Who knew that I was wrong... so horribly wrong...

"C'mon Chloe, bring it on. Right here and now, attack me with all your might! I am giving you a

chance to attack me without any defense. Hurt me from all the pain and hatred I gave you all these

years..." Blake opened his arms and looked straight at me, his taunts sounded like begging, as if me

actually hurting him was a way to atone himself.

I collected all of my strength. I charged at him with all my might. Hurt him with all the pain and

hatred that I felt? Didn't Blake know, my pain and hatred go as high as the heavens, to the point

that I wanted to obliterate everything?

The ground shook from the explosion of my powers. Waves by waves, the vegetation that came in

contact with my aura disintegrated in a fast manner, completely destroying the area around us.

Yet in this chaotic place, Blake remained serene. He watched me with gentle eyes and though a

destructive force was about to hit him, he did not flinch.

He spread his arms wide open and closed his eyes calmly, ready to take no matter how dangerous

my attack would be. And instead of putting defense to mitigate my attack, Blake gladly accepted it.

This image of his... one that was embracing death peacefully, made my heart tremble from pain. My

body shivered in sadness as I stopped just before Aurora's power touched his body.

How could this happen? Despite everything we have gone through... clearly... I couldn't hurt him...

This unspoken gamble between Blake and I...

I fully and utterly lost it...

Upon that realization, my eyes started feeling warm until soon, the first teardrop fell. And like a dam

that was breached, my tears continuously fell down until I started wailing as I collapsed on the

ground.

Five years might be short for others. But for me... it was painfully long. Everyday, I pushed my body

to the brink, hoping that I would leave everything behind, hoping that the new would be reborn,

forgetting everything and only focusing as the alpha of the Red Moon Pack.

“Don't tell me... all of my efforts before... were they all in vain?’ I thought as my shoulders trembled.

'In front of Blake, all my hardwork is worthless?" I bit my lips until I tasted blood.

Blake did not say anything for a while. I closed my eyes, refusing to see Blake, but I could feel his

eyes carefully watching me. That was until a few minutes later when I felt him slowly and carefully

draw closer to me.

"See, Chloe... after all this time... despite all that happened... Chloe, you cannot bear to hurt me at

all," he told me while kneeling on the ground in front of me. I knew it was my last line of defense,

but I refused to open my eyes to look at him.

However, it only lasted until I heard Blake sighed.

His sigh was so quiet yet so heavy, as if it contained all the pain in the world. Hearing it made my

heart shake, and subconsciously I opened my eyes to look at him

The coldness, the ruthlessness that he showed while we were in the hall completely disappeared.

Blake's face was so close to mine, and all I could see from his eyes were the intense emotions I too

knew so well.

Pain. Longing. Grief.

The emotions I saw in Blake's eyes were not less than mine.

It was then that my eyes were finally opened to see the important thing that I have been ignoring.

When I was suffering, so was Blake. When I was grieving, so was Blake.

His pain and grief could not be less than mine.

Blake's eyes softened as they met mine, allowing me to see through his emotions. And when I was

fully drowning in them, I heard him say,

“All this time, you cannot let go of me Chloe, just as I could not let go of you either.” A firework

seemed to have set off my heart, making my body quiver, but Blake did not plan on letting me off

as he continued,

"I know that I let you down. Contrary to mg promises, I failed to protect you. Worse, my actions

even brought you... and our... child... into harm...” Blake's voice trembled as he talked. Even though

he was trying to act cool and composed, he still could not hide the tremendous pain he was feeling.

"That's why I tried to let you go. Chloe... the goddess knows how much I tried to erase you in my

heart and in my mind, because I know, after everything that happened, letting you go is the only

way for you to recover," he added, on his lips was a sarcastic smirk.

"But do you know? As the days passed by, instead of forgetting you, I started to miss you more and

more..." Blake carefully raised a hand and slowly reached out to touch mine. The moment our skins

touched, my heart that I trained to be unfeeling started pounding so hard in my chest while the

tears continuously fell down from my eyes.

"But I survived. Chloe, I was able to live my life and worked hard to save my pack from ruin. And

after finally meeting you, I see that you did the same," Blake added before letting out a sad smile.

"Despite this, Chloe, I still want you. I still need you..."

"And right now, isn't it also clear? That you... you have the same feelings as me."

"So what do you want to do? Will you accept this? Or will you continue to deny this... deny us?"