Chapter 16
Ex-Husband’s Regret
Ava
âI missed you mommy, why didnât you call me?â Noah asks me, sadness in his voice.
I wanted more than anything to hold him in my arms. Just to reassure myself that I was still with him. That I wasnât going to leave him motherless.
âIâm sorry my love, I lost my phone and I had to borrow your dadâsâ
âCan we do a video call? I want to see youâ he demands.
I know he senses that something is wrong but I canât let him see me lying in a hospital bed. He will worry and want to come home. Given that I am now a supposed target, I couldnât risk whoever is after me going after him.
I still couldnât believe that there was a chance I was a main target. That someone wanted me dead.
âNot right now baby, they donât allow video calls where I amâ I lie.
âThatâs a st* pid rule! Who makes such st* pid rules?â He screams through the phone.
I know that he is frustrated so I was going to let this slide.
âNoahâ¦
âI just want to see you mommy, canât dad make them leave you alone? He can make them give you permission, I know he canâ he was close to tears and it was breaking my heart.
I look at Rowan and he is grinning like a fool. Noah knows how his father operates. He also knows that one word from Rowan Woods, and everyone bows down.
âNot this time⦠how about I call you tomorrow and we can skype?â
âYou promise?â
âI promiseâ
I was getting discharged today so that would give me enough time to prepare for the call tomorrow
âOkay mommy, talk to you tomorrow. I love youâ
âBye baby. Love you tooâ
âGrandma wants to talkâ¦â
I hang up the phone before he can finish that sentence, I know itâs wrong but I just donât want to Rowan stares at me, one of his eyebrow raised A look I canât explain passes across his face. Iâve asked him to leave so many times but he wonât budge. I even asked the nurse to throw him out and he threatened to have the entire hospital shut down.
My unwanted guest is here every day now. Being around him this much is suffocating me especially after that day when I woke up to find Emma and Travis in my room. Travis left the room a couple minutes later to get something to eat. The moment he did Emma was on me like a ravenous vulture.
Three days ago
âYour little trick wonât work Avaâ Emma sneers the moment Travis leaves the room.
âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
I was in no mood to deal with whatever was going on with her. She seemed hell bent on something and I wasnât well enough for whatever shit she wanted to stir up.
âThis little accident of yours, Iâm sure you planned it to get Rowanâs attention, but Iâm telling you, I wonât allow you to get close to himâ
I laugh The vibration shooting pain to my injured ribs.
âLet me get this straight? You believe I planned for my car to be blown up so that I could end up in hospital in order to get Rowanâs attention?â
Man was she delusional. And everyone thought that I wasnât the brightest in the family, they
should hear their perfect Emma and the bullshit she was spilling.
âOf courseâ¦I mean why would anyone want to kill you? What would they gain? Rowan doesnât love you so he wouldnât care one bit if you lived or died and we also donât care much about you. Youâre insignificant so you death would mean nothing to usâ she looks at me with scorn.
I have never wanted to hit anyone like I wanted to hit her right now.
âSo you came here to insult me is that it, Emma? Beat the dog while itâs still down, thatâs you plan?â
Why the hell was she even here? Who let her in, I wanted her gone. I didnât want her near me, who knows what sheâll do once Iâm a sleep.
âIâm not doing anything, just saying things like they are. I hope that gang doesnât kill you first, I mean, I want you to watch as I take everything away from you just like you did me, including your son. He will soon be calling me momâ
How the hell were we even related? I know what I did to her was wrong but damn havenât I been
âYouâre a nasty bitch Emma, but know one thing, Noah will never see you as his mother. donât you remember how he ignored you at the airport. Youâre nothing to him and you will be nothing even
if you and Rowan marriedâ
Her face scrunches up. Anger takingâover the triumphant look she had seconds ago.
âThatâs fineâ¦at least itâs my name Rowan is screaming at night, I will make sure he pumps me so full of his cum that I get pregnant and when I do he will soon forget about you and that brat. I will make sure the only children he acknowledges are mine, after all we both know he has never loved you, every time he was touching you he was probably imagining me, how many times has he called my name while you two were in bed?â 1
I ignore the rest of what she says even though it hurts. My main concern being Noah. I see red when he calls Noah a brat. Taking the flower vase near me, I lunge it at her head. With a scream she ducks and the vase hits the wall just as Travis enters the room.
âAre you crazy?!â Emma screams.
âBoth of you, get out of my room now!â I scream back.
Then nurse enters looking at us hysterically.
âAva, whatâs wrong?â Travis asks gently but I donât want his gentleness.
I canât help remember all those times he treated me like trash. All those times made me feel like scum instead of his sister. All those times he rubbed his love for Emma in my face while treating me like I was nothing.
âWhy donât you ask you F***ing sisterâ I glare at him and Emma before turning to the nurse.
Please make them leave, I donât want them hereâ
My head was pounding and my heart monitor was speeding up.
The nurse turns to face them. âIâm going to ask you to leave, your presence is clearly affecting her and she shouldnât be under any stress.â
âSheâs my sister, you canât kick me out of her room!â Travis growls,
â I scoff at that. Since when has he ever considered me his sister?
âIâll call the security if you donât leaveâ the nurse says between clenched teeth. All traces of being nice completely gone. 1
âAva, pleaseâ he begs, but I donât have it in me.
They have taken everything I gave them and kept throwing it back at my face. I had nothing else to give I was empty where my love for them once stood.
âJust leave Travis, and make sure you and your sister stay away from meâ
With that I turn to my side, close my eyes and block them out. It takes a lot of back and forth between the nurse and Travis but they soon leave and Iâm left in peace. That is until Ethan comes and makes me laugh for the first time since everything happened.
âWhat did you say? Rowan voice pulls me back to the present.
âI asked if youâre ready to leaveâ he repeats
I stare at him for a while wondering if Emma was right Would Rowan really abandon Noah? I wanted to believe that he wouldnât but Iâm not sure. Emma was and is important to Rowan Really important I just donât know if her importance weighed more than Noahâs
âWhat are you doing here, Rowan?â I ask instead of the question I really wanted to ask
âWhat do you mean? he frowns
âWe both know that Iâm your least favorite person, so what are you doing here? Shouldnât you be with Emma at home enjoying your reunion?â I ask bitterly, Emmaâs word still playing in my head
He sighs âYouâre looking for a fight and Iâm not going to give it to you. letâs just get you discharged and get you homeâ
âI donât need help from a man who hates my F***ing guts! Just leave, Rowan, we both know you would rather be somewhere elseâ
âReally? You donât need my help? Who are you going to call to help you check out? You literary have no F***ing friends, Avaâ
âEthan Ethan can take me homeâ Itâs true I had no friends, but Ethan would come it I asked him for help
Rowan face shuts down and becomes hard as granite. His hands fists and his jaw locks.
âOver my dead F***ing b*dyâ he growls âYou have two choices. Ava, itâs either I take you home of you spend a few more days here at the hospital Either way, that bastard isnât taking you homeâ
Cerignisly, Howan, what is wrong with you? You couldnât wait to get rid of me and now youâre stuck to me like a bad rash the last thing I want is problems with Emina because of you I just want to live peacefullyâ
He needed to leave me the hell alone I donât want to be accused of trying to use my unfortunate Circumstances to seduce him
âSpeaking of which, what happened between you and Emma on the day of your attack and when
âIâm sure she has already filled you inâ with lies, I add to myself.
âI would like to hear you side of the eventsâ
I get out of the bed slowly and walk towards the bathroom. âThereâs no need, we both know you wouldnât believe me. Like always you will take her sideâ
âAvaâ¦â I shut the door before he can finish.
I slowly dress up. Iâm out of breath by the time I am done and so tired I can barely see straight.
Getting out, I use the wall for support. Rowan tries to help but I shake off his hand. I walk towards the wheel chair the nurse left and sit down on it. The doctor had been by to leave instructions so all that was left was to check out.
I pick my duffel bag and place it on my lap.
âCan we get going, that way we donât have to be around each other longer than necessary.â I tell him, already feeling sleepy.
He sighs but doesnât say anything. He wheels me out of the room and towards the reception.
Everything from there happens in a blur. I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open and finally they drop closed.
When I wake up, itâs to find myself in Rowanâs arms being carried up a familiar staircase.
âWhat are you doing?â I ask groggily.
âTaking you to bed, you fell asleep before we could get to my carâ
The warmth or his b*dy, and the deep baritone of his voice makes me snuggle closer. He chuckles when but I donât care. He smelled great and he was so warm. My eyes close and Iâm soon lost.
Feeling like Iâm floating.
I feel him placing me down on something warm. Then he joins me. Turning, I place my head on his chest while his arms curl gently around my waist as he brings me closer.
As I completely give in to sleep, I canât help but think about how beautiful and right this felt. In this dream, Rowan doesnât push me away. In this dream, Iâm in his arms like Iâve always wanted to be