: Chapter 12
The Wicked In Me
Returning to the Keep after having a long meeting with Seth a few days later, Cain was met at the front entrance by Maxim. The aide informed him of a minor issue that had cropped up in his absence, adding, âAlso, Ishtar arrived while you were with your brother. I explained that you might be a while, but she insisted on waiting for you. She is in the solar room.â
Cain felt the corners of his eyes tighten. For the most part, sheâd given him the cold shoulder since he first got involved with Wynter. Apparently that phase was over, but he didnât mistake that for Ishtar having shaken off her âfunk,â as Azazel called it. She pettily clung to the slightest of insults. To Ishtar, that heâd be sleeping with Wynter when he could instead be sharing a bed with her was an insult.
âThank you, Maxim,â he said.
Cain headed for the solar, intent on getting this over with before Wynter arrived. As per usual, she would turn up at some point within the next half hour. He wondered if Ishtar was aware of that; wondered if the Ancient hoped to annoy his witch by being present when she arrived. It was the kind of childish thing that Ishtar was apt to do.
Entering the solar, he found her sitting on the sofa, casually dressed, her legs tucked underneath her, her face a mask of uncertainty. He held back a frown, wondering at her game. And this was a game. Ishtar never showed vulnerability unless it suited her agenda. She certainly didnât dress in a simple get-up of jeans and a teeâthat was more Wynterâs style. He inwardly sighed, sincerely tired of the never-ending plays that Ishtar made.
âDoes anyone in your service have the ability to resurface a personâs lost memories?â she asked without bothering to greet him, as if too unsettled to waste time on formalities. âSince waking, I have noticed that there are many holes in my memories. As if they were suppressed during my Rest. I have already spoken with the other Ancients. They all said they know of no one who can help me.â
His creature huffed at the feigned urgency in her voice. âIf any in my service are capable of it, they havenât admitted to it,â Cain replied simply. âBut then, I donât ask about peopleâs abilities.â
Her hand fisted. âThere has to be someone who can assist me with this.â
âYou havenât been awake long. You need to give it time.â
âBut my memories should feel less foggy at this point.â She stared out of the window, exhaling a wistful sigh. âI wonder if Inanna will have the same problem. We will have to wake her soon, wonât we?â
âLilith plans to do it tonight.â
Ishtarâs gaze snapped to his, blazing. âAnd no one thought to tell me? Inanna is my sister.â
âLilith went to your Keep yesterday to speak to you,â he calmly reminded her. âOne of your aides told her that you were not receiving guests.â If he had to guess, heâd say that Ishtar had been sulking after feeling slighted by the, in her opinion, âboringâ celebration Lilith threw for her that included poetry recitals and theatrical entertainment.
âShe could have returned at another time to deliver her message.â
Like Lilith had nothing better to do than chase after her? âShe was no doubt waiting for you to contact her at your earliest convenience to ask what sheâd wished to speak with you about.â
Ishtar pulled a face. âStop being so reasonable. There was a time you were never reasonable. We had such fun in those days,â she added, injecting a sultry note into her voice. âBut then you changed. Fired all manner of dramatic demands at me.â
âOnly you would think that someone was being dramatic by demanding to be treated as an equal.â
Her mouth firmed. âYou are not exactly in a position to judge. Your current toy is hardly your equal. I doubt you treat her as such.â Ishtar examined her nails. âShe fought well in the gauntlet. For a witch. I do hope she will partake in other such celebratory activities.â
Cain went very still. âDo not even think to bring her into your games and put her in harmâs way. I will not allow it. The other Ancients will not allow it. She is to be protected.â
âSo you say, yet you do not protect her from you or your monster,â Ishtar sniped. âShe is in danger every moment she is with you simply because you are what you are. Still, you keep her as your toy. That tells me you care nothing for her.â She sniffed, a triumphant glint in her gaze. âDoes she know that?â
Cain refrained from rolling his eyes at how eager she was to believe that Wynter meant nothing to him. âWhy donât you ask what you really want to ask? I may answer. I may not.â
Ishtar straightened her legs and planted her feet on the floor. âIs it true that she sleeps in your personal chamber when she is here?â
For fuckâs sake. Did the woman really have nothing better to do than monitor his private life as best as she could? âI will not discuss the finer details of what is between myself and Wynter.â
Ishtar barked a harsh laugh. âYou think there is something between you? She doesnât even know you, Cain. You will have shown her only parts of you.â
That wasnât something he could deny. It also wasnât something that he intended to confirm. The matter simply wasnât Ishtarâs business.
âIf she were to learn the truth, if she were to learn about your monster, she would leave you.â
Said monster narrowed its eyes, in complete disagreement. That was the thing about the creature. It had no real sense of self-awareness. It didnât see itself as a monster.
It also didnât seem any less possessive of Wynter. Yet.
âYou know I am right, Cain. She would never accept the real you. She would never look past your secrets. So I hope your creature is as bored of her as I suspect it must be. Because if not and she chooses to leave you before you end things first, it will kill her for the insult.â
âYou judge my monster by the standards of your own. Mine does not possess an ego that, much like yours, cannot handle criticism, rejection, or abandonment.â
Her face hardened, her fingers digging into the armrest. âYou can be such a bastard.â
âI can.â
âBut you are only being so testy right now because you know I am not wrong.â Ishtar regally rose to her feet. âThe witch would not accept you as you truly are, Cain. You are fooling yourself if you believe differently.â With that, she stormed out of the room, leaving him alone with his thoughts ⦠and those thoughts didnât take his mind anywhere good.
*
Adjusting her tee, Wynter was just about to say her goodbyes to her crew when a fist pounded on the front door of the cottage. Feeling her brows snap together, she walked into the living room. âWho the hell is that?â
Glancing out of the window, Xavier replied, âUh, thereâs a bunch of demons in the front yard. One of them looks seriously pissed, and I think he might be holding a fireball in his hand. Could be hellfire,â he mused, uncaring.
Her face solemn, Anabel sank further into the sofa and put a hand to her chest. âSo this is how we die.â
Wynter rolled her eyes.
âDelilah, get out here now!â a voice from outside bellowed.
They all looked through the archway that led into the kitchen. Delilah was currently muttering to herself while peppering ingredients into the steaming cauldron.
âDel!â Wynter called out. âWe need you in here!â
Delilah cursed but hurried into the room. âWhatâs wrong? Make it quick.â
âDid you get on the wrong side of any demons lately?â
âNot that Iâm aware of. Why?â
A fist once more pounded on the door.
Wynter sighed. âHattie, keep an eye on the cauldron.â
But the woman who was curled up in the armchair didnât even look up from her book.
âIâll do it,â volunteered Anabel.
Wynter pointed at Delilah. âYou come with me.â She led the other witch to the front door and opened it wide, revealing eight males who were also local demons. The furious-looking one holding a fire ball had a bandage on his cheek.
âIs there a problem?â Wynter asked.
âYeah.â He jabbed a finger in Delilahâs direction. âHer.â
Delilah put a hand on her hip. âWhat about me?â
âAll I asked for was a potion to make my girlâs tits bigger,â he said, his nostrils flaring. âYou told me to pour it on her breasts and lick off any excess liquid. I did. Only it didnât work, and shit got fucked up.â
Delilah folded her arms. âI warned you there might be side effects.â
âWoman, I grew a third nipple. On my face.â He tore off the bandage and, yep, there it was.
âYou can hardly notice it.â
Wynter glanced over her shoulder at a smirking Xavier. âGet me a reversal potion, please.â
âSure thing,â he chuckled.
Wynter shot her an âI know I told you not to sell any karma potionsâ look, but Delilah was too busy arguing with the demon to notice. It was a wonder she hadnât gotten herself killed long before now.
Xavier reappeared, his eyes still bright with laughter. âHere.â
âThanks.â Wynter took the vial and offered it to the demon. âDrink that. The nipple will vanish.â
He jerked back, his hands raised. âYou think Iâm gonna drink anything else she made?â
âActually, this is one of Anabelâs brews. Itâs just a reversal potion. Look, take it or donât. The nipple will probably go away by itself in a few days anyway. So if youâre happy to wait that long â¦â
His lips thinning, he snatched the vial and downed the contents; the effect was pretty much immediate. He looked at his lair members. âHas it gone?â
They all nodded or answered in the affirmative.
He rounded on Delilah. âThat shit wasââ
âUnfortunate,â Wynter cut in. âIâm guessing you didnât tell your girl what the potion was meant to do.â
He averted his gaze briefly. âWell, no.â
âAnd that right there is the problem. Performing such magick on someone without their knowledge can backfire. Delilah did warn you there could be a price, correct?â
âYes, but she didnât mention anything about third nipples.â
âNo one ever really knows what the cost will be. Look, I get why youâre upset, but youâre not at all blameless here. The potion wouldnât have backfired on you if youâd been honest with your girlfriend.â
He sighed. âYou realize Iâll forever be known as the guy who once had a nipple on his face?â
âAnother thing which is unfortunate,â she said, hoping her words overrode Xavierâs snicker. âIn future, whether you purchase a potion like this from here or somewhere else, be upfront with the person you want the potion to work on. We said the same to a woman who was looking for a cock-lengthening brewââ
âYou make cock-lengthening brews?â he asked, all his hostility slipping away.
âMe? No. But Delilah does.â
âThey only work for a few hours,â Delilah told him. âItâs kind of like Viagra, only it changes the size of your dick as well as enhances your libido for a short period.â
He and his lair exchanged intrigued looks before he turned back to Delilah. âHow much are these brews?â
Wynter inwardly snorted. Men. Figuring all was now well, she shot Delilah a âWeâll talk about this laterâ look and then turned to Xavier. âIâll leave you guys to handle this.â
âWe got it,â he vowed, smiling. âYou go see Cain.â
That was the plan. It had become a routineâshe worked, she ate with her crew, and then she spent the night in Cainâs bed. Each time a voice in her head taunted that she was in danger of growing attached to the Ancient, Wynter pointedly ignored it.
Reaching the Keep, she greeted the aide at the entrance, who then escorted her upstairs to Cainâs chamber. She found him standing near the window, sipping amber liquid from a tumbler.
âSorry, Iâm late,â she said. âHad to avert a crisis.â The hairs on her neck stood on end when his eyes met hers, utterly vacant. âWhatâs wrong?â
He very slowly angled his head. âWhy would you think something is wrong?â he asked, his voice flat.
âBecause Iâm not stupid.â It was easy to tell that all the shutters were down right now. Still, she raised her hands and said, âWe donât have to talk about it.â She had no right to push him to share things with her, given that she wouldnât return the favor if he ever pushed too hard. âJust donât insult my intelligence by expecting me to believe youâre not working through something in your head right now.â
He let out a low hum. âWhat was the crisis you mentioned?â he asked, though he didnât sound particularly interested.
She plonked herself on a bulky chair. âTo cut a long story short, Delilah pissed off a demon. He and a bunch of his lair turned up at the cottage looking for her. All is well, nothing happened; they were buying more potions when I left.â
His gaze returned to the window. âIt must be strange for demons to have to coexist with an entity that differs from them in many ways. There would surely be a struggle to find balance.â
Her skin tingled, because there was something about the way heâd spoken ⦠as if he was fishing for something. Testing her, even. âI guess.â
âHave you ever been around a demon when their inner entity surfaced and took control?â
âQuite a few times since coming here, yes. Theyâre intrigued by dark magick. They like to ask questions about runes.â
Cainâs eyes bore into hers. âAnd you answer? As if they are a being in their own right?â
âOf course. They are a being in their own right. Just because something is the epitome of inhuman doesnât mean it should be feared or loathed or seen as âless.â Itâs simply different. Iâll only have a problem with such a being if it means me harm. Otherwise, Iâm all about âlive and let live.ââ
There was a flicker of ⦠something in the depths of his dark eyes, and then a warmth steadily filled them. âCome here.â
That bedroom tone made her pulse spike. âI like this chair. Itâs comfortable.â
âBut it canât make you scream with pleasure.â
âYou do make a good point.â
He set his glass down on the window shelf. âCome here.â
Huffing, she pushed out of the chair. âIt really is a good thing for you that youâre a master orgasm deliverer,â she began as she crossed to him, âor the whole demanding routine would not work for you.â
His hands slid up her sides, over her breasts, and up to cup her neck. His eyes drifted over her face, glimmering with heat but also something else. Something she couldnât quite name.
Once more, her skin prickled. âIs this where you tell me weâre done?â she asked.
âI should, for your sake. Iâll never be good for you.â It wasnât said with self-loathing. It was a mere statement of fact.
âOkay, letâs be clear on something. I donât need someone to be good for me. I take care of me. Iâm pretty good at it, actually. What I really donât need is someone giving me the brush off with a modified version of âitâs not you, itâs me.â If you want this to be over, well, itâs not like itâll be a shock. I figured youâd get bored fast.â
âSo did I, but Iâm not bored. Nor do I want you to go anywhere. I simply wish to be transparent about this one thingâhaving me in your life will not make it better. That really is the most I can say.â
Wynter had never thought he would be a positive contribution to her world ⦠mostly because she hadnât expected him to be any kind of contribution. She would have originally thought that heâd have turned her away by now. She wasnât sure what to make of the fact that he hadnât. âOkay.â
He dipped his head. âNever say you werenât warned.â Then his mouth was on hers, feasting and consuming. Not taking her over, but demanding her participation; demanding she give as good as she gotâwhich she did. He ended the kiss with a nip to her lip. âMake me one promise.â
âWhat?â
âIf there ever comes a time that youâre so afraid of me you want to run, donât run.â
She blinked. Heâd said it as if running would be the absolute worst thing she could do in such a situation. Like it was a matter of life or death. Which confused the shit out of her. But then, so did many of the things he said.
Unable to imagine herself ever being so scared of him that sheâd fleeâsomething she generally never did in the face of dangerâshe nodded. âOkay, I promise.â
His hand squeezed her nape. âKeep that promise.â And then he was devouring her mouth again.
Soon, they were both naked and he was pinning her to the bed as he fucked her into the mattress. He took her hard and fast, pleasuring her soul and her body at the same time.
Afterwards, he drew her close. They talked a little about mundane things before finally drifting off.
A whispered voice came to her while she slept, coaxing her to follow. Wynter refused, burrowing deeper into the warm arms that held her. But the voice kept on whispering, kept insisting that she follow. She frowned, intent on ignoring it. Cold fingers ghosted over her face, demanding her attention but patient for a response.
More whispers, more coaxing, more cold fingers.
She clung to Cain, wanting to stay exactly where she was.
âWynter!â
Again, she frowned. That was not a whisper, nor was it spoken by the same voice.
âWynter, stop!â
Why were they yelling? Why was Cain yelling?
Fingers snapped around her upper arm, and she flipped her eyes open. Her breath caught. The fuck? She wasnât in bed anymore. She wasnât even in his chamber.
She knew that statue. Knew that bog-like pond. Knew the twisting path she stood on.
She was in Cainâs garden, and the man in question was staring down at her.
âWynter, what in the fuck are you doing out here?â
She blinked hard, shivering at the cool air. âI-I donât know.â Licking her lips, she glanced around, her stomach twisting when she caught sight of lots of narrow, wriggly dudes on the ground.
He dragged in a ragged breath. âListen to me, Wynter. You cannot come out here alone. Ever. It isnât safe.â
âI didnât do it on purpose.â She rubbed at her brow. âI must have been sleepwalking.â
He heaved a sigh and curled an arm around her shoulders. âLetâs get back inside.â
She caught a glimpse of something just before she turned. A small temple of some sort. Maybe. She really didnât care because, hello, wriggly dudes with fangs.
She let Cain lead her back to the Keep, wishing the stone floor wasnât so damn cold beneath her bare feet. And then she remembered the voice that had come to her in her sleep. Remembered that it had wanted to show her something but hadnât been clear on what.
No, it had only been a dream. Sheâd been sleepwalking. Sheâd definitely been sleepwalking.