: Chapter 26
The Wicked In Me
âDo you have any intention of freeing Esther from the netherworld at any point?â
Humming as Cain drifted his fingers through her hair, Wynter replied, âAt present, no. Iâd like her to suffer some, and I feel no need to go traipsing through the place in search of her. But I might later change my mind, you never know.â Theyâd been talking for a while as they lay in bed, exchanging stories of their personal battles during the war. âAre you sure you donât want me to free Annette and Bowen?â
âThereâs no real point. Both will be killed for committing what was effectively treason, so neither avenue involves mercy.â He stroked over her arm, where sheâd earlier been wounded. Anabelâs healing brews had worked wonders, as usual, so there wasnât a single scratch on Wynter now.
âWas it difficult to hold back your monster during the battle?â he asked.
âNo, because it wonât disobey KaliâShe has a great deal of influence over it. Thankfully. But it certainly wasnât pleased that it couldnât âplay.â I couldnât have let it out, though. It would have killed anything in its path, including my own coven.â
âSo youâre finally admitting itâs a coven.â
Wynter narrowed her eyes at his teasing smile. âAnyway ⦠how long do you think it will take to repair all the damage to the town?â
âWe have a lot of people here to work on it, so hopefully not long.â
âBut thereâll later be more damage, wonât there? When other Aeons come, I mean. You do think they will, right?â
âSome will come, yes. Saul will certainly be one of them as heâll wish to avenge his sister. Considering she was Abelâs consort, he should technically want to do the same. Iâm not sure if they had a tight relationship, though. People claim consorts for all sorts of reasons. It doesnât always mean that they value that person.â
âLailah and Abel never seemed close to me. And I heard that their relationship was an on-and-off thing that involved a lot of conflict and drama. They werenât faithful to each other either, or maybe they simply werenât exclusiveâI donât really know. But if he kept reinstating her as his consort, she had to have meant something to him, right? Then again, if that was the case, he would have either been at her side tonight or he would have sent someone else to lead the army in her place. I wouldnât have wanted you to partake in a battle without me, even if I thought said battle would be easy to win.â
Cainâs face softened slightly. âYeah?â
âYeah.â
He squeezed the side of her neck. âSame goes. So, Iâd say we can conclude that Abel didnât feel as strongly for Lailah as another person would for their consort. He might still wish to get even with us. However, he wouldnât wish to be part of a battle that would mean fighting against Sethâthey were once very close. But I suppose it is worth considering that Seth fought against Abelâs consort tonight, so perhaps that will be enough for Abel to turn on him. We shall have to wait and see.â
âWould it bother you to go to war with Abel?â
âNo. He was never really a brother to me.â
Wynter worried her lower lip. âDid you really once try to kill him?â
âYes. But thatâs a story for another time.â
So mysterious. âIâll want to hear it,â she cautioned.
âYou will eventually.â
âIf you didnât kill him all those years ago, why are you known as the originator of murder?â
âOh, people had killed others before I was born. I was by no means the first person to attempt to, or successfully commit, murder. But I was the first to target a brother. And thatâs the end of that story for tonight.â He combed his fingers through her hair again. âRight now, you need to sleep. We both do.â
Cain held her close, something heâd gotten so used to that he wasnât sure heâd be able to sleep without her right there next to him. He hadnât known her long, no, but heâd walked the Earth long enough to be certain that what he felt for her was no temporary attraction; that what they had was worth keeping. Protecting. Nurturing.
Heâd never had someone like Wynter in his life before. It was almost like sheâd been designed to intrigue, attract, and enchant him. Heâd be a fool to let her go ⦠but if he meant to keep her permanently, heâd need to one day be honest with her.
There were so many things she didnât know about him. So many things he would like to think she could accept, but he simply couldnât be sure. He did know one thing. He would only tell her when he felt sure she wasnât going anywhere; that sheâd feel too attached to Cain to leave him; that sheâd feel he was worth the trouble his creature would give her.
It would likely take time for her to get to that point. Cynical as he was, a part of him doubted that she really ever would. But he had to hope that part of him was wrong, because he had absolutely no idea how heâd give her up. And he didnât believe that his monster would let him anyway.
Closing his eyes, Cain forced his mind to rest. Sleep took him fairly fast, but his creature later woke him abruptly. And, sure enough, Wynter was gone again. Cain called out her name, softly cursing when he received no response. He jumped out of bed and dragged on a pair of sweatpants, making a mental note that locking the door to his chamber wouldnât be enough to keep her from wandering out of it in her sleep.
Just as heâd expected, he found her stiffly walking toward the gates to his garden. He sighed. He really had no idea what it was about the garden thatâ
He stopped breathing and stumbled to a halt. Because the padlock dropped to the fucking ground, and the iron gates creaked open in welcome. She hadnât even touched them.
What. The. Fuck?
Wynter walked into the garden, slow and mechanical.
âWynter!â He hurried toward her, but instinct made him slow to a stop. This clearly wasnât a simple case of her being subconsciously drawn here in her sleep. Not if the gates had opened for her like that. Something else was at work. Something had to be leading her here somehow. He wouldnât find out what was going on if he woke her and took her back inside the Keep.
So, instead, he trailed behind her, remaining close to ensure that the snakes did her no harm. But, like the last time she came sleepwalking here, they didnât even try. They simply followed her, rustling the long grass either side of the path. Protecting her? Drawn by her? He didnât know.
The cool artificial breeze ruffled her hair and the long tee that heâd earlier slipped on her simply because he liked the look of her in his clothes. She didnât shiver or otherwise react. Didnât jump or jerk at the sounds of crickets or the frogs croaking. She just kept moving forward.
Soon, they neared the temple. Fuck, he couldnât let her go in there. He was about to reach forward and cuff her arm with his hand, but then she stopped right at the base of the stone steps.
He sidled up to her and studied her face. She was staring up at the temple, unseeing.
âI know what you hide here.â
The hairs on his arms stood on end. The words had come from her mouth, but it wasnât Wynterâs voice. It was thicker. Rang with power. Deity.
âKali,â he greeted through gritted teeth, not bothering to bow or any such shit. Should he have showed some respect? Yes. But this being was inside his witch, and he didnât fucking like it. His creature was furious. âSo itâs you who keeps leading her out here.â
âNo. Something else draws her to this place.â
He wasnât buying that. âHmm.â
Kali laughed, meeting his eyes. âI sense you do not like that I am using her body. She is more mine than she is yours, darkling.â
The latter word startled him so much he could only blink. He hadnât heard it in a long time. It was an affectionate term often used to describe the children of his kind. Not that it had ever been used on him beforeâaffection hadnât been a big part of his upbringing.
Since he hadnât been a child in a very long time, he didnât appreciate Her using it, but he wasnât about to rise to the deityâs attempt to provoke him for fun.
âYou need not worry for Wynter,â said Kali. âI mean her no harm. I also mean you no harm. We have similar goals, you and I.â
âGoals,â he echoed. âAre you planning to use Wynter to reach those goals? Is that why you didnât make her an average revenant? Is that why you keep sending her back to this realm?â
âYou will have answers to your many questions in due course, when the time is right. Now is not that time.â
He narrowed his eyes. âWhy are we having this conversation?â
âAs I said, we have similar goals. So I will caution you to be prepared for betrayal. It may happen, it may not, but be on the lookout for it all the sameâthat is all I can say on the matter.â She paused. âI will tolerate your presence in my witchâs life, but that will change if you attempt to interfere in my plans. Is that understood?â
Tolerate his presence? Like She had some fucking say in the matter?
âOne more thing, darkling. If you prove unworthy of Wynter, if you betray or hurt her ⦠you will bring sheer hell upon yourself. And by that, I do not mean I will avenge the slight. I will not need to. Wynter will do that herself, and she will not be merciful. So heed my warning. There will not be another.â
The deity seemed to burst out of Wynter, because her eyes closed and her body fell forward. He caught Wynterâs limp form and lifted her easily. For a long moment, he stared down at her, struggling to sort through what heâd just learned from Kali, unsure if he could truly believe all Sheâd saidâdeities lied when it suited them. They only ever interfered in matters on this realm when they had their own agenda. And Kali ⦠sheâd never been one to have productive agendas. Fuck.
*
Sitting across from Cain the next morning at the small table in his chamber, Wynter felt a frown tug at her brow. âWhy are you looking at me weird? Youâve been doing it all morning.â
âYou were sleepwalking again last night.â He lifted his cup of coffee. âYou went back to the garden.â
Wynter inwardly groaned and tossed the last of her bagel into her mouth. âWas I banging my forehead on the gates again like a weirdo?â
âNo,â he replied, his face blank. âThey opened for you. The padlock fell right off. And then I had a little chat with Kali.â
Wynter could only gawk at him. âWhat?â
âShe spoke to me through you.â
Well, fuck me sideways. Wynter leaned forward in her seat. âWhat exactly did She say?â Instead of replying, he patted his lap in invitation. In a hurry to hear more, she quickly accepted said invitation.
Cain adjusted her position so that she straddled him. âOn top of cautioning me to be on my best behavior where youâre concerned, Kali wanted to warn me that I may soon be betrayed.â
âBetrayed? By who?â
âShe didnât say.â He paused, smoothing his hand up Wynterâs thigh. âShe was very vague in pretty much everything She said. It was very frustrating.â
âYeah, I know how that feels,â she muttered. âSheâs drip-fed me information ever since She marked me and sent me back to this realm.â
âHow has that not driven you crazy?â
âI got used to it, I guess. And what can I really do about it? Sheâs a deity, Cain. They do what they want when they want.â Wynter clasped her hands behind his nape. âIâd rather not make Her mad by griping about it, since She could probably drag my soul back to the netherworld whenever She felt like it.â
And that bothered him far too much. He simply wasnât sure what he could do about it yet. Cain dipped his head and pressed a suckling kiss to her throat. âI didnât like seeing Her in your body. And I really donât like that She feels youâre more Hers than you are mineâyeah, that was what She said.â He bit down hard enough to leave a mark on her throat. âShe couldnât be more mistaken.â
âAnd you couldnât be more possessive. Which brings me neatly to a matter that Iâm not good with. The barrier is still there. You said it would go by itself, but it hasnât.â
His mouth curved. âYou tried finger-fucking yourself again?â
She pointed at him. âDonât try to wander off the subject. Why is the barrier still there? Donât you trust me not to betray you?â
Hearing the note of hurt in her voice, Cain might have felt shitty ⦠if he hadnât also sensed that she was playing him. He shot her a narrow-eyed look that made her snort. âIt isnât a sign of distrust.â He whipped the shirt off her body. âYou know that. Iâve already explained why I did it.â Though he hadnât been entirely truthful, since he couldnât yet tell her about his creature.
âSo youâre not going to remove it?â
He had no way to remove it without provoking his creature to personally replace it, but she didnât need to know that. Holding her against him, he stood and crossed to the bed. âNo.â Laying her down gently on the mattress, he bent over her to lick and nip at her neck. âIt does you no harm, does it?â
âThatâs not the point.â
âThen what is?â
âIt shouldnât be there!â
âYou can bitch about it all you want, Iâve told you before, I know it doesnât bother you as much as youâd like me to believe it does.â
She huffed. âFine.â She delved her hand into his sweatpants, pulled his cock free, and fisted it tight. âLetâs make this even, though, shall we?â
He raised his head as an odd vibration ran up his hardening shaft followed quickly by a strange sensation ⦠as if cold mesh encased his cock. âWhat are you doing, little witch?â
She gave him a smug grin and folded her arms just as the sensation faded away. âI cursed you.â
âYou did, what?â
âI cursed you so that if you trying sleeping with another woman while weâre together, your dick will wither and rot. Why the fuck are you smiling?â
A number of reasons. One, no one else would ever have dared do such a thing. Two, he would never have seen it coming. Three, that she was so possessive of him made things more balanced. Four ⦠âYour vengeful streak really does run as deep as mine.â That he really liked. âBut then, itâs what revenants are built for, isnât it? To avenge.â
She frowned. âThis isnât me being vengeful.â
âAh, I see. Youâre trying to turn me on.â
âWhat? No, you weirdo. Itâs supposed to bother you enough that youâll remove the barrier in exchange for me removing the curse.â
âThereâs no need for you to do that.â Lifting her hips toward him, he went back to teasing her neck with his tongue and teeth. âI would never be so much as tempted to betray you, so the fact that youâve cursed me ⦠well, itâs moot.â
âMoot? Are you kidding me?â She gasped when he ground his cock against her clit. âYou really are unbelievably fucking twisted if this is revving your engines.â
He hummed. âI like that youâre so possessive.â
âThis isnât about possessiveness.â
Cain sent a surge of pain/pleasure sweeping over her soul that had her arching right off the bed. âAdmit it, you donât want to remove the curse. Youâre just as fucking insane as I am.â He lashed her soul yet again. âDefinitely made for me,â he added, watching her nipples tighten, her skin flush, and little bumps sweep across her flesh.
He put his mouth to her ear and let out a low growl. âIâm going to wreck you again. Iâm going to make you break for me.â He pressed a kiss to the pulse now beating frantically in her neck. âLove it when you break.â
Exploring her body with his hands, he repeatedly whipped her soul with pleasure/painâsometimes he kept his lashings firm, sometimes he made them featherlight, constantly switching things up so she wouldnât know what to expect.
She scratched at his shoulders, her pupils blown. He knew her nerve-endings would feel raw and supersensitized. Knew her breasts would be aching, her pussy would be damp, and her body would be crying out for release.
He knelt between her thighs and hooked her legs over the crooks of his elbows. âI think itâs time I put my cock where it belongs,â he said, lining the broad head up with her opening. âInside you.â
He thrust hard, driving his dick deep as he lashed her soul yet again. She came apart with a scream, her inner muscles clenching and spasming. He slowly fucked her through her orgasm, sinking in and out too lazily for another release to build inside her just yet.
Cain planted one palm on the mattress beside her head. âHand,â he said when the aftershocks from her orgasm slipped away. âI want the one I marked.â
She held it out to him, swallowing hard.
He cuffed her wrist and held her palm up to his mouth. Still thrusting slow and easy, he traced the C of his mark with his tongue, smiling when she jolted, knowing it would feel like his tongue had licked at her slit. He traced and flicked and danced his tongue over the C again and again, adding the occasional whip of pleasure/pain to her soul when she least expected it.
He wanted her to feel off-balance. Utterly possessed. Like her body wasnât her own but his. His to pleasure, rule, ruin, corrupt, play withâwhatever he wanted, whenever he wanted.
Upping the pace of his thrusts, he kept licking at his mark while also teasing her soul. âYou crave this, donât you?â he said, a growl edging into his voice. âYou crave what I do to you, crave the pleasure and the pain and everything in between.â
She licked her lips. âWhich is what you want.â
âOf course it is.â If sex was the only way he could tie her to him for now, then heâd use it. âItâs only fair.â He dropped her hand so he could grip her thigh tight. âI crave you.â
Wynterâs breath stuttered as he began pounding into her body, stuffing her full again and again. More electric waves of bliss swept over her soul. The dark pleasure nipped like teeth, scratched like nails, and burned like sharp but light slaps.
And she wanted more.
He gave it to her, showering her soul with waves and lashes and featherlight flicks all while slamming his cock hard and deep into her pussy. Raw need carved into his face, he glanced down at where their bodies were joined. âLook how well you take me.â
It was hard to keep her eyes open when this insanely good out-of-body pleasure was wracking her very being. There was so much sensation, internal and external, she had no idea how her brain could possibly compute it all. No idea how the organ hadnât short-circuited for at least a mere moment.
Trembling and panting, she soon ended up in that space where she floated, anchored only by the scent and feel of the man dominating her body, mind, and soul. Heâd warned her from the very beginning that he wanted that extent of power over her. Well, he had it. And she wondered if he knew it yet.
A mess of chemicals and tension and so much overwhelming pleasure/plain she could barely breathe with it, she dragged her nails along his back as her release slinked toward her. âCain â¦â God, she was so close.
He switched his angle, rubbing against her clit with each pounding thrust. âNow be a good girl and break for me.â
One abrupt lash to her soul was all it took. She choked on a scream as her orgasm snapped through herâintense, blinding, explosive. She shook and arched and cried.
Cain growled and licked at the corner of her eye. âFuck.â He rode her with hard, feral digs of his thickening cock before finally exploding inside her.
When her thoughts were no longer scattered to the wind and she could finally talk again, she said, âI have to say, Iâve grown rather fond of your cock.â
A low, rumbly chuckle vibrated against her neck. âI gathered that when you possessively cursed it.â
Wynter frowned as the memory rushed back to her. It had been a spur of the moment thing, and sheâd thought it would be enough to get him to remove the barrier ⦠because sheâd forgotten for a minute that he was a total fucking nutcase. âI still canât believe you donât care. I mean, itâs a curse.â
He lifted his head, smiling. âYou know ⦠humans often talk about the Curse of Cain. In truth, it holds a metaphorical meaning. But now? Now the term really does apply. And if anyone asks, I get to tell them that my woman is so possessiveââ
âYou donât get to tell them anything.â
âAre you embarrassed that you cursed my dick? Because it really doesnât mind.â
God, he was nuts. She was tempted to quite simply undo the curse despite that he wasnât going to be cooperative, but maybe he was expecting that. Maybe he was calling her bluff. Well, she wasnât so easily manipulated. âWhat about the metaphorical Curse of Cain thingy, what is it?â
He hummed, flicking her nose with his. âAdd it to the list of things Iâll tell you one day. And when I do, you have to remember that promise you once made me.â
âThat I wouldnât run when I realized why Iâm not totally safe with you?â
He gave a slow nod. âThat one.â
She couldnât even complain that he was holding back, since she was doing the same to him. Still, she might have made a snippy comment out of frustration if it wasnât for the grave look on his face. He truly did believe there was a high chance that sheâd not only want to leave him but would literally flee. âIâm not easily spooked.â
âI know, Iâm counting on that. Because I get the feeling that chaining you to the bedpost to keep you here wonât be as easy as I originally thought.â
She did a slow blink. âYou really werenât kidding when you first mentioned putting me in chains, were you?â
âSnapping an iron cuff closed around your wrists will just be so much easier than tying complicated knots.â
âIâm struggling to decide what to do with that comment. But then, I think most people would.â
He pursed his lips in thought. âYeah, they probably would.â
âYou know, we always tend to have seriously weird conversations right after sex.â
âYou have likely had far stranger conversations with your coven, and probably at far stranger times.â
The thing was ⦠the man wasnât wrong.