Chapter 119

Hoping against hope

I stare at my son. I’m so proud of him and of the bond he has with his mother. No one, not even her best

friends and her parents, knew the name she had chosen, yet she had told Noah.

“That’s really good,” Mary says, smiling at Noah. “You’re already shaping up to be a great big brother.”

Noah just nods, then looks up at me.

“One day we were on her bed while eating ice cream because she wanted it so much. I asked her what

name we were going to give to the baby. We spent hours going through baby names until we settled on

those two. It was so much fun, and we laughed a lot.”

Tears start filling his eyes once again, and I pull him to my side. It physically hurt to see him hurting. To

see him in pain. I wanted to ease his heartache, but I didn’t have the power.

“When will she get better? I miss her so much,” he continues to cry.

I kept quiet because I have no answer to that. Not even the doctors know when or if Ava will wake up.

Mary kneels down to his level. She gently tugs at him a little. Noah doesn’t let me go, but he twists his

head to face her.

“Tell you what? How about I let you visit your sister? You’ll be the first person to see her,” she tells him.

“Really?” he asks as he wipes away his tears.

“Really” she smiles. “Just give me a few minutes, and I’ll come to get you. Is that okay?”

Noah nods his head as a small smile takes over his lips. The sadness is still there, but it’s been pushed

back.

When Mary stands up, I give her an appreciated nod. It may seem like a small thing, but she has done

something huge. She has given Noah hope. Something, or rather, someone to hold on to while he waits

for his mother to recover.

She nods to the rest and then turns to leave. Taking Noah’s hand, I lead him to the seats. I was damn

exhausted. Mentally, psychically, and emotionally. I could use some sleep, but I won’t get it until I see

both mother and child.

To my surprise, Calvin, Gunner and Kate walk in. Gunner’s hand is held firmly in Kate’s. They were

chatting

while Calvin walked behind them. I can’t really tell whether they’ve told Gunner the truth.

I watch as Gunner’s eyes land on Emma. They become huge. I don’t understand that part, because I’m

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He let’s go of his grandmother’s hand and literally launches himself at Emma. Emma doesn’t have it

though. She gently pushes him away from her with a look of disapproval. Gunner’s face falls, and tears

start filling his eyes.

He turns around and hugs his father. Calvin in turn glares at Emma, as do Kate, Travis, and everyone

else who had watched the interaction.

Emma shrinks into herself but doesn’t say a word.

I look away and stare at Noah. He had his head on my shoulder and was holding my hand. His eyes

were closed, but I knew very well that he wasn’t asleep.

“What is he doing here?” The bitter voice makes me look up, only to find Kate pointing a finger at Reaper

as hatred and bitterness filter through her eyes.

“He’s here for Ava,” I tell her tiredly

Her face twists into something ugly. “I didn’t know that Ava was buddies with criminals.”

“Of course you didn’t, since you know nothing about my daughter,” Nora scoffs at Kate.

The women have a stare down. Sure, Kate is a powerhouse, especially as the matriarch of the Sharp

family, but she has nothing on Nora Howell.

“If

you don’t like the fact that he is here, then you’re free to leave. Personally, I don’t get why the hell

you’re here in the first place, given that you treated Ava like shit for years.”

That seems to shut Kate up, but it also drenches up something that I wasn’t ready to deal with.

Noah’s eyes snap open. He looks at the rest before looking at me.

“What is Grandpa Theo talking about?” He didn’t say the words loudly, but it was enough to catch

everyone’s attention.

A look passes over all their faces. It’s like they’d completely forgotten that Noah was here.

“Nothing, buddy. It’s just a spat between adults. Nothing for you to worry about,” I try to assure him, but

he

doesn’t buy it.

“No. I know what shit means, and grandpa is talking as if mom wasn’t treated well. Is that it?” His voice

becomes hard as it nears the end of the sentence.

Fuck. I was afraid this day would come. I notice that everyone except for Calvin and Gunner stiffens.

How

do I tell him that Theo was right without making him hate us? Without making him hate me for the way

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“Noah, are you ready to see your baby sister?” Mary comes back out with a smile on her face.

I heave a sigh of relief and thank the heavens for the distraction. Noah seems to have forgotten.

everything as excitement takes over his features.

“Mr. Woods, you’ll have to accompany him,” she says, turning around as Noah takes her hand.

I nod my head and follow them.

We first enter a separate room where they sanitize us before giving us a medical gown, gloves, and

masks to wear. Once that is done, we are then taken to the NICU unit. We pass a few babies who were

also in incubators before stopping at one in particular.

Mary smiles at us. “Noah, meet Iris.”

One look at her, and she had me wrapped around her tiny fingers. She wasn’t my blood, but she already

has my fucking heart in her hands.

Iris, though small, is beautiful. She had her eyes closed, so I couldn’t see her eye color, but everything

else, from her nose to her lips and the piece of hair that was sticking out of her pink hat, was Ava. She

was a spitting image of her mom.

I feel my heart break watching the tubes sticking out of her. She didn’t deserve this. She should still be

cushioned in her mother’s womb.

She’s alive.

Right. That’s what matters.

“Can I hold her?” Noah asks in a small voice.

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Mary was right. Noah was already shaping up to be a great big brother. The love and care he has for his

sister were plastered all over his face. There is no fucking way you can miss it.

“No, honey, you can’t…But you can touch her only if you promise to be careful.”

He nods. Mary helps him get his hands inside the incubator. He softly touches her cheeks, and she leans

into him, though she doesn’t wake up.

We stay inside for a while until the nurse lets us know it’s time for us to leave. I walk back to the waiting

room with Noah after we get out of the protective gear. I felt like I was in a fucking dream. Like I was in

the present, but not at the same time.

“Where is Theo?” I ask my brother while taking a seat near him.

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Nora was by herself, and she looked so sad. So heartbroken.

“He’s with Ava. The nurse couldn’t let both of them in so Nora went first.”

Mary comes back again and asks who else wants to see Iris. Reaper, step forward. No one argues as

she leads him to see his niece.

“How’s Iris?” he asks.

“Beautiful” Noah still looks mesmerized. “For some reason, I think she looks like Mom.”

“He’s right,” I add. “She’s the spitting image of her mother.”

We stay in silence after that. A few moments later, Reaper comes out, phone in hand. He answers and,

after a few words, hangs up.

“It’s time for me to leave, but I’ll be in contact.” He tells me “For Ava and Iris’s sake I’m willing to put our

differences aside and catch the bastard that did this to them.”

“Fine,” I mutter, and give him my hand, which he shakes.

“Aren’t you going to wait to see her?” Theo asks as he emerges from the room.

“Not today. I’ve run out of time.”

With that, he turns and leaves. I watch him, wondering why he left in such a hurry. My question is

answered when Ethan walks in, escorted by police officers.

I can’t figure out if Reaper’s hurried rush has something to do with seeing his brother, the police, or both.

I feel the familiar anger every time I think about Ethan. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive him for playing and

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Standing up, I’m about to confront the bastard when a hand clamps down on my shoulder.

“We pulled some strings to get him here,” Theo begins. “You’re a father, so you understand that he has

as much right to be here as the rest of you. Probably more, given he almost lost his daughter.”

That stops me in my tracks as I watch Nora stand up and hug him. He hugs her back while fighting his

emotions.

“Don’t start a fight. It isn’t worth it. Besides, I think you’d much rather go see Ava.”

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I grit my teeth but nod my head. He’s right. No matter Ethan’s sin, he deserves to see the daughter he

came close to losing.

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I turn around just as the nurse calls for the next visitor. I ask if it’s okay if Noah and I go in together, and

thankfully, she agrees.

We go through the same procedure we went through before seeing Iris. The moment we get inside her

room, my tough resolve crumbles, and I collapse in the seat as my legs fail me.

Her head was wrapped in a bandage. The neck was in a neck collar. She had scratches on her face,

probably from the glass that broke during the hit. As if that wasn’t bad enough, she had all these tubes

sticking out of her and machines surrounding her.

I take one of her hands while Noah takes the other one.

“Mommy,” he calls, but of course she doesn’t answer.

She looks so peaceful. As if she were just sleeping, but we all know that’s not the case, and that’s what

breaks my heart.

I try to force the words out, but nothing leaves my mouth except a strangled cry.

‘Please come back to me,‘ I beg. ‘I need you‘

I kiss her palm and then run my hand down her cheeks, hoping against all hope that she’ll wake up soon.